Disclaimer: I do not own Hannah Montana or anything else I may use in this fanfic. Believe me if I did own HM then it would be soooooo much better and it probably wouldn't be on Disney.
Hi guys it's me Mandy. Just an update Tay is feeling a little better but still can't do much, I'm not sure what's wrong with her because she won't go to the doctor, she has a fear of them, and I know she's going to kill me for saying that, but I think she has Mano. I hope not because that would mean she's kissing someone else lol just kidding, but she has a bad habit of sharing water bottles with our friends so yea it's possible and the way she describes how she's feeling is kinda the same symptoms. So give her your best wishes for a speedy recovery, you know I am. Well once again I'm taking over her shift on her story, so forgive me if I mess this up because it's a story she came up with, but she believes I can do a good job so I'll stop my babbling now. Ok now I'm presenting to you the newest chapter of our SheHasMyHeart Team Production…
Love Lost, Love Found
I still don't get how she knew where I lived. I mean she never asked me or anything, she just knew. UGH I'm so tired I didn't get any sleep last night because of this damn question. I mean seriously, she just drives right up and drop…
"Miley?" Oliver asked breaking me out of my trance.
"Huh?"
"Miley that's the third time you've zoned out since we got here, are you ok?" Oliver says then licks his ice cream cone.
We're at the ice cream place across the street from the skate park, waiting for Cassie to show up.
"Yea sorry I just… I didn't get much sleep."
"Oh why?"
"Well Cassie…" I tried to explain but Oliver interrupted me.
"Oh, she's really getting to you isn't she?" Oliver says with a smirk on his face.
"Huh? What are you talking about?"
"You're really into her aren't you?" his smirk got even bigger.
"Oliver that's not wha…" I tried again but he interrupted.
"Why don't you just see if she likes you too?"
"What?" I gave up trying to explain but his suggestion was just… I don't know but it came out of nowhere, "I don't even know if she likes girls."
"Well ask her."
"You can't just ask someone if they are gay, what if she says no? Then I don't have an explanation for why I asked."
"But what if she says yes?"
"Oliver I don't want to talk about this now." I look down at my ice cream dish that was half melted already.
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want a girlfriend right now." I said softly hoping he wouldn't hear but he did.
"Miley…" he shook his head.
"No I don't want one right now. End of discussion." I waved my hands up hoping to finalize the discussion but it didn't.
"Miley you've got to stop doing this to yourself. I can't stand seeing you like this."
"Like what?"
"Like someone stole your ego. You been going around the past year like a zombie, hardly talking to anyone or even letting anyone close to you, especially the people that already were."
"Oliver you don't…"
"I don't understand? Oh I understand fine, you know you're not the only one that lost someone when Lilly died, I did too. I lost a best friend that I've had since kindergarten, I understand that it hit you hard because you loved her, but I did too, she was basically my sister."
"Oliver I…" I began to apologize
"No let me finish. I know this is sounding harsh but I'm saying this out of pure support." he grabbed my hand, "Miley it's been a year, you need to get over it and continue your life. I understand that Lilly was the love of your life but you know she wouldn't want this. She wouldn't want you being sad for the rest of your life, she'd want you to live your life to the fullest, she'd want you to be happy."
I just look down not knowing what to say, because he was right. Lilly would want me to be happy just like I'd want her to be if I was the one that was dead. But it's just so hard.
"Look I know it's hard, you know how I was the first few months after her funeral. But I think you being around Cassie will help. I know I wasn't there last night but when we saw her yesterday, when she came up to talk to you, the person that spoke to her, that was the old you, the one that was around before Lilly died. That's the one that needs to come back full time. That's what Lilly would want." Oliver said still having a hold of my hand but I still wouldn't look up at him, "Miley I'm so…"
"No, it's ok. I needed to hear that." I said finally looking up at him, "You're right, I'm just… I'm scared."
"Scared of what?"
"I don't know… getting hurt, losing someone else close to me, everything." I paused think about the answer to Oliver's question, "I guess I'm scared I'll lose Cassie the same way I lost Lilly."
"Miley that was a freak accident. The chances of that happening is one in a million."
"Uhh… hello, one in a million central sitting right here." I say and point to myself.
"You know what I meant."
"Yea I know and you're right, but I just wanna take it slow right now, then when I feel ready, I'll ask her."
"Ok, I'll take that." Oliver said then started looking at me strange.
"What is it?"
"You uhh… got something on your nose."
"What where?" I start feeling on my nose.
"Right here." Oliver says then takes a spoonful of my half melted ice cream and smears it on my nose and I gasp.
"OLIVER!!" I yelled as I stood up, now glad that we were sitting outside or else this would have caused a scene.
I could tell he was trying to say something but he was laughing too hard for any words to come out.
"Oh you better run!" I say loud enough for Oliver to hear and it shuts him up long enough for him to get to his feet before I start chasing him around the table.
"Uhh am I interrupting something?" a voice called out causing both of us to stop in our tracks.
"Oh uh… hey Cassie, we didn't see you walk up." I said as I walk around the table.
"Yea I could tell, uhh… Miley you got a little something…" she starts pointing to her nose.
"Oh yea…" I reach for a napkin and clean my nose, "Oliver kinda..."
"Yea I saw when I walked up, and that was really mean Oliver."
"Hey she should have seen it coming." Oliver puts his hands up in defense.
"How could I have seen it coming after we just talked about me liking…" I stopped myself just before I said Cassie's name but I had already said too much.
"Oh you like someone?" Cassie said in a somewhat upset/surprised tone.
Wait, did I actually hear that right? Did she really sound like she was upset? But why? Oh why does this have to be so confusing?
"I uhh… we were…" I start stuttering.
"We were just talking about how much she likes Hannah Montana's music. She just won't shut up about it sometimes." Oliver comes up with an excuse for me.
"Yea that." I say playing along with him until I realize the second part he said, "Hey!!" then I smack him in the arm.
"Oww!"
Cassie just sits there and laughs, "Wow you two are just too funny. Do you guys practice that?"
I do everything I can to not laugh but it doesn't work. After a few minutes of getting our laughter calmed down all three of us become silent until Cassie breaks it.
"So what are we up to today?"
"Oh well we were thinking, we could go to a movie then maybe go to the beach after." Oliver says pointing over to the movie theater a few buildings down.
"Oh that sounds cool."
"Yea then we were probably gonna hang at my house for a while afterward." I added.
"Ok, let's go then." Cassie says then grabs my hand and we start walking with Oliver following.
2 hours later
I am so glad to be out of there. I couldn't breathe. No there's nothing wrong with the movie theater but all I could focus on the whole time was Cassie. She was sitting between me and Oliver but her arm was right next to mine, touching it in fact. All I could focus on was her arm touching mine, I don't even know what the movie was about, heck I don't even remember the title of it, all I could do was stare at our arms and try as hard as I could not to grab her hand.
"Miley?" Oliver said as he waved his hand in front of my face.
"Huh? What did you say?"
"I said what did you think of the movie?"
"Oh uhh… it was really sad."
"Sad? Miley it was a comedy movie." Cassie said in a confused tone.
"Oh I uhh…" I stuttered as I thought of another subject, "Who wants to go to the beach?"
"Sure I'm in." Oliver agreed
"Yea me too. I just have to stop at my house, what about you two?" Cassie said as she pointed toward the direction of her house.
"Oh I got mine in my bag." Oliver said holding up his bag.
"And I've got mine on already." I said.
"Ok you just wanna meet over there or…"
"Why don't we just go with you and wait?" Oliver suggested then I gave him an evil look, in which he just smiled and mouthed 'What?'
"Ok come on." Cassie said then we headed towards her house but I walked up behind Oliver and smacked his head.
"Oww. What was that for?" he said quietly, so Cassie wouldn't notice.
"Go over to her house? Really?" I whispered back to him.
"What's wrong with her…" he stopped when it clicked in his head, "Oh sorry I forgot. You wanna just go ahead and we'll catch up?"
I thought for a second and sighed, "No I'll be fine."
"Hey what are you guys talking about?" Cassie asked from ahead as we turned to walk down her street and to her house.
"Nothing." I said quickly, maybe a little too quickly.
"Ooook" Cassie said non-convinced tone, "Well I'll only be a few minutes, come on." Cassie said and we followed her in, "You guys want anything to drink?"
"No thanks I'm fine." Oliver replied.
"Ok what about you Miles?" she said looking directly into my eyes.
"Ummm no I'm good uhh… where's the bathroom." I asked even though I already knew where it was.
"Oh, down the hall and 2nd door on the right." she told me but I had already started to it as soon as she started to talk.
I need to get away, this is getting so hard. Why does this have to be happening to me? But I need to face this, Oliver is right, I need to move on, and I think Cassie is the best way to do that. But how do I tell her?
I sat in the bathroom for about 10 or 15 minutes thinking and washing my face over and over, trying to cool my face down, when someone knocked on the door.
"Miley, are you ok?" Cassie's voice came from the other side.
I froze for a second before I responded, "Uhh yea I'm fine I'll be out in a minute."
'So much for cooling off' I thought to myself as I grabbed a towel and dried my face.
I walked over and opened the door and stopped in my tracks when I found standing in front of me a slim, toned black haired girl with dark athletic shorts and a black two-piece top on, with something in her hand. It looked like she was wanting a reaction from and if that was true she got one my eyes stayed glued to her stomach and my jaw dropped to the ground.
"Like what you see huh?" Cassie said in a smug but joking tone but I didn't pick up on the joking part.
"Huh uhh What?" I stuttered then she laughed a little.
"Just kidding, Miles. So what were you doing in there so long?" she asked then put the thing that was in her hand on, a dark sleeveless shirt, I had a disappointed look on my face when she put that shirt on but I don't think she saw it.
"I uhh… oh just… cramps." I said as I held my stomach.
"Oh man I hate those."
"Yea me too." I said as we walked out the door with Oliver following.
We walked down to the beach talking about random things, well Oliver and Cassie talked as I kinda lagged behind. Cassie wondered if I was ok but I just said it was more cramps, which was kinda true, I mean no I didn't have cramps but I kept feeling this thing in my stomach every time I looked at Cassie, the same feeling I've had ever since I first saw her. God I really am falling for her, and hard. I thought it would help not being able to see her face but this plan backfired because guess what I got to look at the whole way there. Yep that's right, and it didn't help me what so ever, in fact now I need to cool off even more than I needed to at her house. And if that wasn't bad enough I got a front row seat to her taking off her shirt and shorts before she ran to the water.
"If you don't want to go to fast with her then you might want to stop staring at her so much." Oliver said as he dropped his bag beside mine and Cassie's things.
I just looked up at him and laughed, "I am not staring at her." crap I didn't even convince myself.
"Oh you're not? Then what do you call this?" he said then started looking at me with what I assumed was how I looked when I looked at Cassie, even though he did look really stupid.
"I call that noticing." why am I even trying to argue he knows that I already know I'm caught.
"Oh well you better stop 'noticing' her 'ass'sets when she has her back turned or else you'll get caught." he said putting air quotes in the air.
"Well what do you expect when sh…" I started defending myself but I was interrupted.
"Hey what are you two waiting for the water's great?" Cassie said as she came running up to both of us.
"Uhh… I was just going to catch some rays while you two surfed."
"Oh come on Miley, let's get in the water." Cassie said almost begging me to get in.
"No, I'll just watch from up here." I really needed to just stay here so I won't do anything I might regret later.
"Miley come on." Cassie replied then came up and grabbed my hands and tried to pull me up. That move sent my mind into a flashback.
"Miley come on."Lilly said pulling me up by my arms.
"No Lilly, I'll only be in the way of you surfing."I let myself fall limp but Lilly supports my weight.
"No you won't"
"No" I say laughing as Lilly kept pulling me.
"Miley come on." Cassie kept pulling me.
My mind kept going from Cassie's face to Lilly's, "No, I'll only be in the way."
"No you won't."
"No"
"Please." Cassie begged with a playful smile on her face.
"Lilly I said no!" I pulled my arms away then realized what I said and put my hands over my mouth.
I stood there with tears forming in my eyes, I didn't want Cassie to see so I turned and ran.
"Miley wa…" I heard Cassie calling but her voice stopped, Oliver probably stopped her.
I don't remember how long it took to get home nor did I even care that I left my stuff, I just needed to get out of there. This was too much. I don't know if I can do this, everything I do with her reminds me of Lilly. I ran up to my room as soon as I walked in, not even noticing that no one was home, or caring for that matter. I landed face first onto my bed and let the tears fall and be absorbed onto my pillow.
"Why do you have to torture me so much? Why do you have to look like her?" I say into my pillow in between sobs, "Why do I have to love you when I said I wouldn't love anyone but Lilly?"
I layed there for a few more minutes as the tears seemed to let up then I heard my door creep open. I didn't even look up, I didn't even really care, until I felt a hand on my back then I looked up.
"Cassie?"
"Hey." she said in a shy voice.
"What are you doing here? How did you get in?"
"You kinda left the door open."
Figures I tend to forget things like that when I'm upset.
"I'm sorry." she said after a minute of silence.
"For what? You have nothing to be sorry for, I'm the one that ran off crying for no reason."
"Oh you had a reason, and I'm sorry for pushing you so much."
"How are you pushing me?"
"I understand that you lost your best friend, but I didn't know you were still trying to get over it, until Oliver told me a few minutes ago."
"Oh…" that was all I could say.
"You and Lilly must have been really close huh?"
"Yea really close." I said then mumbled, "More than you know."
"Hey come here." Cassie said then patted me on the back and surprisingly to me I was able to get up. Once I was up I was wrapped into a comforting hug by the other girl.
"You wanna know what helped me get through losing my friend?" Cassie whispered into my ear.
"What?"
"By believing that I'd see her again, just like you'll see Lilly again." she whispered then looked me in the eyes, "And talking about things to people that are willing listen, and Miles?"
"Yea?" I said now with a small smile forming on my face.
"I'm willing to listen to everything you have to say."
Those words just made my smile grow bigger and I hugged Cassie again, "Thank you, Cassie. That means a lot."
"Hey you deserve it. Hey you wanna know something?"
"What?" I said as I pulled away from the hug to look at Cassie.
"I know we've only know each other for a few days but… you're the best friend I've ever had." Cassie said shyly then added, "You don't have to say anything in return I just wanted you to know that."
I was shocked, but something, something deep down made me say, "You're the best friend I've ever had too."
We just smiled at each other then all of a sudden I felt myself lean in but I noticed Cassie leaning in too.
'Oh god is she going to kiss me? Am I really going to kiss her?' I thought to myself.
We got closer and closer but then a thought came up into my head and I pulled away at the last second.
"Umm Cassie?"
"Yea?" she said with a hint of disappointment in her voice but I didn't really think anything of it.
"Last night you dropped me off here right?"
"Yea?"
"How did you know where I lived?"
Guys I'm so sorry for the cliffy but that's where I have to stop. And I'm sorry for not getting this out earlier, I started writing this chapter as soon as I got off work on Friday but I ended up having to do things I wasn't supposed to be responsible for all weekend. It was like every time I started to get going on this chapter something came up. UGH I HATE BEING IN THE AIR FORCE!!! Especially because it keeps me away from the person I care about the most. Speaking of Tay, she actually went to the doctor and yep she has Mano. No she hasn't been kissing anyone besides me, like I said earlier she has a bad habit of sharing water bottles with our friends, so she's gonna be out of writing stories for a while. Sorry but she feels that bad, but I'll try to update as quickly as I can but I can't guarantee anything because my schedule isn't a set schedule, but I love writing these things so I'll be writing whenever I have time. Anyway wish Tay a speedy recovery she really liked those from those of you who did.
Well that's all for this one, I hope I didn't do too bad, like I said this is Tay's story and we don't always think alike with our ideas so if I confused anyone I'm sorry but I hope you enjoyed it. So until next time I'm Mandy and this has been a SheHasMyHeart Team Production. C ya.