A/N: Here is another one because I can't seem to stop writing. Anyway, I am going to bed now. There will be more updates this week.
At the Rizzoli-Jones residence, Jane couldn't stop thinking about Maura. She hardly knew her, but there was something in the way the blonde walked and talked seemed alluring.
Jane laid awake in her bed while her husband slept soundly next to her. It had been a long time since Casey had touched her more than a heated kiss. She was wondering where everything went wrong.
Now, she seemed to have these unexplainable feeling toward the new M.E, she was very much sure, it was because of the distance between her and Casey.
Wait. Is it me or him? Then she thought back to few nights ago when Casey made an advance on her. She was tired after work and putting Alex to bed. She just wanted to sleep but Casey tried to run his finger on her curves which made her mad as hell. Snapping at her husband, Jane threw him out on the couch.
That wasn't it all. It had been more than a month since she let him touch her.
She didn't know why. Her husband was sweet and caring, a good father to her child, but lately, her sex life was going downhill and she didn't know how to fix it at all.
It was not that she was not trying. She was trying so hard to make it work. The couple got married because of obligations. She loved Casey, there was no doubt in that. Her family loved him so much. They practically grew up together and after dating in high school for few months, both of them parted ways because of their nature of dreams for future.
He served in military for several years and Jane got into the academy and became a detective facing so many obstacles. Four years ago, they met again in Boston and renewed their relationship. A year later, Casey proposed and Jane accepted because it made her mother so happy. Her mother's dream was always about Jane having a husband, two and a half children and a house.
They had church wedding and Angela cried on her wedding day.
Casey understood the importance of her job. He never pressured her into anything including having sex.
The brunette was not a fan of it at all from the beginning of their relationship. She couldn't seem to enjoy it as much as Casey did.
She wanted to be like every other girls, but something was always missing in her life.
Casey always thought it was because of the stress from her job, but she knew that he was wrong. Everything seemed wrong.
Still lying on her back, Jane sighed and looked at Casey.
What am I doing wrong? Why do I feel like I am cheating on Casey when I look at Maura? I didn't even know her that well. I know I was attracted to some girls in school when I was a teenager but it never bothered me before, but now I can't seem to control these feelings and it's threatening my marriage life. God, don't let me do anything stupid. Give me the strength to try harder. I don't want to disappoint my ma.
She actually prayed to God to let her be as straight as an arrow.
Next morning, she was standing next to Maura to get her coffee at the cafeteria and muttered a 'hi'. The doctor turned around to catch the eyes of the brunette and offered a smile and a 'hi' back but the smile didn't reach the hazel orbs at all.
Filled with concerns, Jane asked what came first to her mind. "Hey Maur, is everything alright?"
Shit. Why does that matter to you Jane? She cursed herself.
After saying 'thank you' for the cup of coffee to Stanley, Maura motioned Jane to walk with her to the elevator.
"Everything is fine, Jane. How is Alex?" she didn't lie to Jane per se. She didn't want to discuss about Ian and her life crisis with anyone including Jane.
"She is good. Are you sure, Maur? You don't seem fine to me." Now, you are becoming like your mother, Jane. A voice warned her.
"I'm sure everything will be fine", Maura said in a clipped tone that left Jane to stop her from prying more.
"Geez, I'm so sorry for asking that. I just want to be your friend, you know." Jane looked so hurt and the blonde regretted her tone immediately.
"I apologize, Jane. I had a rough night and it was wrong of me to take it out on you." She bit her lower lip and looked at Jane hopefully. "Did you mean that?"
"Did I mean what? That I'm sorry?"
"No. That you want to be my friend."
"Yes, Maur. I meant that. I am not forcing you to be my friend, but I just want to let you know that if you need someone, I'm here for you." Jane said sheepishly.
"I don't really understand. You were so cold to me on the first day we met but now you are being nice. Which one is the real Jane?" The blonde tilted her head and asked confusedly.
Adorable.
Damn it! Don't do anything stupid, Jane. She reminded herself. She offered to be her friend, nothing more.
"That was not the real Jane, Maur. That's the cranky Jane when she didn't get the caffeine for the day."
Maura laughed. She laughed at the detective who was being cute.
Cute! Did I really think that? Maura shook her head and extended her hand to Jane to take. Jane eyed the M.E's smooth, pale skin and took the blonde's in hers suspiciously.
"I'm Maura Isles, the new medical examiner of Commonwealth of Massachusetts."
Jane smiled widely, "I am Jane Rizzoli, detective of Boston Homicide. Welcome to BPD, ."
They held each other's hand still.
"Friends?" Jane asked.
"Friends", Maura answered.
That was it for the day and they didn't seem to catch a break from their cases to run into each other again.
It had been a week since they became friends and Maura invited Jane and her family over to her house for dinner.
"I am so sorry, Maura. Casey had to visit his parents, that's why he couldn't make it to dinner."
It was like the millionth time she apologized to Maura regarding Casey's absence.
"I already told you it was fine, Jane. Quit saying sorry all the time. I'm glad to have you and Alex here though." She said looking at the toddler playing on her couch with Jane's iPhone.
Jane and Maura sat next to each other on the blonde's expensive settee while watching 'Titanic' on the big TV screen.
An hour later, Alex was asleep and the pair was still watching the movie without uttering a word to each other. Who could blame them? It was a good film anyway.
There, it was the PG13 version of the sex scene, Jane suddenly averted her eyes and looked at Maura.
The blonde didn't seem to be bothered by it at all.
Hell, it was not really an R rated sex scene. Jane, don't be a prude. For God's sake, you have a child with a man.
But something was really bothering Jane. It was not that she disliked the scene. No, it was the opposite. That harmless sex scene was making her body tingle, just because she was sitting next to Maura. She wanted to cross the line. She wanted to kiss her, but she didn't want to ruin everything.
So, she sat there like a brick. People died in the film and Maura shed tears, but Jane was only thinking about the sweaty palm on the glass.
After the movie ended, Maura laughed lightly and said, "You know, even though the Titanic was real, the informations in this movie are not quite correct." She wiped her tears away and continued, "I can't believe I cried over this movie."
"Hmm", Jane sighed, she was somewhere else, not in this world at all.
"What are you thinking about?"
"The sex scene." Fuck. Did I say that out loud?
"What about the sex scene?" Maura genuinely seemed to be interested in this topic.
"Nothing. Forget about it." Jane tried to change the subject and Maura was having none of it.
"Oh Come one Jane. We are two adults and we can always discuss sex." She winked at the brunette.
"Let me ask you something, do you enjoy sex?" The M.E was curious. They were friends, right? Didn't they have the right to talk about things, stuffs like this?
Should I be honest with her? Jane shook her head and the blonde's jaw dropped on the floor.
"Are you serious?"
"Yes."
"I don't know what to say, Jane. Honestly, I enjoy sex very much. Sometimes, it's the only way for me to let everything go, you know."
No. I don't know. Is she in a relationship? No, she never mentioned that. Jane was burning inside. Is she really telling me that she likes to fuck whomever come at her? Jane swallowed the lump that suddenly appeared in her throat.
No one talked after that and there was an awkward silence between them.
Jane broke the spell and said, "Well, it's really nice having dinner with you Maura. Thank you for inviting us. I'll see you at work tomorrow." She didn't hug her because there was an excuse of having her daughter in her arms and she smiled at her friend.
On her way to the apartment, Jane was fuming and she didn't know why. She was angry at Maura for no reason and she didn't know what to do about it. God! She was hot and bothered. She was turned on beyond words even when she was angry.
She made her way to the nursery, placed Alex on her bed and went into her bedroom only to find Casey in the bed.
She didn't think twice about it at all.
She needed it but on verge of finishing, all she could think of was Maura.
