A/N: Now I know I said I had this finished before my last chapter, but I just haven't had time to upload this until now. As usual disclaimer, and look out for some "sexual references", naughty words and Peter. (Anyone like to explain why I wrote that down thinking of the Terminator's voice?) And yes Wormtail deserves a whole warning to himself, the slick git.

Chapter 4 - Why so cold love? (Remus POV)

Why are you so distant with me love? What have I done wrong?

I know something is wrong, no matter how much you deny it. I can tell when you lie, I know you better than perhaps you know yourself.

I know the war is stressful and that it worries you to think of James, Lily and Harry having to be in hiding, but even then it seems you're spending more time with James and Peter than me.

James has changed – of course he has! He has had to go into hiding to protect his wife and son. But that doesn't mean he doesn't treat me differently. His smiles seem tight around the edges and the smile never seems to meet his eyes anymore. He doesn't even call me Moony anymore. But he acts the same as ever towards you.

Lily, I think, is just trying to cope with it all. She is as warm as ever towards me, always making me feel welcomed. Does she know why you and James are so different towards me?

And Harry. Beautiful young Harry is as innocent as he ever has been. Well as innocent as a child of a Marauder can be. He's happy and healthy and safe. That is all I want for him now.

Peter is giving me these little smiles. A sly smirk that I catch out of the corner of my eye, like he knows something that I don't. It worries me.

And you. Sirius, why are you so cold with me now? We don't even make love anymore. We fuck, yes, but it seems like you don't love me anymore. You're never there after the full moon. You're never there when I'm just waking up. You had always purred soft endearments as me as I slowly woke in the morning, so that the first sound I would hear was the voice of my lover, my husband. It had always made me wake with a smile, wrapped in warm, strong arms, to be greeted with a gentle kiss.

But no more.

Were you ever happy with me, or did you just marry there because I was there and willing?

I love you, but it seems you hate me. Your own fucking husband, Padfoot!

Is it because of my mission? That I didn't tell you what I was doing?

Fine. Dumbledore sent me to spy on the werewolves. And not just any werewolf is in charge.

Greyback.

You know how that monster still haunts my dreams. You've helped me through so many of the nightmares of him that I've suffered in the near 16 years since he bit me.

Can you understand why I didn't tell you now? I knew that you would worry for me.

And even now, when Dumbledore looks at me, I don't see that customary twinkle in his eyes. Is he regretting sending me now? I know that a werewolf's mind cannot be read by Legilimens, but this is ridiculous! Does he think I've turned?

Gods, do you think so too?

Is this why you're all distant?

Pads, if this is true we need to talk.

A/N: Oh noooo Remus has just figured it out! Yes I know this chapter is short and I apologise. Less words more feeling? Anyways I dunno when the next chappie will be up, (I actually have to figure out what I'm going to put in it – oops.) but to those of you that are waiting on my other story, Waiting For My Baby, gimme a couple of days for me to finish that next chapter yeah? :) Also, yes or no to a companion story in Lily and James' pov?