This chapter was going to be totally different, I wanted to move ahead to when the feast starts but I wanted to add onto this chapter something important to the story. I had said I wasn't going to not have any canon things going on for a little while but I wanted to write this little part to this chapter because I think it's important which goes with what the story is and how the story is going from here on.
Happy Thanksgiving to all my American readers enjoy the holiday.
"Well, we did it." The couple high fives and smiles at the table that was set up for this feast today. They had woke up early this morning to get ahead start on decorations for this get together, Thanksgiving feast. They had just finished setting the main table for the quests and themselves about 11am, after waking up early and beginning the decorations first before setting the main table and finishing in a record time. They were extremely proud of themselves, they. Barney and Robin, Barney Stinson and Robin Scherbatsky had made a whole meal the day before, the only thing left to do is make the homemade pies that Barney needs to start before it gets too late to bake them therefore there won't be any pies for this years feast.
"We did." Robin, says both to herself and to him happy that they actually did a whole meal plus the decorations within the last day and a half. It really truly made Robin believe for the first time in her life that Barney, who didn't seem to be the person she could rely on or was someone who would normally be there for her in her time of being needed or needing something but he just proved her wrong and it made her that more in love with this man who seemed to surprised her more and more each day they were married.
"So, I should probably get to baking those pies or we won't be eating any dessert tonight." Barney, announces starting to head for the kitchen again.
They had set up the dining table and the children's table plus highchairs by the terrace doors, where the stormtrooper normally stood. They had to move it into the guest room, which was just a second bedroom and a room for Barney to put more of his suits in since he didn't have enough space in his bedroom closet to hold more of those suits. He had moved his older suits to that room before he even thought about living with someone else or even getting engaged so he wanted to make use of a room he doesn't usually have any reason to use. Now, though he does have use for it when the kids are over or they have a quest like his mom or one of their friends.
Since, they got married they made use of that room more than Barney ever had before and now that room will be a bit different in about a year from now. They had wanted to use it as a sex room at first but decided against that and just made it more of a homely room for a quest to have if they stop by announced or announced in advance.
"Wait," Robin, had grabbed his arm before he could really move anywhere. She quickly grabbed his arm and pulled him back into her arms then she kisses him deep and long realizing that maybe marriage isn't so bad if it's the right guy that makes it more believable, fun, and interesting.
"Wow, what has gotten into you? You've been on this loving Barney kick for a few days. What did I do to get such lovin?" He isn't complaining at all it's just she's never been this openly hot for him, well since their honeymoon and also the night they decided to make the other big decision they both equally wanted to make, together because it's what both really did want.
"You, you're just incredible. I don't know, I've just been in awe of the shocking surprising things you've done in the last few days and it made me realize that I took you for granted." And, that's when it starts, when she finally and openly expresses her deepest regrets and insecurities for many years regarding her relationship with Barney and how her deepest regret in her life is that she underestimated her husband's abilities to really impress her and to make her happy in ways that was once so scary that it made her not understand how much Barney had this weird control over her emotions and these are the things that she fell in love with and took for granted for a long time since getting romantically involved with Barney.
"I don't think I ever told you this or anyone this, but for along time my biggest fear was that I was going to lose you someday, to someone or something else and now I realize that those fears caused me to run from being happy, being happy with you. I have ran, and ran, and ran for so long trying to pretend that you don't have this strong affect on me but I realize now that you do, and have for a long time ever since I met you. I know it took sometime for me to realize this or understand my own feelings for you, feelings that were so present and so strong for such a long time. I realize that I had taken you for granted especially on our wedding weekend and the weeks leading up to it. And, I promised myself I wouldn't think about that weekend we cheated together a few years ago but my biggest regret, well my other biggest regret on both of those occasions I hadn't truly trusted you and I realize now that it's because of how important you are in my life and if I had trusted you, then I would have trusted my heart enough to have chosen you instead of Kevin and I would have trusted that you would show up when I needed you the most that day in Central Park. If I trust in myself to trust you I would have made different decisions and I would have been happy, with you much sooner than I did." She, pauses to take a deep breath, Barney listens on almost in tears. Robin had been crying for a bit as well but she tried her best through the tears to get what she needs to tell him out, because it's been lingering in her life and theirs for a long time.
"The reason why it took me so long to come around to you, to the possibility for us to be together is because I was so afraid that if we got back together again, then it would have probably ended up like last time and I really couldn't put myself through that pain again." And, he understands her, he was just in as much pain as she was after they broke up and it truly messed them up more than they both realized. Neither, wanted to be the cause of the other one's insecurities or emotions but they did, in the end they both messed each other up in a good way because they both opened themselves up to the most scary thing that life brings you. A relationship…
"I get it, our breakup messed me up too. I was a mess for not only a few days or a month or a year it was years, and then I ran into Tracy (well I hit on her first)", they both laugh at that but go back to being serious. "Then, I ran into her and it was her who made me realize I was running too, far away but maybe not as far as you did but far enough from getting hurt again after we slept together and you chose Kevin. I got why you did that, but I was really mad at you for a long time after but I realized if I stayed angry with you then I wouldn't get to try to have another chance with you again. I, wasn't even mad or sad enough about breaking up with Quinn. I was most mad at myself for not telling you what I wanted to tell you that night on the boat and I was sad because I was still in love with you while I was with Quinn. I was at my lowest point in my life at that time, Quinn was a distraction from you, but I told myself I had to move on because you didn't have any feelings for me or even loved me." She, stops him at this point to add…
"But, I did love you then I was just so scared that I would lose you again like last time. That's why I stayed with Kevin, my feelings for him were never as strong or even truly there like they were and always have been for you. I loved you so much that I chose the easy route so I couldn't lose the only person in my life I've ever truly loved and dreamed of having the life with as we do now." They are both crying at this point and it was getting too late in time to make the pies and have it ready by 3pm so Barney jumped in to finish this conversation it was 12 now and he really needs to bake those pies. Good thing he's fast at baking so he can time this properly due to time.
"Okay, I know we both made mistake, mistakes we both regret but since I have to start those pies I am running late on time so I will tell you this..." He pauses and takes her hand in his, he realizes that it's not important of a time to pour their hearts out so he smiles and says.
"I love you, I love you more than anyone all I wanted was for you to trust enough in me that I won't be that guy I was when we first dated because I'm not anymore. I want you to trust that I will never let you down or have you not believe me, believe that I would never intentionally hurt you or do anything for you to not trust me. I meant what I told you in my vow to you and I will never break that promise. I hope you know that I never want to hurt you or be the cause of any of the pain you might go through because I will always be there for you whenever you need me. I know we aren't those needy people, and we will never be those type of people. But, I won't do anything to cause you any pain or for you to not trust me." She was almost bawling crying as he tells her this, but she understands and begins to try to get her emotions in control.
"I love you, I hope you know just how much I have tried to make you happy." And, that was the last thing he tells her before getting up to start baking the pies leaving Robin pondering what he just said.
Luckily, the next three hours go by pretty nicely but also in silence as Robin goes into the bedroom to start to get ready for her hosting duties and Barney starts the pies. The time was decent enough to get both the apple and pumpkin pies in the oven in a decent amount of time so they can bake in time before the guests start to show up. Robin, takes a shower and then gets out the dress she was going to wear for this evening following that up with fixing up her makeup and doing her hair. It was a bit longer than it was on her wedding day, she quite like her hair where it is right now because it suits her better than the short due she had for a while during a time that was the worst time in her life. Barney, meanwhile finishes the pie fillings and pops both in the oven before going into the bedroom himself to start to get ready for his hosting duties.
"So, I have about two hours to spare, the pies are in the oven and baking as they should. I'm going to go take a shower. But, as we talked about before I meant what I said." Robin, was sitting by the bedroom mirror fixing her hair and makeup when he walked in talking about the pies and what they were talking about before." He, had thought about everything that was talked about and came up with another thing to tell her, which is really important for them to finally put the past behind them and move forward because in a matter of weeks things will be changing and that won't change so they need to move on so they can move forward with their lives.
"Let's make a pact, or another vow if you will. I wanted to tell you that I want you to trust me more, even if there are times when you think you shouldn't trust me. So, I want to make this vow that if you ever feel like I'm not showing you support or aren't there for you as much as you want me to be, to tell me what you are feeling and thinking. I know I'm not the best at these kinds of conversations, you know what happened when we had to discuss feelings that day Lily locked up in your room." She nods, that was the turning point for her, that's when everything became more real and a lot more scarier because that's when she really started to fall in love with him, not that she wasn't already before that it's just after that fall day she really wanted to make this relationship and commitment with him real and true so that's what she did and it changed her life forever.
She gets up from where she was sitting in front of the mirror and walks over to where Barney was standing which was by his dresser where he was getting out underwear to change into after taking his shower.
"Okay, deal. We tell each other anything and everything even if it's the most embarrassing or emotional. We say what's on our minds no matter what, and we no longer hold anything in or back from one another. Although, I want to make my own vow to add to yours… That is, no matter what I will always be honest with you, I know you vowed to me that you were going to never lie to me. Well, I have my own vow to you that I won't ever again, hold anything back from you no matter what it is. It's the reason I was in denial about my feelings for you, it was the reason why I chose Kevin, why I didn't tell you the real reason why I was looking for my locket. I held things in for too long and it made me fall apart, I was a mess on the inside as well as the outside even though I didn't show it often, I was and the things I did and kept inside was slowly destroying me in the inside. So, that's my vow to you. I won't hold anything in or back from you from now on no matter what." A smile breaks widely on Barney's face and it reminds him why this woman is the only woman he'll ever truly love and who will always amaze him.
"Deal. We keep these vows and never hold anything in or lie to each other because that worked so well for so many heart wrenching years." They kiss after this for a couple of minutes then he goes to take his shower and she finishes her hair then starts with her makeup.
He, comes out of the shower soon later and takes out the suit he was going to wear for the day. He dresses as Robin is now completely dressed and ready for the remainder of this day.
"Wow, you look..." He pauses, looking at her up and down realizing how lucky he truly is and that it was so good for them to be more open with each other and trust each other as their relationship grows more and the marriage gets more and more great to share their lives together.
"Thank you, handsome." He had suited up, well partially suited up he had his pants and dress shirt on but not all the way buttoned yet.
They embrace for a good few minutes. In time for Robin to realize she really didn't want to mess up her newly made up hair or her makeup. Pushing him away, and smiling brightly.
"I love you, Barney Stinson." She tells him after they break the kiss and are still in an embrace, a hold that was a bit tight but they didn't care they both enjoyed these kinds of intimate moments between them.
"I love you too, Robin Stinson." She smiles at the name she's been using a lot more these days than ever before, at first she wasn't used to having his name attached to her own but in some ways it was something that connects her to him forever and so she uses it more than she does Scherbatsky but she actually loves using his name because it's apart of him, and she loves being apart of Barney Stinson, every single part of him.
Barney finishes getting dressed then goes to check on the pies. The pies were done and ready to be taken out of the oven he takes them out and places them on the counter to cool off then went back to the bedroom where Robin was putting on the finishing touches of her makeup and re-touching up her hair that was a bit messy from her and Barney's makeout session.
"So, the pies are out of the oven and done so we have about a half hour to spare until the guests start to arrive." He tells her, walking up behind her wrapping his arms around her waist pulling her back a bit into him.
"That's great, perfect timing. So, far nothing bad has happened maybe our bad luck of the past is just in the past." She tells him, closing her eyes as he holds her close. It was just like that moment when they got engaged and every single fear they had went away and it was just a magical and legendary time in their lives.
"And, nothing will happen." It's nothing he can promise but he wanted this to go well for the both of them without anything going wrong but they hoped this statement was true.
Do to not wanting to mess up her hair or makeup and him not wanting to mess up his new suit they breakup the embrace and break apart from the hold.
"We have to set up the food, we have 15 minutes to spare." He tells her, that was the final thing they needed to do before the guests start to get there.
"Right, be right there just want to clean up the mess here." Robin, begins to fix up the mess that was by the mirror on the table while Barney went into the kitchen to take the food from the counter to the main table.
She joins him after about three minutes and helped him place the food onto the main table. The final thing to put on the table was the turkey, and it looked quite delicious if Barney has to say so.
"Well, we did it. Now, we wait for the guests and whatever hell comes with it." He tried to sell this as a joke but he nor Robin was laughing but as they were thinking in the quietness of the room there was a knock at the door.
It was almost 3, just in time for the first of the 20 guests to arrive.
It was Ted and Tracy with their daughter who arrived first.