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Jamie was pacing the length of the corridor of the hospital floor while Danny sat and watched. The minute his neck began to hurt he jumped up stepping in front of Jamie.
"Stop, keep this up and you're going to end up going straight through to the floor below," Danny said with his hand on Jamie's chest.
Jamie let out a breath and turned away finally sitting down. Danny turned with his hands on his hips, "Linda and her team are taking care of Eddie, Jamie. She's in the best hands."
"I know, I just need to hear that she's going to be ok."
"She's going to be ok," Linda said.
Jamie stood up, "Thank god. Can I see her?"
"She hasn't woken up yet but she is stable. She's not completely out of the woods. She lost a lot of blood. You can go in now though. It's the first door on the right."
"Thank you."
Linda simply smiled and nodded.
Jamie headed to Eddie's room as Danny embraced Linda, "You did good sweetheart."
"Yeah well, she's a fighter. It was close. She almost didn't make it."
Jamie entered the room and gasped slightly at the sight of Eddie in the hospital bed with a cannula in her nose and a tube in her arm. He approached slowly sitting on the side of the bed and taking her hand in his. He stayed like that for hours until Linda came in to check on Eddie's vitals.
"Jamie, if you want to go get something to eat, I can let you know if she wakes up." Linda said looking over her clipboard at Jamie.
"I'm good. I want to be here when she wakes up."
Linda observed for a moment, looking between him and Eddie's lifeless body. She opened her mouth to say something however decided against it, feeling it might be premature to ask how he really felt for his partner.
"Ok. Just let me know if you need anything ok Jamie?"
"I will, thanks for everything Linda."
"Just doing my job and you're welcome."
Jamie got up to stretch his legs and found himself over at the window looking out over the city. As Jamie continued to look out the window Eddie's eyes began to flutter until they eventually opened. She looked around the room until her eyes landed on Jamie.
"Am I dead because it feels like I should be dead," Eddie said with a croaky voice.
Jamie spun on his heel and in one step was at Eddie's bedside, "Hey, you're awake. You scared the hell out of me Eddie," Jamie said as he took Eddie's hand.
Eddie looked down at their hands, "What happened?"
Jamie's brow furrowed slightly in confusion, "You don't remember?"
"I remember being in the interrogation room and finding out where Jenkins was hiding and being involved in the raid on the warehouse."
"You don't remember taking down Jenkins or uhh getting stabbed."
Eddie shook her head slowly.
Jamie kept his eyes on Eddie plucking up the courage to ask the next big thing, "So you don't remember the last thing you said to me before you lost consciousness."
"No, what did I say?"
"Nothing to worry about right now," Jamie said with a sad smile.
Eddie smiled back then closed her eyes, drifting off to sleep.
Two weeks later Eddie was ready to be discharged out of the hospital.
"Danny, this is a surprise. You here to see your gorgeous wife?" Linda joked.
Danny smiled sweetly, "That's part of it," Danny leant down kissing his wife. They pulled back, "And the other part?" Linda asked curiously.
"Eddie called me, told me she was being discharged and wanted me to take her home."
"Why you and not Jamie?"
"I have a feeling I know why," Danny said mysteriously.
Danny let it be and walked to Eddie's room. He entered finding Eddie sitting on the edge of the bed, dressed, packed and raring to get out of there.
"Ready to go Janko?"
"I've been ready for the last two weeks, thanks for coming. I'd ask Jamie but all he would do is fuss which is what he has been doing ever since I woke up." Eddie smiled.
"I can imagine but before we do, we've got to talk about that. You're shutting him out and I think I know why."
"What makes you think I'm shutting him out?" Eddie asked as she looked down at her interlaced hands.
"This may be surprising to you but me and my brother do communicate and he told me that there are certain details about your incident that you can't remember. He also told me word for word that he thinks you're shutting him out." Danny said pointedly and uncomfortably.
Eddie continued to look away feeling as uncomfortable as Danny. Danny realized that she wasn't going to talk so he decided to push.
"You remember, don't you? What you said to Jamie before you know…?"
Eddie finally looked up staring at Danny with anger, obviously wanting to ignore this and not have this conversation.
"I was there Janko, I heard what you said and judging by the evil eye you're giving me now you lied to Jamie when you said you didn't."
"Yeah, I remember."
"Ok, well why the secrecy then. You two kids obviously have a thing for each other so why don't you be honest with him."
"It's complicated."
"In all my years as a detective and a husband I know for a fact that that sentence is code for I want to ignore the problem so drop it and let's talk about something else."
Eddie got up slowly with her hand on her wound.
"Ok then, I can see that you want to go so let's go but you need to talk to him and sort this out preferably before you go back to work and on tour."
Eddie ignored his statement, picked up her go bag and walked past him out the door which was being held by Danny.
"Good talk," Danny whispered with a sarcastic smile.
Danny dropped Eddie off at home and only let her out of the car when she promised that she would sort what she needed to sort out with Jamie. She entered her apartment which had all of her stuff but at the same time felt foreign to her. She dropped her bag on the floor and sank down onto her couch wincing at the still tender wound at her side. She got her phone out of her jean pocket ignoring all her missed calls and texts, promising herself to deal with it later.
She opened up her photo album scrolling and scrolling until she found what she was looking for. She opened it revealing an old photo of her and her Dad when she was a little girl. They were dirty and greased up next to a car with its' hood up that they were trying to fix. Eddie couldn't help but smile at their faces. Eddie and her father were looking at one another laughing. She remembered the memory. That was a good day.
It was time to go back to the real and living world so she decided to check her voicemail messages, not wanting to open her text messages. She dialed and then put the phone to her ear.
"Eddie, what gives? Danny just called me. You told me you were going to be discharged tomorrow not today. Danny said you asked him to pick you up. What's going on? Talk to me please. Look, I've got to go on tour in a minute so if you're feeling up to it maybe I can come over tonight and we can sort this out. Let me know if that's ok." Jamie finished.
Eddie let out a deep breath she had been holding during that entire voicemail. She had a decision to make. She opened the only two photos she had of her and Jamie. One was of them in their uniforms leaning against their patrol car. 'Partners,' Eddie whispered. She slid the photo over to the next one which was of when they were at a bar playing pool and Kara was holding onto her phone. It was Jamie and Eddie against another set of partners from their precinct. It was the moment they won, they embraced and as they were pulling back Jamie still had his hands around her waist and they were both smiling at each other. Eddie remembered it only being for a second but Kara had captured it.
Eddie closed her eyes and as soon as she did she had a flashback:
Eddie's breathing started to become shallow but she opened her mouth anyway, "Jamie."
"Eddie save your strength. Don't talk ok just don't close your eyes and stay with me."
"I love you…I love you Jamie," Eddie rasped out as her eyes flitted shut and her head slumped to the side.
Eddie opened her eyes making a decision. With Jamie being on tour all day, now was the perfect opportunity.
A knock was heard and Renzulli looked up over his glasses, pen loosely in his hand and when he saw who it was he broke out in a smile.
"Hey stranger, come in come in, have a seat."
"Thanks boss," Eddie said reciprocating his smile.
"How's that knife wound?"
"Oh you know, sore but getting better."
"Janko with everything that's happened in the last few weeks I haven't had the moment to tell you how sorry I am about your father's passing."
"Thanks Serge."
Renzulli nodded solemnly.
"You probably don't want to relive this but out of curiosity when Jenkins stabbed you, why shoot him in the legs? With everything he did to you before and in that moment, why not the centre mass?"
Eddie looked down at her right contemplating the question and then looked her boss in the eye when she knew what she wanted and what needed to be said, "He knew it was all over for him either way and he wanted me to kill him and I would be a hypocrite if I didn't tell you that I was close but when he stabbed me, my training kicked in and it was either justice or revenge and justice is him being locked away forever from everything he cares about."
"You make me proud Officer Janko. Now what can I do for you today?"
"Well, as you know I won't be returning to work for another couple of weeks and I wanted to give you some notice."
"You're not quitting are you?"
"No, nothing like that. I'm a cop and I don't see that changing in the near future but there is something that needs to be changed."
"I'm dying of suspense over here Janko, spit it out."
"I'd like to request a new partner." Eddie said in all of one breath.
"Why?" Renzulli asked knowing the answer but needing her to say it for herself.
"Why?" Eddie repeated confused.
"I'm going to need a reason. I can't just give you a new partner because you say you want a new partner."
"Before I lost consciousness I confessed something to Officer Reagan and now that it has been said out loud it can't be taken back."
Renzulli looked on letting Eddie know she had his full attention.
"I told him I love him and I know what the regs say about romantic feelings between partners."
"Does Reagan know that you're here right now?"
"No, but I'm not going to let this fester. I'm going to tell him as soon as he gets off tour."
"Make sure you do that and when you get back it will be with a new partner."
Eddie left the precinct shooting off a text to Jamie to meet her at her place after tour.
Later that night Jamie knocked and Eddie answered. Jamie entered wordlessly with pizza in one hand and beers in the other. He placed them down on the counter and turned to Eddie. They were now facing each other neither knowing how to start.
"How was tour?"
"Quiet. How's your wound?"
"Sore."
"Why did you lie to me Eddie?"
"About what?" Eddie's heart picked up, had Danny told him she remembered everything?
Jamie looked back at her with confusion, "About when you were being discharged. Have you lied to me about something else?"
"Have a seat Jamie," Eddie said as she went to the lounge.
"Ok," Jamie replied following suit, sitting next to her.
"I have a lot to say and I'd really appreciate it if you just let me say it before you respond ok?"
Jamie replied with a simple nod.
"Yes. I lied to you about something else. I lied to you when I said I didn't remember what I said to you before I blacked out. I just didn't want to deal with it and I thought pretending to forget about what I said would just make things go back to normal but it didn't."
"Did you…. did you mean it? What you said I mean." Jamie asked expectantly.
Eddie shut her eyes tight focusing on her breathing, she knew she had to answer but her body and mouth were both resisting so it came out as a strangled whisper, "Yes."
Before Jamie could respond Eddie cut him off with something he wasn't expecting.
"I went to the precinct today and I asked Renzulli to terminate our partnership."
Jamie's eyes went wide, "What?"
"It's what needed to be done Jamie. I've said what I've said and it can't be undone. What you said was right before. This doesn't just affect us; it affects the people around us too."
"So no heads up. You made a decision that you thought was best for the both of us without even consulting me," Jamie said then stood up facing away from Eddie.
Eddie remained seated. "You and I both know that if we had talked about this before, you would've tried to convince me that we could make our partnership work."
Jamie turned around to face her, "I would have only done that if I didn't feel the same way," Jamie said pointedly.
Eddie was taken aback which was apparent on her face, "Whoa, feel the same way but you don't, I know you told me that there was something unexplainable between us but I told you I love you which is not even on the same planet to how you feel about me."
"You're impossible Janko, you know that," Jamie said as he covered his face with both his hands. He dropped them down when he decided to continue, when he decided it was time to let everything he felt out everything that he told his sister that day in her office, "You're always trying to tell me what to do, you're opinionated, you eat too much, you never listen, you walk in on me when I'm getting changed, you constantly make plans for me without consulting me, you're a real pain Eddie."
Eddie was fuming now as she got up keeping some distance between them, "If I wasn't scared that I would rip my wound open I would've decked you by now Reagan. Ok I'm not perfect but you're no saint either Mr. Eagle Scout." Eddie said as she stepped away crossing her arms with unshed tears that were threatening to spill at any moment.
Jamie couldn't help the tiny smile that appeared on his face, "Eight to twelve hours I spend with this real pain in my side and yet I still want to spend more time with her at the end of the shift."
Eddie slowly turned around not knowing what to say or what Jamie was about to.
"I want to spend more time with you because you're also beautiful, smart, you can always make me laugh no matter what, you always have my back, you're my best friend Eddie and I am in love with you."
Jamie stepped forward brushing Eddie tears away from her face and tucking a stray hair that had fallen behind her ear, "I love you Eddie." Jamie said with a wide smile spreading across his face.
Eddie laughed with pure joy, "I love you Jamie."
Jamie leant down and kissed her softly. They pulled back and leant their foreheads against one another but unlike the first kiss they shared instead of walking away Jamie took Eddie's hand leading her to the bedroom, the pizza and beers totally forgotten by both of them.