Yayyy!!! I'm on a roll. Anyways hope you enjoyed the last chapter. Like I said before I know I haven't updated in a while, but like I promised I would continue to add more chapters more frequently. Hopefully a lot of you agree but I feel since I am a few years older (:'( I'm not a teenager anymore, I'm a young adult....lol), I feel more confident in my writing so I hope you enjoy this chapter.
Disclaimer: Like I have said before I do not own any characters, except the one's I made up in my disturbed little mind :) That honour belongs to Naoko Takeuchi.
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"What the fuck......?" Haruka swore to herself and clutched her head in agony. Looking to her right she saw her dog. "Remind me to never do that again.........or maybe just in moderation." She said groaning, wanting her head to go away.
Haruka woke up the next morning feeling like shit. She had went out for most of the night and drank like there was no tomorrow; for almost 5 hours straight, not missing a beat when it came to consuming the massive amounts of whiskey.
'What time is it.....?' She thought looking over at the clock above her television in her bedroom. It was three in the afternoon.
'At least there's still a day left before the funeral.' Haruka knew that she was in no state right now to leave her apartment and do anything involving any type of movement or looking at any bright light.
She didn't want to remember the night before last. After leaving Setsuna's office she had went home. Not knowing how to feel or how to think at that moment, all she could do was curl up on the couch and cry. Her dog had tried to come and comfort his master, but to no avail, Haruka still stayed in the exact same ball for two hours.
The crying had come to be so overwhelming that it wore her out to no extent. It was around two in the afternoon and the blond realized she hadn't had any sleep for almost twenty-four hours. Just the thought of that time being so long ago, she just wanted to go back and to do everything different. She wanted to go to work with Tadashi and do the shift all over again. She wanted to tell him to forget about pulling over the van, to not worry about such a trivial traffic violation. She felt like everything was her fault. She should have protected him better; she should have been the one to die.........
Just then a mental picture of a very stern Tadashi pooped into her head. She knew the last thing Tadashi would have wanted was for her to think like that. He wouldn't have wanted her to mourn his death and act like an idiot. He would have wanted her to celebrate the time they had together. She knew he would say that he was going to retire soon anyway and that she had her whole life ahead of her; it's what he would have wanted.
The thoughts were coming to be too much. Everything swirled in her head, her head pounded with every passing second. It came to the point where everything came to be so much that she passed out on her couch.
Opening her eyes it was almost ten-thirty at night. 'I can't stay here like this.' That's when she decided to go out and drink to her hearts content. 'Maybe that will make the pain go away.' Without a second thought she had went and had a hot shower and left to go to the bar.
Thinking back to last night, all that drinking definitely didn't make the pain go away, it just added on extra unnecessary pain. Slowly getting up from her bed she slowly walked out to her bathroom and headed straight for the medicine cabinet. Everything around was blurry, not being able to concentrate on anything was becoming a pain in her ass. Popping open the cabinet, she grabbed out the aspirin bottle, or at least she was pretty sure it was the aspirin bottle and took a couple out. Closing the bottle back up, she put it back in. Taking the glass on the counter to her left she filled it with the tap water and popped the aspirin she had in hand.
Closing the cabinet back up, she turned the cold water on and splashed a good few handfuls of the rushing liquid onto her face. Feeling a little more refreshed she dried her face and put the towel back on the door hook. Finally being able to concentrate, she took a glance in the cabinet mirror, only to be horrified by the reflection looking back at her. 'I feel like shit, and man do I ever look like shit.' Thinking it might be best for her and her body she decided to have a really hot bath.
After about half an hour of soaking her muscles, she got out and patted herself dry. As if right on cue, her stomach made a loud gurgling sound. Thinking it was about time for dinner she quickly through on a pair of boxers and an undershirt and headed to the kitchen.
Not wanting to put much effort forth Haruka grabbed into her fridge and pulled out some left over noodles and sushi. "And I guess you're probably hungry as well?" Turning to Riyou, the dog looked like it was about to maul someone unless he got food. Turning to one of the cupboards Haruka opened it and grabbed out a can of dog food. Soon enough the food was in the dogs dish down on the floor and Riyou's face was immediately there to devour every little bit.
Heading out to the living room she plopped herself down on the couch, picked up the remote, turned on the T.V and started to eat her food. 'Maybe T.V will help me get my mind off of things.' Flipping through random channels, she stopped when she saw a familiar picture. There she saw a picture of the police station where she worked, so she turned up the volume to the T.V and found out she was listening to a news report.
"Tomorrow a funeral will be held for Tsukino Tadashi-Sama, a highly noted and very respectable police officer who died the other day from gunshot wounds. The suspects, still being sought.........................." Haruka's mind went blank; she didn't want to hear any more of it. The more the reporter talked, the more the anger welled up in Haruka. Before she knew it a loud crash filled the room. Snapping out of her trance she noticed that she had thrown the remote at the T.V in anger, but missed and ended up hitting the vase above the T.V, knocking it over and making it crash to the ground.
"Fuck............" That's the last thing she wanted to do, clean up a vase. Putting her food down on the table she picked herself up from the couch and walked to the kitchen to grab a broom and dust pan. Heading back to the living room she knelt down where the vase had fallen on the floor. Sweeping up the pieces of glass off the ground, she made sure to get every little piece that she could see. Finally satisfied she went to go back to the kitchen. With the next step that she took pain filled the bottom of her right foot.
"What the..........." groaning very loudly she sat herself on the ground and picked up her right foot and looked at the bottom, wearing to herself. There plain as day was a lot of blood and a long narrow piece of glass sticking out her foot. 'Tonight is not my night.' Rolling her eyes she picked up herself off the ground. Hopping her way on her left foot to the kitchen she grabbed a bottle of whiskey or what she thought would be the best 'pain medicine' and then made her way to the bathroom.
Opening the cupboard below the sink she took out the first aid kit and then sat herself on the side of the bathtub. Turning on the water she rinsed her foot off a bit. Taking the alcohol she poured some on her foot to disinfect it, only seconds later taking a swig of it to help with the pain in her foot. Pulling out tweezers from the kit she slowly took a hold of the glass and pulled out the glass as quickly as possible. With a horrible scream, she grimaced at her foot. Pouring more alcohol over her wound she grabbed a clean wash cloth and pressed it down on her foot. Thinking that was good enough the blond put some antiseptic ointment on her foot and bandaged it up with a roll of gauze.
'I just need to go to bed.' Turning her head towards her dog, "But first let's take you out to the bathroom so you don't go all over the place." The blond picked herself up and started to put everything away, putting a bit of pressure on her right foot as she walked trying to get use to the pain. It was becoming almost unbearable, so she grabbed a couple more aspirin from the bathroom and made her way to the front door with a dog leash.
After about ten minutes of taking the dog out and trying to fight through the pain, the blond limped her way back into bed. She could only think as to what tomorrow was going to be like. With a few blinks of the eye she slowly faded to sleep.
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It was only an hour before she had to leave for the cemetery. She sat on the side of her bed, head in her hands and police uniform lying beside her. Taking a deep inhale she picked herself up and started to get dressed. Taking one last look in the mirror she grabbed her wallet and her keys and headed out the door.
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Sitting in her car she watched as people poured into the cemetery, policeman and civilians alike. Thinking she should probably get out of her car, she opened her door and picked herself out. Walking towards the long concession of people she noticed Tadashi-San's wife, son and daughter. She had met them several times and they had become like a second family to her. She felt so sorry for them, thinking about the pain she was going through, she could only imagine that they must be going through hell and back right now.
She carefully approached them, bowing when she arrived, "Ikuko-san, Shingo-san, Usagi-san, I am very sorry for your loss. If there is anything I can do, please ask."
"You are very sweet Haruka-San," Ikuko stated with tears in her eyes, "But we'll get through this. Just promise me that you'll still stop by and visit. Also let me make you your favourite dinner for you, I know how much you love my cooking. It would be so lonely without you."
"Hai, it would be my pleasure." With a quick smile she excused herself. Noticing Setsuna, she walked towards her as the ceremony began.
"Thank you all for coming. We are gathered here today to celebrate the passing of.................." Blanking out every once and a while Haruka didn't feel like listening to the incessant ramblings of the priest when he hardly knew about the person he was talking about. Glancing around she noticed about half the police force was there, surprised that most were able to make it.
Snapping back into reality Haruka noticed that the ceremony was almost over. The casket was being lowered into the ground and scoops of the earth were being tossed on top. Right then the tears could not be held back, knowing that her former partner was being sent six feet under. Then the priest continued;
"The lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures: He leads me beside the still waters. He restores my soul: He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name' sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. Thou prepare a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; Thou anoint my head with oil; my cup runneths over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the House of the Lord forever. Amen"
A solemn "Amen" filled the grave yard and people began to clear out. The tears were burning even more she rushed as quickly as she could towards her car.
"Haruka, wait" She heard Setsuna's voice and as if she was at work obeyed immediately and stood still right in her tracks.
"Haruka, look at me" The green haired woman pleaded with the young blond. Turning around Haruka could see the piecing green eyes of her friend through the tears.
"How are you feeling?" Setsuna asked concerned looking at the woman breaking down in front of her.
"How do you think I feel?!" Tears started to stream down her face even more. "I feel like my heart and my head are being crushed all at the same time. I can't sleep anymore without seeing his face in my head or what happened that night. Please just leave me alone, I need the time by myself, so if you will excuse me."
With that Haruka rushed towards her car, hopped in and sped off towards her place, not wanting to interact with anyone for the next week and a half.
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Hope you all enjoyed that. I will continue to post more chapters when I can, usually about once a week. Anyways Review please :) Proz-Milo