This evening in the hotel room she shares with Ren, Kyoko couldn't stop thinking about the end of the conversation she had with Ayumi-san in the car which drive her back at LME. "You know, Kyoko with all you told me about how you feel about Fuwa, I understand you never really fall in love with him, it was more like siblings love with a light crush for you but you were more like a fan than a girl in love. I think if you compare it to acting, it would be more a sister spoiling her brother thinking he's the best than a girl who wants to date him. You even told me you just dream about kissing him just a bit, if you really loved him like a potential lover, you would have want more than that and would have be with him alone all the time. So I think you were more hurt by the fact of being betrayed by the only person you really consider as your family than because he didn't love you as a girlfriend. And finaly I won't tell you not to seek revenge on him, he deserve a good beating to be such a jerk, but I think the best way to have it is for you to move on and create yourself a happy life with the people who care for you and just stop thinking about him. Before you start yelling about all the years you lost for him, I want to tell you something, by always have your mind on your revenge, you still let him control you and it prevent you to be truly happy."
What Ayumi-san had say makes Kyoko think about it since she had hear it and she was lost in thought cooking dinner to Ren and herself without paying attention at Ren. Ren on the other hand watch her and he could see that something bothers her and couldn't stay silent longer and ask her if she had a problem. Surprise by Ren's voice, Kyoko jumps and turn to face him to see him looking at her worrying and it makes her smile to see him thinking of her well being and since she wants to talk with someone about all the thought who won't leave her, she start talking.
"You see Ren, this afternoon, I went shopping with Ayumi-san today and she ask me to do a LoveMe job, I have to answer problems of the people write on the website.
-Are you afraid you won't be able to help them?
-No, well a bit but Ayumi-san told me I can choose who to answer and that I just propose solution to help them and I'm not asked to find a solution which works, it's just to give them ideas. I have to promote the drama and the website on a TV show tomorrow.
-So you're nervous about the first show you have to be in?
-Yes, I mean they will ask me questions, what if I mess up?
-Don't worry, I'm sure you'll be just fine, you just have to create a public persona who can handle a show without problems if you're really too afraid.
-Thank you Ren, you always find way to calm me down. Ren can feel warmth spread within him and he smiles his angelic smile which makes Kyoko blush lightly.But it's not the thing which really bother me, my main problem is after we went shopping, we went to a coffee shop and we talked about me and love...
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-And I told her why I was in the LoveMe section and then she told me that what I felt for Sho wasn't true love but more like a sister who spoil her brother with a light crush because he was the only boy really close to me. And then she told me that I let him have control over me because of my revenge and finnaly that I must move on to be really happy with people who cares for me.
-...So what do you think about what she told you. 'If only you'll follow this advice and forget about him, maybe you'll be able to see me.'
-After thinking about it a long time, I find she's right, he still have power on me because of my revenge and it piss me off that I still let him control my life! So I decide to stop thinking about him at all or at least I try, I'm not sure if I can control myself if he's a jerk in front of me. After all, my revenge doesn't give me anything good, it bring me problems each time I snap at him and it just make me more hurt. So I want to let all this suffering behind me in the past and focuse on my future with my friends even if it will be hard."
Ren couln't believe his luck, an afternoon and a long conversation and it's all it takes to make her let go of all her hate and above all to finally make her look at the future and hopefully him. He has to thanks Ayumi-san, thanks to her, he could see that the scar on Kyoko's heart has begin healing, all he has to do now, is making her see him as more than a friend.
Kyoko is glad that she tells Ren her new resolution, she knows that it would help her to hold on it. But more than that, she can feel herself become lighter and happier, as if her revenge was a weigh that she have carried for nearly a year now and was glad that it was lifted from her shoulder. Her newfind happiness makes her smile her own version of an angelic smile at Ren which makes him want to wrap his arms around her and never let her go. To help fight his urge he propose to eat dinner before it' cold, what surprises Kyoko because it's the first time Ren actualy propose to eat before she force him to but start serving dinner anyway. They continue to talk about her apparition on a show tomorrow, he gives her some advices to help her being less nervous about being in a live with public. Then they go to sleep, tired but still in a good mood.
For the show, Kyoko wears a light-green dress which she had bought with Ayumi-san the day before, her dress stop just under her knees and has small pearl sew on it making it shine with the light. She's also wearing the make up Moko-san had give her for her birthday, glad that Jelly-san had teach her how to apply it well even if it wasn't a flashy make up it bring up her features. She's happy to have work as Bo for a long time because it helps her relax so when she's ask to come on set she just think about her previous experiences and Ren's advices and she's able to smile naturally.
"Welcome on Sakura's show, tonight we have the chance to have a young actress who is quickly rising in the business but is not recognize because she change each time she has a new role in someone totally different. She's here to tell us about her new drama which will soon begin filming, please greet Kyoko-san!
-Good evening, Sakura-san, thank you for having me.
-Good evening Kyoko-san. Could you tell us a bit about your previous works?
-Well, my first job was as a high school student in a Kurara commercial, then I played an angel in Sho Fuwa PV, this is how I was noticed by Ogata-san who propose me the role of Mio in Dark Moon and then I got the role of Natsu in Box-R and finaly Ayumi-san offered me to play Satsuki in Fairywings of hope her new drama.
-We have prepare a clip with a bit of each time you appear on TV, we will show it now so we can remember these role...After the clip...Wow, you can really change how you look, I can see why people have difficulties recognize you. Even if Mio and Natsu are both dark roles they're really different, and even the angel as a part of darkness in him does that mean you like playing dark roles?
-It's not that I prefer playing roles with dark sides, they were proposed to me and I want to become a better actress so I put my every thing in each role I act to help me mature as an actress. And the role of Satsuki has nothing dark in it, in fact it more like the opposite so I can't wait to act her.
-The opposite of a dark role? What would it be? An angel without a dark side?
-No, in fact I play a fairy princess who try to save her world by helping humans to believe in magic again and who works as a nurse to cover her identity and to find people needing help easily.
-It's sure change from your previous roles, have you already an idea how to play this role since it's the living role I believe.
-Yes I love this role because it will help me improve my acting skills but it will also help people for real.
-How could a drama help people for real? Do you plan to give a part of the receipts to an association or something like that?
-No it'll help people thanks to the film's website: fairywings_of_ where anyone can ask for help about a problem that they have and we will try to answer them the best we can. And Ayumi-san will pick up some idea of these problems to include these in her script with their permission of course.
-It sure is a innovative idea, but I hear you say 'we', does it mean you will also answer to these problems?
-Of course, it'll help me thinking as Satsuki, it was Ayumi-san idea, she think it would help promote the drama as well. By the way I will answer you as Satsuki-hime if you ask for my help, and I hope my answers will be able to make you see tings more brithly.
-It's very nice of you to take your time to help others, we're sure that a lot of people will ask for your assistance. But now I would like to know a bit more about you, and since you already tell me about your work could you tell me more about your private life?
-Well, I like to spend my time with my friends when I'm not helping in the restaurant I live in.
-You have another work beside acting and you live in a restaurant? Could you tell me a bit more about that.
-Yes I have another job, even if I don't help them much recently but they rent me a room upstairs so I help them with the customers, they're such a nice couple.
-Talking about couple, is there any boy that you love?
-I don't love anyone at the present time, for the time being I just want to focus on my career.
-Thank you for sharing these informations with us, Kyoko-san and good luck for your drama. Good bye every one, Sakura's show is now over, we'll come back tomorrow at the same time."
