Chapter 4

Well hello my lovelies =) So I gotta say, loving all the reviews and people who are adding my story to their fav/alerts. It's TOTALLY AWESOME and I love you guys for it. I smile every time I get an alert saying as much =) So this chapter is for all the Rose x Dimitri fans, trust me I'm with ya on that. lol. For all the Adrian x Rose fans, don't worry, he's due to make an appearance soon =) And as always, Richelle Mead owns everything but my story line, and yes that unfortunately includes Dimitri :'-(

His hand smoothed over my hip, his finger tips feeling like feathers. I stared back into his eyes. They were the perfect color of blue. There was nothing more perfect or more right with the world than the feel of his mouth on mine. The way he applied just enough pressure to set every nerve ending in my body on fire, yet it was gentle enough not to hurt. I loved him so much. Christian, my Christian. He kissed me, and I lost it. The kiss became fierce, and he slid his hand into-what the...?
Christian? Why would I be dreaming this about Christian.
Uh-oh...
Not again! I so did not need this right now! I had to get out of there, NOW!
His lips met mine again, and he started to make a trail down to my-
Okay Rose, it's nothing you haven't been through before, I told myself, you can get past this. You're not her. You don't love Christian. C'mon, you can do it, just break free.
He made his way back up my neck, kissing me exactly how I liked-
I HAD TO GET OUT OF THERE!

I opened my eyes. Finally! I thought she had that under control. That hadn't happened in months and now all of a sudden I got to experience the Lissa and Christian love fest. Ugh, gross! That was not something I ever wanted to experience for myself...EVER! The room was mostly dark except for a tiny light on Dimitri's side of the bed. That's when I noticed something. Dimitri's arm was still around my waist, and when I had drifted of to sleep, all the lights had been off. I turned my head toward Dimitri and looked right into his eyes.

"See something you like, comrade?"

He smiled a little, "Yes, I do as a matter of fact." He brushed a stray hair out of my face, "Did you sleep good? Toward the end there you had a horrified look on your face. Bad dreams?"

"Something like that. You'd have a horrified look on your face too if you just got sucked into Lissa's head during...never mind."

"Ah, I see. It all makes sense now."

I gave him a questioning look, "What does, the look or something else?"

He grinned at me, "Something else. You were making some very, how should I put it, interesting noises before that look came on your face."

I shot up into a sitting position, "What!" I saw him trying to contain his laughter, "That's not funny Dimitri. I did not make any type of noise and you know it."

He was barely containing his laughter at that point, "I know, but it was so funny to see your reaction."

I looked down at him. This was so strange. Mere days ago he wanted nothing to do with me, now he had his arm around my waist joking with me? I removed his arm from around my waist, got up, and sat in the only chair in the room facing him. He pushed himself up into a sitting position, swinging his legs over the side of the bed.

"So what gives, comrade?"

He looked confused, "What do you mean?"

I got aggravated, the episode with Lissa and Christian not helping, "Don't play dumb with me; I knowyou know what I'm talking about. Is this just another round of Rose and Dimitri? You know, first you were interested, albeit secretly, but that didn't last long because of the lust charm. Then you weren't because I was your 'student', and when I graduated we were to be Lissa's guardians. Then you didn't care and you slept with me, and we made all these plans that would somehow miraculously work out. Then you got turned strigoi,and it nearly killedme. I left Lissa defenseless to go chase you half way around the world to fulfill the promise we both made to each other, and I came so close. Then you got turned back into a dhampir, worshipped the ground that Lissa walked on and you wanted nothing to do with me. Then you tried to keep me from getting arrested by some twenty-plus guardians, which I must say was pretty bad ass, and you had this look in your eyes that said you'd do anything to keep me safe. And then you only came to see me because of Lissa, because of some stupid devotion you have toward her, even though she wouldn't have even been able to save you if it hadn't been for me. But then you do a three-sixty, and you help me escape and you hold me while you're asleep, like I'm you're only reason for existing. Ugh! Is this some sort of amusement park ride, because seriously if it is I want off."

I saw something flash in his eyes, and I knew he was fighting to keep in control, "Who says I only came to see you because Lissa asked? Did you ever stop to think that maybe I came of my own free will? You know Lissa better than I do, and you know she wouldn't send me to do something for her if she knew I wouldn't actually want to do it."

"You wanted to do it! Yeah right, I said that Lissa had sent you, and you never denied it!"

He let out an irritated sigh, "You never gave me the chance to."

"You asked me how I know you didn't want to. Well I'll tell you Dimitri, " My voice rising at this point, "I know because you don't do something like risk your freedom if you don't love someone without a damn good reason, and I figure your undying devotion to Lissa would be a pretty damn good one to me. And you don't love me, remember, love fades." I said the last two words like they were the dirtiest words I could say.

His control snapped as I finished speaking, "I don't love you! Do you actually think I would do something like taking on all those guardians for some stupid thrill? Or that I would allow myself to be implicated in your escape if I didn't love you. Lissa doesn't even know you're gone and probably won't until tomorrow, and what, I just felt like doing something, since I have nothing better to do? Sometimes I don't even know why I try to prove anything to you! Sometimes you act like such a child!"

"Child! I'm not a child! I've given up my life, my freedom for my friends and for people I don't even know because they come first. A child wouldn't do such things. Children are selfish, and care for no one but themselves, and I'm anything but that. All I do is care about others, regardless of how it makes me feel."

"Rose that's not what I meant and you know-"

"And besides, if I was so childish, then why did you even bother-"

Before I knew it we were kissing. It wasn't like the kiss I had been experiencing earlier when I had gotten sucked into Lissa's head. This was different. This kiss was born of all the anger we both had at our situation, at ourselves, at eachother. It was born of all the frustration we'd had to endure for not getting to be together because of our obligations, the time he was a strigoi, the weeks he'd kept me away after he was changed back into a dhampir. Separately they would have been powerful in their own right, but together, it was like nothing either of us had ever experienced.

And as suddenly as the kiss started off harsh and animalistic, it shifted. All the months of longing to be together, to touch, turned into one sweet caress between our lips. We stopped trying to take control and started to feel everything we'd shut out. He pulled me closer, as if he was trying to make us one. I couldn't help but remember the cabin, when we found ourselves in a similar situation. But this was different. It felt so much sweeter to me, knowing that even through everything life had thrown at us, we were able to make it here, to this moment, together. He pushed me down on the bed without breaking the kiss, rolling over pulling me on top of him. I pulled back to look at him, to stare into his eyes. In those brown depths, I saw everything I thought I'd lost. I saw the love he had for me shining brighter than I had ever seen it before. I saw the same intense expression in his eyes that I saw the day of my pre-trial; the look saying he'd go to the ends of the earth if need be to make sure I was safe.
I kissed him again trying to put all my love, my feelings for him into it. He broke away, leaving a hot trail of kisses down my neck, and slipped off my shirt. He made his way back up my neck to my lips when there was a knock at the door. Cursing silently, I grabbed my shirt, slipping it on and went to answer the door. I opened it to find Abe standing there.

He gave me a knowing look. "Sorry to interrupt, but we have to go. Now."

There was something in his eyes that gave me pause, "Why, what's wrong?" Dimitri came to stand behind me.

"I don't know how they got here so fast, but someone is following us. I'm not quite sure if they are actually from the court, but Czekov is sure that they are in fact after you. Get your stuff together and meet me by the side entrance in five minutes. We've switched cars, so Czekov will come get you once you get out there. Understood?"

Dimitri was all business once again, "Understood."

Abe gave us a knowing smile, "Alright, see you two in five."

After Abe disappeared, I shut the door grabbing a plastic bag to throw my old clothes into. I glanced around the room, making sure I hadn't left anything when I looked over at Dimitri, that intense look in his eyes. I walked over to him and placed a short, sweet kiss on his lips.

"Got everything?"

He grabbed my hand and headed toward the door, "I do now."

So I think that solved a few things...or did it? Muahahahaha, I guess you'll have to read future chapters to find out. LOL. If there's anything you'd like to see, like more Lissa & Christian, or something like that, just lemme know and I'll do my best to accommodate =) as always please R&R, it helps writer's block. Seriously, it does. It's no joke.