Before I could even respond Edison walked in. I groaned.
" Why the fuck are you here? I don't want you here." I said

" Liv please baby you know I love you. C'mon just tell me what happened." He said

" No. I am not your baby and you do not love me. Leave." I was angry.

" No not until me what is wrong." Edison said. I was just about to talk when the door opened.

" Liv please tell me what I think happened did NOT happen." My dad said

" Dad that did not happen. I promise." I said. I knew exactly what he was talking about. The door opened yet again. In came Dr. Barret.

" Your father called me. He was worried. What happened? Did you relapse? You were doing so well. Please tell me what happened." She sais

" I did not relapse. I did not self harm, drink, do drugs or try to commit suicide. I am a strong human. My past does not define me. I don't need to go to my dark place." I quoted my daily mantra .

" So if you didn't relapse what happened?' She asked.

" I was out dancing with Abby and I needed to pee so I went and on my way out I guy pulled me and put a gun to my head and threatened to kill me then started pulling down my underwear and I knew was about to happen and I started having flashbacks. Apparently Fitz pulled him off of me and I went into shock and passed out. I'm fine." I said

" Liv, let's go through it. Okay?" I knew was she was asking So I nodded.

"Are you feeling the need to self harm? Are you feeling the need to drink? Are you feeling the need to do drugs? Are you feeling suicidal? "

I said no to all.

"When was the last time to took your meds?" She asked.

" When I woke up I took them and then I took the anti-anxiety again before we left."

I said

"Ok good. How did you sleep last night? Any nightmares?" She asked

" I had a couple. I woke up every time but I only cried once so that's progress."

I said and it was the truth.

"When was the last time you felt the need to any negative things?" She asked

" Well last night when we were out I really wanted a drink but I remembered last time and I knew I couldn't. Drugs probably was after I got home. Self harm, I still have urges but they are not as strong as they used to be so I can control them. The suicidal thoughts are as they always are a daily occurrence as to what would life be like but not the need to do it. So I would say really well. Especially considering this."

I said. And it was all the truth. It was hard to admit at first but I knew I had a problem so I went to and she is so helpful.

"Ok good. Well I'm going to let you rest. I will see you Monday. Remember to call if you need me and there is no shame using coping skills." She said. She left and Fitz and Edison were just staring at her.

" LIv, why didn't you tell me any of these things?" Edison said.

"Because it is NONE of your business. Now get the hell out of her and stay away from me." I was pissed off. I didn't need this right now.

" I loved you. You didn't tell me you were a drug addict, alcoholic, and all this other shit. That is bullshit. I can't believe this shit. You are weak." Edison said and looked at me like he was disgusted.

"First of all I am not an addict or alcoholic. And I am not weak. I am strong. I've overcome things you couldn't even imagine. You are an asshole. LEAVE NOW." I was pissed off.

" You can say whatever you want but you are still weak." That pissed me off. I started balling. I was having a panic attack. Edison left. Abby sat down and started talking to me.

"Breathe Liv. You can do it. I know you can. Mr. Pope can you call Dr. Barret back please. Liv if you don't calm down you are going to get sick and will have to be sedated. Come on Liv." Abby said

Dr. Barret came back in and calmed me down.

" Liv what happened? I was just here and you were fine." I told her what happened.

" Liv what you went through is unimaginable. You went through hard things but you overcame it. You are a lot better when we first met. You are strong and brave. Just think about all the work you put in to get to this point. Drug, alcohol, self harm free. Yes you have urges but you fight like hell and don't give in to them. You are strong. Remember all the treatment you had to go through. That fight was not easy. Do you remember when I first met you. You have come a long way. I know this a daily battle but you are winning. Don't give up." She said.