Hello.. its been awhile huh? lol.. sorry.. swamped... thank you for the reviews. The song for this one is.. Everybody's Changing by Keane. Yup. And Yes Steph... you're in this one! lol...so I hope you like it... this one happened... Mine and Britt's "history class" thing is there.. so this one is partly for you Brittany:)...
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Michelley P.
Chapter Four: Everybody's Changing.
"Haley..." I heard a voice say to me as I sat in history class, staring off in the distance. I had a bad night the night before. It was Peyton. Her and I never got in big arguments, except for her usual harassment about me not being good enough, we got along pretty well. Until last night. We were talking on the phone as usual, and before I knew it we were in a heated argument. About me. I was too clingy, or something. I get too jealous over her and her boyfriend. I had no idea how this started, but before I knew it the line was dead and tears were streaming down my face, her angry voice echoing in my ears. "Wake up!" The voice laughed. I wiped a few stranded tears from my eyes and smiled at Bevin.
I hadn't even realized that she had moved her desk over next to mine. But there she was, sitting happily next to me. I looked up at her and smiled, but she must have seen through it all because her usual smile faded and she leaned in worriedly. "Hales... what's-"
"Okay listen up!" Mr Allen said lowly. He never yelled at us. H e was a new teacher at this school and we could already tell he'd be a push over. "Skills Taylor... if that's what they call you, you can be in Lucas and ... Mouth... is there a Mouth here?" Mouth nodded and I could tell that Mr. Allen would have an amusing time getting to know everyone's nicknames. "Okay. Skills, you can be in Lucas and Mouth's group." He rolled his eyes and laughed, then looked back to his paper. "Brooke Davis, you'll be in Bevin and... Haley's group." He looked up and smiled at Brooke and she smiled shyly back. Brooke moved her desk next to mine and smiled. I just smiled back, and took a deep breath as once again mine and Peyton's argument flashed through my head.
"Hello..." I said to Brooke politely. She smiled back at me, her smile bright and happy, just like she always appeared.
"Hey!" She said in a high pitched voice.
"You're in my English class right?" I asked, trying to start a conversation. Little did I know how stupid I was about to appear.
"Yup... and French, and...any others?" She asked as she pulled out a notebook, covered in amazing sketches.
"Are you in my Canadian His..." I blushed immediately, then we all bursted out in laughter.
"History?" She asked through her laugh. I nodded and laughed again.
"God Haley!" Bevin laughed. "I wonder if she's in your history class? Considering that's where you are!" Bevin laughed.
"Okay! Not that big of a deal, I was kind of zoned out..." I laughed and then looked down at the assignment in front of me. What a great first impression. I thought.
I was standing by my locker, waiting to go inside the class during lunch break. I was talking Bevin. I had been talking to her more and more lately. We used to be best friends, but that changed when Peyton came along. Now I realized I had misses Bevin. Bevin scooted away to ger her books from her locker which was a little ways down the hall. I had been avoiding Peyton all day. Claiming to be cold in biology so I could sit in front, away from her. But now I could see that I wasn't going to be able to avoid her much longer. I glanced down the hall and saw her darting toward me, her face twisted in hate and soon she was in my face, pushing me against the lockers.
I hit the lockers with a big thud and my books fell to the floor, causing everyone standing around me to stop talking and stare.
"What's wrong with you today?" Peyton snapped, flicking her hair back on her shoulders.
I raised one eyebrow and couldn't help but laugh. She always needed her attention didn't she? "Um, nothing." I laughed then looked over at Bevin who was laughing with me, thinking about her motives to get attention as well.
"What's your problem!" She screamed. She was really causing a scene now. And I wasn't laughing now, as my cheeks filled pink with embarrassment. "You always do this! Whenever you hear me talking to my boyfriend, you get all cranky and stupid! And whenever I even talk to another person you get like that!" She screamed again. I could feel my eyes burning with tears as she stood so close to me I could feel her breath on my face.
"I do not!" I yelled back, my voice getting shaky. She stepped towards me as the tears finally fell. I glanced around and saw everyone watching us, and I numbly slipped away from her, letting my wobbly legs carry me to the bath room, slamming the stall door behind me. I wasn't sure why I had gotten so worked up, just everything building up I guess. I wanted to be the person I used to be. The girl who went out with her friends, who was known for being so cheerful and happy all the time. Who was happy all the time. Who was daddy's little girl, and who got along great with her parents.
As I sat there, my knees against my chest, I wondered why I had fallen so far from myself. Why had I had such a falling out with my friends? Peyton. Of course. I got so wrapped up in the world I thought I loved, the one she provided, I didn't see that it was someone else's world, not my own. I didn't want to go to church with her, I didn't want to try to be the perfect person I felt I was expected to be. And my parents? I never really knew why I had become enemies with them. But the quiet time alone gave me an idea. It was David. My parents always treated him like he was less then us. Sometimes it was probably his own fault. He was so wild and carefree and it scared them so much that they were harder on him. Since I was so close to him, I found myself protecting him and taking care of him in ways they wouldn't. And this was terrible to them, and that's when it got bad.
"Haley?" A quiet voice said. I recognized this voice. One I hadn't heard in so long, even though it's been so close. Faith. I couldn't believe she was there. Before I was best friends with Peyton, I was best friends with Faith. She was amazing, and everything was great, it was probably one of the happiest times of my life, then I threw it away for a new one. I opened the stall door quietly and peaked outside, to see her standing there with Bevin. Her eyes widened as she saw the tears on my cheeks. This would be a shock for anyone, to see me cry. I had been known for my cheeriness, for being so happy all the time, with a smile plastered on my face. But that wasn't me, and I was tired of hiding it. She ran over to me and hugged me tightly. As she did I couldn't find the strength to hug her back, I just kept thinking back to the life I used to had, the one where I was best friends with Faith, and I had met Nathan at my brother's party.
"Come on sweety..." Bevin smiled. And we walked back to my class, Faith went to her own, and Bevin and I went into our English class. "Im going to kick her ass." Bevin said in a defiant tone as we sat in our seats.
"Choice of words!" Ms. Fynn said harshly, giving us a serious look.
"Im going to kick her butt." Bevin said in a funny tone, making me laugh out loud.
"Get into groups please!" The teacher instructed. I glanced over at the other side of the room where Brooke sat, by herself. And as Bevin moved her seat next to mine, I smiled at Bevin and encouraged her to come over with us. Shyly, she did.
"Hales..." Bevin sighed, she smiled at Brooke, wondering if she could talk around her, and for some reason, no matter what she said, I felt as if she could, like I could trust Brooke. "Im tired of seeing you like this." She said sadly. " I want you to leave Peyton, come back with us." She smiled, laughing as she did. No matter how serious the subject was, Bevin had to be laughing, she was just like, at least, the person I used to be.
"I can't..." I sighed.
"Well, we're having a party Saturday night, a huge fire on the field behind your uncle's house. And you're coming." She smiled making a serious face after and pointing a finger at me, only to bust out laughing again.
"Oh.. Bevin I..."
"Don't worry, you don't have to drink.. Or smoke, or anything. And you can still go to church the next morning!" She laughed.
"Okay..." I said worriedly, I glanced at Brooke who was sketching a picture on her book, one that was drawn on Changing Tides. "I love that picture." I say to her, " What' your favorite episode?" She shrugged and smiled.
"Im not sure... yours?" She asked quietly.
"With Arms Outstretched." I said confidently. I smiled and started talking about the episode.
"Oh God!" Bevin said as she picked up her books and began to leave. To Brooke she said, "You've got her talking about that show! Im going to go sit with Mel!" She laughed and walked away.
"Talking about it again?" I heard Mel say. Bevin just laughed, as did everyone else.
"It's good to finally meet someone I can talk about this with." She said honestly.
"I know..." I smiled bright. And it wasn't long til I started to see someone coming back, recognize them. This familiar face was finally falling into my memory once more. Me. The real one. I felt like that cheery bubbly person I used to be. I felt like I could breathe.
On the bus ride home, Peyton and I didn't sit together. I still sat in the front, like I had no other choice, but I sat in the seat across from her, she'd occasionally give me hard looks, then turn straight ahead again. I swear to God, if she shot looks and turned her head any faster, she would get whip lash.
"Haley!" I heard Faith's voice from the back of the bus. I turned and looked back, it seemed like miles away. I didn't answer her call, just smiled. "Come here for a second!" She smiled.
I walked back where Faith was sitting with her boyfriend, my cousin, Tyrone. Bevin moved in for my to sit next to her, and I did. "Sit with us!" Bevin said as she reached out and hugged me. I laughed with her. But contemplated going back in front. Tyrone could see it, as I began to stand up, "Sit your ass down, you're staying with us!" He smiled. I had never gotten along with him, especially not since he started going out with my best friend. But now, I saw something in him I didn't see before, I must have looked it over, because I was too good to look before.
"Is that HALEY?" I heard Luke's voice say. "Sitting with US? Wow, we're privileged!" He laughed. A few of the other guys laughed too. I shot them a look and they stopped.
"You coming up Saturday?" I heard a voice ask. My heart raced, my body ached, and my head spun around to look him in the eye. "I think you should." Nathan smiled.
"I am!" I said quickly. I actually hadn't planned on going, but now I had to.
"Wow, Haley's going?" I heard another voice say. I rolled my eyes, sometimes I wanted to kill Chris, not sometimes.. I just generally wanted to.
You say you wonder your own land So little time You're gone from here So little time
But when I think about it I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
'cause everybody's changing
And I do not know why.
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I do not feel the same.
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
cause everybody's changing
And I do not feel right.
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I do not feel the same.
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Michelley P.