A/N: I own nothing

EPOV

Chapter 4

Bella, Bella, Bella, it was like my mind was on overdrive and the only thing that it could process was the beautiful woman I met early this morning while working out. How is it possible that one womant that I barely know is able to just take over my mind. I want to know everything about her, I want to know her what makes her tick. Why can't she sleep at night, where was she from, all the things that before I would have cared less about.

I can't shut it off, her beautiful face flashes before my eyes at every opprotunity possible. Edward Cullen dosen't get this way over a woman, never, but there was just something about her that pulled me toward her. From the moment I stepped foot into that gym it felt like I was being pulled in her direction. I saw her running, lost in her world of thought and music and I couldn't help but be drawn to her.

After she finished her run I felt her eyes on me the way mine had been on her, I should have known that looking wasn't a good idea. Because when I did I was lost in a pool of chocolate brown eyes that made her even more beautiful that I had imagined, seeing her blush made me want to see it more. All to soon she turned and made her way over to the heavy bag, shaking her head she begins to tape up her left hand. Out of the corner of my eye I saw her Ipod, taking the opprotunity provided I made my way over to return it.

After a brief conversation and helping her finish her workout she left, I was left wanting more. Knowing who I am and what I do, I know that bringing Bella into this life is not the thing to do. If I was to persue her in any way her life would be at stake, just by her association to me. I have seen enough bloodshed to know that my life is no place for women. My father was lucky to have my mom but she was never allowed to leave without a bodyguard or a family member. Enemies always go for the weak spots and loved ones are the ones that can get caught in the crossfire.

No, as much as I want to know about Bella and see if those lips taste a good as they look I can't risk her life for my selfishness, but Damit I am one selfish person.

I try to shake the thoughts running through my head as I make my way into my parents house, I have the meeting with my father about Ciaus. I am greeted by a warm hug and kiss on the cheek form my mom. "Oh there's my boy, Edward I hardly get to see you anymore. You look like you haven't slept in days. Are you feeling alright?"

" Ma I am fine, and I am here probably more than I am at my own place. How about after I meet with dad I come in and have a quick bite with you before I head back home."

"Alright, I will make you one of your favorite sandwiches and we can sit and talk. Your father is waiting for you in his study."

Making my way to my father's study I go over everything that I remember James said last night, I know that my father will not be to pleased to hear that Ciaus is trying to make such a big play in taking out the Cullen family.

"Ah Edward, right on time. I just got off the phone with Jasper and Em and it seems like we may have to take out Ciaus ourselves. Stealing my shipments is one thing but threatening my family is something that I just can't tolerate. Jasper and Em just delivered my message to Ciaus a few moments ago. He will learn that Carlisle Cullen isn't a man to try and decieve, or he will end up on the recieving end of my temper."

"I know father, hopefully our message is recieved loud and clear. Just as a percaution I have already increased security around ma, and Alice. Next we have got to start going through everyone because James said that there was another working for Ciaus in our rankes." I said as I ran my hand through my hair.

"Yes I was made aware of that as well, I suggest that we start looking at everyone from the ground up. I don't want anyone getting wind of this so only you, Jasper, Em and myself will know about this until we find out who it is."

Soon talk drifted into who to watch and what we were going to do if Ciaus didn't listen to our warning. After a few hours I left my father to finish returning some calls, I found my mother in the kitchen finishing my sandwich.

"Thanks Ma, I was starting to get hungry." I said as I took the sandwich to my seat at the kitchen bar.

"Thats what I do darling, so tell me why you aren't sleeping you look like you could pack for a month long vacation with those bags under your eyes."

"You know sometimes its hard to just shut off everything, I usually go for a run in the gym to clear my head but today that didn't really work out." As soon as I said that I knew I would have to explain.

"Why not was the gym not open?"

"No nothing like that, I just got distracted is all and before I knew it it was time to head out for the day."

"And what got you distracted? I wouldn't have been a young lady now would it?" My mother said as she smiled at me from over her tea. Dam that woman and always being able to get me to say things I didn't want to talk anout.

"Ugh, yes she just moved in to Penthouse 2, and I guess she has trouble sleeping as well so she was down at the gym as well. Anyway she had walked off and left her Ipod so when I returned it to her we kind of got pulled into a small conversation. Before I knew it she was leaving and it was time for me to get ready for the day. So my run didn't work out like I had hoped."

"Mhmm, small conversation. What is her name? What is she like? Come on I want to hear all about the young woman that has gotten you all out of sorts." My mother said as she laughed.

"Laugh it up mother, it was nothing. Her name is Bella, evidentally she just moved to Chicago. Other than that I don't know much else about her." I said shrugging my shoulders.

"Oh come on Edward, you know more than that. What does she look like, tell me I can see it in your eyes that you have been thinking about this Bella."

"Alright fine ma, she has the most beautiful brown eyes that I have ever seen. I could get lost in them literally she has long auburn hair. I know that she likes to blast her music when she is working out but as far as anything else goes that is all I know."

"Well I am sure you will find out everything about your mystery Bella soon. I can see by the look in your eyes that you want to know more. Am I right?"

" I do, but I know that I shouldn't my life is to dangerous for a woman. If I was to get to close to her people could use her to get to me. This life can and will get people killed. You know what I am talking about, father has an armed bodyguard with you at all times. Would you choose this life if you could do it again?"

"In a second. I go where your father goes, Mafia, doctor, or even a bum on the street corner, he is my life and I wouldn't be me without him. Yes this life is dangerous but I know that you father would give his life to protect me in a second. The killing and the threats aren't an everyday occurance, its the in between that makes everything else worth keeping."

"I don't know ma, I am getting way ahead of myself I just met her I doubt that she would even want to go out with me anyway."

"You give yourself way to little credit, you will never know unless you put yourself out there. Worry about the what ifs later just think about the right now."

On my way home I thought about all that my mother had said, could I really put everything aside and see if that beautiful creature would even contemplate having dinner with me. I could try to make it through one dinner before I worry about all the what ifs. Because there was a good chance that Bella would say she had better things to do than spend time with someone like me.

Please let her say yes to dinner...

A/N well will Bella say yes or should she leave him hanging. Updates will be soon