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Slight recap for you:

"I-I…" Mello inhaled a bit sharply, looking down towards Matt, then bit down on his own lip sharply as he quickly withdrew himself from his friend and the bed below him, running off to the bathroom. Like he always did. Like he promised he wouldn't.

Matt stayed where he was, frozen in disappointment. No. No. He was not letting this happen again tonight.

With a short, drunken grunt Matt shoved himself off of the comfort of the bed. What was Mello so afraid of? Why couldn't the blonde, who was so forceful and so fast-paced on all other possible occasions, just throw him down and turn him inside out? He wasn't a virgin of any sort, that's for sure.

With a confused grumble, Matt flung the goggles from his head, sending them crashing onto the bedside table as he stumbled out of the bedroom. He had to change Mello's mind. He had to convince him that okay to fuck a dude. If that's what he was even afraid of, at least.

Mello slumped down against the cold countertop in the bathroom, resisting the urge to spew up the contents of his stomach into the sink due to his nerves about the happenings of only moments ago. He hated being on this never ending chain from hell- Go out with Matt, drink, almost get laid, bail, wake up with a hang over, pretend nothing happened. But he couldn't… bring himself to stop it. Of all the things he had done in his life, such as stealing and murder… he couldn't do something as simple as fuck his best friend, or should he say, "friend with benefits". He was nothing but a foolish coward.

"Ngh…" Mello grunted, running his tensed hands through his hair and gripping roughly. He leaned heavily on his elbows, his breath coming out in short, frustrated gasps. A loud knock came from the door and he gasped, moving away from the intimidating sound slightly.

"What."

"Mello. I'm coming in."

"…Okay." Fuck. Now he had to confront his fears face-to-face. What to say… what to say.

Matt pushed open the door and walked in, keeping his hand on the doorknob however, so that he might not topple over. He locked his green eyes with Mello's worry-filled blue ones, drawing in a deep breath.

"M-Matt… I-I-I… I'm sorry I don't know why I can't just… I-"

"Just shut the fuck up." Matt growled out, moving closer to his friend and putting his warm hands on his shoulders. "It's going to be fine." He soothingly assured as his nimble fingers worked their way down from the blonde's shoulders to his chest, slowly tugging down the zipper of his vest to reveal a fair amount of skin that lay beneath. "I promise." He said softly as he moved his thinner body closer and rests his aching hips against Mello's. He flashed the blonde a soft smile before pressing their lips together in a kiss, one his hand hands finding their way into the leather vest to trail along heated skin.

Mello mentally gasped and then smiled back slightly once he felt the other's tasteful lips against his own. He slid his strong hands along the gentle sides of the red head's body, kissing him back slowly. Maybe… maybe he could do it. Matt sure seemed to be confident about it…

"Let's go back to the bedroom." Mello whispered against the other's lips, pulling his smaller frame closer to his own.

Matt felt a flutter of excitement in his chest. Were they really… going to do it now? All the way? He looked at Mello and smiled, gently pulling the blonde away from the counter. He nodded his agreement and stumbled backwards slightly, grunting, then lead his friend out of the colder bathroom towards the warm, comfortable bedroom. He couldn't help but feel very excited for what was about to come.

The two drunken figures stumbled across the open room and towards the welcoming bed. With a swift motion, Matt imitated his earlier acts as he tugged the two of them down onto the sheets. He kicked off his shoes and laid himself down fully, pulling Mello over his heated body a bit eagerly. He craved the sensation of skin-on-skin and the hot pleasure that would soon overcome him; and for once, so did Mello. He found himself vacant of all the fears that previously possessed him and allowed himself to lie down atop his friend, rolling slightly to one side so that he could tug up the cloth of Matt's shirt and expose his smooth stomach. With a swift movement he cupped the red head in his hand and pressed down on his arousal, slowly and expertly rubbing and squeezing all of the right areas.

Matt took in a sharp breath as he felt the blonde's hand under the opening of his pants, the sensation causing him to arch his back slightly upwards and lay his head to one side. Nope, Mello was obviously not afraid of fucking a guy. He seemed to be plenty experienced with the customs… Regardless, though, he was enjoying the attention to the increasingly needy area of his body. His breathing hitched a second time as Mello's hand quickened its pace, the pleasure spreading throughout his body when he felt the hot, wet kisses along his neck. He let his breath out slowly, raising one of his knees against Mello's side softly, allowing the blonde better access to his steadily rising excitement. He couldn't wait to really get started.

As he felt the red head's thigh against his hip, Mello shifted. You can do this… you can do this. It'll be fine. He mentally assured himself as he sat up on his friend's hips, looking down at him with a confident, lust-filled grin. He ghosted his fingertips up the length of Matt's stomach, grabbing hold of the end of his shirt, then tugged the cloth up and over Matt's head and tossed it to the side. Afterwards, he unzipped his own vest the rest of the way and slipped it off of his toned body, letting his necklace remain in place around his neck. Matt had such a nice body… slim and broad, but not too toned and soft in all the right places; unlike Mello's firmer frame.

The red head sighed out as he was examined, the cool sheets feeling exceedingly nice against his pleading body. He moved his hips beneath the blonde's, silently begging for him to go further. Though, he hoped Mello had topped before. It'd been a while since he'd been on the receiving end and he wanted this to end up pleasurable rather than excessively painful.

"What're you waiting for, babe?"

Mello cocked a brow slightly at the pet name, a soft flutter rushing through his body. Matt had never called him 'babe' before… He smiled a bit hotly and slid his hands down Matt's exposed body to rest on the waistband of his loose jeans. Maybe… they really will stay 'all the way' after tonight. Either way, he didn't think Matt would appreciate waiting any longer.

With a soft sigh Mello tugged down Matt's pants, his boxers going down as well in the process. He then, as quick as he could while drunk, removed his own pants, unable to keep himself from stealing glances of the red head's fully exposed body. He tucked the image away in his mind and freed his own arousal from the confines of his boxers, rolling over to face Matt immediately afterwards. He didn't fear it anymore; he was excited and eager.

Matt let a quiet groan escape his lips as the cool air collided with his nude body. He was glad, though, that his boxers had been removed. They were becoming quite uncomfortable…
He spread out his legs slowly as he awaited the sweet contact that he was sure to receive. The red head wanted so badly for Mello to take him in his hands… to ravish him until he just couldn't stand it anymore. He watched Mello's hands as they ran along his smooth thighs, breathing in slowly and deeply when he felt the touches that he desired so much. He tipped his head back slightly, his hips softly pressing upwards into the blonde's firm hold.

"Fuck yeah…"

Mello sighed out, his breathing hindered slightly from the pleasure that erupted through his body as he felt the heat of Matt's arousal in his hand. God… if he'd have known how much he would have enjoyed this… he might not have held off for so long. But that didn't matter now. He focused on the situation, casting his gaze down to his fingers that were wrapped around his friend and moved them, smoothly dragging his hand up and down the length. Heh. His new goal was to hear Matt moan; he decided as he quickened his pace and ran his free hand along the base. He watched Matt's muscles tensed and relaxed as he squeezed and tugged in different places. He couldn't do this for long, though. His body was already screaming at him for spending as much time on it as he had.

Fuck. Matt sighed out heavily, his hips occasionally moving against the blonde's hand in attempt to maximize the amount of pleasure gained from each of the strokes. He looked down his body, watching Mello's strong hands work him and then inhaling softly as he watched the blonde dip his head down. No… he wasn't going to… would he? Matt watched intently, feeling a shock of pleasure go through him when blue eyes locked onto his own. It wasn't a moment later that he felt Mello's wet tongue slide firmly and teasingly slow across the top of arousal, sending trembles of pleasure through his lower body.

"Oh my fucking God." He groaned out as his muscles tensed, then bit onto his lower lip and watched as Mello slide his tongue over the top again, then again, before wrapping his thin lips around the head, sucking in slowly and letting it pop out of his mouth. Not once did his eyes leave Matt's, which turned him on like nothing else could.

Mello smirked at his friend's pleading expression. Who knew you tasted so good? He thought as he withdrew his hands and moved onto his knees, placing his firm hands under the red head's thighs and pushing them upwards slightly. He wouldn't tease him any longer, he decided. It was finally time to get what they'd been meaning to do for a long time, done. He slid one of his long, slender fingers into his mouth and ran his tongue along it before dropping the same hand back down to the opening. He watched Matt's face as he slid a finger inside, smirking softly and sliding in a second one. He could feel how tight his friend was… and that tightness would be wonderful in a few moments…

After he'd sufficiently loosened the opening, he leaned over the red head's slender body and gave him a smooth, slow kiss. He asked Matt for his approval and once granted, he moved onto his knees properly again. Now… slow and steady, right? That would be hard… considering he was very.. well.. hard. He'd try his best, though.

Okay… okay okay. Mello inhaled slowly and held it for a moment, positioning himself against the hot entrance of the red head, then slowly pressed his way in, the tightness around his arousal causing soft sounds to occasionally escape his lips. Matt, however, was concerned that he very well may be torn in two. Mello was definitely larger than he'd anticipated and he had to hold back grunts of discomfort, letting the entire length sink its way in before letting out a deep, heavy sigh. He could only imagine what this moment would have been like had they not been intoxicated…

Mello groaned softly, the tightness that wrapped around him being almost unbearable. He slowly and softly rubbed his hips against the red head, letting him get accustomed to the new addition before he attempted to actually move. After all, he wanted to pleasure his friend, not torture him. He studied Matt's face in the dark, soon coming to the conclusion that it was safe to try and move in which, he did, slowly drawing himself out before pushing back in again. After a couple of these test motions he began a comfortable rhythm, thrusting his entire length each time. His body moved in a fluid motion with his thrusts and after a little while he shifted, leaning his body over Matt's and resting his weight down onto elbows, which he propped right above Matt's shoulders.

With a soft, raspy groan Matt raised his knees slightly, focusing only on the pleasure he received and ignoring all stings of pain. He slid his smooth hands up the blonde's bare sides and onto his back, gripping gently as the pleasure from each thrust started to increase. God this position made him even hotter… all he could feel was Mello as he nearly closed his eyes, his breathing coming out in short pants and his hands running up and down the blonde's strong back every so often. He wouldn't last long like this… not long at all.

Mello sighed out against the other's neck a bit shakily, his pace quickening. His breathing faltered slightly as he felt lips against his neck. He gave an extra hard thrust and turned his head inwards, kissing along the red head's jaw and trailing to his ear, sucking in on the soft spots he grazed over. He tangled his hands in Matt's thick hair, kissing and nibbling along his jaw line. He was close. He could feel it.

Matt began to thrust his hips upwards to meet Mello's as he could feel his climax approaching. As much as he wanted to feel the bliss of his orgasm, he couldn't help but also wish that their moment could last longer. He loved being this close to Mello… to be able to feel him move inside of him. Hopefully they'd be able to do it again after tonight. His breathing hitched as a white hot flash of pleasure shot through his senses. He pushed all thoughts back of his mind and focused on one: He was about to make a mess.

"F-Fuck… Mello, I…"

Mello quickened his pace as he heard the pleas of his friend, thrusting quickly and fully until he finally heard the sweet, awaited sound of Matt's moan. It was the perfect moan as well, he concluded. Airy and deep, it definitely was one of the most erotic things he'd ever heard. The red head whimpered quietly beneath him, shoving his hips upwards as they shook in orgasm, mentally having to grip his consciousness as his body was wracked with pleasure.

"Fuck-", Mello was cut short as his pleasure peaked from the increased tightness around him, causing him to lose all hopes of holding onto the moment for any longer. He pressed down onto his friend as he spilled into him with short, breathy sounds escaping his clenched teeth.

And then…

Just like that, it was over. The two of them lay together in a hot mess, panting and touching as they willed their bodies to calm down. Mello slowly removed himself from the other, but other than that, did not change his position above Matt. He relaxed himself down onto the smaller frame of his friend and sighed out slowly, drawing his arms down from around his neck to rest more comfortably on either side of his chest. He wanted nothing more at the moment than to relax and fall asleep curled up on Matt's chest.

Matt breathed out heavily as the blonde lay down on him, allowing his legs to slowly relax down onto the sheets. He fluttered his eyes open and trailed his fingers through Mello's thick, messy hair before tugging up one of the blankets to cover their nude bodies. There was one last thing that he needed to do before he slept, though.

Where were they…

Matt directed his gaze to the nightstand, smiling lazily when he saw the last cigarette that remained in his pack. He reached over and caught it between his fingertips, grabbing his lighter and ashtray as well and laid them on the bed next to himself. With a soft smile he put the end of the cigarette between his lips before lighting it and taking a slow, long drag. There… he thought, blowing the smoke out into the air. He just had to make sure he didn't fall asleep with the damned thing in his mouth.

Mello shifted against his chest when he heard the click of the lighter, turning his attention to the red head's face as he watched him blow out the smoke. He'd admit, he always thought Matt looked extremely sexy when he smoked, this time being no different. He watched him smoke for a few moments before bringing his hand up casually slow and taking hold of the red head's wrist. He massaged his fingertips up into the palm of his hand and gripped it, pulling the hand to his own lips and taking a drag from the cigarette. He didn't usually enjoy smoking, but he'd occasionally share a cigarette or two with his friend if he felt the urge.

Smiling lazily, Matt watched as his friend released the smoke from his lungs and took one last drag for himself, putting the cigarette out afterwards. He was too tired to have confidence that he'd actually finish it rather than fall asleep halfway through and set the bed on fire.

But for now he would focus on only two things: sleep… and the beautiful blonde that he held in his arms. Maybe from now on… things will be a little different.

He couldn't wait to see what the morning would bring.

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I'm sure this is the chapter that most of you readers have been waiting for, lol. Speaking of readers, though, I'd like to thank all of those who have been sticking around since I had only the first chapter up. Thanks guys! You're the reason I enjoy writing this so much. :)
Random info: I listened to "Loose Threads" by Jonas Sees in Color on repeat for the entire time that I wrote this chapter e_e ..the singer's voice makes me think of Matt. Anywho! I'll get the next chapter up as soon as I can ;)