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chap 4 everyone!!!

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Edward's POV

I turned around and sure enough, Bella was awake, blinking and breathing. Her voice was weak and croaky but I could hear it well, as well as ever. I was afraid of what she would say. Not that I completely trust Jake, it's just he said... Bella wanted to stay with him then when I tried talking to her, she ignored me.

"Bella..." I whispered.

"EDWARD, I-" Bella stopped as I saw Jake talk interrupting. Bella looked very angry. She was lying on the floor. Jacob was crouched down next to her now. Still talking. When I tried to read his mind, he wasn't thinking about what he was talking about, I could tell. He was thinking of when Sam found Bella. That image still scars me. There's a small scar where it made a mark and when it is brought up again, it glows.

"Edward! Come closer!" She said. I jogged closer to her, almost next to Jacob. Bella was not facing Jake, but facing the same way so he couldn't see her face.

"Edward. I need you to leave. This is what I want," Bella said as she shook her head ever so slightly. What is that supposed to mean. She was crying. "Leave, get another girl, forget about me."

"B-but Bella!" I stammered.

"No, please, leave." As Bella said this she mouthed the word 'don't'. What the hell was going on?

"OK, I'll leave." As I said this it broke my heart.

Bella's POV

Why wasn't he getting the hints? WHY WASN'T HE GETTING THEM? I needed him to. If he didn't I would be left forever, miserably a werewolf. Miserably with Jake. Miserably Bella Cullen, without Edward. No he had to get the hints. I had already shook my head and mouthed 'don't'.

"Edward."

"Yes Bella?"

"A last good bye." I moved in to kiss him very slowly and when I reached very close I whispered to him. "Help me, he's threatening to kill you."

I wasn't sure if he heard me but I thought he did from his still reaction. Then I kissed him, a familiar kiss. Not a goodbye. More of a "I'll see you soon but I love you" kiss. When we pulled away he whispered to me as well.

"I'll be back."

"Goodbye Edward." I cried, it felt like he was really going, forever.

"Goodbye Bella." Edward had tears in his eyes but his face remained the same. I turned back around not able to look at Edward upset anymore. Jacob's face was placid not one emotion showing. I could feel his infuriation. He didn't see me talk to Ed, only saw me kiss him. Edward backed away and winked the eye that Jake couldn't see.

When Edward was well gone Jake finally broke the silence.

"Now Bella. Thank you. You see, soon we'll live happily, Edward won't even exist."

"What?"

"Edward."

"...Yeah, what did you say?"

"That he won't exist."

"You said..."

"I never said what would happen to Edward even if you did what I said. Bella. You don't understand. Your better off without him. Sam's on him now. I gave him the queue."

"You BASTARD! YOUR GOING TO KILL EDWARD?"

"Sorry Bella. I know this is upsetting you now but later on when we're married, you'll thank me."

"I don't think I can ever forgive you for this Jake. This is low, this is braking the rules, this is murder. How can you?"

"Bella, I'd do anything for you-"

"Then stop this."

"Anything but that. Edward can't protect you, he can't keep you warm. I can do everything for you and I'm willing. I'm better then Edward."

"Even if you were, Jacob, I'd prefer Edward. There's no way I'd pick you over Edward. He is my other half, he's my husband. Jake, this isn't you! This isn't the guy that helped me with the bikes."

"I am the Jake you're thinking of there I'm just more knowledgeable."

"Of what I want?"

"Yes, and who's best for you."

"How can you say that? I know what's best for me, that's not you! Do you want me to be happy?"

"Yes."

"Then let me go, let me be with Edward. I'll be most happy with him."

"Bella, do you remember when he left you and I made you happy? When he leaves forever, I'll still make you happy! It's logical!"

"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO DO THIS JAKE? DO THIS TO ME? DO THIS TO EDWARD!"

"Shh, Bella, calm down. It's OK. I'm here." I let that one go. He helped me up. My arm was spreading, not only could I see it, I could feel it.

"Only… three more hours before you become a werewolf."

"I can't wait," I said sarcastically.

"Bella, don't be like that."

"YOUR ABOUT TO KILL MY HUSBAND!"

"Shh, it's OK. Try not to think about it."

I had to do something. It was driving me insane. I couldn't be useless again. I had to save him. To help at least, somehow. Surely Alice has seen what Jake's been thinking… Why would she? She'd probably be too busy. So how brilliant is this? I'm helpless for three hours while Sam kills Edward I get turned into a werewolf, then I live the rest of my lousy life with Jake, trying to run away but failing. Considering committing suicide.

I knew I should think about this more but the question is should I stay with some I can live with or someone I can't live without? No question about it, Edward. That's how easy it is to decide Edward over Jacob. I don't want to be married to Jake. Edward and I are perfect for each other, nothing is wrong with us being together. I need to figure out a way to save Edward. Too bad I can't get free. Jake's a werewolf, he'd catch up even if I sprinted. I had no hope. How was Edward going to win a fight with Sam? He could possibly win with Jake, but not Sam! Well I pray, I guess there isn't anything else to do.

Please God. Let Edward be OK… I'm sorry, I don't often pray, I'm not good all the time but please, Edward is my other half, I need him. I want this to be resolved. Jake needs to meet someone perfect for him and let me go. Please God. Edward means more to me then life itself. I need to know he'll be OK so I can focus on stopping this bite from spread. Just please, help me. I need you to watch over and protect Edward. He may not need it but please, please, please, I love him with all my heart.

When I finished the prayer silently in my head, I whispered into the cold motionless air, the frosty lifeless air, "Amen."