I hope you like this new chapter^^ Yeah... Kendall wasn't prestent that much until now and won't be too much in this, too xD

And... I... added... some... smut-like... part xDxDxD It's really short and I totally felt naughty and embarrassing... Maybe this feeling will go away in future? xD

Oh and I changed a bit in my "writing style" xD Alex' thoughts are now in italics... Whoooooooaaaaaa... xD

Go, enjoy :3

Chapter 4: Avoiding... Me?

I didn't know how I got through the next week, but somehow it finally was Friday when I sat at the set of the tv show where I portrayed one of the main characters. Accidently I messed up many parts of my script [thinking of someone else] and the director told me to look through it again. I was just about to finish rereading when my talent manager came to tell me, that I needed to go to school until I'd get 18. I didn't hate school, so this was no problem for me and he told me that the Palm Woods had a school I could attend and I was fine with it.

Back at home in the evening I was as tired as never, but still nervous about the next day. I hated being nervous, both because of fear and anticipation, and I felt a little nausea rising in my stomach. "Come on, Alex! It'll be allright tomorrow.", I said loudly to myself.

But I needed some distraction though. I turned the TV on and watched some movies until it finally was 10pm, a bit early to go to bed on a Friday, but I wanted to be completely well-rested on the next day. Earlier that week, Camille told me that the guys would love to go to the mall, especially James because he needed some new bandanas, and that we'd catch the guys at 12am at the mall.

When the alarm clock rang I was already awake and I stopped the clock. But I stayed in bed and I felt again anticipation rising... but this time in my pajama pants and I closed my eyes. I let my hand slide into them and felt my member hardening. I imagined Kendall's beautiful lips would touch mine and immediately I was rock hard. I stroke lightly with one finger along the shaft still imagining the gorgeous boy's touch as I felt my body shivering.

Suddenly a loud knock at the apartment door made me stop and I ran to it trying to cover the tent in my pants. I opened the door a bit hiding my crotch behind the door as I saw Camille. "Hey Camille.", I greeted her.

"How about grabbing something to eat before we go to the mall?", she asked. "I also asked Jo."

"Oh well... would it be okay if I took a shower before that, I just woke up.", I asked back.

"Sure, Jo and I said we'd meet at 10:30 in the lobby. There's a nice breakfast restaurant next to the Palm Woods"

"Sounds great, see you then.", I answered when I closed the door.

At 10:30 I exited the elevator [Too lazy to use the stairs] as I ran into Camille and a blonde nice-looking girl. They both wore some smart-casual shirts and Jeans and I, myself, wore tight grey jeans, a simple white v-neck longsleeve and white-grey sneakers. By the way, my hair was rather short and brunette.

"See, I told you he was good-looking, Jo.", Camille said to the other girl. "Alex, this is Jo."

When we finally went having breakfast, I got to know that Jo also had a crush on Kendall, but she didn't knew I did. But accidently [I at least hoped it was accidently] Camille invited Jo to go to the mall with us, too. Later at 11:30 we headed back to the Palm Woods to get my car [The producer said I needed some more freedom] and we drove to the mall.

We sat in the lobby of the mall when three guys were heading to us. I recognized Logan, but Kendall wasn't between them and I felt my heart getting a little crack.

The girls greeted them and introduced me to the guys.

"So you were the one under Camille's table, weren't you?", Carlos said giggling.

"Yup.", I answered. "And I know you're in love with your helmet so you'd better watch over it, otherwise I'd..."

"Otherwise you'd do what?", the latin asked appalled.

"Chill out, that was a joke.", I immediatly tried to calm him down. Carlos seemed to be a little bit childish to me even though he was 16... and hot.

"So, where's Kendall?", Jo asked trying to hide her disappointment.

"His mom took him with her to run some errands. But he'll be here in about ten minutes.", James, the pretty one, said.

"So, I suppose we're going to wait?", I asked them.

"Sure.", Jo answered in their place enthusiastically.

Painful ten minutes went by when everything started to happen in slow-motion once the door to the mall opened. Kendall wore tight black jeans a white v-neck shirt and a grey chemise, his sandy brown hair streaming in the wind. He [still slowly] walked towards us and I forgot everything and just stared at him. Once he arrived I snapped back into reality, because Carlos smacked me shocked. "Hey dude! You need to breathe! You're totally pale."

As he said this I felt my body aching for air and I took a huge breath of it. Kendall looked at me confused. "Hey, I think I know you."

"He was the guy under Camille's table.", Carlos explained him.

"That's not what I meant." He smiled.

Oh my gosh... what an awesome smile... And he's smiling at me!, I thought happily. But the latin boy smacked me again. "Breathe."

"Oh... Oh, y-yeah. I-I was the one who knocked at your door... b-by mistake.", I managed to say.

Suddenly his smile disappeared and he turned around. "So, James, you wanted new bandanas, then let's search for them. Wanna come with us, Jo?", he said grabbing both James and Jo's hands heading to some stores.

My world fell apart. Did he notice it? Of course he did, it was more than obvious! Does he hate me now? I felt my eyes watering, but I tried to avoid tears succesfully.

Camille didn't notice my pain, she had only eyes for Logan. "So, what are we going to do?", he asked her. "Bookstore?" She nodded and they left.

Now only Carlos and me where left.

"Helmets?", I asked.

"Helmets.", he answered. His obsessions for helmets made me smile. Perhaps he can distract me from Kendall...

After trying some on, Carlos bought about five, even though I knew, he would never replace his 'one and only' hockey helmet by them. I only bought a funny hat saying "I 3 LA" for my dad and we left the store.

"So, you guys go to the Palm Woods School, don't you?", I asked him while he bought some Hot Dogs for us. "On Monday I'll join you and I hoped to sit next to someone I knew.

"Yeah, cool.", he answered simply and bit off half of the Hot Dog.

"Guten Appetit*.", I said and did the same.

Later we met the other's again, but Kendall and Jo were already gone. James told us, that Kendall didn't feel well and Jo wanted to accompany him. After he said that my heart broke apart with an audible crack.

"Breathe.", Carlos remembered me again and I obeyed.

"I want to go home", I said. He fucking hates me. "I don't feel that good either." Why is this always happening to me? "Is that okay for you?" I'm so fucked up. "I can drive you home though" I'm worthless.

"That'd be nice.", Logan said. "I think Mrs. Knight wouldn't be that happy if she had to pick us up, too." I'm nothing.

When we finally were at home we all said our good-byes and left for our appartments. I sat down on the couch and stayed there not moving for what felt like hours. When it was 8pm I went to bed with red eyes, the tears were used up hours ago.

Lol yeah... Alex always goes to bed a bit early... xD That will change, promised xDxD

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, even though the end was quite 'dramatical' xD Kendall and Alex will get together soon, don't worry :3 Oh and btw: I wanted to use the word "nausea" so badly xD That's one of the most stupid English words I've ever seen xDxD

Carlos: "Don't forget to review!"

Yup, Carlos reminds us of everything, doesn't he?

Bye :3

Edit: Lol... Not one single person reviewed... Duh... *cries* I'll continue though :P

*Enjoy your meal.