A/N hello~ it's been awhile...hehe. so here's the 4th chapter of preluded feelings. hope you enjoy it. and that it was worth waiting for. it's just that i finally got the plot down in my mind so please enjoy and review + favorite. THAnk u 3

Chapter 4 imaginary delusions

I woke up the next morning feeling refreshed for some reason. 'Maybe all that was just a dream?' I thought. I looked at my wrist for traces of the evidence from that night and found nothing. Just bare clean arms.

I beamed with happiness. So this means none of that happened. Shun is gone and Kyouhei is still here. I giggled at my own stupidity in believing anything else could ever happened here.

I looked at my skull shaped clock. 7:30 am. Time to get up.

20 minutes later I was practically prancing down the staircase until I saw 4 figures at the bottom of the stairs conversing in a gloomy sort of atmosphere.

My heart raced at the thought of Kyouhei waiting to walk to school with me. But my dreams were dashed when I spotted Noi there instead.

"Hey guys!" I cheered, patting Yuki on the shoulder. "Sunako...?" He asked in surprise.

"Yup! What's up guys?" I asked. They all looked at me weirdly like I had some sort of disease.

Yuki put his small hands on my shoulders, "Sunako Are you okay?!" Yuki cried in his high pitched voice. I covered my ears. "Well not after you yelled in my ears," I laughed, but then it seemed nobody else joined in the laughter. My eyes shift from all of them. "Come on before we're late" I smiled. They kept staring, "What's wrong? Somebody die?" I huffed jokingly before turning for the door and if I wasn't mistaken I could have sworn that the words on Yuki's lips for the response were, 'you did'. But I shoved that out of my head. "Let's go! Kyouhei is gonna scold us!"

"Hey! Sunako-" Noi called after me with a pained expression on her face but her sentence was cut short when Tanaka put a hand up to silence him. Then he smiled at me warmly. "Come on guys. Sunako is right we're going to be late." And right after that statement was made. Everyone remained quiet and smiled at me as well. "Yes let's go."

When we all got onto school grounds we all split up to go to our separate classes as usual but then Noi stopped in her tracks and turned to me. "You want me to walk you to class?" she asked on edge about something. I shook my head, "I'll be fine on my own" I responded then walked off.

I wanted to at least find Kyouhei by myself first but no matter where I looked or who I asked they wouldn't answer me.

The first bell rang and I had no choice but to give up for now.

I walked into the classroom, it was more silent than normal. I sat down in my seat, ignoring the tense air but then some girl came up to me with a group of friends and slammed her hand on my desk. "What are you doing?! Your desk is over there remember!" she yelled in tears almost. I look in the direction her hand is pointing to where Kyouhei's desk was.

I laughed awkwardly, "You are mistaken that desk is Kyouh-"

-Slap-

"Don't even speak his name you bitch!" She screamed, ready to strike me across the face once more. But her friends held her back.

"Listen Sunako just go to your seat," The girls holding her back said coldly.

"B-but I don't understand," I whispered, but I got up despite my confusion. I walked towards Kyouhei's desk and as I got closer tears welled up in my eyes.

~ ~ ~ F*** you, A**hole, Go die, Bast*rd, Go get r*ped! ~ ~ ~

-these were the words written all over the desk. Why? What's going on here?

When I woke up this time I was welcomed by the overpowering smell of antiperspirants and antibiotics.

The nurse looked over to me "Oh you're awake. You took a fall in the classroom but you're alright now, you're ok..." She then glanced multiply times at my arms. "I've redressed you're bandages so please...Don't be doing such things" She whispered sympathetically. I did not need her sympathy even if I didn't know what she was talking about. But I was in no position to speak to her that way. In one single day I had lost all understanding of my surroundings. And it was frustrating the hell out of me that I didn't know why.

The nurse then passed me a note "The boy who brought you here gave me this to give to you once you had fully woken up."

I took the note quickly into my hands. This was the answer. It was him. Written in his own writing. Blue pen ink.

Meet me in the biology lab

-Kyouhei

I got up quickly. My heart was beating out of my chest. Kyouhei.

Just the sound of his name repeating in my head made my legs moved on their own. I needed to see him so I could wake up from this nightmare. He is my light at the end of the tunnel. That was my last thought as I swung open the door which I knew Kyouhei was behind.

I swung open the door and what awaited me was Kyouhei's crimson eyes that glowed in the dark and met my violet ones. I smiled a bit in relief but the happiness was short lived as another pair of eyes appeared in sight. Green ones.

A moan escaped from the darkness and I found myself unable to move from my spot or break the gaze with Kyouhei.

The owner of the green eyes finally looked over and pouted. "Who's she?" It was a girl voice.

Kyouhei stared harder at me as though he was thinking then he chuckled darkly. "No one but an ugly girl." He laughed and the girl giggled as well. "She's a mess," She giggled even harder, before locking her lips with his.

She looked back at me and smiled. "Well she can watch if she wants to," They both laughed.

"I love you," she whispered softly, kissing him. He smiled. His eyes wandering to where I stood as he kissed her.

I didn't even noticed I was crying until I heard the first words that hurt me more than any other before.

"I love you too."

They were beautiful words that could change any girl's world into happiness, but why when I hear them now… do they only sound like poison?

And just like that… I remembered everything. The desk, the people, the crying and the bleeding. Everything was all raw. I looked down at my arms and saw the truth.

I ran. I ran into a classroom in tears. And I collapsed to the floor as soon as I shut the door.

It hurts, it hurts so much! I gripped and dug my nails into my arm.

And that's when I realized...

The red cuts and throbbing and swelling under the gauze wrapped around my pale wrist. I grip my wound wrist tightly. It was there the whole time. Not a figment of my imagination but a reminder of the day I passed out. The very day I was helplessly pinned to the wall against my will by Shun. The same day where Kyouhei saw me and looked me dead in the eyes and left... It was all a painful reality that I just couldn't face. But now it was as real as the pain.

It really hurts.

The bandages slowly turn red as I recall more of the memory. Tears fall from my eyes. It hurts so very much. Make it stop!

The worst part is that he turned away and left me completely. I haven't seen him in 3 days and each and every minute I'm slowly losing my sanity. I've never been like this. It's like I am a totally different person. I hate this! Please! Make it stop!

"Oh Sunako. Did you have fun while your master was away?" I heard 'his' voice say. I turn around slowly as the blood drips to the ground. "I see you got my note, huh? Was it fun?" He smiled, holding a blue pen in his hands.

A/N thank you for reading. please review and favorite.