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A/N: I would like to thank NatalieLynn for your review, you're right, Charlie would have a conniption, lol. Oh and for the last chapter, for some reason it wouldn't let me write one of the usernames of a reviewer right so also thank you to asia . joanna . 7334 without the spaces. Enjoy this chapter!

When Jasper's bike came to a halt in the parking lot of Bella's school, everyone's eyes turned to her. That wasn't surprising though, considering she just arrived at school riding on the back of her ex-boyfriend's, brother's motorcycle. Yes, this was going to be an interesting day.

"I'll pick you up," Jasper said quietly before kissing Bella swiftly on the cheek, causing her to flush bright red and for Jasper to stiffen.

Bella took a deep breath, trying to control the book rushing to her face before nodding, flashing him a small smile then she turned around and headed off to towards the school.

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The only thing that made the day the least bit bearable was the promise to see Jasper again as soon as it was over. Other than that, it sucked. Bella ignored everyone except Angela. She ignored Jessica's questions, and Mike as he tried to walk her to class, quickening her pace so that they were no longer walking side by side. She also tried not to think about anything for too long, because those thoughts would always end up circling back to one particular Cullen. The one that used to walk her down these very halls every day, holding her hand.

But time passes, no matter how slowly it seems to go and eventually Bella found herself bidding Angela a quiet farewell, sounding almost as dead as she had before going to see Jasper.

When she walked out of the school though, and saw Jasper there, leaning against his bike, waiting for her, a huge smile spread over her face. Jasper smiled back and Bella had to stop herself from running over to him as fast as possible. Instead she fast walked to him just slow enough to not be deemed running.

"Well you're in a hurry," Jasper remarked as Bella hopped on his bike and held onto him tightly, ignoring the stares.

"I didn't exactly have the best day," Bella muttered as Jasper started up the bike and raced out of the parking lot.

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Bella sat at the kitchen table, working on her huge pile of homework. Jasper stood, leaning against the counter, watching her with amusement as she scribbled down answers as quickly as possible only to erase them so hard the the paper nearly tore and re-write them. When she ran out of eraser, which was after less than twenty minutes she didn't bother to get a new pencil out or get out one of her hand held erasers, she just resorted to angrily scribbling out her answers, earning herself several holes in the paper.

"And what did your poor homework ever do to you?" Jasper asked after another fifteen minutes of Bella's angry scribbling.

"Existing," Bella muttered as she pulled out her last worksheet.

"Uh Bella, you got number four wrong. . ." Japser said trailing off at Bella's angry glare.

"I. Don't. Care," Bella said before finishing the last paper as quickly as possible before shoving it into her backpack.

"Well, you're not in the best of moods," Jasper remarked and Bella glared at him, then her face crumpled, the broken expression returning and she sunk down to the floor and put her head in her hands, silent tears streaming down her face.

"I miss Edward," she murmured, "Don't Jasper," Bella said as he tried to send waves of calm and happiness over her, "it just makes it worse later," she added and Jasper stopped. Instead he sat down beside her and put his arm around her shoulder's, holding her close to him.

"I'm sorry," Bella whispered, "I'm being a idiot,"

"No you're not, I understand," Jasper said quietly, kissing her gently on top of her head, breathing in he scent of her hair.

They sat like that for several minutes, on the hard cold white tiled floor of the kitchen, Bella's head resting on Jasper's chest, Jasper's arm wrapped around Bella's shoulder, his head resting on hers, breathing in her scent. Then the moment was ruined.

"Charlie's here," Jasper muttered, standing up, but Bella clung to him, and he pulled her up with him, cradling her in his arms.

"Charlie would freak if he walked in and we were like this," Bella commented, smiling slightly as Jasper placed her in one of the chairs then he quickly, at vampire speed, sat in the one across from her just as Charlie entered the room.

"Hey Bells," he greeted his daughter, scanning her over to see how she looked that day, apparently deeming her well enough he glanced at Jasper, he nodded to him before disappearing into the living room.

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Bella sat on her across from Jasper, it was late, past midnight, but she was no where near getting tired.

"Bella you have school tomorrow-"

"Fuck school," Bella muttered cutting him off. She was silent for several minutes then she spoke again, tentatively, cautious, "Jasper. . .I want. . .I want you to change me," she said.

Jasper didn't answer right away, remaining silent. Bella watched him, trying to measure his reaction. He didn't look angry, so that was something.

"Bella. I am totally for you becoming a vampire, it's your decision, I see no problem with it. But I just don't think that I have the control," Jasper said at last.

"It's worth it. If I die, then I die," Bella said.

"Bella. Risking your life is not worth it," Jasper said and Bella sighed, tears coming to her eyes.

"I have nothing to live for anymore, Jasper," she said quietly, looking down at her lap. Jasper's heart broke again. He hated seeing Bella like this.

"Live for me, Bella. I need you," Jasper whispered, his voice pleading. Bella looked up into his warm honey-gold eyes, and was shocked at how many emotions she saw in them and she had to remind herself what she was trying to convince him to do.

"Jasper, please. . .please turn me," Bella whispered, leaning in closer to him.

"Not now, just give me some time, at least a few weeks, to hunt, to prepare myself," Jasper said, relenting.

"Thank you, so much," Bella breathed, silent tears streaming down her face. Jasper stared at her for a moment, hesitating, before leaning in and capturing her lips with his, pressing his smooth cold ones against her incredibly soft warm ones.

Bella froze for a moment at the unexpected the kiss, but then she found herself melting into Jasper's arms, entangling her hands in his hair, desperate to bring him closer to her.

Then Jasper was gently prying her away from him.

"I'm so sorry," Jasper said, "I shouldn't have-"

"Don't be," Bella said cutting him off, "I think I'll sleep now though," she added, laying down in bed and snuggling up under the covers. Jasper lay down beside her and to his surprise she cuddled up beside him, holding him close to her as she drifted off to sleep.

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"Bella! You need to get up! School!" Charlie's voice roused Bella from her slumber.

"I'm not going," Bella mumbled, her dead voice thick with sleep, "I'm just about done with school,"

"Bella. . ."

"Just go to work Dad," Bella said and closed her eyes again.

"Bella, I'm worried-"

"I'm fine," Bella said, cutting him off.

"Whatever you say," Charlie muttered then added, "If you don't get better soon I'm sending you back to your mother," before leaving the room. Bella sighed, tears beginning to come as she clutched her chest and curled up in a ball on her bed.

"Bella," a perfect voice whispered, a cool hand stroking her hair.

Bella sat up straight and looked Jasper into the deep butterscotch pools that were known as Jasper Cullen's eyes.

"I can't live like this," she whispered, "As soon as you turn me, I'm going to find Edward,"

Jasper nodded, "If that's what you want. I'll help you,"

A/N: Okay, so this wasn't the longest chapter, nor was it the best, but I have other stories to update and I think that it came out fairly well, there is a lot in it after all. Please leave me a review, they bring the updates on!

~~HP&TWFan