Guest- Thank you I know it is kind of bold to make a story based about my own charters I almost didn't make it because I was scared no one would like it, I still have that fear but i'm hoping this one goes as far as my main story does if I keep up with it
Sasha- No matter what happens she will always be in his life because of something that will happen soon, if they stay together, well I cant say much on that
Song- Under It Over It ~ by Five Finger Death Punch
Ryland's Pov
"What's up everyone, how you doing tonight?" I asked the crowd it was our last show I was excited to go home but also kind of sad the tour was over but we were gonna be going to Europe in a few months so that was lifting my spirits everyone was screaming and chanting 'I fucking love you' I don't know who it was directed towards so I looked at Max. "They fucking love you."
"Everyone fucking loves me." Max said into his microphone.
"Quick everyone chant fuck Max." Spencer yelled and everyone started to chant in Max looked over to Spencer.
"That's cold, I feel no love."
"This next song-" Someone in the audience yelled fuck me and Max looked over and smirked.
"And she's with her boyfriend, all the girls who have boyfriends here with them come party with me after the show."
"This next song is dedicated to all the-" I started to laugh I coughed a few times and tried again. "This next song is dedicated to all the mother fuckers who say fame changed us."
"That's right little Timmy from fifth grade we are talking about you ya little bitch."
"We don't know a Timmy."
"We do and he's a bitch."
"Alright then… This one's for you Tim."
Yeah go!
Did you hear the one about me being a punk?
Did you hear the one about me, being a drunk?
So did you hear the one about me losing my nerve?
Or how I'm just another fucking sheep in the herd?
Did you hear about the money, how it made me change?
So funny to me, all the time that they waste!
Did you hear the one about me, giving a shit?
Cause if I ever did, I don't remember it!
You can be me, and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sin,
And you take the fame!
I'm under and over it all
I'm under and over it!
Did you hear the one about me playing the game?
Selling my soul and changing my name.
Did you hear the one about me being a prick?
Did you know I don't care? You can suck my
D-Did you hear the one about me trying to die?
Fist in the air and a finger to the sky.
Do I care if you hate me? Do you wanna know the truth?
C'est la vie, adios, good riddance, fuck you!
You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I'm, I'm, I'm under and over it.
I'm, I'm, I'm under and over it.
You can be me and I will be you.
You can live just like a star.
I'll take my sanity, you take the fame.
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I'm under and over it all.
(I'm under and over it.)
I'm, I'm, I'm under and over it.
I'm, I'm, I'm under and over it.
"To another tour successfully done." Gabe said with his glass raised.
"I'll drink to that." Max said.
"You drink to anything."
"That is also true."
"So what's everyone doing once they get home?"
"Sleeping for twelve hours." Zach said laughing.
"Same." Spencer said.
"Max?" Gabe looked at him and Max shrugged.
"I'm gonna spend some time at home I might hit up a few parties and then i'm going up to LA spend a few weeks with my parents and my little brother, we all know what Ryland's gonna be doing."
"Kayla?" Gabe said everyone laughed.
"No your mom how is she?"
"Fuck you." Gabe said laughing.
"Right back at yeah bitch."
A girl asked me to dance a little after my third drink I figured why not we still had an hour to kill. "You are a very good dancer." She giggled.
"Thanks…"
"How about we get out of here?"
"Uh I don't think-" She pulled me towards the bathroom once we were in there she locked the door and pushed me up against the wall.
"You are really fucking hot."
"I know." She kissed me normally this would turn me on but I felt like I was betraying Kayla somehow even though I knew I wasn't I mean we weren't dating it's not like being faithful was something I had to do and she was cute but my mind was solely on Kayla and how she would feel. "I'm sorry I can't."
"Why?"
"I just- I can't, i'm sorry…" I pushed away from here and practically ran to where the guys were.
"What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing…"
"We should probably leave soon we gotta get to the airport and traffic is probably bad."
"Yeah… Let's go…"
Kayla's Pov
I was hanging out with a guy from work when someone knocked on my door Aaron went to get the door because I was in the middle of ruining dinner for us. "Kayla he says he's a friend of yours?" I turned around and Ryland was standing there with a smile on his face.
"What are you doing here? I thought you weren't coming back until next tomorrow?" I ran to him and threw my arms around him i've missed him, words cannot describe how much I have missed him.
"I wanted to surprise you I didn't think you'd have company."
"Oh uh Aaron this is Ryland my uh friend back from when I was like thirteen and Ryland this Aaron we work together."
"It's nice to meet you." Ryland said extending his hand to Aaron.
"You too, you got some sick tats."
"Oh thanks."
"Kayla and I were making dinner would you uh like to stay?"
"Oh uh no I uh was on my way home I just wanted to let you know I was back in town and i'll see you soon for the wedding."
"Thanks again for agreeing to go with me."
"Of course."
After Ryland left Aaron was acting weird around me and I knew why but I wasn't gonna say anything because I knew he would bring it up himself. "So uh you and Ryland?"
"We're just friends."
"The wedding?"
"My aunt is getting married he's coming with me because my mom and sister will have a fit if I show up by myself."
"I uh could go with you."
"Thanks but Ryland already agreed but i'll keep that in mind when my mom and stepdad invite me over for Christmas dinner and we play my favorite game, 'Make fun of Kayla who has no man in her life to make her happy and stable'."
"I love that game I was just playing it the other day with my parents."
"Isn't it a great game?"
"It's one of the best."
Max's Pov
I was leaving to up to LA tomorrow and I don't know why but i'm nervous because I haven't been home in a long time and I know my dad probably told Pops about me doing drugs again so it would be more of an intervention then a vacation but I guess it's what has to be done, my phone started to ring I answered it blindly.
"Hit me with it?"
"You busy tonight?" Spencer asked.
"Nah I had to pack some shit but i'm already done."
"Want to come to my party?"
"Do you even really have to ask that?"
"See if Ryland wants to come, i'll see you when you get here."
"See yeah.."
I called Ryland but he didn't answer so I texted him.
Max: Party at Spencer's you down?
Ryland: At a wedding with Kayla
Max: I'm sorry, I feel for you
Ryland: Suck a dick
Max: I think you meant that text for Logan, I can forward it to him
Ryland: I might stop by after
Max: If you aren't too busy being a pussy whipped bitch
"The life of the party is here we may begin to have fun now." I said once I entered Spencer's house.
"Hey Max.." Cambry my 'ex' said coming up to me with a sexy smile on her face.
"Well look what the cat dragged in…"
"I heard you were going to spend some time with the dads why are you here?"
"That's not until tomorrow I still have my freedom for one more night.."
"Well then let's have some fun."
"I don't think-"
"Oh come on Maxie, I have the good stuff and besides no one here is better than me."
"I highly doubt that…" I said but she dragged me anyways towards the couch and pushed me down. "I don't want to do drugs, I just came to have fun drink a few beers and-"
"So basically you're not gonna be fun tonight?"
"I'm not fun when i'm completely sober and drug free?"
"When are you ever completely sober and drug free?" She laughed and put her head down against me. "Max that's not who you are."
"I think I need a new me…"
"I think you are being a baby…"
"Cam-"
"Just let loose worry about it tomorrow today is suppose to be a party baby."
Kayla's Pov
"You're Ryland Herondale." My cousin May said with a huge smile she practically drooling, I begged Aunt Karen not to put us at the same table for the reception but no one ever listens to me.
"That's me…"
"Kayla how do you know Ryland, is he your boyfriend?" She glared at me and then smiled brightly at Ryland.
"No we are just friends." I said mom shook her head and gave me the 'You need a boyfriend look'.
"How have you been dear it's been years since i've seen you."
"I'm good, and you?"
"Very well thank you." That was the end of her conversation with Ryland she's upset I said we were just friends I don't see what's the big deal, why do I need a boyfriend or a man in general why can't she see i'm happy all by myself.
"So Ryland since you and Kayla are just friends maybe we can hang out sometime." Aunt Karen's daughter Rebecca said Ryland smiled politely.
"Maybe.." He said and I looked at him and he smirked at me.
"What are you doing?" I whispered to him.
"Hey, i'm just your friend and the ladies love me." He whispered back in a joking tone.
"Two can play this game." I whispered back, I moved closer to him while he was talking to one of my uncles I put my hand on his leg and started to rub his thigh going to a certain member of his he coughed. "You okay?"
"Y-yeah i'm fine.." He moved my hand putting it back on my lap but I went right back to what I was doing I felt him getting harder I had to bite my lip to stop myself from smiling.
"So Ryland are you guys working on a new album or anything?" May asked Ryland nodded with his eyes closed.
"Uh yeah i'm writing now-" I was enjoying this way too much watching the way he was trying to stay calm while I continued my torture on him. "B-but we're taking a little break before we go to Europe." He coughed his hand was on mine now under the table trying to move my hand away from him but I wasn't having it.
"Maybe Ryland can help you find a man Kayla since you know you can't keep one." Rebecca said with the world's most fake smile.
"How many times has your mom been married? This is her what fourth husband? Maybe i'll bring my new boyfriend to her next wedding."
"Kayla-" My Uncle said in a warning tone.
"No but everyone wants to shit on Kayla because i'm such a failure right?" Ryland leaned towards me.
"We can go if you want, in this moment I would prefer if we did go because all I want to do right now is fuck you…. Very hard I might add."
"I'm not done with you yet." I whispered back which made his hand tighten on mine but I elbowed him in the ribs.
"Oh look our foods here everyone can back then hell out of my life and eat now." Ryland gladly took his food everyone was having there own conversations now Sadie kept looking over at me I could tell I was gonna get a long lecture from her after this.
I decided now would be a good time while he was busy to do what I really wanted I put my hand inside his pants he dropped his fork causing it to clank against his plate everyone looked at him. "I'm sorry, ha clumsy me…." He looked over and glared at me but I didn't care. "You win, i'm sorry please stop it…" He said with his head resting against mine.
"I thought you liked when I played with you." I said softly I hoped I sounded seductive that's what I was trying to go for, I didn't stop until I knew he was close because he tightened his grip on my thigh and his other hand shook while trying to move his fork to his mouth, I stopped pulling my hand away from him and sitting up straight.
"You are in so much trouble when we go back to my house." He said kind of loudly.
"I was thinking about just going home…"
"Not a chance." He said there was hunger in his eyes and I have never been more proud of myself then in this moment. "Let's dance.." He said and didn't wait for me to answer he pulled me to the dance floor holding me close to him swaying back and forth to the music I laid my head down on him.
No one talked to me for the rest of the reception I was glad Karen wasn't around to hear what I said about her because she was probably the only one in my family who didn't judge me and here I am being a bitch at what's supposed to be a happy day for her so when we left I was very grateful.
"I'm sorry…" I said to Ryland who was driving kind of fast.
"You are so lucky I didn't pull you into the bathroom after that."
"Did you enjoy it though?"
"Up until the moment you stopped."
"Can you slow down please you're suppose to be going 45 and you are nearly going 60…"
"Sorry." He slowed down. "Why does your family drag on you so much about not having a man?"
"I've told you already…"
"They don't get on your sister's case."
"She's married and has two kids…"
"Oh wow…."
"She married one of my dad's employees because my dad liked him alot and wanted him to take over his company one day because he does a lot for my dad and is pretty high up there but it's family owned so he couldn't really do that unless he was part of the family so he kind of pushed my sister to him."
"Like an arranged marriage?"
"No my dad kind of staged there whole meeting and once they got engaged my dad paid for the entire wedding anything my sister wanted she got, my mom and dad got along for the entire day which i've never seen in my entire life I guess that was my mom's present to my sister, she made the joke, we only have to do this once because i'm sure Kayla will never get married and if she does we might be dead…"
"That's terrible."
"That's my mom…."
I stayed silent for the rest of the drive back to Ryland's house, I sat down on his bed while he went into his closet, he came back in some pajama bottoms which i'm sure would be off in a few seconds. "Are you alright?"
"I'm fine, come here." I stood up as he came to me. "I want you."
"Everyone does."
"The only difference is, I can have you."
"I need to get a cond-" The words were lost because I pulled him to me kissing him.
Ryland's Pov
Kayla was laying next to me breathing heavily I rolled over onto my elbows and looked down at her. "I should get going." She said pushing the covers back she looked around the room but couldn't find her clothes so she grabbed my shirt which was on the floor next to her pulled it over her head and started searching for her clothes.
"You can uh stay if you want."
"Ryland we talked about this." Here we go again. "We are both adults, I made it clear that when this," she monitored between us. "First started going on that it was nothing romantic."
"It was just a thought." I sighed and got out of bed pulling my pants on I figured I'd take Max up on his offer instead of just staying home go out get my mind off of her for a while.
"What are you doing?"
"Max invited me to a party, there are some people he wants to meet."
"Girls?"
"Probably." She crossed her arms and glared at me. "Well you know how to let yourself out, I'll call you sometime we can get dinner-"
"Ryland-"
"Don't worry it won't be a date nothing romantic I take you out to dinner and then take you home and fuck you then you go on your merry little way way." I pulled a shirt over my head and made my way towards her. "Excuse me." I said reaching past her and grabbing a condom because who knew how the night would end especially with Max. I was about to reach for the door when Kayla blocked it. "What?"
"Really?"
"Can't find your clothes? I uh don't remember where I pulled them off at but uh that's my shirt don't leave with it I like that one."
"Fine." She said and pulled it over her head standing in front of me naked my eyes raked down her body and back up I smiled.
"Looking good as always." I said she didn't move. "I'm gonna be late."
"Why are you going."
"Why wouldn't I go?"
"Why would you?"
"Because I want to go out and have some fun."
"It's fun here."
"Oh yes my empty house is very very fun I think I can hear crickets chirping…. What's going on with you? Shouldn't you be looking for your clothes and take one of my jackets it's probably cold but don't lose it you'd lose your head if it wasn't attached to you." She still didn't move out of my way.
"I'll stay."
"Three minutes ago you said no-"
"I know what I said but I'm tired and don't want to drive home."
"So you can crash on the couch or one of the many guest rooms." I said she put her hand on my chest and looked up at me.
"I think I'll get lonely and cold." She reached down grabbing my hand pulling me back towards the bed. "Maybe you could find a way to warm me up." She sat down on the bed pulling me in front of her unbuttoning my pants.
"Kayla-"
"I'm offering you one night, do you want it?" Instead of answering I put my hand on her head she smirked letting my pants fall.
"Kayla-"
"Shhh just feel." She said kissing me through my boxers I groaned as she pulled them down and her mouth was on me.
"Fuck."
I woke up in the morning with my arms wrapped around her it was the first time in a long time that I've woken up next to someone and didn't try and sneak out before she woke up. I smiled against her skin kissing her shoulder and she started to stir. "Morning."
"Hey…." She yawned.
"Want-"
"I should get going." She said I nodded letting her go I picked up my phone I forgot to tell Max I wasn't coming a few texts from him asking where I was but the text that caught my eye was from Brit I knew I shouldn't answer her but I did.
Bitch: Your birthday is coming up soon I figured we could get together do something? I thought we could still be friends…. text me
Friends? I laughed dryly Kayla looked over at me with her eyebrows raised I pulled my pants on and smiled. "I had fun last night."
"And this morning?" I gave her the signature Herondale smirk as my mom called it.
"You are so full of yourself." She said playfully slapping my arm.
"You know you like it."
"I uh should leave now."
"You've already said that."
"Right I'm going."
Kayla's Pov
I promised myself I wouldn't get feelings for him I told myself I couldn't, but when he said he was going out and grabbed condoms I couldn't do it. I didn't want to think of the fact that he'd be having sex with other girls it's not like he can be faithful to someone who he isn't even with. He walked me to the door like a true gentlemen would I wanted to kiss him desperately but he didn't move in for the kiss because of the stupid 'rules' I gave him the first night we ever hooked up.
"I'll call you sometime next week maybe." Next week?! My mind screamed but I calmly nodded and went towards my car.
I think I sat there for twenty minutes trying to figure out my life and get my shit together before I tried turning my car on and with my luck it wouldn't start because this day couldn't get any worse.
"Please don't do this to me…. Come on Betty please just start and die when I get home." I turned the key again but still nothing. I went back to the door I felt weird just trying to go in so I rang the doorbell and waited, Ryland opened the door with a burrito in his hand and a phone jammed against his ear.
"Welcome back- I'll call you later." He said and hung up his phone before whoever could respond. "What brings you back so soon? Miss me?"
"My car won't start." I said and he laughed. "It's not funny."
"It is, I told you that your car sucked."
"Don't you talk about Betty like that."
"Betty?" He laughed again.
"Yes Ryland her name is Betty don't disrespect her."
"I'm sorry." He had the worlds sexyiest grin. "Want me to drive you home?"
"Would you mind?"
"I'm sure I can find them time." He said taking a bite out of his burrito.
"Who eats a burrito for breakfast?"
"It's a breakfast burrito, want one?"
"Microwaved?"
"What do you think I am? I cooked."
"You can cook?"
"Surprised?"
"Yes definitely."
"I baked you a cake remember?"
"Oh right, I completely forgot about that…"
"You forget everything…"
"Who taught you to cook?"
"My mom taught me, she wanted me to be able to dazzle beautiful women with my amazing cooking skills."
"And are they all dazzled?"
"Most girls that go out with me don't want to stay home and eat they want to go out to fancy places."
"And you don't like that?"
"I like cooking, I get enough fast food and restaurants when I'm on tour I don't need it at home also."
"Next time we hang out, cook for me?"
"Really?" He looked excited which made me excited and hungry.
"Yeah."
"Any certain type of food you like, don't like?"
"I love everything but Italian food wins my heart every time."
"Italian it is."
"What do you like?"
"Being on tour you learn to love everything."
"Here." He said handing me his burrito.
"That's yours."
"It's okay let's get you home." He leaned back and took a set of keys. "You okay with the Ferrari?"
"As long as it gets me home I don't care."
"It can get you home in ten seconds." He said I took a bite of the burrito and moaned.
"This is amazing."
"It's nice to see I can make you moan in other ways too."
"This is amazing Ry." His smiled dropped. "What's wrong?"
"You haven't really called me that since-"
"Oh.." I looked down at the ground he came on my side of the car and opened the door for me he didn't say anything. "Who were you talking to?"
"My ex."
"Why? I'm sorry I'm being nosy."
"It ended badly between us she wanted to be famous so she used me and when I broke it off she was pissed so she called the cops and said I was beating her."
"That's terrible."
"It's hard to get a real relationship because most girls just use me." He said shrugging. "That's why I like this because it's real we don't have to worry of the haste of the relationship all the drama. You do what you want I do what I want."
"So why is she calling you?"
"Who knows with her she said she wanted to do something for my birthday." He laughed with no trace of humor. "She probably wants money or something."
"Your birthday is in June, it's August."
"You remembered my birthday?"
"She didn't."
"She never really cared about me."
"So you're not sleeping with her?"
"I have standards I don't sleep with someone who got me thrown in jail and fucked me over."
"I'm sorry I brought it up."
"Why are you asking about people who I've slept with?"
"I was just wondering."
"Okay…"
"What?"
"Are you jealous?"
"Of course not!"
"Right why would you be?"
"Exactly."
The rest of the car ride was mostly quiet Ryland threw out some random mostly inappropriate jokes and when I got back to my apartment I didn't want to leave. "Here we are."
"When can I come over again?"
"I don't know I'll be busy for awhile but I'll call you when I'm not busy."
"So weeks?"
"Kayla….?"
"What!" I yelled.
"You're uh squeezing my hand." I looked down and sure enough I was holding his hand tightly.
"I'm sorry I don't even remember grabbing you."
"It's okay look I'm gonna be busy for the next few weeks but I'll see you as soon as I can."
"Before or after you have ten one night stands?"
"Why are you getting mad? You are the one who wanted it like that Kayla."
"I know I did Ry but it still hurts that last night right after you fucked me you were gonna go out and have sex with some random girl."
"I'm sorry, that was never my intention to hurt you."
"I've never had a friend with benefits before so I don't know all the rules but I'd like to add a 'you can't go have sex someone else ten seconds after having sex with me' rule into there okay?"
"I can do that."
"Okay I'm gonna-"
"As long as I can add a rule too."
"What rule?"
"I get to kiss you when you leave."
"It's a compromise." I said his smile came back as he leaned forward and pressed his lips to mine softly and my heart felt like a mushy mess my hands went into his hair as I tried to deepen the kiss my lips parted giving his tongue entrance into my mouth. His hand rested on my thigh I started to squirm.
"I'm sorry." He said pulling away from me.
"Don't be."
"You should get inside."
"Do you uh want to come in? Meet my cat?"
"I uh should go…"
"Right…."
"Unless you want me to come inside?"
"No it's okay you're probably busy today, i'll text you later."
"Okay…."
When I got inside Sadie was sitting on my couch reading a magazine. "You scared the shit out of me!" I yelled.
"Where have you been?"
"Why do you care?"
"Kayla please tell me you didn't sleep with him…"
"Why does it matter?"
"You think he cares about you?"
"It's my life Sadie."
"He's famous Kay everyone knows famous people only care about themselves and in the end you will get hurt and-"
"He's not like that, he's different."
"After your little outburst at the wedding mom doesn't want you coming to the house this weekend."
"It's Rowan's birthday, he's my brother to."
"Yeah but Aunt Karen is gonna be there and well mom told her what you said and-"
"That's just perfect…"
"Kayla-"
"Just go please I just want to be alone right now." She got up and walked towards the door.
"Mom doesn't want the kids coming, because well they're a hassle so i'm assuming you don't have plans so you can watch them?"
"Why don't you just ask your nanny to watch them?"
"Because-"
"I'm gonna be busy I have a life."
"Don't sulk it doesn't look good on you…"
"Thank you Sadie, now please leave I have to clean." She left she turned around to say something but I slammed the door shut on her, maybe i'll just be doomed to spend forever alone I could get another cat but then i'd be the crazy cat lady I laid down on the couch and tried very hard not to cry.
Max's Pov
"I wanted to talk to you." Dad said sitting down on my old bed.
"What's up?"
"So I was talking to the guys and well we never really gave a farewell tour we kind of just stopped touring."
"Are you going back on tour one last time?"
"We were thinking about it."
"That's awesome."
"But there's a catch."
"What is it?"
"We were wondering if you guys would open for us."
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah we'd just need to figure out everything."
"Well we have a Europe tour coming up but after that we haven't got anything, what kind of tour were you thinking?"
"Well Jace and Eric say a world tour but we haven't really planned it out in full."
"I'll text Ryland see what he says."
"Thanks Blueberry."
"It would be epic to go on a real tour with you."
"It would wouldn't it?"
"But I mean with less partying I guess because you're old and fragile." I joked.
"Old? Fragile? I can still beat you in a fight just like I have since you were two."
"Come at me old man, don't let your hip break though." I said as he tackled me onto the bed and we wrestled around just like old times because I lost like always.
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