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Chapter 4

Two weeks have gone by since Frankie and I went on a date. We did end up going out again. And we are officially boyfriend and girlfriend. Frankie is the best boyfriend ever! He is so sweet! Just yesterday he surprised me at my locker with some roses, one of my favorite flowers. We have gone on several dates over the last few weeks and we have another one tonight, after I dance on Shake it Up.

Shake it Up has started to get really tiring. I still love dancing, but lately I am so tired after the show. All I ever want to do is sleep. But, I'm making an exception tonight. Frankie, or the complication as he still makes me call him, is coming to watch the show live for the first time today. So I want it to be absolutely perfect. I choked down my half a banana, then I went to get ready. I put on some dark blue ripped skinny jeans, over top of bright green tights. I had on a red cropped top over a black tank. I slid on some black boots and then I put bangles on my wrist to cover up the cuts. I do still cut sometimes, but not as often as I used to.

Just then Rocky jumped through the window "Hey hey hey!" As did Ty, "Hey hey hey!"

Ty almost always comes to see the show, probably just to support his little sister. Frankie is supposed to meet us there. I hope he isn't mad that Ty is with us. Frankie is amazing, but he gets really jealous when I am around other guys. He is always certain that I am cheating on him, I would never do that to him though. I wonder what makes him think I would.

Ty of course drove us. I love not having to take the subway anymore. It takes way to long and it has almost made us late so many times. Frankie was waiting for us at the entrance just like he said he would. He slid his arm around my waist, "Hey babe. Ready?"

I giggled and nodded. Ty was looking at me when I did this. I guess he is probably just looking out for his little sisters best friend. He has no need to though. Frankie would never hurt me. We went inside and I fixed my makeup at my vanity. Then me and Rocky warmed up. This was supposed to be a special week. Instead of our normal kind of show we are doing a ballroom episode. We all got paired up at the beginning of the week with other guys on the show. I am dancing with as guy named Kyle. I have to admit, he is pretty cute.

I ran backstage with Rocky to get our special dresses on. We had finally gotten change rooms a few weeks ago. Rocky stepped out in her pink sparkly dress. Mine was red and sparkly. Every girl had a different color dress, we looked like a rainbow.

We jumped up on the stage as the camera guy yelled "We're on in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!"

Gary said his usual opening line, then we started dancing. First up was the tango. Kyle and I have to dance pretty close. This dance is so much fun! I couldn't help but smile. After about 2 minutes, it was done. I walked off the stage to go see what Frankie thought. "So…what did you think?"

"I didn't like it. Who is that guy!"

"No one, just another dancer."

"I don't believe you. Let's just forget about it for now and talk about it tonight."

"Works for me."

Ugh! I can not believe him! All I am doing is my job and here he is freaking out at me. All of a sudden I get really dizzy. Good thing I am at my vanity. I plop down in my chair. Everything is spinning around me. I had better shake this off soon, I am back on in 5 minutes. I hear footsteps behind me. It's Ty. "Ce? Are you okay?"

"Umm, yeah. Just a little dizzy."

Actually I'm a lot dizzy. But I have no choice but to go onstage again, if I don't it will mess up the whole number. I feel a bottle being pushed into my hand. "Here, drink."

I put the bottle to my lips and take a few dainty sips. "Thanks."

I hope back up, feeling much better. And I run onstage. I'm just on time for the dance. I dash over to Kyle and we begin. This time, it's a samba.

TY'S POV

I really am worried about Cece. First she looks like she has lost way to much weight, and now she is almost passing out. I keep trying to work up the courage to ask her out, but every time I'm about to I look at her and I suddenly get really nervous. Every time I look at her, she takes my breath away. I mean, look at her right now. She has some of the most amazing moves I have ever seen. I wish I was the guy she was dancing with. I am so mad at that dude. He gets to be so close to her, he gets to touch her and have it not be awkward. If I could dance with her my life would be complete. But that will never happen.

Mmm, she looks so good. What? I'm a teenage boy, what do you expect? Wait? What's that on her wrist? Is that a cut? No, it couldn't be. It's probably just a reflection off of her dress. Yeah, must be. I'll check later when I get the chance, just to be sure that she isn't hurting herself…would she?

CECE'S POV

Wow, that was pretty awesome. But I am beat. I grabbed a drink of water, then went and talked to Rocky. That was the last dance of the show. We went over to Ty, cause he was driving us home. I need to get ready for my date tonight. Ty kept glancing down at my arms. He doesn't know…does he? No, how could he? I am always covering my wrists and he has never been around when I cut. What's up with him? Never mind, I have more important things to worry about.

Frankie said he was taking me on a picnic in the park. I decided that I should dress casual. I threw on what I had been wearing earlier, except I threw on a black blazer with some bright green buttons on it. I went and re-did my makeup again and then sat on the couch and waited for Frankie to come and pick me up. When he got here he smiled and greeted me with a little kiss, and then we were off. He held my hand, and in the other hand he carried a picnic basket. We got to our picnic spot. It was away from where most people were. It was nice to be alone with him. We were talking and laughing, and all of a sudden he got a serious look on his face. "Let's talk about earlier today."

I was a little confused. I didn't think he was that mad about it. "Okay, what about it?"

"You know what I'm talking about. You are so cheating on me with that guy you were dancing with. You were making it was to obvious. You had on your flirty smile the whole time."

"Frankie, you know I would never do that to you. "

"First of all, I'm not so sure about that. And secondly, I told you to never call me that! Now, hold out your hands."

I was so confused. Why does he want me to hold out my hands? Is he gonna give me something? Smack! I gave me something alright. That really hurt. "What was that for?"

"That was a punishment. For that dance, and for disobeying me. You know I love you, but if you do that again you will get the same thing."

I nodded. Why did he do that? I guess I did kinda deserve it. Wait…mom said that if a guy ever hurt me again I needed to tell her so they could get what they deserve. No, Frankie isn't abusive. I know what abuse feels like, and that definitely wasn't it. It was my fault. Next time I should listen to him better. We continued on with our date like nothing had happened. Nothing else did happen. After a few hours he walked me back to the apartment. I said goodbye and then went to my room. Where did I put my razor? Oh yeah, it's in my jewelry box. I slid it down my wrist and I felt thr blood trickle out of my skin. I needed something to make me feel better, this definitely did the trick. By then it was pretty late. I decided to turn in early. I crawled into bed, and went to sleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

When I woke up I realized that I had slept in. I rushed to go and get ready, then I realized it was Sunday. So I got changed into some sweats and a t-shirt and went for a run. About an hour later I returned home and went into the bathroom and hopped on the scale. Yes! 90 pounds! If I lose just a few more maybe things will start getting better.

I went and sat on my bed and turned on the TV. A few minutes later I heard a knock on the window. Is it a burglar? Wait, no it's not a burglar. Burglars don't knock before they steal stuff. I looked at my window, it was Ty. I walked over and let him in. "What are you doing here?"

"Well Deuce is hanging out with Rocky and I'm bored. So I came here."

"Deuce and Rocky are hanging out? This is awesome! They are so meant for each other."

"I guess. At least it's Deuce and not some creepy dude."

I laughed and nodded. Then it all of a sudden got really awkward and quiet. "So…what do you wanna do?"

He shrugged. "I don't know…movie?"

"Sure, what do you got?"

I went over to my cabinet and opened it. It was full of dvds. "Pick one."

He came over and picked a movie, a horror movie. Then he went into my kitchen and popped some popcorn, and grabbed some chips and pop and brought them in. Well…I guess I'll have to get sick tonight. Oh well. He started the movie and we sat on my bed and watched it. It was absolutely terrifying. I ended up In Ty's lap, burying my face in his neck. Soon it was over. I looked at our positioning, I blushed and got off of him. I looked the clock on my bedside table. It was already almost 3. Then I remembered, I'm supposed to meet Frankie at the ice cream shop in an hour. "Sorry to run of on ya Ty but I've got a date in an hour to get ready for."

He left through the fire escape, and I went into the bathroom to throw up. I had eaten way to much and I felt even fatter than normal. I hurried to get ready, then I ran out the door to meet Frankie.

TY'S POV

Wow, she sure got me out of there fast. I don't know why she would need an hour to get ready, she already looks purple. Although, her hands did look a little strange. It was probably just the light. But still, she is the most perfect thing I have ever seen. I wish she didn't spend all her time with Frankie now. I hardly ever get to see her. It feels like forever since we last spent any real time together. She won't even eat lunch with us anymore. I hope they break up soon. If they do, I might just ask her out. She would probably just say no. But it would be nice to try, cause one day she might just say yes.

ROCKY'S POV

Deuce and I are hanging out at the park. We have spent pretty much the entire day together. I would never admit it, but I have a major crush on Deuce. I have for awhile. I'm not sure exactly why I do, all I know is that when ever he is around, I get butterflies in my stomach. And me makes me feel like I'm the most important person in the world. Right now we are sitting at a ice cream stand. He paid for mine, he is so sweet! I wish he would just ask me out. But I know he never would, he doesn't think of me that way. I mean…why would he? I'm just a plain old geek who does everything she is told. How could that possibly be appealing?

DEUCE'S POV

Wow, Rocky is amazing. She is the smartest, nicest, prettiest, and overall most amazing girl I have ever met. Right now we are sitting near an ice cream stand. I paid for her of course, that's what a gentleman does. And I know that Rocky wants to date a gentleman. We have actually had conversations about it. Most of them happened after she got asked out by guys who were piggish jerks, and then she said that she just wished that there were some nice guys out there. I know that if I ever had the pleasure of dating her, I would treat her like she was the best thing to ever happen to me. Cause actually, she is. But that would never happen. I am her brother's best friend. She probably thinks about me as an older brother, nothing more.

CECE'S POV

I just got home from my 'date' a few minutes ago. Right now I am sitting on my bed, sobbing, and drawing. The picture is of a girl, who is actually supposed to be me, laying on the ground. She has blood gushing from her chest, and her heart is laying on the ground beside her, broken in half. Why? Why did this have to happen to me. Why do I have to date the guy that hurts me so much?

FLASHBACK

I was running over to the ice cream shop. I was running late because my mom left for work early and she told me to make Flynn a snack. And the only thing he wanted was bacon. "Hey Comp, sorry I'm late. My mom made me…"

SMACK! Frankie had slapped me across the face. It hurt terribly. "What was that for?"

"You're 10 minutes late! I was forced to sit here alone and look like a total loser! I'm not a loser, that's you! Honestly, why am I dating you?"

"Well…if you don't want to go out anymore then maybe we shouldn't."

"No, we are going to keep dating. I am in love with you, and I know you love me to. Now, let's get ice cream."

END FLASHBACK

I guess I did kind of deserve it. I should of just made Flynn something easier. I need to get better at this. I don't want to disappoint Frankie anymore.

Threw in a little Reuce in there, hope you liked it! There will be more of that in later chapters. Yes, I know I mentioned ice cream alot in this chapter. But right now I really want ice cream but I can't have any cause I'm on a diet.

Anyways, did you like it? Hate it? Want to slap me with a cat cause it was that bad? Review and let me know! I'm not gonna post the next chapter until I get at least 3 reviews