It had been three weeks since I had officially moved into Clare's house and it had been great, I got to have Clare fall asleep in my arms and wake up with her still there. The school councils drive safety day they had organised was a huge success with a lot of drivers taking the pledge not to text because it can wait, I was one of them and Clare was very proud of me. My nose, lip, eye and bruises on my rips were all healed which I was really grateful for. Jake and I had started an NBA tournament on the PlayStation, we were halfway to the grand finale and we couldn't wait to get to it. Darcy and I were like Brother and Sister now, it was awesome.

At school in science we had all presented out projects and were waiting for our grades to be given back, I was hoping we had all done well. When Drew had come back from suspension we avoid each other, barely even looking at each other or acknowledge the others presents. He wasn't hitting on Darcy, he was staying clear of her and other guys had asked Darcy out but they understood she just wanted to focus on her studies.

Mrs Martins and Glen had come with Clare and I to my doctor/therapist appoint, they filled them in on what was going on and my surgeries were all booked. I'd have my chest surgery done first day of Spring Break; which is three weeks away. I would be in hospital for the entire week of Spring Break, before spending the first two weeks off from school at home recovering. Then when summer break came I would get my other surgeries done, I couldn't wait for it by the end of the year I will be able to look in the mirror and finally see the person I've seen in my mind all long.

They had decided that taking T-shots was a good idea, which Glen and Mrs Martins were happy to pay for now. Walking towards my locker this morning, since Clare and I both needed stuff out of our lockers we decided to meet back up in science; where hopefully we'll get our grades. As I got closer to my locker I saw Drew standing there which confused me more than anything else, when I got even closer I saw he had this pale look on his face and I felt a little concern come through; I was human I did feel that for people.

Arriving there I say "Drew," he looks up and I see this almost scared look in his eyes.

He said "Adam."

I asked "What are you doing here?"

Drew replied with "I had to tell you something that you're not going to like."

I say "Okay," a little confused as to what's going on.

Drew said "Yesterday we're just about to sit down for dinner when the doorbell rang, I went to go get it and it was a man asking if our Mum was home. I shouted out for her to come to the door since it was for her, the minute Mum saw this man she started to cry and scream for my Dad to come kick this man out. While Dad was trying to he shouted that he would find Gracie and that she couldn't keep you away from him forever."

I asked "Who was the man Drew?"

Drew replied with "It was your Dad Adam," I looked at him to see if he was telling the truth.

I asked "Are you telling me the truth because if you're not this is just cruel even for you Drew."

Drew answered with "Yes it's the truth Adam, I wouldn't lie about that sort of thing," I saw in his eyes he was telling the truth and now I was truly scared.

I asked "Will he find me?"

Drew replied with "He was able to find out where your Mum lives after all these years, so."

I cut him off with "So yes, he'll find me," the thoughts of him finding me and what he would do to me start to go through my mind.

Drew then said "Your Mum didn't want you to know but I thought you needed to know."

Nodding I say "Thanks, we should umm…get to science, I don't want to be late," I turn away from him and start walking towards science. Walking into the room I felt like a lost puppy not really knowing what do to, what was the point of really doing anything when he was out there somewhere and could get me whenever he wanted. I felt hand place on my shoulder from behind which made me jump, I turn to see it's Drew hand and he has this concern look on his face.

I say "No, you don't get to suddenly be the big Brother Drew, if I want my big Brother I'll go to Jake before I ever come to you," I shoved his hand off and walked over to where Clare, Darcy, Alli, Jenna and Connor were all sitting; seeing and hearing everything that happened with Drew. Looking past them to see Dallas looking at me concerned just like Drew was and I thought to myself now that I'm in danger they suddenly care.

Sitting down next to Clare, I could feel her concern eyes on me and I shook my head at her; telling her not to ask anything and she nodded her head understanding. The next thought I had was enough to give any guy a heart attack, what if he came after Clare? Looking at Clare scared; I wrapped my arms around her and brought her closer to me. Clare sensing I need her close to me at this moment rested her head on my shoulder and pecks my neck with her lips.

Mr Blam walked into the classroom saying "Good Morning everyone, I know you have all been waiting for your grades and wait no more, I have them right here," he holds up all the colourful cupboard we had all use to put our information on.

He continued with "You may talk quietly while I hand them out," he started going around the room handing out the projects. Starting with the front tables, he slowly gets around to our table, he hands Jenna, Clare and Alli there's first before handing Connor, Darcy and I ours.

Clare asked "What did we get?"

Jenna replied with "B."

Alli smile and said "A 'B' is very good," I felt Clare nod her head.

I asked Darcy "What did we get?" She smiled at both Connor and I.

Darcy answered with "We got an A."

I say "No way."

Darcy replied with "Way," she turns it around and I see that we have actually gotten an A and if it wasn't for what Drew told me this morning I would be happy. Connor and Darcy high-fived each other and were very excited, Jenna and Alli did the same even though their grade was lower they were still happy about it.

Clare asked "Why aren't you happy?"

I replied with "I am, I've just got other things on my mind at the moment," feeling a pair of eyes on me, I looked around to find them and found that it was Drew's eyes.

Clare asked "Why is he looking at you really concerned?"

I answered with "Now's not the time Clare."

Clare said "But."

I replied with "I'll tell you but now is not the time."

Clare said "Okay," I gave her a small peck on her head before starting to go into deep thought about my Dad. I could see Mr Blam's lips moving but I wasn't really paying attention to what he was saying, I could feel my knee starting to tap which was a nervous habit as well as a sign I need a smoke to calm myself down. I felt Clare place a hand on my leg trying to calm it down but that didn't work, I start to feel my breath go weak and it was almost like I was struggling to breath. I saw everyone was now looking at me which wasn't helping my breathing whatsoever, I then felt someone move my body away from Clare and I saw Drew came level with my face. I tried to fight him off but he wasn't budging one bit, I could see his lips moving but I couldn't hear what he was saying and I could also see the concern in his eyes. I saw someone hand something to him before he turned back towards me and threw a glass of water at me, I could then hear Clare's voice asking if I was okay but I was focused on Drew.

He said "Adam, just breath. Follow my breathing Adam," I did as he instructed and I was soon able to breathe normally.

Drew said "That's it, in and out Adam just keep doing that," which is what I did. Drew was then given another glass of water this time though he handed it to me and told me to drink it.

Mr Blam asked "Is everything okay?"

Drew responded with "Yeah, he was just having a panic attack," I took a sip of my water.

Clare asked "How did you know what to do?"

Drew replied with "He had them all the time as kid, at home, at school and even at the shops. The only way to communicate with him is by throwing a glass of water into his face, he then is able to hear what everyone else is saying."

I then say "Can I be excused?"

Mr Blam replied with "Yeah of course," he brought me over a hall pass.

Drew asked "Are going to be okay?"

I replied with "Look thank-you for that but this doesn't mean anything, you are not my brother and you never will be," I placed the glass down and left the room to go and have a smoke.

Sitting in the cafeteria waiting for everyone else to show up, I was still on edge about my Dad being here in Canada and no smoke was helping me. After science I'd skipped every other class just to try and calm myself down but nothing was working, I wasn't surprised that I was the first one at the table for lunch. I saw Connor and Jenna enter the cafeteria but they went to go get food before coming over to the table.

"Gracie are you awake?" "Yeah daddy," he entered the room and got into bed with me. He place his hand across my stomach as he inhaled the scent from my neck area, he then forced me to roll over onto my stomach. He then slips my pyjamas bottoms down before rolling up onto me. I felt he was hard; he always was by now I had learnt to be quiet because if I made any noise he would go harder. I felt him place himself inside of me which made him groan, he then started to pull out and slamming in hard; it happened over and over again. It didn't take him long to squirt his sperm inside of me, it never took him long it was always quick but I didn't mind that. He pulled out of me; clean himself up before cleaning me up and pulling my pyjamas bottoms back up. He kissed me on my forehead and left the room, like he did every single night for as long as I can remember.

"Hey Adam," I was snapped out of my thoughts by Jenna and Connor placing their trays down on the table.

Jenna said "Sorry we didn't mean to scare you; we thought you saw us coming over."

I replied with "No, I was out of it sorry."

Connor said "It's okay, are you okay though?"

I say "Yeah I'm fine."

Jenna asked "Are you sure, you've kind of gone pale?"

I replied with "I said I'm fine okay."

Jenna said "Okay, where Clare?"

I replied with "I don't know, I haven't seen her since science."

Connor said "There she is, walking in with Darcy and Alli," he points and I look over my shoulder to see them walking over to us. Darcy takes a seat next to Connor, Clare sit down next to me and Alli sits next to Clare.

The others all start to talk; Clare turns to me and asked "What's wrong?" I don't think it's what she was going to say but she must've seen my pale face.

I replied with "It's nothing, don't worry about it," I really didn't want to ruin Clare's day and I didn't want to make her panic.

"Something is wrong, I can see it in your eyes."

"It's nothing for you to worry about."

"You are my boyfriend Adam, so I am going to worry."

"Clare just leave it alone, please," I asked her through my eyes, now wasn't the time and I wished she could understand that.

Darcy asked "Hey is everything okay?"

Clare replied with "Clearly it's not," great I thought as everyone at the table was now looked at me.

Sighing, I say "I'm going for a smoke," I stand up from the table and leave without looking back at anyone.

Clare's P.O.V

I watched as Adam left without looking back at us or even giving me a kiss on the forehead like he normally would, the thing that sucked most about this situation was he is in pain and I don't know why or how I'm supposed to help him.

Darcy asked "What was that about?"

I replied with "I have no idea," I sighed as I tried to work out what was wrong with Adam.

Alli asked "Was he acting weird before we came in?"

Connor replied with "Yeah but his been acting weird all day since he wasn't in any of the classes we share."

Jenna then said "We scared him when we put our tray's down onto the table, he had this really off in the distance look on his face and was very pale after we scared him. Whatever he was thinking about or watching in his mind scared him."

Darcy said "That doesn't sound like Adam at all, skipping classes, snapping at you and being scared." I went over all the information in my head, Adam had a panic attack, skipped a his classes, was scared of something in his mind, smelt like smoke but not just a two smoke smell and he snapped at me for trying to get him to talk. There was only one thing that came to mind with all of this information but I didn't think it could be but it would explain the way Adam's been acting.

I got my conclusion when I looked over at Drew who had a scared look on his face, Dallas who was sitting next to him had the same scared look, Drew look at me and slowly nodded his head and that gave me my answers. Turning back to face my table I had the same scared look on my face, I was also worried about Adam and it's a no wonder he skipped his classes and had a panic attack as well; I was surprised he was still in school to be honest.

Darcy asked "What is it Clare? What's wrong?"

I replied with "I need to go find Adam," I nodded my head trying to reassure myself before I had to reassure Adam. Standing up from the table, I left without looking back because I had no time too; I just needed to go find Adam, quickly. It wasn't incredible hard to find Adam, I just had to go to his favourite smoking spot which was up on the roof. Adam and Eli had found it one day but it was Adam who brought me up here first, I remember the peaceful look he had on his face, it was like all the demons he faced couldn't get him up there.

Pushing the metal door open, I see Adam standing there looking out into the open space and I say "I worked it out."

I watched as Adam tipped his head back to look up at the sky before he said "It would be so easy to jump right now and then everyone's life would be much better."

I shout "Don't you dare Adam Torres!" I stood there in complete shock at Adam's words.

Adam turned to face me and he said "What's the point Clare? Nobody cares about me, my Mother is insane and an evil bitch-witch. My Dad is going to find me and then kill me once his done so. I have no family, the brother I got used to be my bully and now he wants to understand and be buddies. There's no point Clare," he then turned back around to look off into the distance.

I shout at him "What about me Adam? How about Jake and Darcy? or Connor, Jenna and Alli what about them Adam?"

Adam replied with "They're your friends Clare, he is your brother and she is your sister and you deserve so much better than a freak like me. Someone as messed up as me, someone with baggage, no Clare I don't deserve you."

"Adam, they are our friend they care about you just as much I do and they'd do anything for you; if you just asked. Jake and Darcy as for them, they count you as their brother, you're part of our family Adam and they want you to be a part of it. You are not a freak, yes you have baggage and it's pretty messy at the moment but that doesn't matter to me, actually it makes me love you even more. Get down from the ledge Adam, don't let your Dad control your life and take it away from you and same with your Mother too. They are horrible people but the one good thing they have done was bring you into the world, my world and I wouldn't change that for the world. You are my boyfriend Adam but you are so much more than that, you are my best friend the one person I can tell anything to without any judgement. I love you Adam, please don't do this," I had only moved a few inches closer the last thing I wanted to do was scare him off the edge. I could feel the tears running down my face as I held out my shaky hand ready for him to take. Adam slowly turned back around to face me again, he was crying as well and I sigh in relief when he reaches out and takes my hand in his. I pull him down from the ledge and into my arms; where we both start crying and holding each other. I don't even want to imagine what could have happened if he hadn't of turned around or if I had gotten here too late, my life without Adam is just no life I want to live. We both didn't have the energy to stand up crying, so we slowly faded down onto the ground where we continued to cry and hold each other.

Through tears I say "I love you Adam, I love you so damm much and my life without you isn't worth living."

Adam pulls back to look at me before he said "I'm sorry Clare, I'm so very sorry."

"It's okay Adam, it's okay," I keep repeating that it's okay and I pull him back into me; I just need to hold him even longer than I already have been.

"I just don't want you in my life Adam; I need you in my life. I need you in my life and you need to understand that," I felt Adam nodding his head against my shoulder.

"I'm so sorry Clare. I'm sorry that you had to see that, see me like that and I never wanted you to see that."

"It's good I did Adam, I need to know what's going on because then I can help, if I don't know what's going then I can't help. I need to see you like this because this is the real side of our relationship, the side no one see us, the side that it for our eyes only. Adam, seeing these sides of each other makes us real and stronger tougher."

Adam pulls back again and said into my eyes "I love you Clare, so, so much," Adam then leant forward and joined our lips together. For the rest of the school day we spent up on top of the school's roof, holding each other, taking turn holding each other, kissing, saying the magical three words and just being with each other; and in the end it's what we both needed more than anything else in the world or in this moment.