Secret Desires

Chapter 4

Disclaimer: DBZ and all of its characters do not belong to me. This story is for entertainment purposes only.

Prince Vegeta was engaging in idle chit chat with his personal guard when he saw her. He found himself staring for much too long, as his guard turned around to see what or who had captured the Prince's attention.

"Uh, excuse me your highness but I do believe others are starting to notice whom has captured your attention." Kakkarott whispered to his Prince.

Vegeta quickly averted his eyes. "Kakkarott, I have no clue as to what you are talking about."

Kakkarott always the bumbling idiot stated. "Oh, well the pretty young thing that just walked through the door of course. Too bad she is not a Saiyan, huh Vegeta?"

Vegeta clenched his fists "Kakkarott you idiot! I was not staring at that stupid naïve little girl."

Kakkarott grinned knowingly "Uh sure whatever you say your highness."

"Kakkarott don't piss me off tonight" The Prince warned.

"I'm sorry your highness."

" I was simply wondering what had taken my personal advisor so long to get here."

Kakkarott only looked back and forth to Vegeta and the beautiful young woman who had caused quite the scene upon entering the ball.

Bulma entered the room and walked proudly towards the Prince. She stopped in front of him and bowed.

"Your Highness, I hope you will be pleased with the work I have done and hope that tonight you will choose this planets future queen among those who are present."

Vegeta only grunted his approval.

The ball began with the introduction of each young lady. Vegeta had a hard time concentrating on the task at hand, as his thoughts kept drifting to that he knew he could not act on.

After all potential mates were introduced, Vegeta motioned for Bulma to come forth.

Bulma was quite surprised at the request, but did as he asked. When she was standing in front of him he leaned down to whisper in her ear.

"Who do you recommend?"

The question took her completely off guard and she stood with her jaw ajar looking intensely at the Prince for what seemed to be forever.

However, the penetrating stare of the Prince soon snapped her back to attention and she spoke. "Your Highness, this is the woman who you will be bound to for the rest of your life, I am in no position to offer advice on the matter."

Vegeta only grinned at her as he voiced his choice to the entire room.

"Let it be written I, Prince Vegeta of Vegeta-sei have chosen a mate and her name is Perisia. Let her come forward."

At this, the entire attendance applauded except Bulma who only stood in shock. She was brought back to attention by Kakkarott who took her gently by the arm and moved her away from the Prince as the future Queen of the planet made her way to Vegeta.

While Bulma was not entirely surprised by the Prince's decision she wondered why he asked her opinion and quickly wondered if perhaps she should have suggested one, perhaps one who was not quite as beautiful as the woman Vegeta had chosen.

Perisia was the daughter of Burlest, an elite warrior whom had fought along side of Vegeta countless of times. He was considered one of the strongest warriors on the planet.

Perisia was also beautiful that could not be argued. She was about two inches shorter than Vegeta and had the traditional Saiyan coloring, but she stood out as one of the most attractive Saiyan women on the planet. Many men had asked for her hand but Burlest would not agree to it. Perhaps he was wise to wait for now his daughter would be the Queen of the planet.

Bulma feeling strangely exhausted wanted nothing more than to leave the ball, but she knew that it would be disrespectful to the Prince if she left without acknowledging him.

After Vegeta had placed a tender kiss on Perisia's lips the entire audience began to drink and converse among each other. Bulma took this time to approach the Prince.

"Your Highness, I believe my work is done. I wish you and Lady Perisia good will and good health." She then turned to leave.

"Bulma" Bulma started at Vegeta's voice and turned to face him.

He quickly excused himself from Perisia and walked with Bulma to the balcony.

Once they were alone on the balcony he turned to address her.

"You do not seem happy about my choice, I cannot help but wonder if it is because your adolescent mind thought that perhaps I would take a non-Saiyan as a mate." Bulma began to say something but he stopped her with a raise of his hand and then continued.

"You realize for me to do that would mean the fall of the empire. I would not become King, instead my cousin would be given the throne and I would never do that to my people. Now, having said that I expect you to continue your job as my personal advisor."

"What?"

"My mother gave you that job and I expect you to keep your word. There are other matters that may require a person with your qualifications to advise on."

It was then that he noticed the gold locket hanging from her neck. He reached out and took it in his hands examining it, deep in thought.

"You still have it." It was a statement made more to himself than to her.

"Of course I do. It is my most treasured item."

"I am glad to see that you are finally wearing it." Vegeta said with a small smile.

Bulma only smiled sadly.

"Bulma, I wanted to tell you that I…"

"Excuse me your highness but you need to return to the ball, people are beginning to talk." Kakkarott interrupted.

"Grrrr, I am so tired of the incessant gossiping that is allowed to go on within these palace walls." "Bulma, you will continue to work as one of the royal advisors. That is all. You may leave."

Bulma quickly left the balcony and was determined to return to her chambers when a handsome young man approached her.

"Excuse me, my lady but I could not help but notice that you have not stepped foot onto the dance floor as of yet. Would you give me the honor?"

Bulma found herself captivated by the mans eyes. He was definitely a Saiyan, but his eyes, they were of a pale blue. Never in her life had she seen a Saiyan with blue eyes.

"I would love to dance with you, however, I would like to know the name of the person I will be dancing with." Bulma stated shyly.

"Of course, how foolish I feel. My name is Allenon."

At that statement Bulma's eyes widened for Allenon was the hated cousin of Vegeta. She couldn't quite understand why Vegeta would be so angry with a man who seemed at least by first introductions as a gentleman.

She thought that perhaps she should dance with him and attempt to learn more about the man so many hated.


I cannot believe the gall of my cousin he of all people knows of my fondness for the girl and yet he took it upon himself to exploit that little tidbit. I must talk to the woman tomorrow. She must realize that any social contact with my cousin is forbidden. She is after all my royal advisor. I should not have to explain this to her. I cannot help but think she is doing this on purpose. I saw the clearly written disappointment on her face at my choice of mate. But, she needs to realize that I cannot choose a non-Saiyan as a mate. I know she thinks it would bring planets together in peace but it cannot be done. Besides there aren't any non-Saiyan females that I would even consider except for her of course, but I am sure she would have liked me to choose one of the women of high ranking of Planet Mediana in some twisted way of obtaining peace with them. While I realize they are the only planet that is opposed to Planet Vegeta and yes a mix of the two powerful planets would mean great prosperity for both planets, it simply cannot be done. This is the main reason why my cousin is hated so much.

I still cannot believe we were best friends at one time. That was until I found out about his little secret. The man is a half-breed. I still cannot believe he is near equal to me in power. How can this be? It baffles me. There are other far more understandable reasons for my hatred of him but I refuse to ever speak of them. Anyway, after it was learned that he was a half-breed, the senate members were split over their feelings on the matter and it was then that my father declared that no royal family member would interbreed. Of course Allenon's father protested and he had quite a few supporters, but in the end my father won. However, this of course all depends on me if I die before I produce an heir or if I were to challenge my fathers decree and take a non-Saiyan as a mate then the throne would automatically be turned over to Allenon. This is why it is so important for me to produce an heir and soon. This is why I sent Bulma away to school. I believed that if she were away then my feelings would cease to exist. I was definitely wrong. For, I can barely look at her anymore. And, to see her smiling while in the arms of my cousin was enough to cause me to loose all control. Thank God, Radditz stopped me from making a complete fool of myself.

I chose Perisia because she was the best choice. My mind keeps telling me that but my heart doesn't seem to accept it. I realize after tonight that I need to speed up the mating process before I slip and make a mistake that will cost my people and my kingdom.


Dear Diary,

Tonight began as a heartbreaking evening but ended quite differently. I had to stand by and watch as my Prince chose Perisia as his mate. Perisia is a good choice, she is very beautiful and intelligent. She will make a good Queen. But, yet my heart is broken. I know how foolish I am but I cannot help it. If only I could have the Prince completely for just one night, maybe then I would be able to move on and accept his decision and my own destiny. I have saved myself for him and only him, if only he would see that. If only he wasn't a Prince. Oh, who am I kidding? I need to grow up. I did meet someone tonight. Oh, he cannot hold a candle to my dashing Prince but he is handsome just the same and quite the gentleman. His name is Allenon, Prince Vegeta's cousin. I still do not understand why Vegeta hates him so. He seems quite nice to me and I also noticed that many of the senators seems to accept him, so why does Prince Vegeta and his followers not? This is something that will baffle me for quite some time. Anyway, Allenon danced with me and made me feel like a woman, not like a child. That in itself is a wonderful feeling. He lives on the other side of the planet but he is going to stay at the palace for the next two years. I do find this strange but he is a member of the royal family and I am sure he wants to be present for the mating ceremony and the birth of the heir to the throne. At that depressing thought I am brought back to my original demeanor. I wish I could leave the planet so I didn't have to witness any of it. The thought of Vegeta lying with another woman sickens me and I know this type of feeling is unhealthy. It is wrong for me to be jealous of Perisia, she is a wonderful woman and I am sure she will make Prince Vegeta very happy.

On a lighter note, I have agreed to see Allenon again. I see no problem with it. And, amazingly enough my father is actually approving of it. I think that having a relationship with a man will help me with my affliction with the Prince. I will always love Prince Vegeta from afar but I will never have him and that fact I need to accept. So, tomorrow I will start anew and see where this new friendship will take me maybe I will finally find happiness.