I own nothing except the plot and the flashback. The flashback that James has I actually did that, over the recent summer. I recommend listening to Numb by Linkin Park or Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan to this chapter.
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I stand up from the piano and move over to the full length mirror. I run my fingers through my hair then my eyes shift down to my inner forearms. There are faded scratch marks that I caused the night before my big audition last year.
Music is blaring through my speakers as I continue to work out. Things racing through my mind, friends, family, life itself. I've become numb to everything. I don't really care much about anything or anyone. Out of no where tears start streaming down my face. I've now become angry almost like a creature leased from itself cage. I toss my resistance bands to the ground and jump onto my bed and begin to scream into the comforter. My parents aren't home at the moment. I let out several violent screams into the comforter. Anger, rage, displeasure, annoyance the list could go on of the emotions seething through my body.
I sit up tears tumbling down my cheeks chaos is in my system. I begin to scratch my forearms hard and deep. Redness appears on my skin and the stray nail impressions. I continue for a good ten minutes. Hundreds of red streaks on my flesh.
That was one of emotional break downs that I had. . Luckily, no one was in the house when I did have them.
I've had around three, excluding the one before my audition, a year agoAll from rage, depression, confusion, hatred, betrayal.
I would scream endlessly until my body couldn't take it.
I would cry until their were no more tears that could be shed.
No one knew about their break downs. I kept them to myself. I'm impressed with myself that I've broken down in a year. I want to keep it that way.
I hope this wasn't too depressing, well ok it was depressing to me.
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