Chapter 4 – The Jig Is Up!
Six Months Ago - Then
Sesshomaru watched the sleeping creature in his arms and asked himself WHY he had felt so compelled to touch her in the first place. It wasn't that he knew her heart belong to Inuyasha, or because he felt any unbeatable lust to have her. He'd met more beautiful, smarter, sexier women. He'd taken many a demoness to his bed. There was something about Kagome that appealed to him in the same manner that Rin did, although on an entirely different level.
Kagome was honest about her emotions. She screamed when she was angry, she cried when she was sad, and she didn't seem to think there was anything wrong with it. It was the same way with Rin. Being with Kagome in the way he had was like leaping into a typhoon and riding the storm into its still center, the only place there was any peace. His demon senses picked up on her anger and lust, and the times she couldn't really tell the difference and didn't care anyway. The older he got, the less he felt, less often. He rarely became mad, or sad, or anything for that matter. But being with Kagome sent shockwaves of emotion through him.
He casually drug a claw over her skin. Her body was far from perfect, especially compared to that of a demoness. Every imperfection seemed to have a small piece of the story of her life sealed up, from the scar where the jewel was torn from her body to the freckles that randomly appeared on her arms, telling him she'd spent a lot of time in the sun.
Under the security of their secrecy, he watched Kagome explore an animalistic side he wasn't aware humans even possessed. She never spoke the entire time, except to say one word, and communicated only with touch, moans, and screams. He watched her transform from a girl who was ashamed of her own nudity to the wicked creature that slid in between his legs and did things to him that he would never have expected from the girl who he'd seen follow his brother around for so long.
Sesshomaru licked the wound on her shoulder and followed Kagome to sleep.
The next morning, he awoke to the smell of her tears as she stared at him in horror. "You...animal!" She screamed as she lunged at him. "Why did you do this?!" She roared as she slapped him in the face. He sat up and let the girl have her obligatory break down, scratching and hitting him for what 'he' had done to her. "You're not supposed to be like this!" She screamed in between blows.
Sesshomaru sat still as Kagome swung at him, screaming and crying. She was in pitiful sorts, and he grabbed her hands and looked right into her eyes. "Hush." He said, pulling her to his chest, where she simply collapsed. "Why are you crying?" He asked.
Kagome fisted her hands. "I hate you." She said. Sesshomaru looked down at her with a frown and she corrected herself. "I hate what I did."
"Why?" Sesshomaru asked. "Was I not gentle?"
She looked away from him. "Inuyasha was supposed to be my first. My only."
Sesshomaru brushed through her tangled hair with his claws. "You could have asked me to stop."
"But I didn't. I chose to ruin my own dream." Kagome said.
Sesshomaru arched his brows, perplexed by Kagome. "I wasn't aware dreams intended to enslave their owners."
Kagome closed her eyes. "Sesshomaru, why did YOU want to sleep with me?"
He narrowed his eyes. "I did not wish to 'sleep' with you. I wished to engage in sexual intercourse with you."
"Why?" Kagome asked.
Sesshomaru stared in the other direction. "I do as I please, and it pleased me to do so."
"That wasn't my question." Kagome said. "You don't get to do that."
"I find your presence to be pleasant." Sesshomaru said.
Kagome sighed and rested in his lap. "It didn't mean anything."
Sesshomaru touched her face. "Kagome...I do not engage in pointless lustful sex. I offered my affections and you accepted." He sighed and stood up, leaving her on the ground. "I will take you home today, so you can spent time with your family."
He looked over to Kagome as she dressed, noting how less than a day ago she'd been absolutely petrified by the thought of him seeing her naked. Thanks to the fact he licked her wounds clean the night she got them, all but the wound on her shoulder had disappeared from her skin and that one would be gone by morning. There would be no trace of what happened, other than their own memories.
Sesshomaru knew, even then, that he'd never be able to stay away from the fiery little miko. His father might have found the situation funny if it had occurred in a different way, and if she was a different girl. The truth was, he'd killed one of the two women his brother had ever loved and taken the innocence of the other. There was something dishonorable about it, even if it was Inuyasha.
Six Months Later – Now
Inuyasha leaned on the tree and drifted off to sleep. Sometimes, if he was near certain scents when he fell asleep, he'd dream about them. He wanted to see her just one last time, and then...never again. It wasn't that he didn't understand what people said about the situation, because he did. It was everyone else that didn't understand him.
When he was seven, Inuyasha's mother died, leaving him a hanyou orphan. He spent the next century-and-a-half absolutely alone. There were many nights he barely survived, whether due to cold, hunger, or wounds he received because the father he never met and his dead mother weren't the same species. It was a miserable way to exist, and the only reason he hadn't ended it was because he was scared to die alone.
And then came Kikyou.
Kikyou reached out to him, loved him, and gave his life a purpose. As a hanyou, there were things in life he thought he would never be allowed to feel, and Kikyou let him experience them. Love, warmth, happiness...and that first life-changing kiss. When her lips touched his, everything he had lived through became worth it, just for that moment.
His sleep brought back a long-forgotten memory.
Flashback
Inuyasha ran and caught a screaming child as she feel from Goshinboku. He put her down and glared at Kikyou. "Does that brat have to follow us everywhere?" He was referring to Kaede, Kikyou's younger sister. He couldn't stand her. Kaede pulled on his ears, followed them everywhere, and always seemed to get into trouble.
"Run along Kaede." Kikyou said as she smiled at him. "You don't like children?"
"Not when I want to be alone with you." Inuyasha said. "I hate them then. A lot."
He felt her fingers brush against his, then mingle with his own as she took his hand. "When you become human, and come to live with me, do you think we'll have children?"
Inuyasha blushed. "You know, I never really thought about it before. I guess...yeah, I would." It was one of the many things he told himself he'd never, ever have, being the product of love and intimacy. And for a century-and-a-half, he'd thought no one would ever want to be with him. Kikyou had given him love, friendship, and a promise to stay with him forever.
"What's wrong, Inuyasha?" Kikyou asked, noticing his emotional state.
He hung his head. For a hanyou, this should have been out-of-reach. He had never even allowed himself to hope for such things. "It's hard to believe I'm finally going to be happy with you."
End Flashback
Inuyasha's eyes fluttered open, lined in tears. "Kikyou..."
I didn't get to be happy with you.
Inuyasha understood well what people thought about his going after Kikyou. It was stupid, she was dead, she doesn't have a soul, and he wasn't going to deny that it was true. No one else could see it from his eyes. Those who talked about what a moron he was didn't know what it was like to wander the earth for span of several human lifetimes and never have anyone give a fuck if you lived or died.
He stood up and prepared to walk away from Kikyou for the last time. Inuyasha's ears went back and he let his tears fall. "What we almost had..." He bit his lip and refused to finish the thought. "Goodbye, Kikyou."
Inuyasha ran all the way back to the village. He wanted to go do something. Anything. He just couldn't think about it right now. Through trees, a meadow, a rocky riverbed...he just kept running until the village came into sight.
Inuyasha passed over Kagome, who was walking back from the forest. He dropped out of the trees. "Kagome..." Inuyasha was going to say something when his nose picked up on a tell-tale smell. At first, he didn't want to believe it, and his mind dismissed it as some sort of sensory malfunction. When he started sniffing the air, Kagome's expression turned to guilt and fear.
Not far away, Sesshomaru awoke to find Kagome gone, probably on her way back to the village. Her scent still lingered in the air, along with another strange scent...he dressed as he raced toward Kagome, hoping to get to her before his brother did.
Inuyasha's hands were shaking and he looked up at her with an expression she'd never seen before and could live without seeing again. Oh god, I must not have gotten Sesshomaru's scent off me. She thought. "I was taking a walk alone and--"
"Stop." Inuyasha said. "You're not bloody or injured anywhere, are you?" Maybe she was taken by force. But she looks okay...
"No, I'm fine." Kagome said. "Inuyasha, why are you acting so strangely?"
He growled and snapped back at her. "Why are you lying to me?!" Inuyasha saw her fearful expression and lightly pushed her backward, making her fall on her bottom. He was about to speak, and demand to know who she'd seen when he heard his name called.
"Inuyasha." Sesshomaru said.
Kagome felt her heart start to race. I must have done something wrong. He found out.
Inuyasha turned to Sesshomaru, then back to Kagome. Kagome watched his horrified expression as the pieces fell in place. "You...you fucked him? We find out Kikyou is dead and the first thing you do is go out and fuck my brother?" He reached out for her and nearly shook her. "How long has this been going on?!"
"Inuyasha, let me go. You're scaring me!" Kagome said.
Inuyasha suddenly fell to his knees and clawed into the ground. "Three people attended and only two walked away alive. One was Kikyou, one was your enemy, and the last is one of your companions that travels with you even as we speak. Killing Kikyou was only the first of many betrayals committed against you." He said, repeating Naraku. Kagome reached out to comfort him and Inuyasha hissed, but leaned into her hand anyway.
Kagome put her hands on his face and made him look at her. "Inuyasha, it was an accident. You have to believe me, we didn't intend for it to happen."
"I always trusted you, Kagome. Until now." Inuyasha said.
Inuyasha pulled away from her and turned on Sesshomaru. His voice was calm, sad, and didn't portray any of the rage Kagome had expected from him. "You threw me out into a world that hated me, you terrorized me, beat me, allowed me to starve, allowed demons to assault me, and have treated me like shit since the day I was born." He stood up and looked Sesshomaru right in the eyes. "You killed the first woman I ever loved and stole the other."
Sesshomaru simply watched his brother as he spoke. It was all true. He had other things to worry about though. "You wish to fight."
"I'd throw my sword away, transform, and rip you to shreds if I could." Inuyasha said. "I think you know why I won't."
Kagome put her hand over her mouth. "All this time, I thought you'd kill each other. You don't want to fight him?"
"If you had told me then, I would have. But this is now, and I can't." Inuyasha said. He noticed her confused expression. "You don't get it, do you?"
"No?" Kagome said.
Inuyasha turned to the girl that he'd loved for years. "You're pregnant. Have a happy fucking life."
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