I own nothing but the numerous mistakes
Yeah, not my greatest but I'm sick of it sitting in my computer… written mostly to avoid starting my thesis…
Btw any suggestions for other moments would be appreciated
read and review, pretty please.
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The bath water had long ago gone cold, yet she still remained. Looking at her hands, her fingers had become prunes from being left in the water too long. Not feeling the cold, not feeling anything, completely numb.
Life was cruel, she had learnt that decades ago, it took all the good and replaced it with despair. From the moment she gave John her heart she had been doomed, the day she discovered his secret had killed part of her. What followed were countless years of loneliness, she was able to bury herself in work. It hadn't been until Ashley had been born that she'd realised that her heart was still there at all.
Ashley had reawakened something within her that she had thought gone forever. Becoming a mother, Helen was forced to feel, she had let people in, been happy again. James was the one to thank for all of this, it had been with his help that she had been able to freeze the embryo in the first place, it was James that ensured she continued to eat and keep busy after John, and it was James who had revived her after she had tried to end it all thirty years ago. Those had been some of her darkest days, alone and miserable she had decided she'd lived long enough; it had been in this very tub. With the assistance of some very strong sedatives, she would have succeeded if it had not been for the vigilance of a certain manservant. Her memory from this time is blurry, but a she had a most vivid memory of James screaming at her, his eyes filled with tears, it was only now that she could truly understand the fear he had felt then. The fear of being alone in the world, the last of the five.
Helen drifted back to the present. Ashley was gone, so too were Nigel and James, Nikola was mortal and John, John had lost himself to his rage. She was alone in the world, the last of the five.