Trinity
Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto nor its characters. © Masashi Kishimoto
Warning: language, mention of homosexual relationships, lemon, mentions incest, etc.
Chapter 3 – "Angel in disguise"
You save my soul
But you make my heart go blind
My devils rage inside - just can't let go
Cause it feels so right
You make my heart go blind
Angel in Disguise - Cinema Bizarre
May 1st, 2012 (Tuesday) – 07:30am
Uchiha-Uzumaki Household – Konoha, Japan.
The day began the same for everyone in the house, except for Kurama who was still peacefully sleeping. The four men woke up and headed for the kitchen to have breakfast together as it was usual.
"Good morning sunshine!" Deidara sang to his sleepy son, always the last to wake up.
"Morning dad." He mumbled and yawned, looking around the kitchen. "Where's Kura?"
"Sleeping." His father answered, guiding the boy to the table.
Naruto frowned. "Why?" his brother never slept in.
"Cause he didn't sleep very well last night." He explained "But noyou can't skip for the same excuse Naruto." Deidara quickly added, seeing the blue eyes of his son sparkling with mischief.
He closed his mouth and pouted. "That's not fair! What if I didn't sleep well last night too?"
"I could hear you snoring from my bedroom, moron." Sasuke said from the fridge, getting himself milk and ice tea.
Naruto pouted, crossing his arms on his chest and just sat on the chair, waiting for his father to prepare his breakfast. No, he wasn't spoiled, definitely not. Maybe just a little.
Sasuke looked at Deidara, who was slightly limping, and then at his father, who proudly smirked making the boy grimace in disgust. Itachi laughed and kissed the top of the raven's head. "Now, you should thank for the sound proofed walls, son." He whispered, gaining a blush from Sasuke.
"Ugh, thanks for the info, father." He said out loud in sarcasm, his nose wrinkling in disgust. He absolutely didn't need to know about his fathers' nightly activities.
"What?" Naruto asked out of curiosity as he only heard Sasuke, the blond head perking up in attention.
"Hn." Both ravens said in unison, dismissing Naruto's questioning.
"Don't mind them, son." Deidara said, a small blush on his cheeks and an angry vein popping on his forehead at his husband's indiscretion. "Here, I made you pancakes." He handed the plate to Naruto and sat beside Itachi, kissing his cheek as he handed him his coffee.
"So…" Naruto finished the pancakes in record time. "Why did Kura sleep badly?"
The two elders shared a look, but Deidara decided to be honest with the boy. "He had a nightmare, but I don't know what he dreamed. Kurama is feeling down lately. I think the two of you…" he emphasized looking at Naruto and Sasuke. "…should talk to him."
"Hn"/"Ye-yes." They said together, averting their eyes.
Naruto stared at nothing for a long time, thinking about his brother and what could be bothering him. He wondered if he had done something to Kurama, but he couldn't think of anything, no pranks or insulting from him lately. Naruto wondered if it was someone his brother was dating, but then he was sure the oldest would tell him and honestly, Kurama was never bothered by his dates, be it boys or girls. Without reaching any conclusion, the boy gave up for the time, sighing deeply.
"You better hurry or you'll get late… again." Sasuke reminded him, swallowing the last piece of his bread.
"Huh? Huh?" He blinked and looked around. Naruto was so sure he was early that morning. "Wait, where's my dad and Itachi?" they were there just a second before.
"Gone for a while already, idiot."
"WHAT?! I was gonna ask for a ride! How am I going to school now?" he whined dropping his head on his hands.
"Go like you usually go. The old men never drive you." Sasuke shrugged as got the keys for his car.
"Kura drives me, bastard." He explained, freaking out at the thought he would never get to school on time. "Now I can't go and dad will kill me if I don't go, but it's his fault for abandoning me, his own son, his blood and flesh…"
Sasuke rolled his eyes at his brother's drama. "Come on then, you may not care about being late but I do, idiot."
"Huh? Are you gonna give me a ride?" his blue eyes shone in hope.
"But hurry or you can go by foot." He smirked, watching in amusement as Naruto ran to his bedroom to get his things.
Sasuke placed the plates and cutlery on the sink as he waited for Naruto. Leaving the house, the blonde jumped on his brother's back as soon as they closed the front door. "Ah thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, Sasuke you're awesome!"
"Yeah. Now get off of me."
"But Sasukeee, you're so comfy." He wrapped his legs around the other's waist and leaned his head on the raven locks, breathing in Sasuke's shampoo.
Sasuke rolled his eyes, but smiled, getting the blonde's knees for support, taking him to his car. The raven enjoyed that, how Naruto's arms encircled his neck and how his body was warm on his back, how he could think Naruto's breath on the back of his neck, bringing shivers to his body.
…
Naruto looked outside the car's window, watching the moving landscape. "Hey Sas?"
Sasuke hummed absentmindedly, his thoughts were far, concentrated on Kurama, on what he heard the day before, wondering how he should react after listening everything he did. He didn't have only Naruto's confession to deal with, but also… Kurama was talking in his sleep, not exactly talking.
Sasuke bit his lower lip as he remembered his brother's moans of his name, of Naruto's name. He could still feel his skin burning where Kurama touched him in his dream, feeling and roaming through his body as he moaned his name, asking for more. Sasuke's head still echoed the growls his older brother produced as he begged Naruto for pleasure, driving him insane to listen to the redhead's confession.
"…so, what do you think?"
"Hn."
"Hn? That's all you have to say, bastard? Oh I should have known. Have you been paying attention at all?" he frowned, frustrated, Naruto had been talking on and on and Sasuke wasn't even listening.
Sasuke sighed "No, I have too much in my mind. Sorry, Naru, what was it?"
Naruto rolled his eyes but spoke again, now sure his brother was listening to him. "I said we should talk to Kura when we get home, I'm worried about him. But then I remembered I have to finish a project with Kiba, so I was going to his house, but I don't want to go, then Kiba still owes me for setting him a date with Hinata… But I'm not sure if I want him to make the entire project on his own, I need a good grade on it, I could ask Hinata but I'm not sure. So, what do you think I should do?"
Sasuke looked at his brother from the corner at his eyes. "Hinata's still dating that mutt?"
"Yep." The blonde saw as his brother frowned, displeased to hear the news, he laughed at how grumpy Sasuke looked. "If I didn't know better, I would say you are jealous of her."
"I am jealous of her. I like the girl." Not that he hated Kiba, but still, it was Kiba.
"WHAT? I thought you were like 100% gay! What do you mean you like her?!"
Sasuke rolled his eyes at Naruto's sudden outburst. "I like her as a sister, moron. I'm jealous of her in a brotherly way." He explained, thinking in the back of his mind that his notion of brotherly love were at least distorted. "And yes, I'm 100% gay." The raven winked at Naruto making him blush.
"Oh. But you didn't answer me! What should I do Sasukee?" It wasn't like his grades mattered more than his brother, but it was that day he couldn't.
"Go to Kiba's. I'll talk to Kura."
"But I wanted to talk to him too, it's not fair!" What he wished was that Sasuke excused him from his project with Kiba, so he could talk to Kurama. "You guys always treat me like a little kid. I feel you keep me out of everything!"
"That's not true." He said calmly, but his hands gripped the wheel harder. "I'm just saying you shouldn't worry about it, it's better for you to go to Kiba's and relax. Besides I want to talk to Kura alone." He reasoned, knowing though how he and Kurama underestimated the youngest many times.
Naruto's disappointment was hidden by his blond hair. "I see."
The rest of the trip was quiet. Sasuke parked in front of Naruto's school and hopped out of the car to open the door for the blonde, who had spaced out again.
"We're here, moron."
He blinked and quietly got out of the car. "Thanks." He said as he passed Sasuke, but was pulled back by his shoulder.
"Naruto…" but the blue eyes were glued on the floor. "Naru, look at me." the blonde complied. "Don't be like that. I just don't want you to worry too much. I know sometimes we are overprotective, but you're our baby brother. We want you to be safe, God, I don't ever want to see you in a hospital bed again. Just please, understand it."
Naruto nodded and hugged Sasuke tightly. Both boys felt their hearts beating faster. Sasuke's arms hesitantly wrapped around the smaller boy, keeping him to himself, from the world, just his, safe in his arms. The raven closed his eyes and, for a small instant, let himself be selfish, breathing in the blond hair, pretending they were lovers, nothing more or less complicated, just…
"I'll be late if I don't go now." Naruto whispered weakly, unwilling to let go, but also feeling guilty, a pain in his chest for holding the other.
"Ye-yeah. You better hurry." Sasuke sighed and slowly let go of the boy, stepping back. He run his hand through the blond locks, then to the whiskered cheeks. "Go to class… Don't worry about anything… Just… Just let me take care of you, Naru."
The boy nodded, knowing it was the best to do. "Take care of Kura for me, too. Just today… he's always…"
"…taking care of us, I know." They shared a small smile.
Naruto leaned forward, planting a small kiss on his brother's cheek as goodbye. Sasuke stood there just watching his little brother's back, walking farther from him. He sighed and hopped inside his car again, too much on his head.
…
Sasuke grunted, unwilling to explain the reason he skipped the first class to the approaching school's principal. How had he found him in the roof? Nobody went there. Nobody!
"Hello Mr. Uchiha."
"Professor Orochimaru." He acknowledged the man.
"Please follow me to my office."
"Yes sir."
…
"Please have a seat." Orochimaru gestured for the chair across his table and walked to his window, strangely straight and tense.
"Care to explain the sudden formality and lack of pedophilia?" Sasuke smirked, wondering what was wrong with his professor.
The yellow eyes narrowed as he closed the window. The man turned to Sasuke and dropped on his own chair with a long sigh. "Don't say it. Not even as a joke."
Sasuke's arched an eyebrow. "Why?"
Orochimaru looked around and shook his head. "I'm being monitored."
The boy blinked. He knew Orochimaru was eccentric, weird, a bit of a pedo, but as far as he knew, he wasn't a bad guy, not enough to be monitored for something. "What happened?"
The man gritted his teeth in ager. "Some kid told mama and daddy about me and Jiraiya and my suppose interest in little boys." He spat. "Now I'm a risk to their beloved sons' 'integrity'. They are monitoring me for any suspect act, just ready to arrest me under pedophilia."
"Aren't they way too serious about it? It's just a joke." Maybe it wasn't something to joke about, but Sasuke knew it wasn't harmful. Orochimaru was always respectful and considerate to his students.
"Unfortunately, they don't see it this way. Pedophilia is indeed a serious matter, but say it, have I ever touched you inappropriately? Have I ever harassed you?"
"No. You just joke about it. I know it's not serious and if I felt uncomfortable I know you'd stop."
Orochimaru thought for a moment with his finger on his chin, but dismissed his murdering thoughts for the time. "Anyway, Sasuke, we're not here to discuss my problems, but yours."
"Hn." Sasuke looked away. For a moment, he had hoped his professor and principal would forget about it.
"So…? Care to explain your absence in the first class Mr. Uchiha?" he asked seriously, returning to his role as principal.
"I was late. Didn't feel like going, just this." He shrugged, avoiding his eyes from the creepy yellow ones that could always read between his lies.
"Why were you late?" He was patient.
Sasuke sighed "Because I had to drive my brother to school. I will not skip again, may I be excused now?"
"No… not until you tell me what's bothering you to the point you actually skipped Kakashi's class."
Sasuke was panicking. "I just felt like skipping, I was already late." Orochimaru could see right through him and that made him nervous, wanting to run.
"Sasuke, I know you, you are the most brilliant student here, and not because you are a genius as people think. You are brilliant because you try your hardest, you wouldn't forgive yourself for being any less than what you want to be…" He smiled at the shocked expression on the boy's face. "…unless there's a very good reason. And that, Sasuke, is what I want to know, as a friend, and not as your principal." he walked to the boy and put his hand on his shoulder with a serious, concerned look. "I know you wouldn't skip without a reason. Besides, you know Kakashi is always late, so that was a lame excuse."
"I don't want to talk about it. I just…" he gave up, knowing how Orochimaru wouldn't take any of his lies. "I think I heard a lot of things I shouldn't have yesterday." He confessed, frustrated.
"Maybe it was for the better, even if you weren't supposed to hear."
Sasuke hummed at the words "I guess…. I need time to digest it all."
"Mm, so that's why you skipped." Orochimaru nodded to himself and slowly opened the door of his office, satisfied with the boy's answer. "Sasuke, I think it's better you don't think too much about what's bothering you and concentrate on your classes… And if you want to talk about it, you can come to my office anytime, or to Kakashi's, I'm sure he'll help you with anything."
The boy looked away, a little embarrassed, and then he nodded. "Thanks." Sasuke smirked. "Professor… can I ask you something, it's a bit personal?"
Orochimaru narrowed his eyes "Ask."
"How's that a pedo like you is with a pervert old man like Jiraiya?" The smirk didn't fade, though his eyes held curiosity and wonder.
Orochimaru laughed out loud, truly amused by the question. It was a bit creepy how even his laugh had that hiss and huskiness his voice held, but Sasuke was used to that. "Are you sure you want to know?" the glint in the golden eyes definitely told Sasuke didn't want to know.
"Ugh, I don't want to know this stuff." He shivered in horror, cursing to himself the perverted old men around him. "Naruto is already scarred for a life thanks to the old man."
Orochimaru chuckled. "Jiraiya might be a pervert old man, porn-writer and idiot, but he always comes back home to me…" he had a small smile on his thin lips "… because even with all the girls he could get and all the fame he could have, he still chose me, he loves me and that's the same for me."
"Hn." Sasuke smirked, a bit shocked and impressed by his teacher's confession.
"And I can say with all the hardships we went through, it was worth it."
"Besides, it's very funny when they argue." Kabuto materialized on the open door, with some documents in his hands.
"Kabuto!" Orochimaru rebuked the young man.
Kabuto chuckled. "Sorry father but it's true. You try to resist, but dad always win with smooth talking. Hey Sasuke." He handed the documents to his adopted father as Orochimaru rolled his eyes. Sasuke only nodded in acknowledgment.
"Are these the papers I asked from Tsunade?"
"Yes, she said you should call her to discuss it further."
"Right." Orochimaru looked at Sasuke, who didn't know exactly what to do. Should he go to his class or wait? "Kabuto, could you accompany Sasuke to his next class? Tell whoever it is he was in my office." He turned to the raven. "Don't skip again or I'll make you read Jiraiya's work for Kakashi, understood?"
Sasuke sweaty-dropped. "Y-yes, sir."
"Good, now go, you don't want to miss your second class."
Sasuke nodded and went to his next class accompanied by Kabuto, whom he talked briefly along the way. He had a long and boring day ahead of him.
…
"I'm home." Sasuke left his shoes in the entry and went to the kitchen.
"Welcome back, dear." Deidara greeted from the oven, in his yellow apron as he cooked lunch.
"Where's everyone?" Sasuke asked as he opened the fridge to get something to eat.
"Itachi is still in the office, said he had a meeting so he'll come home only at night, Kurama went jogging, should come back soon, and Naruto went to a friend to-"
"Finish a project, he told me. You guys forgot him this morning." Sasuke grabbed an apple, but Deidara put it back in the fridge telling the boy the lunch was almost ready.
The blonde blinked as realization hit him. "Oh God, we forgot him! Oh God, I'm horrible, I forgot my baby!"
The raven rolled his eyes at the man's exaggeration. That was the reason Naruto grew up so spoiled. "I drove him… Besides, it was the idiot's own fault for not asking for a ride."
Deidara smiled and brushed a lock behind the boy's ear in a kind gesture. "Thank you, Sasuke. I don't know what I would do without your help. I think I would be an even worse parent." He resented.
The boy looked away. "You're not a bad parent for me." He mumbled with a small blush. Deidara grinned and kissed him in the top of his head in appreciation.
"Now, go wash your hands and set the table for me. Lunch is almost ready and your brother should be coming so we can eat together."
"Yes, mother." He teased and followed to the sink.
…
Deidara and Sasuke were talking – as in Deidara was talking and Sasuke was nodding – when the front door open.
"I'm home." Kurama yelled from the entrance.
"Welcome back, son." Deidara yelled back, moving around to finish lunch.
Sasuke felt his heart race uncontrollably to the sight of the redhead walking in the kitchen. Kurama had his hair pinned in a high ponytail; his shirt was off, showing the muscles in his chest and abdomen, glistening with sweat. The raven's eyes followed the trail of red hair from his navel to his black shorts showing a stripe of his white boxers. Sasuke licked his lips unconsciously and had to bite back a moan when those black eyes met his, adorned by his flushed face, not cute, but sexy. Sasuke watched in amazement the way his Adam's apple moved as he swallowed the cold water, feeling a light pressure in his lower abdomen. That was bad.
"You are looking like a tomato." He mocked in fake disinterest for his own sake, attempting to take his eyes and mind off the redhead.
"Bite me." Kurama teased back with a wink, appreciating how his brother's eyes roamed over his bare body.
"He will, Kura. Sasuke's obsession with tomatoes almost overcomes Naruto's with ramen." Deidara said playfully, choosing to ignore the small sexual tension in the air.
"It's a healthy obsession!" Sasuke defended as a matter of fact. No one talked about his tomatoes, no one.
Kurama ignored his little brother. "Talking about food, what's for lunch, dad?"
"Sukiyaki, korokke and we have cherry tomatoes on the fridge so if…" Sasuke immediately went to the fridge to get the red little fruits/vegetables. "… yeah, Sasu wants it. Don't forget to wash them first, dear." Deidara looked at his eldest son. "And talking about washing, Kura, can you take a shower so we can eat, you're smelly."
Kurama grunted in displeasure, and smirked "Dad, I don't recall listening to the magic wooord."
The blond man smirked back. "Sasuke, tell your brother the magic word."
"You stink, Kura." The boy said without taking his eyes from the bowl of washed cherry tomatoes with salt, oil and vinegar.
The redhead, defeated, ran to the bathroom to take a quick shower and eat with his family.
…
"Ah, oh man, I'm totally full." Kurama patted his belly. "The food was great, dad." Sasuke nodded in agreement with his brother. The food was delicious, especially those tomatoes for Sasuke.
"Thanks boys. Now, help me clean up here that I have to go to the office by 3:00 and I can't be late."
Growling in displeasure, the two quickly helped Deidara to clean up the kitchen. They thanked the blond man and waved him goodbye, waiting until his car was far for them to go elder's bedroom.
Kurama lay in his bed as Sasuke preferred to sit on the older boy's chair in front of his open computer. The raven absently opened his brother's e-mail out of habit. "You have five mails." He informed, going through the list of messages.
"Hmm…" he bathed in the laziness of post-lunch "… important?"
"Hmm, two from college about some project… one from Yugito about you losing a bet… one from some manga release and the last… who is Utakata?"
Kurma frowned until the name became familiar to him. "Just a guy I met at an online game."
"Hn."
"What does he want?" the redhead asked in curiosity.
"Mmm, the other night was amazing blah blah blah… I can't forget about you… I want to feel your- fuck Kura, you can't be that big!" Fine it had been a long time since Sasuke saw his brother fully naked, but still…
Kurama laughed in amusement. "You can bet I am, Sasu."
The raven rolled his eyes, dismissing those thoughts about his brother's above average penis and all the possibilities it brought. "Anyway, all in all, he wants a repeat and is asking for a date."
Kurama grunted "What's wrong with people? I thought the concept of a one night stand is, you know, to last one night?! Geez, I hate this kind of people."
"Hn. Should I answer?"
"Nah, just leave it I'll do it later." Or he would just ignore the guy. "Have you ever had this problem, kit?"
"No," He closed the mail and sat beside his brother on the bed. "I don't do one night stands."
"What?! No way!" Kurama sat up incredulous, knowing there were lines and lines of people throwing themselves at Sasuke's feet.
Sasuke rolled his eyes again "I'm not easy like you." He teased.
The redhead gaped at Sasuke's words "HEY! I'm not easy!"
"Oh please, Kura, admit it you're almost a slut." He smirked with that superior glance.
In a quick movement, the older trapped Sasuke on the mattress with his hands above his head, sitting in his stomach to prevent any movement form the raven. "Take that back!" His tone was playful though the distaste of being called a slut still showed.
"Or what?" Sasuke arched an eyebrow daringly.
The redhead narrowed his eyes and used his free hand to poke at Sasuke's stomach and sides, where he knew the boy was ticklish. The raven scolded and squirmed, trying to get free but to no avail. The older stopped for a moment. "Take that back."
"Never."
More tickles, more scolds, more squirming and one squeal Sasuke would deny until death let them laughing and breathless.
"You have to accept the truth Kurama. You… are… a… slut." The raven smirked, panting and a little flushed.
Kurama grunted. "I am not." Then he smirked. "Really Sasuke, you are under me, flushed, panting and trapped, now tell me, who's the bitch?"
Sasuke's smirk didn't fall. "So now I'm your bitch, Kura?" he said playfully, dismissing how the words had a funny and unexpected effect on him.
"Yep, you and Naru are my two little bitches." Kurama knew that if he were to say this seriously, he could never do it without blushing, but when it came to teasing, he could always keep his cool.
Sasuke snorted "Fine, enough calling us bitches, though you still haven't accepted your condition as a slut guy."
Kurama arched an eyebrow, hitting Sasuke lightly in the shoulder "First: you sound like the kit and that's disturbing. Second: Stop calling me a slut, I hate it."
"Hn. Then you should stop sleeping around." He was more serious, and so was Kurama, who moved up, freeing the younger. Sasuke couldn't see the fun of sleeping with people with no connection, just sex meant nothing for the raven.
"I don't sleep around as much as you say." Kurama reasoned. It wasn't like he fucked someone every day or even every weekend, but he enjoyed sex with no strings, nothing wrong with that.
"Oh Really?"
"Of course." He shrugged. Besides, he never cheated when was in a serious relationship.
"Then tell me how many people have you fucked?"
"Hmm, let me see… there was Konan, then Shukaku, Nagato… there was that girl Fuu, after that I met Yugito, and well there was a guy but I can't remember his name… mmm ah then Mangestu, and of course Anko and then Utakata. How many were, like… one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine! See, only nine." Considering he had dated 5 of them,
Sasuke looked at him incredulous, shaking his head. "I can't believe you fucked my best friend's brother and my teacher."
"Oh c'mon, Suigetsu was your boyfriend until last year. Besides I respected our rule of never dating your brother's ex."
"What about the rule never fuck your younger brother's teacher?"
Kurama chuckled, shaking his head. "Anko is too hot for that rule."
"Hn." Sasuke's nose wrinkled in disgust, knowing his Sex-Ed teacher had fucked his brother.
"Oh yeah, sometimes I forget you really don't like girls."
"Hn." Not that he hated girls, but he couldn't see the appeal in them.
Kurama lay in his bed lazily. "Say Sasu, you really never had sex with a girl?"
The boy looked uncomfortable, his fingers playing with the end of the bedspread "Actually I did, once." He confessed.
Kurama sat up in bed in a shriek "No fucking way! Who?"
"Hn." The raven didn't want to tell, he had already regretted telling his brother the simple fact he had had sex with a girl.
"Oh please, kit, please."
Sasuke rolled his eyes at his begging brother. "I'll tell you, but don't say anything about it." Kurama nodded. "It was Karin, but first let me explain how it happened… It was by the time I was going out with Sui." Sasuke told his brother. "He suggested we had a threesome with her so after some persuasion I agreed and that was it." His face was slightly pinkish and his eyes averted Kurama.
"Hm, I see." There was a small tense silence before Kurama mocked his little brother "So you're telling me you had a threesome and I'm the slut?"
Sasuke glared at him but wasn't even trying, so it came weak and useless. The raven sighed. "I guess it was from then on things between us started to go wrong. In the end I saw he liked her more than me so we broke up." He chuckled bitterly. "Thinking about it, all my relationships ended because the guy I was going out liked someone else… Neji, Suigetsu and even Haku… They all chose someone else over me."
"Don't be like that, kit." He ran his fingers through the dark locks, trying to cheer up the boy, hating to see him upset. "I can't see a reason for someone to choose anyone else over you."
Sasuke smiled a bit, but it was sad. "But they all still did it, Kura."
Kurama sighed. He knew Sasuke was different from Naruto, but he knew that differently from what people thought, the raven was more emotional than the blonde. Sasuke built a wall of indifference and coldness to protect himself from the others, but deep inside, the boy suffered alone from each break-up he had. When Naruto was able to easily move on, Sasuke was chained to the pasts with doubts of himself and silly insecurities.
"Sasuke… I know you loved each of them deeply, probably more than I or Naruto had ever loved our partners, but weren't you the same as them?" he said with a small smile
Sasuke's dark eyes looked up at him. "What do you mean?"
"I mean, didn't you also have someone else you loved the most, someone else you love the most?"
There was no point in lying. Kurama knew and Sasuke knew he knew who this someone else was. "Yes…" he confessed. "But it was different, we…"
"Please Sasuke, you and Naruto are not real brothers. I understand Naru acting this way, but you? Why are you suffering like that? If you were afraid of him not returning your feelings, you heard him confess yesterday, but you look even more troubled than you have been the whole time!"
Sasuke shook his head in denial. "No, you don't understand, Kura." He felt a lump in his throat. "Now that I know… now that I'm sure of his feelings, it's only worse."
"How can that be kit?" He couldn't understand, not when he felt rejected knowing their feelings for each other, not when he felt sick with himself.
He almost wished he was in his brother's place, to be able to be with the one you love the most, how can that be bad? Sasuke wasn't their real brother, yes, they grew up together and were treated as brothers since always, but it wasn't… wrong. Not as wrong as the feelings he had for his blonde baby brother and even if it wasn't wrong the feelings he had for the raven, he could suppress them for the youngers to be happy. If Sasuke and Naruto could be happy with each other and he knew they could, he didn't care his heart would be eternally broken, he would be happy, truly happy for his two kittens.
"Kura, there's something you don't know." Sasuke said seriously, looking his brother in the eye. "I overheard my father and Dei talking… I was just going to ask them to sign permission for school but then they were talking way too serious and I became curious…"
"Sasuke, you're not one to babble, what did you hear?" Kurama felt his heart beat faster, nervousness, anxiety and worry. What could he have heard to act so out of character? And deep inside, he knew what was, because of what his dad had told him the previous night, he knew but didn't want to believe.
"They were talking about your mother. At first I didn't understand when they said Kyuubi would want us to know the truth, but then… the truth is…"
"No…" It couldn't be. No. No. No.
The raven nodded "Kyuubi is my mother." He whispered in protective coldness.
Kurama shook his head. "No… It can't be; you can't be…"
"But I am." He laughed humorlessly, feeling his eyes moisturize with tears. "I'm your half-brother… yours and Naruto's."
"A-are you sure? Didn't you hear wrong?" It couldn't be. That was too cruel.
"No, Kurama, I'm sure, I'm absolutely sure… I-I went as far as running a DNA test." Because he denied it too, he was desperate for it to be lie, but it wasn't.
"Sasuke…" He couldn't be more shocked, so he swallowed. "For how long do you know it?"
"I heard them about two months ago, I got the test's result last month."
That explained why he was acting different, why he had stopped dancing around Naruto. That explained why he forced himself to stay at school for as long as possible, ignoring his blond little brother with petty excuses.
Kurama's mind decided to take another route. "How the hell did you get someone to run a DNA test?"
Sasuke blushed a bit, averting his eyes. "I asked Kabuto for help. We've been trying to find my biological mother for years now, so it wasn't hard."
"You were?" Kurama didn't know that, he just assumed Sasuke didn't care who his mother was.
"Eh, yes." He said embarrassed. In the beginning, it had nothing to do with his brothers, he just wanted to meet her, he could never expect her to be so close.
"I never knew you wanted to know your mother. And why didn't you simply ask Itachi?"
"I didn't want you guys to know, it was something I needed to find on my own" he explained. "Every time I asked my father about my mother he said she wasn't important, that he should be enough for me. But I still wanted to know."
"And now…"
"Now I wished I hadn't found out." Ignorance is bliss.
"I don't think you would have choice in the end."
"What do you mean, Kura?"
Kurama sighed as he looked at his brother's pained face. "My dad told me yesterday I should talk to Itachi, that he would tell me the truth about something in his life that would help me with… with something. I don't think they intended to let it a secret for long."
"Hn." Maybe it was for the best, when he and Naruto weren't involved. There was still time to go back, right? Right?
Many doubts circulated around the redhead's mind as "Sasuk, how the hell did you get my mom's DNA?" Kyuubi died when he was a toddler, it was too long.
Sasuke sighed "When Naruto almost… when he went to hospital two years ago, he had lost too much blood."
"Yeah I remember. It was the worst day of my life. To watch him so weak, so far, we almost lost him." He never felt so scared and useless in his life, to see his baby brother so close to death and being unable to help him.
"Don't remind me… He had lost too much blood and because he has a very rare blood type, we couldn't find a compatible donator. Until…"
"I see. Until my dad remembered that my mom had made sure to donate and freeze her blood if something happened." Kyuubi was the only with the same blood type as Naruto.
"Exactly and that's how I got her DNA."
"Oh God, I can't even think right anymore." Kurama stood up. "I guess our family is much more fucked up than I thought, eh?" He looked at his little brother and saw the sadness, the despair, the guilty swirling in his dark eyes. "So that's why you are feeling so bad, kit. But I don't think you should…"
"How can I not, Kura?!" he yelled, standing up to face his brother. "I feel… It's so wrong, I feel dirty, disgusted with myself! I don't want to feel this way! I want to love Naruto as my brother, but I… I… I can't" he finished on a defeated whisper. "I can't. I love him so much more."
The older held him securely in his arms, letting the boy calm down a bit, rocking his body softly in a soothing swing.
When Sasuke's breath returned to normal, Kurama pressed their foreheads together. "Ah Sasuke, Sasuke, you shouldn't feel this way." He ignored the part of his brain screaming 'hypocrite!' for feeling the same about himself. "I told it to Naruto yesterday and I'll tell you today… It's not wrong to love someone, Sasuke, if you're happy loving the kit, then you shouldn't feel bad about it."
"But I…"
Kurama shook his head. "No buts, Sasu. You love him, right?"
The boy sighed. "More than everything."
Kurama smiled, it was forced and a little sad, but a smile. "So don't worry about it."
Sasuke smiled. "You know Kura, Naru is right, you are the best brother in the world." He nuzzled his nose to his brother's. "But you should let us take care of you more."
The redhead laughed. "I know how to take care of myself, brat."
"But let us." His fingers entwined in the bloody locks. "We would be happy too. It feels like you're always solving our problems, but you suffer alone on yours."
Kurama sighed, distracted by the hands on his hair. "Fine, fine."
"Hn. Good, so tell me what's bothering you, Kura." Sasuke smirked as the other grunted in displeasure, parting from him to fall back on the bed.
"You don't need to worry about it, Sasu." He said softly. "I already feel better, really."
Sasuke arched an eyebrow crossing his arms over his chest. He didn't believe Kurama one bit.
"It's true, kit. After I talked to my dad I felt better and I'm cool, serious."
"But I want to know…" yet he already knew. "Is it about me and Naruto?"
Kurama laughed nervously, scratching his neck "Hmm yeah, kinda."
"Tell me, 'Rama, please."
The redhead smiled to the old nickname, one Sasuke rarely called him. "It's foolish." The raven only stared at him expectantly until he gave up and sighed. "Fine… it's just that sometimes I feel left out with you and Naruto." The younger blinked in surprise so Kurama elaborated . "It's not that you guys do it on purpose, I told Naru the same thing, but what you guys have is so unique."
"Kura…" he smiled softly. "… Of course it's unique, but what we have is also unique, or do you think I talk to Naru about my sex life?" He arched an eyebrow. "And I know how you feel, because maybe you might not realize but you also have a unique relationship with Naruto and to top it off you guys are brothers, real brothers, I always felt a little jealous of it." He crouched in front of the bed and caressed the red hair. "We won't leave you, brother. We can't. You're too important in my life, in Naruto's life too. You know he argued with me 'cause he said we never let him take part on the important things?"
"That's because he's too naïve to understand some things."
"I know right, but we can't underestimate him too much or he'll surpass us before we see it."
Kurama laughed "The kit always surprises us."
"Hn. We can't make the same mistake we did in the past, Kura"
"I know. We can't let him feel lonely or unloved." He sat up on his bed again, his mind back to two years before. "Almost losing him was already too much for me."
"Yeah..." they remained in silence for a moment, before Sasuke stood up and Kurama did the same. "I'm going to my bedroom, homework."
"Yeah, I should call one of my classmates to see what I lost today. And Sasu, don't worry about anything, alright? About Naru, I think you guys should talk and be honest with your feelings, if anything I'll support you guys always." He reassured, knowing too well how his brother felt.
Sasuke nodded. "Thanks. You too, don't worry too much Kura, you also should be honest with your feelings, if anything Naruto and I will always be by your side." He kissed his brother's cheek and left for his bedroom.
Kurama stood frozen in place, cursing his younger brother for being so smart. He sighed for the hundredth time that day and got his cellphone. A long time studying and playing online games would let him distracted and not thinking about his brothers.
He would let these thoughts for another day.