Mistake 1,001
Chapter 4
Authors note: I don't own teen titans. Set during aftershock parts one and two. Mostly Terra's POV. Nor any song lyrics
'' means thoughts
"" means spoken
I was down in the confinement for about an hour by myself, singing to myself. I had always liked my voice, so did Beast Boy. He heard me singing in the shower once. I was Wounded by Good Charlotte at the moment.
Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
But hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem ok
But my faith is wearing thin
So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up
I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open soul for all to see
But help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me
So you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cause I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me
To help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open and I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up
I needed help so bad. I just wanted saving. I didn't want to kill my friends and the boy that I loved with all my heart.
"Terra, we've reached a verdict." It was Cyborg's voice. It sounded like the rest of the team was down there too. I heard all of their footsteps. Star was probably flying though.
"Well hello my beaten friend, Terra. I've missed you so much." Starfire actually hugged her. Robin was the last one in the room.
"We don't trust you yet, as you can understand Terra. But we want you back on the team. We want you to help us take down Slade for good. I bet you know all his secrets and weaknesses. I don't think that you'll harm us anymore. Do you have any idea what time he's going to strike?"
"Seven in the evening. So in like 12 hours. We should sleep. So we can defeat him. But before we do, I want to talk to Raven and get something to eat."
"Then how about the two of you go up to the kitchen to talk and I think we could all use a little bit of food before we go back to bed." Robin said. God he controlled everything.
"Okay."
*****Kitchen*****
While Beast boy and Cyborg argued about the type of waffles they should have, Terra and Raven sat on the coach talking.
"I don't expect for you to ever trust me again, or to like me, or even to acknowledge me presence. But I want to let you know that I'm sorry. Beast boy told me about your dad, so I thought maybe you understood about a screwed up past and being lonely. Honestly Raven, I don't hate you, I trust you and I'd like to be your friend, if you'd let me." I told her. I knew she would be the hardest to regain trust from. Star probably already trusted her again, so did beast boy. Cyborg and Robin would come around. Bus she wanted to talk to Raven.
"I do like you Terra. I think that since you reached out to us for help in the end and are giving us information to take down Slade, you can be trusted soon. I want to be your friend too. I do understand being lost and lonely. It stinks; I understand where you're coming from. I understand that war between good and evil being waged inside your head. It's ok.
I did something that I know she wouldn't expect, I hugged her, and oddly enough she hugged back. It was a friendship. The girls had a bond.
*****Upstairs*****
After waffles, they went upstairs. My room got destroyed when I attacked; it wasn't really safe to sleep in right now. So I was sleeping with Beast boy. I walked in wearing just a long t-shirt and underwear. Beast boy was happily surprised. I was unsure. He was just wearing a pair of flannel pj pants. He was so hot. Working out and fighting bad guys to wonders to a body. I snuggled into the bed next to him and rested my head against his shoulder.
"Thanks for saving me." I whispered in his ear and kissed him on the cheek.
"Anytime." He whispered back into the dark. He tilted my chin up and kissed me on my lips. I felt a rush of love, I melted into his arms. I loved this boy. I wrapped my arms around his neck and started playing with his hair. He deepened the kiss, he licked the bottom of my lip asking for entrance into my mouth, and I allowed it. Soon his hands were tracing the edge of my T-shirt. I didn't stop him. Since I didn't he ran his hand up to my bare chest, where there was almost nothing to play with. I hated being starved by Slade. I broke the kiss.
"Sorry there isn't more to touch, I haven't been eating much." I told him.
"It doesn't matter, you're perfect Terra."
He kissed me again. This time I took my T-shirt off. He was surprised but he let me lead. It was okay, I was comfortable with him. I felt him starting to poke at my inner thigh. I wasn't sure what I wanted. I knew that we could go a bit further. I stuck my hand down his loose pants and started to rub his hardening groin. He was big, I could feel that much. I heard him groan into her mouth, he was enjoying himself. He began playing with the top of my little boy short underwear. He wanted to go further, honestly, so did I. I pulled them down for him and actually kicked them off; I was lying naked in his bed by my own choice. He stopped kissing me.
"Terra, I don't want you to do anything that you don't want to do." He said while holding me in his arms.
"I do want to though Beast boy. I love you. This is what I want. I don't care that Slade raped me numerous times, as far as I'm concerned, you're going to be my first. And I want that."
"I want that too Terra. Good thing Cyborg bought me condoms a couple weeks ago as a joke. He can be mean but so right sometimes."
I was the one who kissed him that time. I took of his pants and his boxers. I was rubbing him again, moving my hands up and down. He had a finger inside of me too. I liked it when he did this stuff to me. I guess it's different if you love the person. I laid on my back and I heard him reaching into his side table, he put the condom on and he lay on top of me. He looked me in my eyes and kissed me one last time before he put himself inside me. It wasn't the scary awful experience like when it was with Slade. It felt good; I was in love with him. He thrust himself in and out of me going faster as we were doing it longer. Soon we had both came and we fell asleep in each other's arms.