Demi's POV:

"Sorry doesn't cut it Jennel, you fucking hurt me."

"It wasn't my intention to hurt you, I was hurting too." She replies, cupping my cheeks while making me stare into her eyes.

"You fucking left me when I needed you, I fucking needed you."

"I got scared, I'm sorry."

"Scared of what exactly?" I ask as tears roll down my cheeks and I attempt to look into her eyes even though the tears clouding my vison are making it quite difficult.

"You."

"What are you fucking talking about? You had no reason to be scared of me Jennel! I was nineteen and I was constantly high, what could you possibly be scared of?!"

"I was fucking scared of you because you were making me feel things that I hadn't felt in years!" She screams in my face causing me to slowly back away from her as she roughly runs her fingers through her hair.

"You didn't have to leave me."

"I was protecting you."

"From what exactly…actually you know what I don't want a fucking answer because talking about this is killing me." I reply, turning around and letting out a breath before walking away from her, sliding my hands back into the horribly itchy pockets while Jennel calls after me.

"Demi I know I fucked up but can you just listen to me."

"No." I answer, turning to face her. "Because I'll listen to you and then I'll just fall for you all over again! I would say I'd start loving you again but that would be impossible because I never actually stopped fucking loving you Jennel!" I scream at her as she slowly makes her way towards me, I shake my head at her and then continue walking away from her again, ignoring her when she yells my name.

I walk straight towards the toilet block, ignoring the girls passing me and the guards that are intently watching me, because right now I just want to be alone and fuck I just need a line of coke…

I burst into the toilets and lock myself in one of the only two cubicles that actually have doors with locks on them; I slam the door shut and slide the lock across before leaning against it and then slowly sliding down it as tears begin to roll down my face. I thread in fingers through my hair and rest my head in my hands as I hear footsteps getting closer and closer to the cubicle I'm currently locked in.

"Disney are you in here?"

"What do you want Guacamole?"

"That's not even close and it's fucking Jauregui but I'll let it slide this once, open the door." She replies standing on the other side of the door and lightly tapping my lower back with her feet.

"Why should I? I'm pretty sure that you hate me."

"I don't hate you, I hate the fact that Jennel is so affected by you, but I do not hate you."

"Why are you even here? Shouldn't you be chasing after Jennel?"

"I'm here because Camila made me come in here, she loves you I hope you know that. Plus Jennel would just throw something at me and tell me fucking off, I thought coming to see you was the safest choice, so are you going to open the door or what Disney."

I shuffle away from the door and unlock it as I pull myself up off the ground, Lauren pushes the door open and I just stand there staring at her with tears still rolling down my cheeks. She steps into the cubicle, shutting the door behind her and then leaning against it while I slide my hands into my pockets.

"What's wrong?"

"I-I don't know."

"Yes you do, just tell me what's wrong Demi."

"I still love her."

"Shit." She mumbles, running her fingers through her hair. "This isn't good, she doesn't do love."

"Yea I fucking know that, that's the whole reason she fucking left me!" I scream at her, throwing my arms in the air, Lauren grabs my hands and then stares into my eyes, fucking hell it's like she's staring into my soul, no stop it.

"Calm down, getting like this isn't going to help you, it's just going to make you even more upset and possibly make you want to use."

"I already wanted to fucking use!" I scream into her face causing her to glare at me.

"Disney if you scream at me one more time I swear I will fucking kill you."

"I'm sorry, I just blocked out how much I actually loved her, but now she's back and I just…I don't know." I mumble as she wraps her arms around me and my head rests against her shoulder. "I hate her.

"Do you really?"

"No, I love her."

"When did you realise that you loved her?" Jauregui asks, running her fingers through my hair.

Jennel wraps her arms around my waist and rests her head against my shoulder as we begin to slowly dance around my apartment. My arms are draped over her shoulders and my fingers are tracing over the back of her neck.

"Why are we dancing? There isn't even any music playing."

"So, you don't need music to dance Demi." She replies as we move backwards, she stumbles over a pair of shoes that I must have kicked off and not moved, but we end up lying in the middle of my lounge and she has her head on my chest and we're both giggling.

I place my arm around her shoulders as she slides her hand up my shirt and then traces shapes on my stomach. I lean down and press my lips against the top of her head and smile to myself because this is the only time that Jennel and I have been together and neither of us has been high.

"What's going through that little head of yours Lovato?" She asks, looking up at me and then bopping her index fingers on my nose before leaning forwards and then capturing my lips between hers causing me to smile against her lips.

"Nothing, I'm just thinking." I mumble against her lips as she pulls away slightly, I pout at her and she lets out a soft giggle, leaning forwards and then pressing her lips against mine again.

"Well what are you thinking about then?"

"I love you." I whisper, closing my eyes and then resting my head against the floor expecting Jennel to pull away from me, but she doesn't. She just softly kisses me again, brushing my hair out of my face.

"You too."

"Say it."

"I-I can't." She whispers against my lips, resting her forehead against my head as I place my hands on her hips.

"Okay."

"Is that it? Okay? You're not going to scream at me and kick me out because I can't say it back to you?" She asks, staring at me like a confused a lost puppy, which just makes me want to press my lips against hers and make her stop panicking.

"No, I'm not going to kick you out because I know that you want to say it but you just can't."

"How do you know that I want to say it?"

"If you didn't you would've got up and ran away the second I said it, but you didn't, you kissed me and right now that's enough for me." I reply, pressing my lips against hers and then smiling against her lips as I feel her arms slide underneath me and wrap around me.

"I do though."

"I know."

"I'm sorry."

"Shut up."

"So she didn't run away then?"

"No."

"I wasn't expecting that." Jauregui replies, running her fingers through her hair.

"She didn't run away straight away, she just stopped calling me as much, she stopped coming to my apartment as much as she used to and in the end she just completely cut me off, I started to get worse and she left me when I needed her the most."

"I kind of want to kill her."

"Yea don't do that, it's really not worth it plus you hate me."

"Disney I do not hate you, to be honest I'm starting to hate Jennel because she was a jackass."

"I would've preferred it if she did just leave when I first told her that I loved her." I mumble, leaning against the wall of the cubicle as Cabello and Frey walk into the toilets.

"Ay Disney, are you in here princess?!" Frey yells, causing Jauregui to groan before opening the door and walking out, pulling me with her. Cabello walks over to Jauregui and wraps her arms around her waist before resting her head on her shoulder and then smiling at me.

"What do you want Frey?"

"Just checking up on Disney, Cabello told me what happened and Jennel may have thrown a book at my head."

"Might make you a bite fucking smarter then."

"Bite me Jalapeño." Frey says to Jauregui, smirking at her and then smiling at me.

"It's fucking Jauregui."

"Whatever, come on Disney visiting is in a few minutes." Frey says, linking her arm through mine and then pulling me away from Cabello and Jauregui, who look like they're about to jump each other.

~~~
I walk into the visiting room with Frey walking beside me, her arm still looped through mine, which causes Marissa and Maddie to give me strange looks.

"Don't go running off when we're finished in here Disney."

"I won't." I reply, walking away from her and then sitting on the plastic fold out chair that's on the opposite side of the table Marissa and Maddie are sat at. "How did you get mom to let you come here Maddie?"

"I didn't tell her, Marissa ran away with me, but who the hell is that?"

"Um…Frey, she's nice." I reply as Jennel walks into the room, avoiding looking at me as she sits down across from a slightly older women and a teenage boy, who I'm assuming are her brother and sister. I keep my eyes on Jennel as she continues to avoid looking towards me; Marissa turns to see what I'm looking at before turning to face me again.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me, what the hell is she doing here?"

"Probably the same thing I'm doing here." I reply, causing her to glare at me before lightly slapping Maddie's arm because she laughed.

"No time for humour Lovato! Has she said anything to you?"

"Yes, there was screaming and crying." I answer, not looking at her because I know I'll end up telling her that I kissed her and she'd end up yelling at me, but also if I look at her she'll know that I'm not telling her something.

"What else? I know you're not telling me something."

"We kissed." I mumble, still not looking at her.

"What?"

"W-we kissed."

"Fucking hell Demi." She mutters as I lift my head up and look at her, she's running her fingers through her hair while Maddie is glaring towards Jennel.

"Can we not talk about this please, just be my best friend and not my mother. I miss you, I miss talking to you about stupid things and I miss you holding me."

"I miss you too Dem, I need you to get out of here because as much as I love Dallas she's not you, she doesn't do hugs like you do and I know you can't cook but Dallas is worse." Marissa says, pouting at me as Maddie continues to glare across the room at Jennel, who is still avoiding eye contact with me.

"Marissa Callahan you let Dallas cook? Maddie stop glaring." I say, Maddie turns to face me again and innocently smiles at me while Marissa tries to come up with an excuse as the why she let Dallas cook.

"Yea…but that's not important, how's prison life?"

"It sucks, apparently I'm now called Disney, my label have dropped me and my kind of sort of ex is in here with me…so basically I'm living in hell."

"You'll be out next year Dem."

"So, that's not the point, I want to be out now, not next year."

"You do the crime, you do the time Demetria."

"Maddie shut up before I get some butch prison lesbian to shank you." I say through gritted teeth, leaning over the table and then glaring at her, she sits back in her seat and crosses her arms over her chest.

"Whatever."

"So how's life with Bea?"

"They're happening; I don't know she has a fucking court date next week so you never know I could be coming to visit both of you in here."

"Wait, what has she done?"

"She may have beaten some sleaze bag into a pulp because he said something about her mom's and then something about me."

"I knew there was a reason I liked her." I reply, smirking at Maddie as she glances up at me,shaking her head and trying not to smile at me.

"Shut up, criminal."

"You love me."

"I have to, we're related."

"That's just mean Madison, I'll get Bertha to come over and beat you."

"Bring it on." She says, smiling at me and then resting her arms on the table.

"I like seeing you smile."

"I miss you Demi." She mumbles, pulling the sleeves of her hoodie over her hands and then playing with the cuffs.

"I miss you too."

"Oh so don't miss me, fine then I'll leave." Marissa says, pushing her chair back and then going to stand up.

"Sit back down; you know I miss you as well. I miss everyone."

"Including Max."

"Of course I miss Max; I don't feel safe in here without him." I whine, pouting at Marissa as she laughs at me. "Bring him with you next time."

"I will, he keeps whining about not having some annoying popstar to look after."

"He loves me."

"I mean maybe that's a little bit true, plus I think he's coming up with Nat when she visits." Marissa replies smiling at me, while Maddie begins to rock back and forth on her chair. I glance towards Jennel and she's staring at me, chewing on her bottom lip while pretending to listen to what her sister is saying. I smile at her without thinking about what I'm doing, which makes Maddie and Marissa both turn around and glare at Jennel, who suddenly looks away from me.

"It would be nice if you two didn't glare at her because I do have to live in here with her." I say through gritted teeth as they both face me again, attempting to look innocent.

"I hate her."

"You don't."

"Whatever, don't you two have to leave?" I ask, standing up and walking towards the door that allows the inmates to walk back into the prison.

"Demi where are you going?" Marissa asks, chasing after me and grabbing my wrist.

"You're annoying me, visit me next week, I love you but both of you are annoying little shits, bye."

"Bye Demi, I love you too." Marissa mumbles, wrapping her arms around me and then holding me against her as Maddie rushes towards us and jumps on me, resting her head against my shoulder.

"I miss you Dem."

"I miss you too, I'm sorry I let you down."