Note of the Author: Well hey there again. Hope you liked the last few chapters. Always feel free to leave review because I'd like to know what you think about my story. I really hope you enjoy this chapter.

The next thing Dean saw was the old library in Bobby's house.

"Is this-", Castiel cut off Deans word.

"It's your heaven. But we don't have time for this, just lay down on the sofa and close your eyes.", Castiel commanded.

"No please! If I close my eyes... I ... I see ...", Dean broke up in the middle of the sentece .

Everytime he closed his eyes it felt almost like he was back in hell.

Castiel sighed. "Dean I have to heal you. You have to do this. Things will get worse if I don't make it till the month is over."

Dean bit his lip.

"I don't trust you.", Dean said.

"For once you have to. Now stop wasting time, you have no idea how fast this month will be over."

Dean looked at Castiel. He was scared and didn't know what to do. Should he trust Castiel? He dragged him from hell so he could trust him at least a little bit...

"Fine ...", said Dean finally and laid down on the sofa.

Castiel stood infront of him.

"Wait! Before you do whatever you do, what is all of this supposed to mean?", Dean asked and looked up to Castiel.

"We've only got one month to get your soul healthy enough to give it back into your body. You'll have to sleep a lot, go deep into the memories. I'll be watching over you, nothing will happen to you. I have to delete the memories, I probaply wont get all of them but I'll start with the worst memories because they're harder to delete.", Castiel explained.

"Why do you do all of this Castiel?"

Castiel took a deep breath.

"Don't think I'd do this for you. You're worthless to me. I do this for my family my brothers and sisters. If I can't heal you, hell will rise and a lot of them are gonna die. And not only my family will die, humanity is going to fall. So do what I say and let me heal you!", said Castiel nearly yelling.

Those words hit Dean but he was used to it. It wasn't the first time someone told him that he was worthless. The only persons who ever really cared about him were Sam and Bobby so why would an angel suddenly care about him?

Dean sighed and closed his eyes and preparedfor everything that would come, but the last thing he felt before he sunk into deep sleep where Castiels fingers that slightly touched his forehead.

When Dean woke up several hours later, Castiel was gone. Dean sat up and looked around. Everything looked just like in Bobby's house, but Dean knew it wasn't.

Dean got up and walked into the kitchen. When he opened the fridge he saw that it was filled up with pie, beer and burger.

"Guess that really IS my heaven.", he said to himself and took out a beer.

Meanwhile Castiel had gathered some informations about Dean. He wanted to know who he had saved. Soon he knew everything. About his mother, Sam, the demon blood, his father and the deal he made to safe his brother. Now that he knew what Dean had been through, he felt really bad about what he said to Dean.

Dean was Standing in the kitchen when Castiel appeared.

"Hello Dean."

"Hello", Dean said quietly.

"Dean, I wanted to apologize for what I said earlier..."

"Just drop it Cas.", Dean muttered and took a mouthfull of beer.

Castiel was a bit confused. He tilt his head a Little.

"What does 'Cas' mean?"

Dean couldn't do anything but laughing.

"What's so funny Dean?"

"Nothing. Cas is a nickname. Never had one?"

"What's a nickname?"

"Okay Looks like you never had one. A nickname is a short form of your Name, if your Name is as Long and dificult as yours. Is it okay when I call you Cas?", Dean explained.

Castiel simply nodded.

"Theres something else I wanted to say... thank you.", Dean said quietly.

"Dean, I..."

"Cas I know you're not doing for me, and that's fine I'm totally okay with it. I'm just glad that you're even helping me."

Castiel nodded. He didn't know how to Reply to that. So he was really releaved as Dean asked how he could help him with the healing.

"You'll have to sleep, like I've already told you. I'll delete as many memories as I can. The ones I can't delete in time I'll hold up with a wall."

Dean nodded.

"Then let's go get some sleep.", Dean said but he didn't Sound that happy about it. He laid down on the Couch and closed his eyes for a Moment it felt better then the last time but he still got this Feeling that something wasn't okay.

"Don't be scared. I'll watch over you, just trust me."

"You know that I can't.", Dean said as he opened his eyes again.

"I know that you've got trust issues but don't doubt me. You'll be safe with me."

Dean looked over to Cas and nodded. He closed his eyes again and took a deep breath. But before the nightmares could catch up to Dean he was already asleep. Castiel took away the memories that were comming up with an enochian spell. Dean was completly calm, now that he had no nightmares anymore. Castiel guarded Dean while he was sleeping. Everytime Dean seemed to remember something he calmed him down. He never left Deans side so the first Thing he saw when he awoke was Cas sitting next to him.

"Cas? You're still here? How Long did I sleep?", Dean asked and ran his fingers through his hair.

Castiel shrugged.

"I don't know I think it must be 24 hours now..."

"Why didn't you wake me up?", Dean sighed.

"I told you that you'd have to sleep a lot.", Castiel explained and stood up.

Deans first Reflex was to get up and walk over to Castiel but he stopped himself.

"Cas?", he said instead of getting up.

The angel turned around immediatly.

"Yes Dean?"

"Could you... Could you watch over Sammy? For a while?"

Dean missed his brother and wanted to know if he's alright. Cas could hear that.

"Dean...", Castiel sighed. There was no time for fooling around on earth and Castiel knew, that Dean knew that.

"Please Cas..."

Castiel bit his lip.

"Fine I'll go. You'd have to eat something wether I stay or not. I'll be back soon."

Before Dean could thank Cas, he was already gone. The second Cas disapeared Dean stood up and walked into the kitchen. He ate a Piece of pie and changed his clothes a bit later.

When Cas was gone about nearly a hour, Dean started to feel strange. It was almost like he was worried or like he ... missed him.

"Cut it off man! You're not missing this idiot with wings. Maybe you're just Feeling lonely", he told himself as he took another beer out of the fridge.

As he turned around he nearly bumped into Cas who had appeared all of a sudden. They stood so Close that their noses nearly touched.

"Uhm Cas... could you... I mean would you mind my ... personal space?"

Dean was a bit uncomfortable with Cas Standing just Inches away from him.

"Personal space?", Castiel really had no idea what was wrong this time but he did realize that Dean was a Little strange about something.

Dean sighed.

"God, that I really have to explain this. Some People Need their own... uhm space you know? Uhm humans don't stand that Close next to eachother."

"Oh ... right. My apologies.", Castiel said as he took a step back.

Dean chuckled.

"Did I do anything else?"

"No it's just... who says 'my apologies'?"

Now Cas was the one who chuckled. Dean smiled at him and he even smiled back. For a Minute or two they just stood there, looking at eachother, both with a huge smile on their faces. After another while of silence Dean slightly cleared his throat.

"So how's Sammy doin'?", he asked and took a mouthful of beer.

Castiel got a bit nervous because he knew what Sam was doing with Ruby, he even followed him to be completly sure. He knew that Dean wouldn't want to hear it so he decided to lie.

"He's fine.", he said quickly.

Dean didn't notice that he was lying but he got a bit curious.

"Where were you that Long?" I already worried, Dean added in his thoughts.

"I just wanted to be completly sure that Sam is alright."

Lies, lies, lies. Castiel felt a bit bad for lying to Dean. It made him worry, angels usually don't lie.

"Thank you Cas, that's really important for me and I never thought you would do this."

Dean smiled gratefully and walked back into the living room to sit down on the Sofa.

"Back to work then?", Dean asked Cas who was still Standing in the kitchen door.

Dean was nearly as twice as relaxed as last time, now that he knew that he was safe with Cas. He still didn't really trust him, but Cas was nice and he started to like him.

Castiel nodded and walked over to Dean, who had already laid down. Dean closed his eyes while Cas sat down next to him. Dean didn't even notice Cas' fingertips that touched his forehead.