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I slammed the empty glass on the bar, letting out a heavy sigh. Drinking seemed to be the only way I could heal at that moment.

It had been a week since everything had happened with Ruki. I did my best acting, false smile and all, in front of my band mates so they didn't think anything had happened to me. When Sakito asked me about it, I told him what I had before- 'It was just sex'.

A few days after Ruki 'threw me away' I decided to attempt to cheer myself up by bar hopping- alone. On the second night I ran into someone that I truly hadn't expected to see.

I didn't recognise him at first. The now orange-haired vocalist came up behind me and made me jump as he spoke. Upon realising who he was, it occurred to me how obvious it was how he and Ruki had once got along- and also how they began to, let's say, dislike each other. Tetora always has been overly confident, and a lot more than Ruki. He even is now, though the drummer for his band seems to have an even higher confidence level. I didn't know that could exist until that moment.
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I had been sitting alone, silent and miserable at a bar I'd found about a 5 miles away from my normal pub. The place was quiet and with a low amount of costumers. It seemed perfect. As I wallowed in my own misery, I was shaken from my thoughts by a voice I didn't recognise.

"I see Ruki finally had his infamous nasty effect on you"

I whizzed round to come face to face with the orange haired boy, a kind smile on a make-up-less face.

"Sorry, do I know you?" I asked drowsily, rubbing one eye and hoping I didn't same rude.

The guy laughed, sitting down next to me.

"I'm not surprised you don't remember me. Maybe I should get that many piercings so people can recognise me as easily as they do you!" he laughed, flicking his hair from his face "I don't believe we ever really had an introduction" He held out his hand "Tetora"

And then it clicked.

"Ruki's old vocalist…"

He nodded "Yep. Takanori stole my band role as you can see" he laughed half heartedly

I blinked at him "Sorry who"

"Takanori" he repeated. When I remained staring at him, he explained wide eyed and in a slower voice "You know. Ruki"

"Is that his real name then?" I asked sounding a little too interested.

"Yeah" Tetora raised a black eyebrow "Didn't he ever tell you that?"

I shook my head, trying to look emotionless.

"I'm not surprised. Keeps things to himself. He's a weird one!" Tetora giggled, finishing the last of his beer. Once all the glittering liquid had disappeared into his mouth he spoke again, more casually this time "So I take it he hurt you pretty bad, huh?"

"How you know about all that?" I asked suspiciously, trying not to scowl at a person I hardly knew- didn't know, I mean.

"I still speak to Akira. That's Reita by the way, you know who he is, right?" he checked, leaning against the bar.

"Tall and blonde?"

"That's the one. He told me Ruki's latest going ons" he explained, circling the top of the glass with his finger.

"If you don't mind my asking" I began as politely as I could "But why Reita tell you?"

"I think it because he knows I don't like him" Tetora laughed again "He knows I won't sit there and tell him off for what he says"

"So Reita and Ruki don't like each other?" I doubled checked, unsure on this information. Ruki had made it seem like-

"They're pretty close actually. I think Reita's got a bit of a thing for Ruki. Not necessarily sexual or romantic, but he seems to worship the midget quite a bit."

I gritted my fists "I don't see how he can. He's so selfish and-"

"Unpredictable?"

"Yeah and-"

"A drama queen?"

"Uh huh! And-"

"A soulless ass?"

"Exactly" I cheered with a smile.

"You're not the only one, Hitsugi" Tetora smiled kindly "He's like that with a lot of people. You know" he sat up, touching his hair once again "When I first meet him, when we were kids, he was probably one of the nicest people to come across. Everyone loved Taka!" Tetora smiled at the memory "But I think he just got a bit too full of himself. Way too much…"

I saw Tetora almost every night. Same pub, same spot. The conversation moved away from Ruki, or Takanori as Tetora called him, and to a one so much similar to the first conversation me and… Ruki once had. But one meeting would start one of the biggest nights of my life…

Tetora set his empty glass down on the bar, looking at me with a sad expression.

"You just can't stop thinking about him, huh?" I spoke with a serious tone.

"Yeah… I can't" I whispered back "Tora, can I ask you something?"

"Hit it"

I shuffled in my seat "Actually there's two questions"

"Hit it twice"

I took a mental breathe before I asked the first question "What was Ruki, I mean 'Takanori' like after the last time he saw me?"

Tetora thoughts for a minute before a smirking "Quiet. He's was quiet. Then, half way through our journey to the next venue, he was suddenly in this massive huff"

"Why?" I asked, getting hopeful.

"Something about his phone"

His phone? He did lose it then! He didn't lie to me!

"What's the other thing?" Tetora asked, before beconing over a waitress.

I hesitated, feeling awkward and uncomfortable with asking such a question. I waited patiently for Tetora to make his order before inhaling and wriggling my shoulders, my cheeks already turning rosy.

"Well…" Tetora sang with raised eyebrows.

"Was Ruki really a virgin?"

The vocalist blinked "Is he a virgin?" he repeated with a quizzical look.

"No was he"

"Everyone was at one point" he smirked.

"I mean when he met me"

Tetora paused "I'm not sure"

My heart dropped.

"But I'm pretty sure he was. I can remember him telling me how he'd so close to a girl and then just back out. And when he was with a guy he didn't it wouldn't do it with them because he didn't trust them" he spoke casually as the main brought his drink over. Tetora thanked her and handed her the cash. "Obviously he wasn't after he meet you" Tetora winked with the glass in front of his face. He gave a little snigger before sipping the pint.

"He told you?" I cringed, feeling my cheeks getting hotter.

"Only me and Akira. Well" he shrugged "At the time anyway"

"Did Rei-Akira ever mention Ruki telling the others?"

"Believe it or not Hitsu-kun, we don't talk about our mate's sex lives that often. Edit, my X mate" Tetora rolled his eyes. "Why do you ask?"

I shrugged "Just wondering"

"Were a virgin?" he asked, taking me off guard

"Excuse me"

"Were. You. A. Virgin?" he spoke slowly as if I was a young a child.

"Why. Do. ?" I imitated

"Just say"

"No!"

"No you won't say or no you weren't a virgin?"

"No I won't say!"

"Oh… Shame as I had a little juicy fact for you" he smirked, leaning on the bar almost in a seductive manner.

"What is it?"

"No, you've got to tell me!"

"Tetora, come on"

"Fine" he rolled his eyes at me again "I can't remember Ruki saying he lost it to a virgin. He didn't say who, he just said it was virgin"

I was silent, wide eyed.

"So if you were a virgin, it's quite likely he was" Tetora laughed, shaking his head and turning back to his drink.

My mind left reality. My thoughts drifted away as hope shined through.
If he wasn't lying when he said he was losing his virginity to me all those years ago, then that means it must have meant something, right? You're first time always does. You either regret it so you wished you'd lost it another way, or you loved it… Could he have regretted it? Maybe that's why he didn't tell the others that he lost it to me? Was he ashamed at losing it to me? Or did he just like fucking virgins and then building up a list of how many virginities he'd taken…

"You know…" Tetora's voice slithered into my ears and disrupted his thoughts. "Reita said he was going to a club tonight… Called 'Burastu', I believe. I wouldn't be surprised if Ruki was there… All vulnerable and drunk- Just waiting to be confronted for something or other" the orange haired vocalist winked at me over his glass.

Burastu. A neon filled nightclub not far from my usual place. It was one of the last places I would have ever gone. I definitely won't ever be seen down there now but that's because, well, I'm 30, almost 31. I don't want to admit me I'm kind of two old for all that. I'll stick to pubs.
The Burastu had a bit of a reputation- and not exactly a good one. Rape wasn't an unfamiliar thing to happen round that area, but luckily for me it was mostly girls that happened. Not that it matters, the thought was just selfish. I couldn't help but wonder why they would go there. For all the great clubs in Sendai, why Burastu?

"Do you love him"

I blinked "Huh?"

"Do you love him?"

All words froze in my throat "That's a funny thing to hear coming from you" I recoiled

"Feels funny to say" he looked at me seriously "Do you love him?"

"I-I dunno-" I stuttered out

"What do you mean you don't know?" Tetora quizzed angrily "Of course you know if you love someone! You either love them, hate them, or hardly know them. You can have stages of falling in love, but there aren't any phases of love itself!" he sounded irritated with me, like he was a bad tempered teacher and I was the slowest student.

"I guess…"

"You guess what?!"

"I guess I do"

"You do what?!"

"I do love him" I spat out.

They was a silence.
I had said it. After all these years I had finally said it out loud. I love Ruki. I love Kihiri. I love Matsumoto Takanori! It felt amazing yet frightening to say it, but it was true. Finally I had admitted it not only to myself but to another. But it wasn't him.

"Then what are you doing here?!" Tetora asked, not actually expecting an answer "Stop sitting around in a pool of your own pity and get out this place and fight!" Tetora stood up, fists raised high and yelling a little too loudly in the pub. It was lucky the only people in there was us and the barmaid, who seemed used to Tetora's outrageous and unpredictable personality…

"Fight for what?" I felt like I was panicking, lightly scared of Tetora's victorious outburst.

"For Taka! If you want him, fight him for him! Show that bratty vocalist that sometimes other people get their way! Win him!"

Silenced returned, with Tetora frozen with his eyes on the ceiling. The barmaid carried on humming to herself casually, polishing wine glasses. I bit my lip, looking down at the floor as I considered my options. What did I have to lose? After everything, nothing.

"Did he mention what time?" I asked as casually as I could.

Tetora's head whizzed down to face me with an overly joyous smile. He glanced at his watch "I wouldn't be surprised if they had just arrived now"

There was another minute pause of us just looking each other before I set into action. I pulled on my hoodie and downed my pint before dashing off and yelling to me new friend-

"Thanks Tetora!"

And then I was running down the street at full speed, making no attempt to turn back. I ran as fast as I could, my quick, heavy breaths burning my throat. I dodged the people of the nightlife with their drunken walks and annoying ridiculous cackles at nothing. I crossed road after road, at one point without really look as I was going. My heart beat increased and jumped as I saw the large car heading towards, the squeaking of its breaks.

"Fucking kid! Watch where you're going!" yelled the angry driver, but I didn't stop to apologise.

There was no time was apologises now. This wasn't a time for 'I'm so sorry', it was a time for fighting and a child victory!
The amount of people walking the street multiplied as I turned the corner that lead to the club. If I had stopped to look around properly, I'm sure I would have been alarmed at how many girls were passed out on the street and how many boys were puking on the edge of the sidewalk. It was certainly a grubby, disgusting street. I found the club. You could tell how low the place was just by the fact that there wasn't any security around. I ducked in and head down the dark corridor. Neon foot prints were stuck to the floor and neon green arrows were glued to the walls, heading me down and down into the darkness and into the light at the other end. The hubbub of chatting swam to my ears, but it was all a buzz without words. The music bleared out from the speakers, practically deafening me. My eyes searched the dark, crowded room, the only lights being florescent pink, blue and yellow. Crowds of jumping drunks were scattered everywhere. At that moment, I wished I could freeze them all to statues. Their constant moving was irritating. Nervously, I began to wonder round the place curiously. It really wasn't my kind of place at all. Too loud with so many confident people. It was too 'mainstream'-like. It was too crowded in general. My lungs were beginning to feel tight and ready to burst. Air froze in my throat as my eyes found what I had been searching for. Ruki was sitting round a table with two other men. One black haired guy who was giggling uncontrollably, and a tall slim guy with blonde hair that I recognised to likely be Reita, The Gazette's bassist. I didn't recognise the other guy though. Ruki was perched on Reita's lap with the bassist's arms wrapped round his waist. Ruki, who had been chatting away to them both, turned his head a froze too as his eyes locked on mine. I folded my arms as a reply. Ruki's eyes fell sadly, before he leant back to whispered something in Reita's ear. The bassist began swivelling his head round, his eyes searching the room for what I guessed to be me. Ruki slapped him across the cheek before sliding off his friend's lap and heading towards me. He stopped in front of me and yelled over the music.

"What are you doing here?!" He didn't sound very pleased to see me.

"Fighting." I yelled back with as much confidence as I could build up.

"Fighting for what?" Ruki squinted his eyeliner painted eyes, his hands on his hips and leaning a little closer to me.

"You."

"Me?" he spat in a call over the heavy bass music "Who you gunna fight?" I sneered at me "Don't be stupid Hitsugi. I-"

I cut him off as my fist crashed in to his jaw, sending him back. I pounded on him pinning him down by his writs. The people around his echoed gasps, parting away from us and staring in alarm. Ruki looked up at me in pure horror. Then determination.

"Bring it, metal mouth!"

Before I could register what was happening, Ruki kicked me straight between the legs, putting me off guard long enough for us to switch places, my head crashing down on the hard polished floor. I kicked him off me and rushed to my feet. He followed a second later, attacking me with his fists of fury, screaming all the while. As his hand collided with my jaw, my foot flew into his stomach.

"Ruki!" Reita appeared, pushing through the crowd to the front, already to play back up.

"Fuck off Reita!" Ruki screamed as he flew at me again.

I grabbed his wrists and wrestled him down. His fist crashed into my jaw. My fist collided with his brow. He kicked me hard in the stomach, leading to us swapping positions. The side of his hand flew down on to my collar bone.

"FUCK" I spat

One hand reached to grab his hair, the other punching him in the stomach. He elbowed me in the neck. I kicked him hard in the stomach. He flew off me, spluttering. I clambered to my feet. As did he. We stood there, shooting daggers into each other's eyes, one willing the other to twitch and vice versa. Suddenly, Ruki moved but in a different direction. The small vocalist ran off down back hall way. Once my mind has processed what was happening, I ran after him as the crowd began to mutter in confusion. I jumped into the hall and carried on speeding forward. Ruki was far ahead, but I saw him fly out the back door, closing it with a load slam. I ran quickly after him and burst through the back door too. I let the door close behind me freely with a slam as I stared ahead. Ruki was pressed against the wall, hiding his face in his arms.

"Why can't you just leave me alone?" he whispered at to me, sounding so weak and fragile now.

"Why do you want me to leave you alone?" I asked, feeling a little hurt as I took a tiny step closer to him.

I jumped a little as I heard him whimper out the word 'no'. He pushed himself from the wall, and slowly turned. His head was bent down, face hidden by hair, and was dabbing his face lightly with the back of his hand. He sniffed hard and then looked up at me.

"Were you crying?" asked in a flat voice. It didn't come out like a question, instead it sound more like an announcement.

"Why the fuck would I cry?" He laughed dryly "Over you? Never. Such a thing is absurd." He smirked up at me "Who the fuck do you think you are?"

"The same person I've always been" I shrugged in an arrogant manner.

Another dry laugh ran off Ruki's lips "Cocky. I've rubbed off on you"

"You've done more than that-"

"Shut up, metal mouth"

"You say that like it's supposed to offend me?"

"Who'd want a mouth of metal?"

"A robot"

Ruki laughed again. He folded his arms and slowly walked over to me. He leaned towards me, his scent wafting around me and his warm breath lightly patting my face. "What do you want Hitsu?" he whispered "Why did you want to fight me?"

"I told you"

"What did you say?" he dragged out his words.

"You"

"Me." He leaned back frowning "What did you mean by that?"

I took a deep breath before finally speaking out.

"I don't know how you feel about me." I said slowly and as calmly as I could "But I love you" I horrid cold wind blew straight after my sentence.

Ruki stared at me, unblinking.

"I'm not sure if I even care if you love me back, but frankly" I shrugged "Fuck you. All you did was take everything I had- Everything I thought I didn't care about" I gritted my teeth "Before I bet you, I didn't think losing my virginity would be such a bad thing. I was just planning on throwing it away one night. Doesn't matter who, as long as I think their pretty. Then I would have got on with my life, but no! You had to come along and fuck it all up!" My tone changes and my voice raise as I yelled my anger into Ruki's face. "You fucking bast-"

My words were frozen as something silenced me. Something soft, something delicate, something I knew. My eyes automatically closed as my arms naturally wrapped round his waist. Ruki pulled himself close to me. The kiss was slow, soft, and what I hoped was meaningful. It's what I had always thought a lover's kiss would be like…
I spun us round before pushing Ruki hard against the wall. My hands left his waist and wondered up to find his own. I prized them apart and slammed them against the wall to, high above his head as I forced myself in control. The mouth to mouth romance was interrupted at the sound of the door opening. Our lips snapped apart before we slowly turned our heads, our cheeks flushed as we came face to face with raised eyebrows… Reita.
Ruki's eyes moved to our hands of which I abruptly let go of in embarrassment. Reita merely raised in eyebrow before taking a deep breath and saying in a breathy voice from deep in his throat.

"Whatever makes you happy, Taka"

Then he headed back in, his eyes on the sky and awkward expression on his face. Me and Ruki held our breaths until the door was completely shut. As soon as it slammed, Ruki moved away from me, running to a pile of wooden planked. He grabbed one and then skipped back open, dodging it through the door handle to hold the door shut. He looked back at me and gave a little laugh and a weak smile. I smiled back uncomfortably, still feel awkward after being caught. Ruki slowly began to walk over to me, his eyes half shut and small smile on his face. He threaded a thumb through his jean loop as he leaned back against the wall, inches away from where he originally was. His smile dropped to a face that held a little sorrow. He reached out his hand, caressing my face. For a second, I melted into his touch, then a thought came to my head.

"How much have you had to drink?"

Ruki's hand froze "One glass of vodka and coke" he mumble, stepping closer to me bring his other hand to cup my face too.

"I meant what I said" he whispered.

"What?" I mutter, confused.

Ruki licked his lips before speaking in a weak voice.

"I mean what I said… When I said I didn't know why I let you go." Before I could speak, he pressed his lips on to mine, his hands dropping to my waist to hold me close again. I kissed back softly, my hands moving to hold told his arms. I leaned onto him gently pushing him back against the wall, my hands moving to tangle in his red and black hair. The kiss began to lose its sweetness, only to be replaced with a hot spice. Ruki pushed his body against mine, detaching his lips from mine to move them to my neck, chewing slowly but with strength. His hands moved from my waist and down to my front, his thumbs hooking into my jeans. As one light turned on, another turned off in my head. I pushed him away.

"What the hell?" I choked at him.

"What?" an irritated Ruki spat.

"You're just trying to do what you did all those other times!" I headed back over to the door. "Fuck you Ruki. Fuck. YOU!" I yelled as I reached to move the plank. Before a single finger could touch the wood, another hand grabbed mine and pulled me away.

"Hitsu, no, I-"

"Shut up!"

"Hitsugi, listen!" Ruki grabbed me by the shirt and threw me against the wall "It wasn't like that!"

I felt something tap upon my head. Then my shoulder. I saw a single one roll down Ruki's cheek.

"Then what was it?!" I yelled at him with fury as the spitting became heavier.

Ruki let go of me and began to step away, his hands slowly running down his thin body. His back hit the wall the same time his fingers found the hem of his top. Gently, Ruki pulled the tshirt off, every second giving me the tiniest bit more flesh to see. He pulled it over his head before abandoning it on the floor a few feet away. He beckoned me closer with both hands. I frowned, folding my arms. The spitting began to increase, creating a pretty pattern on the concrete around us. Ruki looked at me wide eyes, willing me to follow his orders. Without any care, I pushed myself off the wall and walked lazily towards him, Ruki held his arms up a little higher so he could wrap them round my neck. I looked at him with cold eyes.

"I don't want to have sex with you" he spoke seriously.

I blinked, a little confused.

"I want more"

"More? I spluttered with a sneer. What the fuck does that mean?

"I want more than just sex" Ruki pulled me closer to him, our lips almost touching. Then he whispered the line that I have never forgotten. It made me excited, it made me scared, it made me think…

"Make love to me"

My body froze.

"Please" Ruki pecked my lips "Like they do in the movies." His voice was croaky and quiet but all still strangely arousing "Like the first time we ever had-"

I sniggered "That wasn't 'making love'"

"It was for me." He swallowed, his eyes moving away "You were my first for so many things that night"

I wrapped my arms round him as he spoke. He was the spider, and I was the ladybird caught in his web. I wanted him to eat me extremely slowly so I could feel every intensely painful bite he took at my body…

"Many?" I croaked out in a voice so much him.

"You were the first person I ever confessed to liking." He sighed "You were the first person I french kissed, the first person I gave oral to-"

My cheeks turned horrible red

"-the first person I ever had sex with…" he pressed his lips against mine again but just as I was above to kiss back, he disrupted it "You were the first person who ever made love to me. I don't know how you saw it, but… I know it's really stupid but that's what I counted it as" he gave a nervous smile "I had one of those 'fan crushes' at first, before I had met you. When Tetora told me we'd be opening for your band. I looked you up, I even went to a concert. I was so fascinated by you."

I watched him carefully as he spoke, his lips released such wondrous words that I was scared it was all false.

"You seemed so amazing. So care free. So… So innocent" He giggled weakly, sounding so scared when he spoke "I never actually considered the fact that you might not be innocent at all. When I first saw you with my own eyes out of make-up I didn't recognise you for a second. It was when we were going to open for you. I was sitting in the tour van looking out the window and I saw you, going in and out and in and out of backstage bringing stuff in. I didn't think it was you because you had changed your hair- You had brown hair the first time I saw a picture of you, with very, very light pinky tints at its ends. I was only sure it was you when I saw your guitar. Then I just had to find you and when I did… I just-"

I couldn't hold it back. Kami-sama, may he keep speaking such wonderful words but only after I've kissed him more and more… Only once my mouth is poisoned with the taste of his lips.

I kissed him, pressing my lips on to his before they slowly opened. My tongue leisurely licked his lip, my teeth lightly biting for a second before kissing it properly again. I felt a foreign tongue on my lips, rolling deliberately over the piercings before entering my mouth. Our tongues dragged across each other, each little taste bud giving a massage to my own. The gentle kiss ended with a click of our lips.

"I just felt so many butterflies. Gay, right? I'd never seen a picture of you with your shoulders out" Ruki's voice no longer sounded scared or worried, but leaked sexuality and confidence "So seeing you with my own eyes… Shoulders and abs and all, was amazing." He gave a little giggle again, pressing his hips into mine as the words seeped from his lips "It turned me on and I know it shouldn't have. Even when I saw the scar. So gorgeous, so manly, so enigmatic. You were the reason I questioned my own sexuality." As his spoke, in sync, we both moved our hands down each other's bodies and to our jeans, popping the button and pulling down the zip "I used to think I just admired you. My age and doing so well in your first band... Then I realised it wasn't admiration."

His lips set on to mine like a hungry animal as the spitting became rain, soaking out heads and shoulders. I pushed the last of his clothes off, of which he kicked away, converses and all. He pushed my jacket off my shoulders, leaving me with only a shirt to cover the scar.

"I wanted you to take everything I had and destroy it" he growled as he attacked my buttons, ripping some from their stitching, the scar coming to the light "leave it bleeding!" as he ruined a good shirt, I pushed off my jeans, underwear and the very same flats I had been wearing the night I'd lost my virginity to him. (Those women's flats seemed to have been worn at a lot of important times…) "I didn't want you to leave me with any dignity what so ever" he finally pushed the shirt from my shoulders; for the first time in my life I was full exposed. "I wanted you to make me yours, defile me, possess me, keep me, love me-" he placed his hands on my shoulders and jumped up, allowing me to catch him so he was sitting in my arms. He wrapped his legs round me to keep himself in place before pulling at one of my arms. I readjusted the arm so all his weight was on my right and release my left hand "And I never stopped wanting that" he placed my three middle fingers in his mouth and began to coat them in his saliva. I watched in awe like I had every other time as my fingers moved in and out of his beautiful mouth, the feeling of tongue rolling around them being hypnotic. He opened his mouth wide and allowed me to remove my fingers. I knew from experience what to do now.

"I never liked-" he grunted as one finger entered him "Being empowered." He groaned "I was always in power" I felt his nails gripping into me as I quickly added a second, maybe slightly to early "But I kind of like not being in power. Being the girl almost. But only when it's you" he moved to crash his lips into mine was again, our heads moving in time. The kiss was slow and romantic with gentle tongues; a French kiss- the kiss of true love. I entered a third finger, which he found easier to bare now. I pushed my fingers deep into him until I found the little highly sensitive part inside him. As soon as my fingers grazed of it, I felt him tense in my arms, his body pushing itself against me hard. He moaned into my mouth as I removed my fingers and replaced it with my member. Ruki released my lips from the kiss as he gasped ever so slightly, his body shaking a little. He allowed his body to drop, quickening the speed of me entering him. He moved his hands to thread through my black and red hair as his mouth came back to mine, biting down on my bottom lip and tugging. I pressed him harder against the all, kissing him hard as I began to pound into him. Ruki writhed against me moaning against my mouth. He clung round my neck as did what he had wanted me. I would not destroy him like he wished, but I made him mine. With one hand, unwrapped his arms from round my neck and forced myself into full control and defiled him. I cruelly sank my teeth into my neck to suck and bite down hard as I possessed him. I did my best to hold our bodies together; to keep him close. I released his skin and, in a much less aggressive manner, kissed him again, delicately; to love him. The rain was getting very heavy, fall hard and practically bruising our skin but at the same time it was a cool blessing as it washed away the sweat of heat. My hair stuck to my face and neck uncomfortably but I didn't care. Ruki looked amazing with soaking hair.

"Hitsugi…" Ruki moaned out, his voice being another to increase my excitement, as I noticed a little black line running down his cheek.

I spoke in a light breathy laugh as I muttered again his lips "Taka-chan"

Ruki moaned again as I released his arms to give him freedom. "I like that coming for you" he moved his head to suck on my neck as I carried on pumping myself into his soaking body.

I hissed as his teeth sank into my neck, bruising my lightly tanned skin. I reached between us and took hold of his member, determined to have him pleading and begging against me like prey. Ruki came back for air, almost breathless. He whined as he linked his lips with mine, his hips moving against my own as I took control and advantage of all his lower body.

"Hitsu" he breathed out, clinging to me again "You… You know mine…" he scratched his nails down my shoulders as his insides tightened "So… What's you're… uh.." I forced him against the wall harder, showing him who was officially in control here "Real… Name…"

I forced my lips on his again, cutting him off before he could say anymore "Mitsuo" he mumbled into the kiss before biting down on his lips.

"Mitsuo…" he muttered under his breath.

His legs tightened around me as his body quivered in my arms. He hid his head in the nape of my neck, mumbling my name over and over. I began to feel the familiar feeling in abdomen, driving me to move faster and faster into his body, my hand tugging it Ruki's own member as if I was in fury. Ruki swore into my neck before sitting up pushing his whole body against the wall and arching his back as he threaded his fingers into my hair tugged hard.

"Mitsuo… Ah, fuck…"

My real name had never sounded so pleasant. It sounded better being moaned form Ruki's beautiful lips.

"Mitsuo… I'm gunna… Mitsu-"

Ruki howled out, writhing against me at the force of orgasm, his seed painting our stomachs and his hand. His forced his lips on to mine, still tugging my hair as I hit my own sexual peck.

"Taka…" I groaned against his lips as my member filled his body with my seed.

He jumped down off me breathless. He looked at me before pinning our lips together again in a slow, passionate, kiss. Our tongues dancing together like little ballerinas in an opera. I gently pulled away looking at him. The rain as made his make-up run down his face, his cheeks were smeared grey from the black eyeliner. His eyes were still mostly outliner, but it had still made a mess round his face. Ruki frowned at me, realising that I was clearly scanning his face. The singer reached his hand to touch his cheek before he pulled back to see the brown and black watery smears on his finger. His brown eyes widened in shock.

"You look better" I thought allowed, tearing him from his thoughts.

"W-what?" he stuttered out, sounding so distant as he spoke.

I moved my head to kiss his lips, my hand moving to cup his check and wipe away the running make-up. Ruki pulled himself away from lips and slapped my hand.

"Don't"

"Hush" I pecked his lips "Only I can see. It's too dark."

Ruki swallowed his eyes shifting awkwardly. He gave a shaky sigh before looking back at me "Okay" he whispered "But only cause we're together now"

I jumped a little, not expecting him to say such a thing "We are?" I sounded a little more shocked then I meant.

Ruki shuffled a little "Aren't we?"

I smiled as my cheeks began to feel a little heated "Yeah. I guess we are. If that's okay with you?"

"Don't be so shy. You know it's fine with me!" Ruki smirked with his sudden boost of confidence.

I cupped his stained face with both hands and brought my lips to his. A little bit of fear still remained in the light of his eyes. I kissed him again, my eyes fluttering closed as I saw his do the same. As we slowly kissed, my fingers moved to remove the rest of his make-up, the slowly stopping rain help so much. When I pulled away I felt a little bit of shock. The eyes that stared back of me were almost foreign. Heavily accented brown eyes with short lashes than I remembered glittered back at me. My own eyes ran round his face. This person's skin was a shocking shade of white, their lips so pale and not as full as Ruki's. I readjusted my eyes to see the full face. I smiled. Those brown eyes glazed back at me and a few pearly white teeth appeared to chew on the pale lips.

"I think you're pretty" I hushed, wiping away the last of the black liner.

Ruki swallowed before muttering out "Guys aren't supposed to be pretty".

I shrugged "Would you rather be ugly?"

"I am"

"You're not. You're pretty, I'm afraid. Sorry about that"

The shock left Ruki's face. Calmly, he smiled at me, properly. He gave me a single, slow kiss that held no lust in its mixture, before looking straight into my eyes.

"Take me home with you"

He didn't have to repeat himself. In seconds we were pulling on our garments, snickering to ourselves before Ruki linked his hand with my mine and tugged me out of the alley way as we headed back home.

This was going to be the end but I've decided to make it a longer… Did anyone notice something that DIDN'T happen? On Ruki's part? If you don't know, it'll come to light in the next chapter.

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