A/N So, it took me awhile to figure out this chapter...I hope you like it. :) In this chapter, they're will be a three-fourths (3/4) of drama between Kendall and Chayce, maybe a tad bit of romance-ness. Oh, and please please please please pretty please leave a review! I'd really appreciate it!

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Chapter 4

I walked imto he living room with a pair of denim shorts and a neon green v-neck with the same color vans; just like Kendall, I was madly in love with those shoes. I was planning to head to the beach since Jo's wedding thing didn't start till late tonight. To my surprise, all the girl were alreaady out and ready to go somewhere.

"Where are you guys going?" I questioned.

"Oh, Jo invited us to hang with her around LA! We were just about to wake you up and tell you to get dressed, but it kinda looks like you already are." Liberty stated with a toothy smile.

"Uh, I'd love to go but I realoly just wanted to go somewhere on my own for a bit.. I'll text you later and maybe catch up with you guys." I said to them.

"Cool. We'll just tell Jo." Sienna smiled as she closed the door behind them.

"Bye!" Valerie yelled.

At The Beach...

I found a nice spot just where the waves could touch my feet. With my arms wrapped around my knees, I thought once again about all the crap that's been going on lately. All of a sudden, my phone beeped with an incoming text. Fiddling with my phone a bit, I found a recent text from Carlos.

Carlos: Ace, have you seen Kendall around? We can't really find him...

Chayce: Sry Carlos. Havent seen him

Carlos: It's cool :) Just giv me call if you c him.

Chayce: Sure thing

A few minutes came and went and the sun was rising really high. With my hands dug down into the sand a bit, I took in a deep breath which was lightly interupted by a slight cough. And that stiffles couch was revealed to be Kendall; the grown blonde with his gorgeous eyes shining bright.

"Am I really a monster to you, Ace?" he asked softly, shifting lightly and looking right at the sand.

"I wouldn't lie about it." I stated, keeping my eyes on the ocean.

"Listen, could we please talk again." I heard him beg from behind me.

"No, just...just stay away from me, Kendall."

"I can't do that.."

"Why?" I asked, finally looking at him. "I may have walked out on us, but the last time I checked, you never came after me."

"I know, and I'm sorry, for everything. For leaving you, for never comming, and for thinking I could replace you."

"Replace me?"

"No, I didn't mean it like that. Please, let me explain." His eyes searcched my face.

I stayed silent, and he continued. "A few days after we moved to LA, I started remembering you. After so much time of thinking about you, about us, it drove me crazy. My work habits went down a block; I was loosing it. The guys told me to..to find someone who could maybe fill in the empty space. And I found Jo.. But after a few months of going out with her, I realized, she was nothing like you. No one was.."

I was speechless. It felt like we were back in Minnesota, back in our teenage days, back in our relationship. But we weren't. We're older now, I'm older now. And I don't give into love. "What do you expect to happen next, Kendall? I forgive you and everything about us comes back to normal."

"What I expect to happen next is that I at least get our friendship back. Do you know how hard it is to be around you knowing you don't want me there?" Kendall narrowed into me, almost yelling at me.

"Do you know how hard it'll be to see you and my damn cousin get married knowing that once in my fuckin life, I wanted to be that girl on the altar, giving up all of every single thing that I had just to be with you?" I screamed, getting into his face.

"Why the hell do you have to yell at me! How is this all of a sudden my fault? All I ever did was love you! I always have, and I don't wanna stop.."

My heart stopped. Everything stopped. I don't know why the hell I did it, but i walked away; away from him, away from the drama, away from the past.