Okay so here is EPOV from the last couple chapters! His feelings of leaving Bella again!
Song: Right back in the water by Jesse McCartney
EPOV
Chapter 4-My Mistakes have taken toll
I left her again. My whole world slipped through my fingers. I left her because my family needed me. Jasper had a mishap with a human one day that he was hunting, with the family. Let's just say that the human didn't survive. Jaspers inner monster took over and his blood thirst took control of his body. Jasper told us briefly what happened and then he disappeared with Alice to the Denali clan. Emmett and Rosalie followed next; their "Brother" needed them. Soon after, Carlisle and Esme went with a sad smile toward me. And then I was alone. I had two choices. I could either join my family or stay with my soul mate. I couldn't choose, do I continue loving Bella or go and help Jasper through his time of need. I guess the choice I made had some reason to it, but I couldn't help but regret not saying good-bye to my Bella. I watched her that day I left; I saw her face glowing with happiness and love. She was supposed to come see the family that night; but that all changed. I love her and I will always love her until I die.
Ten Years later
We were living in Montana now. Don't ask me why. After that day of leaving my love, I wallowed in self-pity. I rarely talked to my family, and once every couple months I went out hunting. It was like my Bella's disastrous birthday again. I was fed up with myself for leaving her again so sudden. Alice was the only one that could stand me. I never came out of my room, never interacted with anyone. Alice sometimes dropped by and gave me some company. She was always my favorite little pixie.
One afternoon, Sunday I believe, Alice was in my room watching T.V. The electronic device was rarely used. She had it on some music channel. It didn't hold any interest to me so I walked down to the kitchen where Esme was sitting at the kitchen table, reading a magazine.
"Since when do you read Peoples magazine?" I asked as I sat down across from her.
"Oh, Edward didn't expect you to come down," She said not looking at me. Something was up. Esme never read magazines, and she didn't look at me.
"What's going on?" I said warily. Esme looked up at me and opened her mouth before shutting it quickly. I looked at her suspiciously before reaching over and trying to grab the magazine. She quickly snatched it out of arm's length and threw it toward the couch in the main living room. I was about to get up and get the magazine but I heard alike come stomping down, glaring daggers at Esme.
"You almost blew it! "Alice exclaimed.
"I know I'm sorry!" Esme answered. Both of them were clouding their minds so I couldn't read them.
"Blew what?" I huffed out.
"We can't tell him! He just returned back to the old Edward!" Alice went on, pretending I wasn't there. What were they hiding from me? At inhuman pace, I darted over to the couch and grabbed the magazine. What I saw on the front cover ripped my dead heart out and stomped on it. It was my Bella, tucked under some guys arm with a huge smile on her face. The magazines front cover read 'Singer and songwriter Bella Swan, emerges from the dark and gives us a look into her past with the songs she has sung.' If I had to breathe I would be panting. My Bella was a singer? She wrote about her past? Did that include me? I just stared at the cover until Alice came over and put a comforting hand on my shoulder. I shrugged it off and dropped my head.
"How could you keep me from this?" I whispered. I saw Alice and Esme share a look before Alice spoke.
"I knew it would make you sad." I nodded my head. Just as I was about to speak I heard my T.V. say 'Now here is Bella Swan.' I lifted my head and raced up the stairs to my room and watched my love walk out onto stage. Alice and Esme followed me and when they saw Bella on stage they gasped. My love looked stunning as usual. I bet Alice was proud of her wardrobe pick. I watched the T.V and saw my love say hi to the crowd and the music start and her beautiful voice surrounded my senses.
I could tell by the look in his eyes
Maybe I'm just another one of his lies
'Cause I know we've been through this so
Many times
Still I'm here though I'm burning up inside.
How could she think that? She was never one of my lies! She thinks it is HER fault that I left. God, my beautiful Bella can be so idiotic.
And I try to walk away but I keep telling
Myself
He's the one for me
'Cause his love is so contagious, it keeps
Pulling me in
We were meant to be and I can't leave him
So were right back in the water, we're right
Back in the water
She is trying to forget about me. I could see the reason behind that, but yet I can't help the feeling of hurt surround me. She was right, we were meant to be. Its I that should have not left her again.
I could tell by the look in his eyes
All my friends keep telling me, now's the
Time
But I know just the notion saying goodbye
I breaks my heart, It tears me up inside
I sure hope the guy on the magazine cover was just a friend telling her to let go of her feelings for me. She feels the same way; Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I have ever done the first time I left her and then there I go again, leaving her, without any sort of explanation.
And I try to walk away but I keep telling
Myself
He's the one for me
'Cause his love is so contagious, it keeps
Pulling me in
We were meant to be and I can't leave him
I can't stop the feelings that overwhelm me whenever I think of her name, let alone, look at her. I never wanted to leave her, and from the looks of it, she didn't want me to leave her. What have I done?
So were right back singing, ooh, c'mon
Ooh, c'mon
I want to walk by but there is something that
Won't let me
Singing, ooh, c'mon, ooh, c'mon
He's the one that's always there
I know she wants to get rid of those feelings, but something in me hopes she can't. I want her to never forget those feelings we had for each other, the affection she had on me. She thinks I was the one that was always there? Where am I now? We are both miserable.
I could tell by the look in his eyes
Maybe I'm just another one of his lies
And I try to walk away but I keep telling
Myself
He's the one for me
'Cause his love is so contagious, it keeps
Pulling me in
We were meant to be and I can't leave him
So we're right back in the water, we're right
Back in the water, yeah
If I could cry I would have. I would have been bawling. Just like her. I could see the tears running down her cheeks as she ran off stage and walked with some guy, suspecting it was her manager, and another guy. I quickly recognized the guy as the one Bella was tucked under in the photo on the cover of the magazine. She looked happy with that guy; do I want to mess that up? I looked up to Alice and Esme, who were looking at me with hesitation.
"Were going to Forks," I spoke with dedication. I can't stand one more moment away from her, she is my world and I won't make the same mistake again I have made twice. I just hope she can forgive me.
Okay Chapter 4 has come to a finished. How did you like it? I have an idea where I'm going from her but give me some ideas what you guys would like! PLEASE REVIEW!
Song: Right back in the water by Jesse McCartney