Hey! New chapter up for L&A! I was in the car for 10+ hours and was able to get this done as well as most of the next chapter and two chapters of Save Me! As always, thanks to my beta Can't Decode Me, I had so much fun with you and could never as for a better bff. Also thanks to those reviewers/favoriters/alerters! You guys are amazing. Please read my A/N at the bottom. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Sorry for the long A/N's.
I don't own twilight, but I should warn you there's a lemon alert in this one.
BPOV
I parked my car in my driveway, glad to be home. To be away from everything else. I just needed to escape from everything that went on at the Cullen's for now. I knew I couldn't hide from everything forever, but I think I had had enough for today. I locked my truck and walked up to the front porch. I unlocked the door and opened it, and as soon as I saw Charlie watching TV in the living room, I was reminded of the explaining I had to do.
"Bells? Is that you?" Charlie hollered from the living room.
"Yeah, Dad. It's just me." I heard movement, and a moment later, out came Charlie.
"What are you doing home Bells? I thought you were staying with Edward and the rest of the gang for dinner." Charlie asked, taking a sip from his beer sitting on the kitchen table.
"I was. There's um..something I should tell you." I stumbled over my words, which were getting caught in my throat once I tried to say them.
"What is it Bella? Are you okay?" His voice sounded worried now, and I immediately felt guilt wash over me again.
"I'm fine Dad.. I just…" I paused, choking on my words yet again. I don't know if I can do this, I thought.
"Bells? What is it?" he asked again, growing impatient.
"Edward and I broke things off. The wedding is off." I mumbled, trying my hardest not to cry in front of Charlie. It wasn't working, because the tears were threatening to spill out any minute.
"Oh Bella.. I'm so sorry. What happened? Are you okay? If that bastard hurt you Bella I swear to God I'll-" Charlie's angry side took over, and by the time I could stop him, he was already red in the face and fuming.
"No, no, no, Dad! Really, it's my fault." I rushed the words out quickly.
"Oh.." he said speechless. "What did you do?"
I wasn't necessarily in the mood to ever tell him I slept with his sister, so I went with the simple but truthful answer, and said simply, "Things just weren't working. He wouldn't listen to me, we couldn't talk anymore together like we used to, things have just changed. He has changed. And not for the better. I feel so shut out from him, like I can't even be myself anymore around him. Like there isn't an 'us' anymore. I just wish it didn't have to be like this." A tear ran down my cheek, and I couldn't hold it back any longer.
"Aw, Bells, come here." Charlie pulled me into a hug, which was rare for us since we aren't the affectionate type, but he knew that I needed it.
"You do know what you are doing by ending this right?" I nodded my head.
"I know fully."
"Well okay, if that's what you want. I just want you to be happy, Bells." Charlie's words pierced through me like a knife. Will you still love me if I am with his sister? I asked in my head.
"Thanks Dad." I said sincerely.
"And you're sure about this?" He asked for the last time.
"Yes, Dad, I know what I'm doing." I said, meaning what I said.
"Is there anything I can do for you?" Charlie asked me.
"I don't think so, Dad. I think I am actually going to take a shower and just try and sleep today off I think I've had enough." I replied.
"Okay Bells. Call me if you need anything. Oh, and there's leftover pizza in the fridge if you want something to eat." God bless his heart, he was being so sweet.
"Thanks Dad… I.. I love you." I stuttered out.
"Love you too, Bells." An 'I love you' was as rare as getting invited to the White House with Dad and I- it just didn't happen. But Charlie knew that I needed it right now and was going through a hard time. I loved him for that.
I wiped a last tear while trudging up the stairs, turning down the hallway to go to the bathroom. I quickly stopped and turned into my bedroom, grabbing my iPod and iHome to play in the shower. Before closing the bathroom door, I heard a faint, small voice, followed by Charlie's loud one. I reopened the door and peeked my head out into the hallway.
"What are you doing here at this time? I thought you were eating dinner with your family?" Charlie's voice boomed throughout the small house.
"I was, but I figured Bella needed me more. So I told Esme I was coming over here to be with Bella, she understood." Alice replied.
"Okay, you just missed her, she's upstairs. I think she was going to shower but you might catch her before then. If not, you can just wait for her in her room. You know you're always welcome here." Charlie said. He had always loved having Alice over, ever since Edward and I started dating. The thought sent shivers through my body.
Alice's small laugh sounded like bells coming from downstairs. "Thanks, Charlie. That means a lot." She said, before I heard her footsteps walking through.
"Oh, and Alice, you're welcome to stay the night if you want. I'm headed to bed in a few, but if you and Bella want to be together tonight that's fine with me." He said.
Like together, together? I thought, before smiling at myself. I heard Alice thanking Charlie again, before ascending up the stairs. As soon as she turned the corner she saw me.
"Hey Bella." She walked to the bathroom door, and gave me a hug.
"Alice… I'm so glad you came over. How did you manage to come over?" I asked.
"I just talked to Esme about it, she understood." she said simply, before smiling. I walked out of the bathroom and went to sit down on my bed. Alice closed the door behind us, and came to sit down next to me.
"Are you okay Bella? I know how hard that was for you." Ali asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I said, my eyes filling up with tears again. Every time I thought about it, I immediately felt the pang of guilt and shame, and broke into tears.
"You promise me?" She asked, pulling my chin up to look her in the eyes. I looked at her beautiful face through a blur.
"Yes, I promise you honey." I said. With that, I pulled her to my lap so she sat above me. I didn't feel right about anything I did anymore, so I figured it couldn't get any worse than this. I put my hands around her waist and she put her tiny arms around my neck, playing with my hair in her fingers. She leaned down to kiss me, and as soon as I felt her lips against mine, the world around me melted. All I could feel was the love and attention she gave me, and it was like pure bliss. I pulled away when I heard Charlie walking up the stairs, and shortly after heard the door close.
"I was going to shower.. want to join me?" I knew I was going out on a limb by asking this, which made my heart beat faster in my chest. I waited for her response, which was a huge grin.
"Thought you'd never ask." She said, winking at me.
"You're dirty," I told her, winking back.
"You know it, baby." I slapped her sexy ass when she got up and bent down to pick up the hair brush that was sitting on top of a pile of textbooks, and I watched her as she jumped up and yelped.
I grabbed towels from the linen closet in the hallway and walked into the bathroom with Ali on my heels. I turned on the water and the fan, and then slowly undressed Ali's body, my fingertips gently tracing up and down her skin. She was breathing heavy, and as soon as I had her jeans and thong off, I stood back up from kneeling, and took the cardigan she was wearing off by pulling it over her head, which only left her in a tank top. I grinned as I grazed my fingers over her rib cage, pulling the cami off her as well. She was left standing there in just her black lacy bra, her breasts moving up and down from her panting. I leaned in and kissed her, pressing her against the bathroom counter and lifting and pressing my thigh between her two legs, while she moaned loudly.
"You better be quiet, baby. I know how hard that is for you." I whispered in her ear, licking the shell as she shivered. I looked up and that's when I noticed the mirror, fogging up from all the steam flowing from the top of the shower. I reached my hands the full way around her back, unclasping her bra. I pulled back, taking the bra straps with me before letting them go, and having her bra fall silently to the floor, adding to the pile of clothes already there. I pulled my pants down my legs along with my underwear, and was about to pull my shirt over my head when I felt a small hand stop me.
"Let me do that," Ali said.
"Tonight is about you, Ali, just you." I smiled and continued undressing until I was standing there bare naked in front of Alice.
"You first," she grinned. I stepped into the shower, the warm water running over my head and my body. I looked up and watched Alice, looking hesitant to get in.
"What are you waiting for, Alice?" I asked her, a dark undertone in my voice. I smiled at her when she met my eyes.
"Just observing how stunningly beautiful you are." She said, before stepping in with me. I watched the water rush over her body, forming drops over her smooth skin before running down. Alice was the definition of perfection, everything she did, she did it beautifully.
"Me? You mean you." I said, smiling at her through the running water between us. I couldn't stand to be apart from her any longer, her standing there like that was torture, waiting for me to come towards her. I took a step forward and started kissing her passionately, while my hands ran through her short, black hair. Her hands snaked around my stomach, leaving trails of fire wherever they touched. She grabbed my ass and squeezed it hard, sending me in a frenzy of lust. I pulled away from the kiss, getting down to business. Well, sort of. I grinned and grabbed the strawberry shampoo sitting on the ledge of the shower and opened the bottle. Alice softly rubbed my back while I squeezed some out, and turned around, along with turning Ali around so she didn't face me. I put the shampoo in her hair and worked it through the short locks until there was bubbles, while she kept backing into me, grinding her small ass into me.
"Mmm…baby, that feels amazing." Ali said, before pressing herself into me again.
"Ali, stop teasing me. You're killing me." I said, before giggling at her. I took her hips in my hands and twirled her around, switching spots with her so she could rinse the shampoo out. I grabbed the matching conditioner and squeezed a bit out, before working it through her hair until it was silky smooth. She then went under the water again to rinse it out, and I made her trade with me so I could wash my own hair, against her will. As soon as I was done, I grabbed the pomegranate smelling body wash, and squirted some onto the purple loofa that was in the shower. I started to wash her shoulders before she turned around and I washed circles on her back and legs. When her backside was done, I turned her around again, washing her arms, trying to prolong the process for as long as possible, just to be a tease. Ali knew I was doing it on purpose too.
"Quit with that, you know how bad I want you…" she trailed off, throwing her head back when I put a hand on one of her breasts and gently squeezed it.
"I don't actually.. how bad?" I smiled at her, before putting my mouth on her other breast, sucking and nibbling on it gently. She moaned lightly, her breath coming in ragged beats.
"So bad baby, I'm so wet for you." she said, before I bit down again. She was rocking into me now, sending me into heaven every time she did.
"Hmm…" I hummed against her breast, sending waves. She arched her back, having to put her hand against the wall to keep her standing upright.
"Test me, baby." Her words made my body quiver, and I followed her command. I took my mouth off her breast, and my hand moved down past her belly button, feeling her shiver under my touch. I placed my hand on her, and slowly let a finger wander between her, feeling the wetness pour out-and it wasn't water.
"Baby…" She growled, as I stuck a finger slowly inside of her. "Please more..please don't make me wait any longer." With those words, I slowly pushed another finger in her, before adding a third. I rocked my hand back and forth inside of her, feeling her walls inside tightening around my fingers. She moaned louder, and I was thankful we were in the shower and the water and fan could drown out the sound, I definitely didn't want Charlie to hear this.
"I'm so close already, baby." She moaned to me, and I could feel her inner walls clenching hard, I knew she couldn't hold on for much longer, and as if I could have said it any more on key, she was shaking and moaning, head thrown back in pleasure when my thumb pressed on her lit. Her muscles contracted over and over, and she held on to me so she didn't fall over. I waited before she rode her orgasm out before I stopped moving inside of her.
"Bella…" she whimpered, weak.
"Yes, baby?" I asked her.
"You are amazing, if I didn't know better, I would have thought we had done this before." She whispered, smiling up at me.
"Hmm..well I can't say I've had practice with another female…" I laughed, and soon her bell laughter joined me.
"Please, baby. Will you please let me?" she begged. I knew what she wanted, but I made her say it anyways.
"Please what?" I replied, pretending not to know what she was talking about.
"Please let me let you feel what I have, because I want to make you feel good, I want to make you feel beautiful." She whispered in my ear. I smiled at her voice.
"But tonight was supposed to be about you, silly rabbit." I told her.
"Okay, tonight is about me. But then I want to make you feel how I did. It would make me happy. Personal gratification." She said, and she knew she had me at that.
"If you insist," I smiled back, caving in. She immediately stood up straight and her small body pushed me up against the opposite wall. For a small girl, she was definitely stronger than I had anticipated. She put her hot mouth on mine, and a huge wave of lust coursed throughout my body. Her hands trailed all over my body, finally moving to my breasts. She kneaded them roughly, making fireworks fly inside me, straight south. I had been hot ever since we had gotten to my room, and I didn't want to wait any longer.
"Please baby.. I want to…" my voice was cut off by something, and it was a moment before I realized it was my own moan, before I bit my lip and held my breath.
"Don't do that, baby, I want to hear your beautiful voice." Ali said, moving her hands down. She continued to kiss me, and it was all I could do to remember to breathe.
Her hand went between my legs, dipping a finger into my dripping core before bringing it back up by her face. She pulled away from me and put her whole finger in her mouth, before sucking it clean.
"You taste delightful, Bella." She said in her perky usual tone, before kissing me again. I could taste myself from her mouth, and I just got turned on more by it. Her hand went back between my legs into my core, spreading the wetness around before pushing two fingers straight into me. Her thumb rubbed circles over my clit, sending me waves of pleasure. As soon as she touched me, I knew I wasn't due for long. I could feel the familiar tightening of my stomach, and the rushes running through me, trying to hold on at the last minute for as long as I could.
"Let go baby, it's so worth it. You'll feel amazing." I couldn't handle it any longer, and I let go. I stopped breathing while pleasure ran through me, sending me into heaven and back. I moaned Ali's name before coming back down from my high, panting loudly.
"You are so talented, Ali." I told her truthfully. She laughed at my statement, before moving the glass door to grab the towels. I turned the water off before it ran cold, and grabbed the towel Alice handed me.
"So are you, my baby." She smiled, leaning over to kiss me again.
"Why is it that when I am with you, you're all I think about?"
"And when I'm not with you, you're all I think about?" Alice finished my sentence for me, before grinning at me.
"I don't know," we both said, before laughing at each other.
"I think it's time we get you to bed." Ali said, stepping out of the shower first.
"You're staying, aren't you?" I asked hopeful.
"Of course, darling." she answered. We walked out of the bathroom quietly, grabbing the hairbrush that was left on my bed. A few minutes later were ready to climb into bed.
"After you." I said to Ali, who crawled in to the other side. I followed behind her, laying next to her and pulling the blankets over both of us.
"Good night, my love." Ali said, leaning over to kiss me. She pulled me against her beautiful form, fitting me perfectly inside of her curved body position.
"Good night, baby." I replied, before dozing off to sleep. She was the last thing that I thought of before I was unconscious, lost in my dreams, which contained her.
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