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I spent much of today thinking about this chapter: of how good it felt to write all this down when I did, and how much I was going to DREAD EDITING IT. See, this monstrosity is what happens when I think too much into something - my thoughts go everywhere. So, I apologize for posting this so late this Sunday, barely meeting the deadline by procrastinating far too much.
Thank you to everyone who read/alerted/faved/reviewed. Hugs and kisses!
I don't own Katekyo Hitman Reborn! However I do take responsibility for my twisted, messed-up perception of it. Unfortunately.
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A Day in the Life of…
Hayato Gokudera!
The Day
3:00 am
Wakes up; sees that it's three o'clock in the freaking morning.
3:01 – 3:15
Tries futilely to fall back asleep.
3:16 – 3:23
Sighs, yawns, grumbles, gets up, has a cigarette. Wonders whether the Tenth is asleep right now or having the same insomnia problem.
3:24 – 4:00
Fights hunger and exhaustion with distraction: plays that piano in the corner of the room.
4:01 – 4:25
Tries again to get some more sleep. Gives up.
4:26 – 4:45
Showers, gets dressed, tries on half his jewelry collection, etc.
4:46 – 4:48
Takes a pain pill for his raging headache. Also, applies nicotine patches. One day closer to quitting, for the sake of the Tenth's lungs.
4:49 – 6:25
Reads. A physics encyclopedia, autobiographies of whiny people, Harry Potter for the thirty-thousandth time… it's all good. (A/N: Gokudera's a big-time HP fan. To the extreme.) Or does some weapon maintenance.
6:25 – 6:45
Grabs school stuff and walks to the Tenth's house with Basil and Rosemary, all the while shaking and feeling lightheaded from hunger and low blood sugar.
6:46 – 7:05
Walks with the Tenth and others to school. Wishes stomach wasn't empty. The Tenth, in his infinite generosity, notices him shaking and gives him a little something to eat. Thanks the Tenth a million times.
7:06 – 7:29
Hangs out with the Tenth and others at school. If there is classroom cleaning, blows it off. Begins to feel that the little something the Tenth offered up to eat isn't sitting right.
7:30
Supposed to be in homeroom (Class A.)
7:30 – 7:41
Runs to the bathroom, throws up.
7:42
Actually arrives at homeroom – saunters in casually. Tries to act like nothing's wrong. Ignores teacher's dirty looks.
7:43 – 9:35
Naps, doodles, watches the Tenth and makes general mischief. Pays attention in class? No way. Boooooring.
Around 8:00
Feels jittery, craves a cigarette. Hopes no one notices.
9:36 – 9:44
Makes a mad dash out of the classroom to that spot outside where there are no security cameras or prefects. Has a smoke.
9:45 – 9:46
Angst.
9:47 – 11:30
Chills out in the library. Being an assistant librarian is so awesome.
11:31 am – 12:59 pm
The campus is open for lunch, but usually just hangs out on the roof with the Tenth and others. Tries not to think about hunger. Friends offer him some of their lunches, which he takes to be polite, but silently regrets shortly thereafter. Usually ends up excusing himself at some point or another to go to the bathroom alone and vomit the food back up. Sometimes everyone will go to the Tenth's house or somewhere else to eat, and he tags along if the Tenth is going. Considers skipping the rest of the day to go home, but then remembers that the Tenth will still be at school.
1:00 – 1:30
Two choices: either suffer through PE with the Tenth or fake an injury. Hmm…
1:31 – 2:30
Goes to the super-special advanced chemistry class at the other side of the school. Gets graded on scientific genius and has fun making things explode. Develops new dynamite formulas as well.
2:31 – 3:30
Sleeps through history class.
3:31 – 3:33
Meets up at the back of campus with the girl who confessed earlier today. Politely rejects her. (A/N: Tsuna is the only woman for you! LOLJK.) Grumbles lowly in Italian about the fact that the stupid girls at school won't leave him alone.
3:34 – 3:55
Walks back to the Tenth's house with the Tenth and some others, smoking a cigarette in the meanwhile. Blows off cleaning duty.
3:56 – 6:00
Study group with the Tenth and the Baseball Idiot, and possibly Miura as well. Or, more like trying to teach the others not to be idiots. And when everyone's done: VIDEOGAMES.
6:01 – 6:45
Dinner at the Tenth's house! Everyone else comes, too.
6:46 – 7:00
Is a gracious houseguest, and shows it by helping the Tenth's mother do the dishes.
7:01 – 7:15
Heads home alone. Begins a conversation with the Tenth via text messaging that will span a few hours.
7:16 – 7:19
Arrives back at apartment. Throws up almost all of dinner.
7:20 – 7:25
Smokes. Then angrily applies more nicotine patches.
7:26 – 8:00
While watching TV, actually does some homework in a careless-yet-still-overachieving way. (Since none of it got finished earlier due to the Baseball Idiot's stupidity .)
8:01 – 8:10
Feels weirdly dirty. Takes another, quick shower. Puts on more comfortable clothes. Brushes teeth again too, twice to get the taste of bile and cigarettes out.
8:11
Pretends to be tired. Kisses the photo of the Tenth on the end table (A/N: Because you know he must have one, and he kisses it every night before going to bed), picks out a book or two, and curls up on the couch to read.
8:12 pm – 12:00 am
Feels tired but still can't sleep. Finishes reading the book(s), listens to the police sirens off in the distance, works on Vongola stuff, and watches something mind-numbing on TV, among maybe other things, all in no particular order, until sleep finally comes. Crashes on the couch.
Repeat.
The Life
(A/N: If you've read much into the Future Arc, you probably know about most of this already. I felt like writing it anyway, though.) Hayato's paternal grandfather was the boss of the Fontanegra family; Hayato's father was next in line to be boss. When the grandfather died unexpectedly young, the father was forced to inherit the family at only 17 years old, when he really wasn't ready to be in that position. The grandfather had mishandled the family and accumulated very much debt, as well as made several enemies in the world of the mafia. But the father turned it all around for the Fontanegra family: by throwing numerous parties and establishing alliances with other families, he rebuilt the Fontanegra reputation, and through clever financial maneuvering, he worked the family out of debt and had it turning an enormous profit by the time he was 21. In a move for more money and power, he was put into an arranged marriage with the daughter of the boss of another family: Ida.
He married Idawhen they were both 24 years old, and their daughter was born three years later. But when his daughter was barely even two, he met a woman named Lavina who was playing the piano at a bar. He fell for her instantly and they began an affair. After almost three years, they found out that Lavina was pregnant. She was only 18; the father was 32.
Since Ida was fond of Lavina, and the reputation of the family would be completely ruined if the news of her husband's recklessness got out, she decided to hide Lavina and fake a pregnancy, and then adopt the child as her own once it was born. The father tried to make up for the problems by offering to leave Ida and marry Lavina, but Lavina refused because she didn't want to take him away from his beautiful daughter and his wife with whom Lavina was close; Lavina was also a very sickly young woman, who had spent her whole life in and out of the hospital, and had a host of diseases and disabilities including severe epilepsy, so her life expectancy wasn't much more than her age at the time.
Hayato was born to Lavina in early September. Right away, there were problems: he had a massive whole in the wall of his left atrium when he was born, which had to be corrected with surgery right away. He still to this day has an X-shaped scar over his heart from that ordeal. (A/N: Haha... X-shaped. A sign, perhaps?)
For the first eight years of his life, he was made to believe that Ida was his real mother. His father was rarely home, so it was usually just Hayato and his half-sister and "mother" in the giant renovated castle where they lived, along with a bunch of servants. He was often neglected by his father even when he was home. Unknowingly to Hayato, Lavina died three years after his birth, and even though he didn't think of her as his mother, he still was very fond of her and quite shaken by her disappearance from his life. After Lavina's death, Ida didn't feel as much of an obligation to Lavina and Hayato, so she began to mistreat Hayato, often abusing him verbally and physically and neglecting him. She had also taken to drinking when she found out about her husband's affair, and had since become an alcoholic. Hayato spent most of his time alone in his room, the garden or the library. He learned to walk and talk and function independently at a very early age, and from the start showed that he was a very bright boy – brilliant, arguably. He loved to read and therefore collected books from every place he could find them. His favorite genres to read were fantasy and science fiction, and from that he developed a love for cryptozoology. (Nowadays it's just a hobby, but if he weren't mafia he'd definitely pursue it as a career.) He also was interested in architecture and engineering. His father hired several private tutors for Hayato to nurture his natural intelligence. But for some reason, Hayato never liked any of his teachers. He would much rather learn on his own instead of being slowed down by people who didn't understand his odd yet utterly profound mind.
Above all, Hayato loved to work with the musical inclination he had inherited from his mother. He had mastered the piano, Lavina's favorite instrument, by the time he was only three. He could perform complex songs from memory and compose beautiful pieces by ear. His father, recognizing Hayato's extraordinary gift, forced him into playing for all the Fontanegra-sponsored get-togethers he hosted. Hayato became famous as the "Mozart of the Modern Age", first talked about widely in the mafia and eventually gaining a sort of worldwide fame. His parents were careful to keep his exact identity from being known by the general public. Hayato hated being his father's "performing monkey" and having all this publicity, but he played anyway because he loved the piano and figured, as long as he got to play, in the end, it was okay. Hayato could also play the cello and guitar, though the piano always remained his absolute favorite.
Upon learning one day (accidentally) the truth of his identity and origin, he ran away from home at only age eight. He quickly developed a pure hatred for his father.
The next five years for Hayato were kind of a blur. At first he wandered aimlessly for a while around his hometown and surrounding areas, disoriented and confused. He started feeling hungry, but he didn't want to resort to panhandling with all the other hobos on the street since he had heard Ida complain countless times about those "rotten, lazy urchins," so he shoplifted food instead.
He became so good at shoplifting that he decided to offer his services up to various mafia families, for a price. Hayato had a large rate of success in his thieving pursuits and became well-known in the mafia again – though this time as a thief and not a musician, and he was operating under a different name. (He was named after his father at birth and had the last name Fontanegra, but he ended up dropping his first name to go by his middle name, Hayato, and then adopted Lavina's last name, Gokudera, as his own.) After accidentally killing a man on one stealing mission, he figured he ought to offer himself up as a killer-for-hire as well.
He travelled around Europe aimlessly by foot, living mostly homeless, working for any family that would hire him, avoiding the authorities and anyone from the Fontanegra family who searched for him, and taking donations from any sucker who felt sorry for a child on the street and would let him stay at their home for a night. At 11, he chased down a pickpocket who stole the Ninth Vongola Boss' wallet. The Ninth was so grateful that he gave Hayato a position in the Vongola family and occasionally checked up on him and funneled him money. Hayato's been with the Vongola ever since.
Because he was mistreated and/or abandoned by anyone he'd ever loved or trusted, Hayato found it impossible to trust anybody and developed hatred of the world and of himself.
One day, the Ninth got a call from a Vongola-hired hitman named Reborn, who was training the next boss candidate over in Japan. Reborn wanted a freelance assassin who could scare the candidate straight. Hayato instantly came to the Ninth's mind. He sent Hayato to Japan to meet this candidate…
…And you know what happens next (;
Today, Hayato Gokudera lives alone in a small apartment in Namimori, in the same building as Basil and Rosemary, under the radar of his birth family. He is currently the second-in-command of the Vongola family and serves as the Storm Guardian, bodyguard and right-hand man of the Tenth Vongola Boss, Tsunayoshi "Tsuna" Sawada. Hayato and Tsuna consider each other best friends, and Hayato's devotion to Tsuna (who he so affectionately refers to as "The Tenth") is fierce and undying; he's famous in the mafia world as the mighty right-hand of the Vongola Tenth who will do literally anything for his boss' happiness, health and safety. Hayato is an expert in explosives, firearms and mid- to long-range weaponry. His creative use of explosives in fights has earned him the nickname "Smoking Bomb Hayato." He is a legitimate super-genius but attends high school as a formality, knowing that he's smarter than anyone else in Namimori High and therefore often feels extremely bored in class. He is an idol in all of his classes as all the guys want to be him (not knowing how dark his life really is) and all the girls want to be with him.
He is battling and trying to hide his insomniac inclinations, very severe Acid Reflux Disease (that would closely resemble Bulimia to someone who doesn't know him too well), various heart problems, and Bi-Polar II Disorder. He is nearsighted, but most people can't tell since he wears contacts almost every day. He is also trying to quit the smoking habit he has had since he was nine. Hayato has already been to rehab once to try and rid of his smoking addiction, anger issues and suicidal tendencies, and try to get his health under control, but it looks like he may have to return sometime soon. (Fun fact: despite his many vices, Hayato hasn't even drunk a drop of alcohol in his life, and likely never will. That's because he has been through too many bad situations involving alcoholics – between his stepmother and a doctor named Giuliano Shamal to whom Hayato is quite close.) He tries to repress the memories of years past and focus on his duties to the Vongola and, more importantly, to the Tenth. As far as Hayato is concerned, his life goal is already accomplished: to be the best damn right-hand man and friend to the Tenth that he can be.
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Next: The Tenth/Dame-Dame Tsuna. 8D
And no, I have not read the short novels. I kind of don't want to. Especially not after this. If I read that younger!Gokudera short novel I know I will have inaccuracies, and that will make me sad. So please, pretend the short novels do not exist. ^^'
Another thing, too: yes, Acid Reflux can do that pukey stuff to you. I know because I have a friend with that problem.