This will be the last chapter. Also, if you want to follow along with the song, once you start reading this chapter, play "Say Something" by A Great Big World. Read, relax, and review!
I walked into the infirmary to see him on one of the cots. His tan pallor was replaced by paleness. If he was any paler, he would have been the same shade as the sheets. The bandages wrapped around his chest were slightly red, the blood from his wounds seeping through the fabric.
I sat next to him on the side of the bed and took his hand and gently rubbed my thumb over his hand, over and over again.
As I looked over him, I started to sing. I knew he couldn't hear me, but I knew that if I didn't apologize now, I probably never would.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Wake up… Say something to me. Let me know you're still alive.
"I'll be the one if you want me too"
I know I told you that I never wanted to see you again. But I know you need me. And I need you.
"Anywhere I would have followed you"
Even though I walked out on our relationship, I didn't want to. If you had walked away from me, I would have followed. And I know you tried to follow me, but I walked away too quickly. But I know you searched for me for hours, only giving up when you thought I would never have come back.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Percy… I miss you. Please tell me you still love me. Tell me you forgive me. Please.
"And I am feeling so small"
Without you I am worthless. No one wants me. But with you by my side, I know that I mean something to someone.
"Was over my head"
I thought walking away from you would be better for the both of us.
"I know nothing at all"
I didn't know that without you, there was no reason to live another day.
"And I will stumble and fall"
I won't be able to carry on. I won't be able to live without you. I can't live without you.
"I'm still learning to love"
You're the first person I've let into my life. You helped me break down the walls I made around myself so that no one would hurt me again. I rebuilt those walls when I was away from you. You're the only person who can break them down again. I'm still learning how to let people in.
"Just starting to crawl"
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Open your eyes. You've been unconscious for three days. I'm starting to wonder if you'll ever wake up.
"I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you"
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you when you were attacked. I'm sorry I didn't get there in time.
"Anywhere I would have followed you"
There would be no place that you could have gone that I wouldn't have followed you. If you were the one to walk out on me, I would..… But you weren't. I was. You could never walk away from me willingly.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
I love you more than I could ever say. I've never said it to you, but if you wake up, I will tell you a thousand times over.
"And I will swallow my pride"
I will be the first to apologize. Because you did nothing wrong. I made the mistake. Not you. The second I see your sea green eyes, I will tell you how much I missed you. How I wished I hadn't walked out your cabin that day.
"You're the one that I love"
I can't love anyone else. You're the only one that I can love.
"And I'm saying goodbye"
I don't want to… But if you never wake up, then I have to.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Squeeze my hand. Open your eyes. Move your head. Let me know that you're still alive.
"And I'm sorry that I could get to you"
I'm so sorry I wasn't there with you. I know you were preoccupied. With me in your thoughts. If I hadn't walked out your life, then I know you would be awake. Unscathed, with a smile on your face, your sea green eyes bright, a smile on your face as you laughed. And I would have laughed right along with you.
"Anywhere, I would have followed you"
I would never let you go. And I'm not going to now.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
Tears streamed down my face.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you"
I looked down at his sleeping figure, begging him to wake up. To say something to me.
"Say something."
Please. I miss you.
I looked away from his prone body, I heard a slight rustle on the bed. I looked down quickly to see Percy's sea green eyes, full of pain, slowly opening. But as I studied them a little more, I saw love in them too.
Then I remember what I promised him. And myself. "I love you."
I saw a small smile form on his face, before his eyes closed and he fell asleep once more.
