"Demetri!" As I opened the door the most perfect boy sat on my couch. Well he looks perfect but don't let the looks fool you. He is not the face I would dream of coming across. I shut the door and went to sit in the chair across from him.
" Ah Alex does that not sound to close to Alec. What's that smell?" Demetri got off the couch and started circling around my chair. Demetri was the one person desires the Cullen clan that knows about me. Demetri is my changer we used to be best friends than he joined the volturi and we have not spoke since. If the volturi herd of me all the vampires' lives would be hell not that they aren't already.
"I know dead give away isn't it. Sorry came across a few barriers on my way over. How do you like Italy?" Demetri grabbed my hand in his and pulled me up chest to chest.
" Italy is very...interesting I guess." I could not exactly tell what we were doing some type of dancing.
" Joy atleast your happy" Demetri frowned at my words.
" I am sorry. I was not really thinking when I went to Aro." Demitri spinned me around a few times.
" This is different"
" What?" Demetri seemed worried I do not think it was a question more like a demand.
" calm down we just need some music." I leaned over and turned on some old classics of mine. We began to dance a little faster. Demetri twriled me than pulled me close to him so nothing was separating us not even a whisp of air could come between us. Demitri's lips were just starting to touch mine. I can not believe I was giving in to him again. Than a picture of Seth came up in my head and I quickly pulled away into the far corner.
" I am sorry" I said to Demetri picking up his jacket.
" it is okay I need to go anyway I am just leaving."
" what about Aro he can read his thoughts?"
" I will stay away from him for a while he thinks I am out hunting so he will not notice I was gone unless he smells me so I will take a quick shower before in his presence" I completely forgot about the smell. Demetri better never share anything about me to Aro. I have no choice but to trust him with this one.
Just like that Demetri was out the door.
I could not focuse on anything. My mind was racing. Seconds minutes hours passed I found myself outside looking for Seth. He was not at the Cullen house but the other two from his tribe were here. I followed Seth's sent down to La Push. I tracked his scent down to a small house on the Rez I was guessing his room was the window to my right on the upper level. Seth was still up. I climb up the house and knocked on his window. Seth opened it and I jumped inside.
"what now?" Seth said whipping the sleep from his eyes. I used some dumb human excuse.
"can't sleep" that got a little laugh out of Seth since I can't seep and all.
" well I can and you really shouldn't be here." Seth sat down at his desk and started up what looked like a computer it took forever to turn on. Seth began writing his Language paper on the word courage . The assignment was To give definition an example and how the word describes your life. I read what Seth wrote.
" Courage to be brave and step out of your shell. Comes from some French word I am full of courage. Like the time." wow the teachers must really like him. He has the assignment all wrong let alone he is putting forward no effort.
I pushed Seth's chair to the side and erased what he wrote.
" What are you doing?" Seth asked
" Writing your paper."
" don't its not like good grades will change anything."
" well if you want to be someone they will." I began to type.
"Courage. It stems from the French word 'coeur' which means heart. Leave it to the French to uncover the secret that deep within our hearts we will find the willpower and tenacity to face and embrace life's hardships. Rollo May said "Just as one's heart helps our body to function, pumping blood to our physical organs, courage makes possible all the virtues of human kind. Without courage, we have no real and authentic life."
It is as essential as water is to a fish. Many think of the word 'courage' only defined by the dictionary as "perseverance, moral and mental strength, facing fear and failure or overcoming difficulty and obstacles" and see it solely as a solitary journey. We believe the journey of courage is best walked with friends.
It is so hard to let go is what I used to think. it is not hard to let go. It is more difficult to hold on. What is hard is continuing to have the strength to hold on. In that moment, I realized I had to change my definition of courage. Backward, I had it all backward. Holding on to everything at all costs was that I had defined as strength. Yet I realized that letting go was the truly courageous act.
There is always a choice. I want everyone to remember that there is always a choice, and it resides within us to us choose.
I really did have my meaning of courage all wrong. Should I face my fears and show myself or stay hidden forever? "How did you write that so quick?" Seth asked.
" um..I had a paper just like this one before I just used what I wrote then and edited it."
Seth emails the paper to his teacher grabbed my hand and walked me over to the bed where we sat down and began to chat.
" Why did you come here?" Seth asked.
" because you can only graduate so many time before people get suspicious."
" why did you continue going to school then?"
" because staying at home can get boring though it is good to ditch every once in a while."
" do you have any special skill like some of the Cullen's do?" I could tell Seth already knew some of this I also noticed he was hiding something from me but what? Why? And how can he hide his thought from me?
" well you see every time a vampire or human is created with an abnormal power I get stuck with it also."
" why not Alice's?"
" I have never really thought about that but I am glad I don't have it."
"why?"
" because I would of saw you and never came here." I looked up at Seth he grabbed my hand and began to give it a little squeeze.
" what happens if the Volturi finds you?"
" I am either burned or used as a slave" Seth pictured me being burned in his head and as a slave. He seemed to reject both thoughts though. I smiled a little more.
" do you have any siblings?"
" yes I have 3 steps and 2 full."
" there all dead?"
"no" I looked at the clock I did not feel comfortable talking about my past to Seth not right now not this soon.
" two live with the volturi."
" do they know?"
" no" I looke at the clock 12 already Seth must be exhausted.
" um I should go." Seth reached over to grab my hand again.
"No stay."
"Seth you need to rest." I said trying to pull away from his grip
"Please?"
"Fine but you have to go to bed at some point tonight."
" Now you sound like my mother." we both started to laughing at that comment.
"And you sound like my Brother."
" I would laugh if I knew who he is."
" Ya well I am going to get heading you really need your sleep I will see you at school tomorrow." I got up from the bed waited for his okay and left.
Things get kind boring living in hide. No one to talk to. Nothing to do. Just stare. I found myself scribbling on a white towel with some colored sharpies. I went up in down all over this beat up towel with dirt stains all over it. It took me a while before I noticed what it was I was drawing.
There was a wolf on the ground with sandy-brown fur. I dug my face in the hair on his stomach and cried. Aro Marcus and Cauis were sitting in their chairs smileing at the scene of me crying over th injury of this wolf. Alec and Jane watched me closely Demitri looked like he could have been crying also but Felix held Demetri back. I spread the towel over an empty space and my wall and nailed it in place. I sat in a chair and began to figure out what this picture was of exactly.
My phone rang I grabbed it and looked at my phone. Shiz! It is already six I have to be at school by six thirty today. I jumped up took a shower and put on a black V-necked shirt and some skinny jean I whipped last time I went hunting. I wore some black converse and grabbed my black cloak I wore to help hide my face. I straightened my hair letting my side bangs cover my right eye and raced out the door. I texted Seth.
" Running late has class started yet?"
" No not yet hurry though this teacher does not do well with late students I will save you a spot."
" Thanks but what about Zach will he be mad that you are talking to me."
" He is sitting on the other side he will get over it."
I rushed into the classroom and with ought looking at the teacher writing on the board I walked to the seat next to Seth threw my bag down and sat down. Zach looked at me through the corner of his eye. ( Seth is so lucky she sat next to him. Well I called dubs and Seth better not ignore me about this he know the dib calling rule.) Zach thought. He looked back at the teacher who called his name.
"Zach! Can you tell me why Egues wanted Hermia to marry Demetruis instead of Lysander?"Zach looked down at his notes.
" I am sorry I do not remember why." he told the teacher who turned to me.
"By chance do you know Alexis?" I looked around all eyes were on me.
"um...Demetruis is a A young nobleman of Athens."
" Yes and Welcome." the teacher cheered before handing us all a piece of papers.
" okay class these projects are due next Tuesday at the beginning of class. I will assign you partners." I looked at Seth he was scribbling on a sheet of paper. He looked at me half smiled and went bak to his "art."
"Zach your with Josh."
" Eric your with Mike."
" louse your with Leslie"
" Mea your with Nick"
The teacher continue reading of the partners.
" Now who did I forget? Oh yes, Seth you will be partners with Alexis." he said the Bell rang. Zach stomped out the door. He was mad that me and Seth were partners.
I followed closely behind Seth to the cafeteria. We got in and began to place food on our trays. Seth laughed when he realize I grabbed an apple and a coke just to fit in. Seth paid for his lunch I did also.
"So where do you want to sit?"
" Well I would love to sit with your friends but just today can we sit off to the side?" I asked. Seth walked to the back left corner of the cafeteria we sat at an empty round table.
" So by chance did you notice what our project was about?"
" Can I see your paper?" I nodded and reached in to get my assignment paper.
" Here you go what class was that anyway?"
" It is supposed to be a language class but he chooses random topics instead." Seth explained. He continued reading the paper.
" Wow this is a strange project." He handed my paper back for me to read while he ate.
There were multiple tasks. We have to put together a scrapbook. So basically we just follow each other around taking pictures. We have to write letters to each other. We have to explain what it means to trust. We have to write an essay and use a metaphor describing love. And a lot of other tasks.
Zach sat down at our table in the middle of Seth and me. Seth rolled his eyes annoyed and went back to his food. Zach did not notice. He just sat and smiled at me, it was extremely weird. I smiled back and went back to reading the paper at least pretending to read the paper. Seth and I would randomly look up at each other and smile than we would go back so Zach did not notice.
"Well you guys are boreing!" Zach said. Seth smiled and laughed a little at Zach's comment. I looked up at Zach and Seth wondering what to say.
"So?" I said to Zach.
"So that's all you have to say? You do know every boy wants to ask you out right know." Zach joked.
" I figured Seth do you want to work on this project after school?" I looked at Seth.
" Ya sure but where?" Seth asked.
"Let's just go to my place so Sam does not kill the both of us for talking to each other." Seth nodded. Zach's moth dropped open.
"You two know each other?" Zach asked
"No I just know Seth's friends Paul and Sam from a fight I started a few years ago. He does not like me very well." Zach nodded his head.
"bad Chick" Zach teased
The rest of class was a blur to me. Just like any other high school it was boreing as hell. Trust me I know. Seth and I walked home together. Some boys yelled "see you tommorow sweetheart." as me and Seth passed by them. Seth was not to happy by that.