This is my first real attempt at angst. I used one of my favorite songs, so I hope it turned out okay!

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Nicest Thing by Kate Nash

All I know is that you're so nice
You're the nicest thing I've seen
I wish that we could give it a go
See if we could be something

Vince's heart hurt. It wasn't often that he was sad, so when he was it exhausted him to the core. He had taken a sickie today, which he regretted now because all it did was give him time to think. He thought a lot about Howard. Like about how nice he was, and how much he meant to him. He wondered about what it would feel like to be with Howard, kissing him, falling asleep on his chest, to know that Howard loved him back. He sighed and turned onto his side in his bed.

I wish I was your favourite girl
I wish you thought I was the reason you are in the world
I wish my smile was your favourite kind of smile
I wish the way that I dressed was your favourite kind of style
I wish you couldn't figure me out
But you always wanna know what I was about
I wish you'd hold my hand when I was upset
I wish you'd never forget the look on my face when we first met
I wish you had a favourite beauty spot that you loved secretly
'Cause it was on a hidden bit that nobody else could see

Basically, I wish that you loved me
I wish that you needed me
I wish that you knew when I said two sugars
Actually, I meant three

I wish that without me your heart would break
I wish that without me you'd be spending the rest of your nights awake
I wish that without me you couldn't eat
I wish I was the last thing on your mind before you went to sleep

He knew that it was selfish of him to think like this, but he wanted to be the reason Howard woke up in the morning. He wished that the highlight of his day was to hang out with him in the shop. He wished that Howard loved the way he dressed as much as the people at the clubs did. He wished that Howard loved him as much as he loved him. Ever since that damn party just looking at Howard tugged at his heartstrings. It hurt to see him because he knew that all that he wished for would never come true. Howard was mad about that jazz wench now. He had said to him that he ruined his chance with finally finding someone when he realized that he had paid the girl to come to the party.

All he wanted was to see Howard happy. If he couldn't have him to himself, he at least wanted him to find love and be happy. Vince let the tears that were building up behind his eyes fall down his face. He'd never been in love before and he had no idea it could hurt this much. He didn't know what to do. All he knew was that Howard was the best thing in his life and he really wished that they could be something more.

Look, all I know
Is that you're the nicest thing I've ever seen
And I wish that we could see
If we could be something