The stares were shining brightly above me as I lay on the roof of my house. The stars were twinkling, some brighter than the others. It was rare to actually be able to see them like this, because of all the light pollution. But I guess that's what made them all the more beautiful. They really are a wonder, especially considering the actual size of them. Not many people take the time out of their day to look at them. They are usually too busy going about their daily lives. But I always found time to look at them.

But it wasn't just for pleasure that I was here tonight. And it wasn't for my usual reason of searching for aliens. Well actually, it kind of was. Only this time, I wasn't searching for just any alien. I was searching for a specific one, one I've known for over 5 years of my life. And that alien's name was Zim.

It has been a month since he left. It hurt me big time; I probably became more injured after that moment than all of my 17 years combined. But I didn't care. I've physically healed from it; my nose isn't broken, I have hair on my head, the wounds on my wrists scared over. But emotionally, I don't think I ever will. I didn't nothing after that night I beat myself. I just laid on the floor, getting up to get a glass of water every 2 days. That lasted for about a week. Afterwards, I started moving again, but not much. I didn't lie in my room anymore. Instead, I stayed on my roof.

I wasn't there 24/7. Every few hours I go down to eat, or use the bathroom. Every morning and night I go down to brush my teeth and shower. But otherwise, I just stayed up here. Waiting. Waiting for Zim to come back and take me away. Every shooting star that crossed the sky raised my hope that maybe it was him. But it never was. So I just waited, patiently.

Being up here allowed me more time to reflect on other things. One thing I found myself constantly thinking about was my mom. If she hadn't died all those years back, how would she feel about what I'm doing with my life right now? How would she feel about Zim? She has always been a fan of the paranormal, like me, but how would she feel about being in love with one? And what about music? She always told me that I was a musical prodigy, and I am, or was. I haven't played any musical instrument since she died. I never thought much about it, but with all this waiting, now I can. Would she be disappointed in me for giving up music? It would probably kill me if she was disappointed in me. Before Zim came around, she was my entire world. She was my most favorite person in the world. And our family was kind of normal. Gaz was actually nice at the time and not addicted to video games; my father would come home and spend time with us all. Hell my father actually wrote music himself! But when mom died, that was when everything changed. I became alone after that. At least, until a year later, when Zim came to Earth. I always had some strange feeling that maybe mom sent him to me, to help me. Maybe it's just me being stupid, I don't know. But it made me really happy at the time to think that.

I shrug away the memories of my mom, knowing it'll only make me sadder. Because even though I keeping hoping that Zim will come back to me, I have a feeling deep inside that he won't, and that this is all wasted effort. That he really is gone for good, and that maybe it's time for me to move on. But whenever those thoughts do come into my head, I shake them away too. Why bring myself farther down than I already am?

Besides, even if Zim isn't going to come back, I don't feel like I'm wasting my time. Being up here could never be a waste of time for me. Because, when I look at the stars, I feel like myself.

Author's Note!: First I would like to thank all the people who have read and reviewed this story so far! You all have no idea how much it means to me! For some reviews I've gotten, I would like to respond:

BehindTheNight: Gir already ate my pudding! So HA! Also, that really didn't make him feel better xD

Mistress Moira: I'm assuming I should feel honored….. so THANK YOU! THAT HONESTLY MEANS A LOT TO ME! My work has never done that before, so I'm kinda happy about that. :D

Lovegirl1 : Yes, yes he did xD. I might possibly state a reason why Zim left; I'm not entirely sure xD. And Zim would not be too happy about Dib's reaction… let's just keep it at that xD

Ok now that that's out of the way, I also wanted to state that Chapter two is going to be the first and last super depressing chapter in this story. The rest might be sad at some points, but not as depressing as that….

Also, I won't be able to update that often. Sorry . My classes are equivalent to all Honor's or AP classes (whatever you wanna call them), and so the work is seriously hard. I'll update when I get the chance though! Keep those reviews coming! I thrive off of them *Grows stronger :P*

OH btw if you can guess what song I got that last line from, I'll give you a cookie!