Chapter four- Cause Now seems like the perfect time.

A/N I am so sorry guys I have realised i have been calling Mark Hank by accident thats what i get for typing this one while writing a Hank one. Just keep in mind it's Mark, Mark not Hank.

Sarah and Amber had planned to have dinner at a small restaurant that was a ten minuet drive from the house so that is where she was currently sitting waiting for her daughter. The two of them had, planned to go out for lunch twice since they had moved back home to Berkley and both times she had been late. Finally though she walked into the restaurant and walked over to her mum sitting down across from her. Sarah could immediately smell it.

"Whats's up mummmaaaaa" Slurred Amber clearly high.

"Are you being serious right now Amber"

"what's a wrong momma S" Laughed Amber

"Great, that great your high perfect really it is" Said Sarah throwing down the menu onto the table and it bounced onto the chair just like it did the first time they had done this. "Get up now we are going home'

"what mum no lunch come on"

"NO! home now"

Sarah stood from the table grabbing her purse and took a hold of Ambers arm pulling her up from the booth and dragging her out of the restaurant. Annoyed she got her into her car and slammed the door before getting in herself and drove off. God things with her had just gotten Good Amber was finally on a good path again going to college, living back at home and now...now she was high and stinking of marijuana .

Pulling into the drive way for the house she shut of the engine and the two of them climbed out the car going into the house, Sarah slamming the door behind her as she did so. Neither of them had said a word in the car and they continued the silence as they walked through the house into the kitchen.

"Really Amber really after last time and that damn car crash, you thought getting high again was going to be a good idea. I almost lost you Amber dammit"

Shouted Sarah as she made a cup of coffee and a pot of tea for herself. Annoyed at the situation she made the coffee and slammed the mug down in front of her daughter before moving to stand leaning against the counter.

"I'm not about to watch you start getting high again Amber and going down the wrong track I'm not because your doing so good in school just now Amber and why now Amber why do it. God damit I almost lost you last time." Shouted Sarah as Camille walked into the kitchen followed by Kristina and Julia.

"What's going on here?" asked Camille

"Amber are you high? I can smell that from here" Said Julia as she stood beside her.

"Yep, yes I am and do you want to know why ?" Said Amber her voice raised but not shouting.

Amber looked around the room and seen all four of the five female figures in her life nodded and look at her.

"Because my mum was raped what like nine teen weeks ago and she never told me and now she comes home the other week and tells me that she's pregnant and how it happened but it hurt mum it hurt that you didn't tell me. What you you couldn't trust us ...and why... why are you keeping it?" Shouted Amber

Sarah was at a loss for what to say and just looked at her mum and two sisters her moth open and moving but no words were forming.

"Lets um let go up the stairs into my room so we can talk about this away from Grandpa and Drew they...they don't need to here this" Said Camille

Nodding the five of them left the kitchen going up the stairs to the master bedroom and all sat on the be looking at each other. Amber was a little curious and little worried she was about to get into a shit heap of trouble for her out burst but she never said a word she just looked at her mum waiting for her to say something.

Sarah looked at her daughter and could see the lost look in her little girls eyes and sighed. She really wished that Amber would have gone to her instead of going out and getting high just so she could feel something else or forget about it but considering her fathers history and the car crash she though she would have thought more about it.

"I didn't tell you because it was hard enough telling the police after it had happened it was like re living it all over again and so was that stupid rape kit that i had to do felt the same to and all the questions i had to answer. Then...then you guys all showed up at the hospital and I didn't want the morning after pill and...i just couldn't tell you any of you because I felt dirty and disgusitng like everything had been take away from me and In a way i still do I mean I don;t even like my own father touching my just now"

"But dad and he used to and I remember you telling him not tonight but it would happen anyway...why you" Cried Amber

As soon as Amber said it Sarah had closed her eyes felling the eyes of everyone in the room looking at her. She knew that they were all wondering what the hell her daughter was on about. God things really were going down hill right now and they were doing it was going down really fast.

Camille knew that things had been bad with her daughter and her ex husband she had seen the black eyes and bruised, heard the brokenness in her voice as they talked on the phone. Hell she had seen it in her eyes when they met up for holidays and specially events but how could things have been that bad and she not have known.

"What is " Statered Julia and Kristina

"What is she talking about What did Seth Do?" Asked Camille

"No mum it's not what...Listen baby that was different there was consent there. Yeah i'd start off with not now but i knew i would have sex with him because i knew it would make him feel better and at the time i dined;t know what else what to do. I said yes baby this, this time i didn't I told him no i tried to push him off but it hurt, it Hurt so bad and i felt so disgusting and i didn't want you guys any of you too look at me like that I'm your mum and i wanted to see me like your mum"

"When something like this happens to a women it takes away part of their dignity" explained Julia

"Exactly and then when people look at you they way they tend to when they found out it can make you feel worse"

"But now, now it's happened and there is going to be another Braverman so we should focus on that" smiled Camille

"Exactly it's time to focus on the future and in time i'll be comfortable being hugged by Grandpa, Drew and your uncles and I'll be okay, not right away is that going to happen but in time it will but for it to happen i need us to focus on the future. So what do you say we call everyone over since it's a Saturday and have a little family dance party"

It took everyone half an hour to get to the house and by that time the rest of them who could have, had cracked open a bottle of wine and cranked up the music. At first the teenagers stood out to the side and watched the adults and younger children dance around but eventually the three of them joined in laughing as they all danced terribly to their parents lame old fast in music. But most of all they all enjoyed hearing Sarah laugh and seeing her smile. And none of them mentioned it anytime Sarah flinched when being touched by one of them men.

After a while Camille and Zeek stood by the door with her back pressed against his chest and his arms around her as they watched the family they had created dance and have fun together. And for the first time in a two months they heard the sound of their daughter laugh mixed with the rest of their children's voices as they all danced. It was at that moment they knew that in time it may be a long time but in time things were going to be okay. Now the next step would be for Camille to move from sleeping next to her daughter in the guest house up to her own room again because since she had been told her daughter asked her to sleep beside her because she was feeling more venerable but one step at a time and laughter and smiles in her opinion were a big step. God her baby had been through so much yet she was so strong and she couldn't be prouder of her. Things were going to be okay.