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"Uh, Blair can I talk to you?" Serena asked feeling guilty for ruining Blair's moment. Though Blair did not want to move an inch, she hopped off of Chuck and followed Serena.
"So?" Blair asked when they reached the spot in front of the dementor.
"He likes me," Serena said lamely.
"Well duh," Blair rolled her eyes "but are you going out?"
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I want to go out with him tonight, but that would leave you alone with Chuck. If you don't want me to go, please tell me."
"Just because I can't get Chuck to go out with me, doesn't mean I don't want anyone around me to date. So we need to get back to the hotel to find you the perfect outfit." Blair said smiling.
"Oh thank you, B! But what will you do tonight?" Serena's eyebrows furrowed.
"I'll just hang out in the hotel, order room service, watch a movie and maybe check out that hot tub on the balcony." Blair said more for her own benefit than Serena's.
After three long hours at the museum, they finally got in their car and headed back to the hotel.
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When they got back to the hotel, Blair and Serena literally walked in grabbed their credit cards and left to shop on Michigan Avenue. Nate and Chuck stayed back at the hotel suite's fitness room to work out a little bit.
"So you and Serena, huh? Finally got your dream girl I see." Chuck said to Nate.
"I hope so. I really care about her, and she feels the same about me. We should be together." Nate said simply starting up the treadmill.
A dark look crossed Chuck's face. Chuck knew that Blair truly loved him and that he loved her back, but he was scared about being with her. Afraid he would hurt her. He loved it best when she would relax around him, like at the Harry Potter exhibit. But it was always for short moments. Chuck wanted Blair to be like that around him all of the time. No gossip, no lies, no drama between them. Chuck was thinking about this when Blair and Serena walked past him holding multiple shopping bags, when he called the car for Nate's date, and as he watched Nate and Serena leave the hotel room.
"So…" Blair said, glancing at him.
"I don't know about you but I'm hungry. I'm going to get some food, do you want some?"
Blair didn't hide her disappointment at Chuck's words very well. He could see some of the shine leave her eyes and her shoulders slump a little bit.
"Yeah, thanks," she said before returning to her room.
Blair let out a frustrated sigh as she searched for her swimsuit in her room. Chuck was running from her again, he couldn't even spend a couple of hours with her in a hotel room. She unconsciously had allowed herself to hope back at the museum, but of course that small hope was shot down only hours later. When she found her swimsuit she slipped it on and headed out to the hot tub on the terrace. She didn't bother putting on a cover up and poured herself a glass of champagne and headed outside. She sank down into the warm water of the hot tub allowing it to relax her as she sipped her champagne. She admired the great view of the city, watching the sun set.
She learned back and wondered how Serena's date was going. Nate and Serena's relationship wasn't that complicated. She had no doubt they would get together by the end of the trip, and they would probably last. She was happy for Serena and wished that she would forget about Chuck and find somebody else to love. It was hard to do with him always around. She decided that after the trip she would never see him unless she had to. Just them she heard Chuck looking for her inside the suite.
"Out here," she shouted and she heard the click of the door opening.
"The food is here," Chuck said, eyeing the bubbles that blocked his view of her body.
"Oh good. I didn't even realize how hungry I was." Blair said picking up her glass and climbing out of the hot tub.
Chuck gulped trying not to stare at her wet body where all she wore was a black bikini, which he assumed she had just bought that day.
"I'm going to take a quick shower so you can eat without me. Just leave enough for me." Blair said walking past him.
As soon as Chuck could no longer see her retreating backside, he poured himself a glass of scotch. As he swallowed the liquid he thought more about himself and Blair. He knew that he was on the verge of losing her, and he knew that he couldn't lose her. He couldn't bear to see her with another man, even if that guy was better for her than she was. He was trying to think of what he should do as he set up the dining room table and Blair approached wearing a nightgown.
"What did you get anyway?" she asked him, eyebrows raised.
"Gino's East pizza. Chicago style pizza." Chuck responded.
"So what have you been up to?" Blair asked, "Oh never mind," she said when she saw the open bottle of scotch.
"I'll get the food," he said lamely.
They sat down to a quiet dinner, neither of them knowing what to say to each other. Neither looked up, they just focused on their food. As soon as Blair finished she got up silently, cleaned up and left the room. He heard the familiar music from Breakfast at Tiffany's being played, and decided to go check on Blair. He cleaned up the dining room and kitchen to the best of his abilities and went into the entertainment room. He found Blair sitting in the middle of the couch; her legs crossed and chin resting on the palm of her hand, engrossed in the movie.
"May I join you?" he asked, suddenly nervous.
"Yeah, just don't talk during the movie," she said, not even bother to look up.
Chuck sat in the armchair that was next to the couch Blair was on.
"I'm not going to bite," Blair said.
Chuck moved to the spot on the couch on the right of Blair and saw her smile a little bit. He hoped it was because he was next to her, and not because of the movie. They sat in silence, but this time it was a natural silence, not an uncomfortable silence like at dinner.
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Blair was on top of Chuck on the couch, straddling him as she kissed him and ran her fingers through his hair. He grabbed her hips and began to slowly life up her nightgown to reveal more of her legs. Chuck flipped them over so he was on top, careful not to fall off the couch. He kissed down her neck as she moaned beneath him, his pants getting tighter by the second. Blair's small hands were frantically unbuttoning his shirt. Chuck was in heaven; he had missed this part of being with Blair. He felt so lucky at hat moment.
And that was when Chuck woke up; the only thing left over form his dream was his…arousal. He noticed that the movie must have started over, Blair's doing. He reached for a pillow and casually laid it over his crotch to hide his current predicament when he noticed that Blair was asleep next to him. He couldn't resist it and slowly touched her face with the back of his hand. He closed his eyes and pretended to be asleep when he saw Blair stir, but opened his eyes when he felt Blair's head on his chest. Her hand clutching his shirt tightly as if her sleeping form was afraid he would disappear.
He knew this was his fault. He had always abandoned her, even right after both times she told him that she loved him. It was no wonder she was afraid he would leave. Chuck immediately felt a pang of guilt, Blair didn't really have anyone there for her all the time, and he knew that he had to change that. He closed his eyes knowing that by the end of the week he would work up the courage to fix things with Blair.
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Chuck awoke again later and found Blair still asleep, her head remained on his chest, and the only change was she held onto his shirt tighter. She began to stir as if in the middle of a nightmare, the pain evident on her face. Chuck shook her softly to wake her up from her nightmare, and she woke up and looked at him.
"What happened?" she asked.
"You were having a nightmare so I woke you up." Chuck said.
"Oh, thanks." she said softly.
Blair looked down at the position they were in, her hand on his shirt, her face inches from his chest.
"I'm ruining your shirt," she said, loosening her grip on him and removing her hand.
Chuck grabbed her hand and put it back where it was, curling her fingers around the wrinkled spot on his shirt.
"I don't mind."
Author's Note: I finally updated! What do you think? And I need suggestions for my next chapter. Do you want it to be about Serena and Nate's date or more Chuck and Blair and then just have Serena tell Blair about her date. Please review I need opinions to continue!