Liv let the kiss continue a little bit. Amanda needed to feel and she didnt have the heart to stop her. Her friend needed to feel wanted, and beautiful. Most importantly she needed to feel beautiful. Her self esteem had taken a hit and Liv not only knew but she understood as well.

The kiss broke easily, both of them needing air; Amanda shook her head, eyes wide as saucers. Her mind racing with a million thoughts all at once. Most prominent was the kiss. Looking over at Liv she could see the brunette had a faint blush and her lips were still plump from their kiss. "Oh shit, oh shit, oh fuck." Nerves kicked in, Amanda was internally chastising herself for initiating the kiss. She wound herself up so much she stuttered when she spoke, "I'm... I'm... I'm... Sorr... Sorr... Sorry...Liv..." She began to fidget and play with her fingers, thinking how stupid she was for acting on her impulsitivity. Liv touched her arm gently and spoke with a tender voice "Honey Im not angry. You have nothing to be sorry for." Amanda let the tears fall, she was way past humiliation now anyway. Come on she just kissed her boss, one of her best friends. "Uh I'll go collect Jesse and her things. I dont want to make you feel any more awkward." Amanda stood up, rubbing her hands on her face, her shoulders still quaking with tears that hadnt been shed yet. Liv wasnt going to let her leave. For one this woman needed her, the kiss it happened, it didnt mean she was going to kick her friend and her daughter out especially at this hour. She got up off her bed and came over to where Amanda was just standing. Liv reached out and grabbed Amanda's hand. "Honey you are not leaving. You did nothing wrong." Amanda looked at Liv, the fear and hurt clearly evident in her eyes. Her voice cracking as she spoke "Liv...but...I..." Liv put her other hand on Amanda's shoulder , "Amanda relax honey it's just us here. You dont have to be in 'fight or flight' mode. You are safe, we can talk about it. I think that kiss happened because you needed some sort of a connection. I'm not upset. So please sweetie, come back and lay back down."

Amanda let Liv lead her back to the bed, sitting down with the upset blonde she tried to coax her gently to talk. Was Amanda second guessing herself? Was she second guessing the kiss? Liv hoped she wasnt. The kiss was nice, Liv hadnt felt a connection like that before. The only question she had was; was Amanda attracted to her? Answers she'd get in time. Right now was getting the young blonde calmed down and out of the fight or flight mode. Liv moved her hands from holding the blonde that was shaking to her back and was doing gentle ministrations, hoping to relax her friend. "Hey sweetie, you want some tea? Would that help to relax you at all?" Amanda took a deep breath, hot tea wasnt what calmed her down. She was going to have to take it though cause what really calmed her down there was no way she was getting. Sex was the big thing that calmed her down. Probably why she and Al had so much sex. Anyone in their right minds knew that a job in sex crimes was exceptionally stressful so when her and Al got together and Jesse was in bed they were lucky that nothing broke. "Sure Liv, tea sounds like it might work."

Liv went out and made them some tea. She saw something trigger off in Amanda's eyes and couldnt figure out what it was. She was dying to know if Amanda was attracted to her, because if she was honest with herself she hadnt been this attracted to a woman since Alexandra Cabot. The only thing with them, was she had never acted on her impulses. There was just alot of sexual tension between them. When she walked back in the room she saw Amanda staring out her window. The blonde was in her own little world. Liv took the minute as she placed the teas on the nightstand to look at Amanda. She really was a beautiful woman. She had gorgeous legs in which you could tell she worked out and kept in shape. Beautiful long golden blonde hair, and those eyes. She couldnt forget those stunning cobalt blue orbs. Liv spoke softly as to not spook the already timid blonde. "Amanda, sweetie drink some of the tea maybe it will make you relax." Amanda took a sip, this wasnt going to make her relax. After putting her cup on the window sill she spoke. "Thank you Liv for the tea. I think I should go out on the couch and let you get some sleep. I'm too wound up. Besides I dont want to make another mistake." Liv wanted to get this woman to sit so they could talk. She walked over to the window where Amanda was still standing. In Liv's mind if this escalated into intimacy between them she wasnt going to view it as a mistake as she did have some feelings toward the blonde, she wondered if Amanda had some feelings or attraction as well. "Amanda that kiss wasnt a mistake okay. It happened, you dont see me running do you? You and Jesse werent kicked out on your ass were you?" Amanda shook her head no. Liv this time took Amanda's hand and led her over to the bed so they could sit.

Amanda sat down, Liv sat right next to her. They needed to talk, better yet Liv just needed one question answered and then the night could take whatever turn Amanda felt she needed. Liv gently rested her hand on Amanda's shoulder, where Amanda was stubborn and didnt want to let Liv see her cry she kept her head down. Liv got a lil frustrated and ever so gently she cupped Amanda's chin to get her to look at her. "Amanda the reason I can say you're beautiful is cause I think you are. As a matter of fact I havent been able to keep my eyes off you." Amanda couldnt believe what she was hearing, not to mention she was wondering if she was in fact hearing what she thought she was hearing. She was hearing that Liv was attracted to her. She decided she was going to ask a vague question and see what kind of answer she got. She herself had a bit of an attraction but she didnt want to admit it without being sure of Liv's feelings. She already had enough of her feelings being onesided and misconstrued she didnt want that anymore. "Liv I'll be honest, if I am to stay in here all night in your bed, things may happen. I tend to want and even need sex when I'm like this. I dont want to ruin our friendship." When she looked over she saw that Liv hadnt moved away from her. Infact if anything Liv had pulled her closer. The close proximity of the woman she was attracted to made Liv's voice husky "Amanda I whatever is meant to happen will. Whatever happens I think will most likely bring us closer together. I'm attracted to you. I think thats a big reason why I couldnt stand your now ex. He wasnt worthy of you. He obviously didnt appreciate or value the beautiful woman he had before him."

Amanda shook her head, a bit confused as granted she was very attracted to Liv but was shocked to hell to find the feelings were infact reciprocated. Liv wanted to show her how she indeed felt. Liv did the only thing she felt was right to her in this moment. She gently cupped the blondes chin and brought her lips to Amanda's and kissed her. Gently at first and then growing more needy when Amanda kissed back and deepened the kiss. The kissing went on for a few moments, more heated with hands caressing one another. Neither of them getting enough of the touch. The need for skin on skin was real. Amanda had to put a stop to it before they went any further. Breaking the kiss yet again and scooting away she saw Liv's eyes they were so dark they were black with lust. Liv cocked her head at her "Why did you stop and pull away? Did I do something wrong?" Amanda shook her head once again "no". "Liv I cant do this." After saying that she got up and went out to the living room. She didnt want to use the woman for a night of passion after a break up, she was growing feelings for Liv and this wasnt the way she wanted this to happen. Liv gave her a few moments so they both could collect themselves. Something was shifting between them.

So who is going to approach who first? Will Amanda come back into Liv's bedroom? Will Liv go out to the living room? We do know now that they are both attracted to one another. What will happen? Will they be intimate? Going to work on the next chapter. As always reviews are great and even sometimes the ideas go the way the reviews want.. Should good ol Al make an appearance? Should Liv go visit the doc herself and tell him to leave Amanda alone?