Eli's POV
"Does that stupid bastard know he can get you pregnant doing that!" I yelled. "Eli please don't yell and I know I am scared as hell!" She yelled back. "Clare I'm so sorry I yelled it's just what if you get pregnant." I respond trying to be as calm as possible. "I hope I'm not pregnant because then there is no way in hell you would stay with me." She says. "Clare where would you get that from I love you way too much. Please remember Clare whatever happens you will not go through it alone." I tell her. "Eli I love you." She says softly. I pull her back down and we fell asleep on the hospital bed together.
10 days later Clare's POV
Eli and I run into a CVS to buy a pregnancy test. We soon get to his house and we both go into the bathroom. I open it and I pull my pants down and sit on the toilet having the test in one hand and Eli's hand in my other. We sit down for maybe the longest three minutes of my life. Before I look I squeeze his hand. I look down and tears fill my eyes and soon fall. I look over at Eli his eyes are wide and jaw wide open. I look over to him and say "I'm pregnant." Eli's arms wrap around me and I and hear him say over his crying "I am so sorry." "Eli why are you sorry you did not do this to me?" I ask. "I'm sorry because I promised you I would never let anyone or thing hurt you and someone hurt you badly." He says. He began sobbing and grabbed me and I embraced the biggest hug ever. "Eli I you tried your best and we can get through this." I say. "No Clare I did not try hard enough because you got hurt this is all my fault." He answers. "Eli this is Asher's fault not yours okay." I say. He shakes his head but I know him too well he still thinks it's his fault. "We should probably go tell my mom." I say.
We drive over to my house. Eli and I walk in hand in hand. "Mom, Glen come here I have something to tell you." I say. As they enter the room I gulp nervously. "Mom I'm-I'm pregnant." I finally say. My mother looks over at Eli and looks like she is about to kill him. "You got my daughter pregnant!" She screams. "No mom that god awful man that raped me did." I say. "Well then this is all your fault Clare!" She yells. I look over at Eli to see if he is okay he looks pissed right now. "How the hell is this my fault?" I ask her. "Your clothes are to slutty no wonder you got raped." She says. "What you have got to be kidding me. Mom none of my clothes except my tank tops I wear to bed show cleavage so how the hell is that slutty?" I ask. "You know what pregnant teenagers don't live her get the hell out of my house pack you stuff and be on your way!" She yells.
I run up to my room and run into Jake. He sees that I am crying. "Clare I heard everything are you okay?" He asks. "No I am not." I reply. He opens his arms out and I hug him crying into his chest. Eli and I go into my room and pack my stuff. I look over and I hear Eli talking to his mom on the phone. "Okay well Clare my mom says you can live with us and she already knew you were raped and now knows that your pregnant." He says. "You looked super pissed out there." I say. "Well you mom is out there trying to say it's your fault that you were raped. That usually does not make the boyfriend to happy." He says. "Let's get out of here." I say. He kissed my fore head. "Okay." He answers. "We arrive at his house and we head up to his room. I lay on his bed and begin to cry. "Please don't cry." He says. I nod yes and soon fall sleep. I wake up and I am in my undergarments and Eli is in his boxers next to me. "Eli." I say. "Yes beautiful." He replies. "I love you." I say. "And I love you. And Clare we should probably talk about this are you going to keep the baby or what." He asks.
"Well I thought I could go along with the pregnancy and then put the baby up for adoption. I could never keep the baby. It would just remind me of the worst moment in my life." I answer. "You are so brave." He says. "How." I ask. "For going through all of this and staying as strong as you are and then on top of that continuing a pregnancy on the child of the man that raped you. Your incredible."He says. He leans in and kisses my and soon pulls away. "Clare Edwards you are the most amazing girl in the world and I love you."Eli says. "It's Saturday and 7am I would like to go back to sleep."I say. Eli wraps his arms around me and pulls me in closer. "One more thing before we go back to sleep okay."He says. "What?" I ask. "I can't believe I get to fall asleep and wake up with the girl I love in my arms everyday now."He answers. I smile and kiss his nose.
ONE MONTH LATER
I'm a little over one month into my pregnancy and I'm showing. Good news is we found a lovely couple who will care for the baby. "Eli!" I shout. He comes running in. "What are you okay?" He asks. "Come here." I say gesturing him towards the bed. "Eli the baby it moved or something." I say. He lays me down and pulls my shirt up and puts his hand on my stomach. His eyes get big. "Clare it moved." He says. I smile. "You know I wish this baby was mine and not that ass holes." He says. The next day we wake up for school. We are just getting back from break and no one has seen my lump so I am extra nervous. "Eli I'm nervous." I say. "Who cares what people think you were raped so you are not a slut okay."He replies. "Okay." I answer. We walk into the building hand in hand. People start staring and whispering slut or whore to whoever is by them. Eli squeezes my hand. By the time it's fifth period me and Eli go to our lockers. I open it and condoms and birth control pills fall out of it. And then I notice a letter. Before I even look at it I look over to Eli. He looks really mad. I pick the letter and read it aloud so Eli can hear. It says "Clare Edwards how does it feel to be the new school slut. It seems as if your little emo boyfriend knocked you up. We thought these might help for next time. Love the hockey team.
Eli's POV
After Clare reading that aloud I look at her. She fell to the ground crying. I see one of the members walk by. It's Campbell Saunders. I run up to him and pick him up by his shirt and slam him against a locker. "What the hell is your problem?" He says. I point towards Clare. I look back and he is crying. "I'm so sorry everyone on the team except me was talking bad about her." He says. "What did they say?" I ask. "They think you and Clare had sex before the rape and is just using it as an excuse and they were talking about doing what they did to her. They asked me to help and I said no. I'm so sorry I swear I had nothing to do with it." I let him go. He runs off. "When I walk back Clare has had like twenty pieces of paper thrown at her. "They all say I'm a slut or nasty oh and this one is my favorite. It says you should come over to my house sometime because I love the cunts." She says. "Clare were going home." I say. I put my hand out so I can help her up. We get back to my house and I she goes to my room. I go to the kitchen to get something to eat.
Clare's POV
I feel like dying right now. You have no idea. What I'm about to do is something reckless but Eli will never know and it is just a one time. I look around in Eli's drawers and find the sharpest knife. I go to cut into my flesh and right as I'm doing it Eli walks in and saw me cutting my self.