A/N: Oh…my….god!! I'm sorry, but I'm not used to get so many reviews!! LOL! Thank you all! You're awesome!! (and special thanks to those who kept reviewing from the beginning.)

I'm so glad I didn't disappoint you with the last chapter because, honestly, I was afraid I wouldn't write like I wanted to. Now, I hope I won't disappoint you with their reactions!

And this is my last update until my trip to Alaska. Wish me luck with the mosquitoes!

Ch.4 The Reason

They stayed there, staring at each other's eyes for five minutes that seemed five seconds to her. What…? How…? There were so many questions her mind couldn't answer at that time, she was so messed up. All she could think about was…she didn't know. What…? Why…? How …? She finally closed her mouth, and then opened it again. He thought she was going to say something, but then she closed it again. He decided he should start.

"How are you?"He dared.

She looked at him, at his eyes. Then she opened her mouth again, but no sound came from it. She had so many things to tell him, so many questions to ask him…but she just couldn't. Finally, she found the strength enough to speak. But her words didn't make much sense.

"I-I-I….O-O-…no-no-now…" she said. He smiled. She's so cute when she does that he thought. "I-I-I…"

"Meredith" Mark said finally. He had watched the scene and decided that he should say something. "I think you have a surgery, don't you?" he was helping her to get out of there.

"Ye-ye-yes, I-I-I" she looked at Derek then. He was smiling. He wasn't mad at all. Of course, he didn't know about his five-year-old children. What would he say, then? "La-la-lat?"

"We'll see you later." Mark said "Now go" she looked at Derek again "NOW!" then she took her stuff and ran to the OR.

She washed her hands, thoughtful. What did just happen in the nursery station? She slapped her face, like it was going to help her to wake up from a nightmare. Or maybe it was a dream? She didn't know anything at that moment. She was sure she had seen him there, staring at her. And he had asked her how she was. What the f? She had left five years ago without leaving any note, hadn't spoke to him in five years, and then he asks her how she was?! Something was definitely wrong. Either that guy wasn't the Derek she knew, or he was REALLY trying to get something.



The surgery went OK. She was more than glad that OR didn't have a gallery-the last thing she needed was Derek staring at her while she was operating. The patient made it, and now she was recovering in her room. Meredith stood there, in front of her room, watching how her boyfriend was waiting next her. Suddenly, she noticed a presence behind her. She sighted.

"You knew it, didn't you?" she asked. She didn't stop watching the happy couple.

"I did" Mark answered.

"Where's he now?"

"He's in the cafeteria, with Addie."

"I…I wanted to talk to him. But I tried, and I couldn't." she shrugged "I don't know what keeps me afraid, why I can't tell him how I feel, like I do with you."

"Eventually you will" he said softly. "You'll understand…and so he will"

She smiled. "I can't talk to him. Not right now…I…" she hesitated "I'm afraid." She turned her face, and Mark could see that she was crying "what is he going to think about…about them?"

He knew what she was talking about. "He'll accept it." he shrugged "he always wanted to have children"

"But-but I didn't tell him! He's going to get mad at me because I didn't tell him!"

She sat down on the bed, looking at him.

"You yelled at me for no reason, and then you walked away, and now you show up here."

"Of course I showed up! Why wouldn't I? You don't trust me?"

"I do"

"Okay, this is how it works-you fight sometimes, and somebody apologizes."

"Well, how am I supposed to know that?"

"You've never done this before!"

"No, I've never done this before."

"Hm…OK, alright…well, this is…ah..." he hesitated, and then he looked at her eyes "From now on you can expect that I'm gonna show up." He said, putting his hand on her cheek "even if I yell, even if you yell. I'm always gonna show up. OK?"

"OK." She said, as he approached his mouth to her, and then, their lips met.

"So, how's life in Seattle?" Addison asked him.

"Boring. Rainy. Cold."

"Um…" there was an awkward silence, again. They hadn't seen each other in almost 4 years, but all she tried was useless. He only asked with a "yes", or a "no", or "I don't know". He never answered with more than five words.

Derek looked around for the 4th time since they started 'talking'. He still couldn't believe it. Meredith Grey, who was the love of his life, was in New York. In this hospital. In the same hospital where he was now having lunch. He needed to see her, to talk to her, but…where was she?

"How's it going?" Mark asked as he sat with them.

"Did you see her?" Derek asked him impatiently.

"Wow, man, you need to calm down." He looked at him, and he saw something that made him change his mind. "Yes, I did see her."

"….so?"

"She wants to talk to you."

"Where is-"

"But-" Mark interrupted "not right now."

"What?"

"She can't talk to you right now, she's…confused"

"She's confused?! I am confused!!"

"Calm down, Derek…"Addison begged, talking for the first time since Mark came.

"I-I…"

"Derek" someone called behind him. He turned himself to see who was talking. "Can we talk? I…I need to talk to you"

"Meredith, you don't have t-" Mark started

"Yes, I do. I do have to do this, Mark" she said. "So, can we?"

"Yes. Yes, sure." He said, quickly standing up from his chair.

"Can we walk?"



He nodded. They started walking, leaving Addison and Mark behind. He looked at her. He wasn't wearing her resident uniform anymore, and he could tell she wasn't so skinny now. He couldn't separate his eyes from her. She turned her face to see him, and he moved his head away quickly, embarrassed.

"What?" she asked

"Nothing. You look beautiful."

"Don't."

"What?"

"Don't say I look beautiful."

"Why not? You do."

"Stop that."

"OK"

They kept walking, silently. After some minutes walking, they finally found a quiet bench to sit on. He smiled. He knew she was nervous. But so he was. So many things had happened in the last five years…

"I-I…"she started. "Oh crap, why is this so complicated?"

"Just…you don't have to do it right now."

"Do what?"

"Tell me anything. I mean, what is in the past is not going to change."

"Yeah, right"

"You left, but it doesn't matter anymore"

"It's not that"

"You don't need to tell me why. You had your own reasons, right?"

"Yes, but-" she got interrupted by her cell-phone. She saw who was calling and then decided she needed to answer the call. "I'm sorry….I really need to answer this call"

"It's okay, go ahead."

"Yes? Lau...Hi." Ops. She almost said her name-his mother's name. That wouldn't do any good.

"Meredith? Hi, it's me. I need you to come as soon as possible. They called me from the school- Patrick is not feeling well. I picked them both up and we're at home right now."



"Oh…he hadn't slept well this night."

"He's 102º right now"

"Oh, shit…ok, I'm coming. I'll be there in 10 minutes. How is she?"

"Emma? She's fine, but you know-when one gets sick, the other becomes sick the next day."

"Yeah, right." She answered "I'll see you in a few minutes. Thank you, bye." After she hung up her phone, she turned to see Derek who was still waiting there. "I-I'm sorry. I need to go. Some …emergency I need to attend."

"That's fine"

"I'll see you soon." She said "oh…and…it was nice meeting you."

He smiled "Yes, it was." And then she left. Oh god, he missed her so much. He missed having her in his arms, he missed when she yelled at him, he missed her snores…Five years was a long time. He decided he would finish lunch with Mark and Addie, and then he would go home.

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Meredith got there an hour ago, and she was now taking a cold shower with her son to make his fever go down. She hadn't talk to Lauren about Derek, but neither Lauren had mentioned it. She wondered if he was staying there. She didn't think so, Derek didn't use to like staying at his mother's house in New York, and he'd be staying in a hotel.

Someone opened the door, but since the shower made noises, she didn't hear it.

"I'm home" no one answered. "Mom?"

She got out of the bathroom with her wet clothes on and her son in her arms, shivering. And then she saw him, standing at the principal door. He was watching her, surprised that he found her there.

"Me-Meredith?" he asked, shocked. "What are you doing here?"

"I…"

"Meredith, Emma is in bed already." Lauren announced "Oh, Derek! What are you doing here?"

"What's this all about?"

"I…" Meredith started. "I…"

Now she would have to tell him, the truth. The reason she left Seattle five years ago- their children.



A/N: So that was it! Did you like it? You didn't? Just tell me, so I can know how to improve it, or if I should stop it now…Feel free to criticize!

Well, Meredith cannot escape now!! Or maybe she can? What do you think: should she tell him about the twins or not?
I don't know when I'm going to be able to update, probably on the 24th or so. See you then!