~ ~ Diaries – Entry Four ~ ~
by
Sha Yurigami
"I'm back here huh?" I said walking through the streets of the place I lost her.
This city was filled with the very inventions and intentions the churches around the world condemned.
I lost my goal for but a second back then my thoughts kept bringing up those memories when I first came to the city of science -where I hurt her because of that boy's stupid actions -
Back then when I met that ordinary boy, I didn't believe in anything anymore. It was to much to bear always losing my precious friend to a ploy that only acted as a collar. Had I known that the Church -Archbishop- deceived us, used our -my- feelings in such a cruel and twisted way -maybe I wouldn't have played the role of the bad guy.
But I should probably stop reminiscing about those times over and over again when I've come yet again in their name to the city. It would always farther irritate me whenever I see that boy, Kamijou Touma and tell him to do yet another job for people whom he shouldn't have anything to do with.
Why was I still doing this job? Why was he still playing the hero although he doesn't have to be.
Time never stops, and I found my way through the city to the closest location of the boy.
When I found him though, he was accompanied by a brown haired girl with glasses…and Index holding that brunette's hand, talking to her with an expression full of affection and care.
My fists tightened. What was this feeling- so ugly and raw that it scared me and made me fear that I might do something I shouldn't No, I cannot allow my feelings to come out like that – I have no place by her side anymore.
I watched them -Index- for a while m old precious friend still held onto that brunette's hands.
It bugged me, it hurt me. What was going on? What was going on with this painful throbbing of my heart when I saw her smile at that stranger That smile "That smile was mine-" before knowing it, those words slipped off my lips while something within me stirred up, grew and forced me into a decision that would forever change my fate for good or for bad -I didn't care.
My feet carried me towards a now, after seeing my approaching figure, shocked Kamijou and the brunette whom I send a brief but evil glare to and who in response let go of Index's hand- I didn't care for my assignment anymore. I didn't care if I'd receive divine punishment for my decision.
I don't care.
My hands took her now free one, my eyes staring into hers.
All I want is to be part of her life again.
"In-Index…"
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Yeah, I'm back like I promised and thank to 230 views and 2 reviews to this story, you guys give me the strength to carry on with this story! I hope that you all are enjoying reading it as much as I do love to write it!
The next chapter will be the biginning of the first real arc(which basically means that the following chapters happen within a day or two instead of the undecided time differences that were constant now.
Until next time Yours dear
Sha Yurigami