AN. Hi everybody, new chapter is up as you see. Just so you know the italics will be the thoughts of Bianca. Enjoy!

Chapter 4

Weeks passed by as Chris and Bianca went on with their life's, slowly coming to accept the changes that had happened. They both went to their classes, Bianca still studying psychology and Chris studying Journalism. Moving in together hadn't given them any problems as Bianca had been afraid of, and Chris was really integrated into the phoenix family. They had gathered a good group of friends along the way, all of them were magical, as witches, phoenix witches or even as half demons. Life had been good for them, they both had jobs, Bianca at the library and Chris worked as a waiter, their income wasn't anything big, but they were able to live from it and they could even save some money for later since both of them had a full scholarship, so they didn't have to pay for school.

Sure Chris still missed his family, or at least the good times, there were good memories after all. He hoped he hadn't hurt his family too much, because even after what they did, he didn't feel that his mother, father, brother, aunts, uncles and cousins should feel the hurt he had felt. He loved all of them, still. He knew that his brother would take it hard, seeing as he had broken their bond, something that had always been a comfort to Wyatt. The only thing Wyatt would now be able to feel was a feather light sense that told him Chris was at least alive. Somewhere deep down in his mind a little voice told him it was his revenge and he should feel good about it, but Chris never did. He didn't regret the choice he had made, he knew he had to get away from them to be really able to live, and not feel as a outsider in his life, but still they were his family, and at times he would look back and miss some stuff. Bianca knew this, she saw it in his eyes when he missed them. She always tried to take his mind away from those thoughts, but sometimes it just didn't work.

"Sweetie are you okay?" Bianca asked Chris, he had a faraway look in his eyes. "huh, oh yeah, sorry I zoned out there for a minute" Chris said, he smiled sheepish at her, Bianca smiled back. For a minute, make that a couple of hours she thought wryly. "well lovely that you would come back to us. But are you coming tonight? Kaylee is having a little get together as she calls it, and I said I would go" Kaylee was one of their friends, together with Jason, Paul, Kim, Aimee, Robert and Anna they made a tight knitted group of friends, they had known each other for at least 5 years. "Kaylee is having a party, wow big shocker there" Chris said, sarcasm working in full force. Bianca laughed, Kaylee loved her parties, and would be quite upset it Chris didn't show up. "yeah well, according to her it was way too long since her last party so, yeah she insisted we come" "right, well sure, it would be fun seeing who she invited this time" Chris answered, turning back to his studies, he had an exam coming up that he needed pass. "Great! Well it starts at ten-ish so I think we should show ourselves at something around 12, what do think?" Bianca said, she always opted for going late, since most parties were lame at the beginning. "Sounds good to me, oh that reminds me, your mother called, something about Becky needing some guidance and then about how you were never there, you know she kept talking without breathing for like two minutes, I thought she was going to pass out" Chris said. "okay, first how the heck do you get reminded about a phone call when we talk about time. Secondly, it scares me too, that woman is crazy! And third, why didn't you tell me sooner that mom called?" Chris laughed as he say Bianca running across the apartment in search for the phone. He really loved how she kept his mind from reminiscing.

"Hi mom! Sorry I didn't call earlier, but Chris' mind was somewhere else so he forgot to tell me you called " Bianca started talking as soon as Lynn picked up the phone. "Oh that's okay sweetie, I think I was a little hard on him when I called earlier" Lynn chuckled, she had went on and on about how Bianca never seemed home anymore, but yeah she had missed her daughter a bit "Oh that's okay, it wasn't really you that made him zone out." Bianca said, her voice sounding a bit upset. "honey? Is everything okay?" Lynn asked, the reason for the first call long forgotten. "yeah, it's just Chris misses his family sometimes you know? I try to help him, but sometimes he just needs to think about it, it is kind of like grieving I guess" Bianca herself sometimes thought back to the days were Chris would come to her upset about something his family had done. She never missed those days, she was so happy Chris didn't have to be the outsider anymore, but even though it was an improvement, they needed time to work everything out, Chris more so than she. "Well, I'm sure everything will be fine, he is a strong man after all. Just give him some time" Lynn offered, she too was a bit concerned about how this big change affected Chris, though he seemed okay most of the time. "yeah I know, but anyways onto another subject, what was it I heard about Becky needing guidance?" Bianca asked, not wanting to worry her mother with her and Chris' problems. "Oh, right that's what I called for in the first place. Well it's about your cousin Becky, you know Emma's daughter? Yeah well she started dating a demon a couple of months ago, and now she thinks out family is destined for evil greatness." There was a long pause before Bianca answered "seriously? Well that is hilarious!" Apparently Lynn didn't think so "Bianca! How could you even think that it's hilarious? She is promising demons our help!" "sorry, really I'm sorry, but okay what do you want me to do?" Bianca said, she wasn't really sure she could even help, she herself had always been against the evil side of the world. "Well maybe if you talk to her, you and Chris, seeing as both of you are so strongly for the good side. And Becky doesn't really have friends, I know it sounds sad, but it's true. So I thought maybe if she can just talk to somebody, then maybe she stop with this nonsense" Lynn said, hoping this would work. Emma was so worried and upset when they talked over the phone and Lynn really hoped Bianca could help. "So would you? Talk with her, I mean you don't have to become her best friend. But if she could just have someone that she could talk with if she has problems or something" she went on. "Wow, mom breathe! Sure I'll try to help, I'm not sure I can help, but I'll do my very best. A girl needs to have a friend. So if you can just give me her number I'll see what I can do" Bianca said. Lynn gave her the number and they spent another couple of minutes talking about what was going on in their lives before hanging up.

After the phone conversation Bianca herself started thinking about the halliwell family. Her mother was right Chris was strong and he would overcome this, she was worried though, Chris loved his family and the only thing he really hated about this ordeal was that he had to hurt his family, I mean how would they take it? Bianca wondered if the Halliwell family would miss Chris, if they searched for him. She knew it would be useless, they had made sure he wouldn't be able to be find by them. But still she wondered.

So much that decided she would take a look, how was the Halliwell family doing? She knew it was stupid and she probably wouldn't help anybody with it, but she was curious. After all they had done, and are still doing, how would they take it? Are they already over it, forgetting Chris' existence or are they grieving for their lost son. Bianca hoped the last, not because she wished the family harm, no because then she knew that even through everything they had loved him, loved Chris and if that was the case, then maybe someday in the future, they could at least make amends.

Bianca knew what she was going to do, she was going to make a visit to the Halliwells but she needed a plan, she had to make sure she could really see the family without being seen herself, because if they ever saw her, she would be in some really deep trouble. So she set to work, in her free time she thought of her plan, she made a potion to make her invisible and thought of how she was going to spy on them. She had talked about her plan with her mother, and though Lynn had though it was a bad idea, she did understand why her daughter would want to pay them a visit, she herself was quite curious herself. So after some time she had helped her daughter on the condition that if something went wrong Bianca got out of there making sure Chris couldn't be found, and if everything went alright she gave her a full report on her findings. Bianca had no problems with the conditions since she had already thought of both things herself.

So when the time came that Chris went on a camping trip with Jason, Paul and Robert, Bianca put her plan into action. After saying goodbye to Chris and making sure he hadn't forgotten anything, she went to her mother's house to get the potion and inform her she was paying her visit. Bianca was quite nervous, she really hoped the potion would work, otherwise they had a problem.

After drinking the potion and finding out how horrible it tasted, Bianca went on her way. First stop Wyatt. Chris always though highly about Wyatt, and Bianca figured he was the most affected in everything. So she shimmered to Wyatt's room were she found him sleeping on his bed, totally out of it. "Wow, he looks horrible" Bianca said to nobody, not thinking how she could wake Wyatt up, luckily Wyatt was a deep sleeper and he didn't even stir. Well as long as he is sleeping I could just as well make a visit to his parents Bianca thought, and she made her way to Piper and Leo's room. Leo was still asleep, also looking quite bad. What happened here? Bianca looked around, but Piper was not in her room. If I'm Piper, where would I be, ha of course how stupid, the kitchen! Bianca quickly shimmered into the kitchen, and there she was, a horrendous looking Piper. Now it was hoping the potion worked seeing as Piper was the first awoken person she visited. Bianca looked around, but she did not meet a sight she expected, although it was Piper in the kitchen, she wasn't making anyone breakfast, she wasn't humming quietly to herself and she sure as hell didn't look happy. No Piper was sitting slumped into a chair, a map and crystal in front of her, a cup of coffee in her hands. She looked quite depressed, staring at the map, willing it to show her, her son's location. She did this every day, even though she knew he had clocked himself from them, she still tried and hoped. It's a good thing Chris isn't here, he would hate to see his mother like this. Bianca felt guilty for thinking that Chris' family wouldn't miss him, it was quite obvious who Piper was scrying for, and it was also quite obvious it didn't work. "Damn Chris! Please just let me find you, please!" Piper said suddenly, startling Bianca, who luckily could hold her balance and not blow her cover. She kept staring at Piper for a while, but she got depressed by the sight. She shimmered back upstairs seeing Wyatt still asleep. She heard a sound from the parent's room, so she went to check it out. When she walked in she came face to face with a crying Leo, never in her life had she seen Leo cry or even heard of a story where he had cried, but that is what she saw, Leo who sat on his bed, holding a picture of him and Chris, tears running down his cheeks. She felt a pang of guilt, it was somewhat her fault that Chris chose to leave, but she quickly changed her thoughts, if it hadn't been with her now, it would have been with somebody else a couple of months later, Chris leaving was inevitable and it had been their own faults.

Flashback

Chris came running through the door, tears still running down his face. Blood oozing down his right arm. "Chris! What happened? Oh my god MOM! MOM COME HERE HELP!" Bianca yelled. "Chris, look at me! What happened?". "Uhh, I got send to my room again, because some demon attacked and I'm too weak to fight with them, and well I guess they didn't hear me screaming at them and thought I was already to my room or something because next I know they summon the demon and begin fighting, but we all know I'm too weak to get proper training so I'm easy target, so the demon hits me, and well he got a good hit at Prue too, so everybody went to protect Prue and fight him of, so I guess they didn't see me, so I just orbed here, could you help please?" Bianca and her mother stood there shocked, how could they had let that happen. "Of course Chris, come on here I'll fix you up" Lynn said, she felt for the boy, she could never imagine doing such a thing to her daughter. Lynn managed to help Chris, but told him he should tell his mother about this, so she could get a healer to look at it. Bianca already knew he wouldn't tell Piper, maybe Wyatt. But not Piper, she knew Piper had hurt him badly today.

End flashback.

Anger raged through Bianca once again, as she remembered why Chris had to get out of this. It sure as hell wasn't her fault, and they should feel guilty. Bianca decided to visit Chris' aunts. She was sure they would be faring better than Piper, Leo and Wyatt.

As she shimmered into Paige's house, she realized that Phoebe was there too.

"I don't know what to do anymore" Paige said in a tired voice, Chris had always been her favorite nephew, though she would never admit that to anyone, and it broke her family to know it was their faults he felt the need to run. "I know what you mean sweetie, but we can't give up!" Phoebe said, Piper would go nuts if they did. "I know, if not for Chris, then for Piper, I don't know how much longer she can go on like this. It's slowly killing her I think" Bianca was shocked to hear Piper was doing so bad, sure she had seen her, but the way Phoebe and Paige talked it seemed way worse. "What about Leo, or no better what about Wyatt. I really think that Wyatt is going nuts without his brother. You know I thought in the first two weeks that Chris would come back for Wyatt, or at least let him know how he was doing" Phoebe said, Paige just nodded, she went to get a refill of coffee.

Bianca was sad, she too had thought about that, she knew Chris had too. That's who he missed the most, his big brother. Maybe she could talk about it with Chris, he probably was all for it, but thought I would be against it. "If he would just let us know that he is okay, all we know is that he is alive, and that is one lousy signal too, I mean he could be dying and we wouldn't know!" Paige said, getting a bit upset. "PAIGE! Don't say such things. You know I'm still hoping he could send a letter or something" Phoebe said. Well that's an idea! Mmm I think I'll tell Chris to do that, it would give his family some closure, and I think Chris would be helped by it too. "Well, I'm sorry but I got to go, life, as complicated as it is right now, goes on, and I have to get to work. Call me if anything happens!" Phoebe said, getting up and heading for the door. "Will do, I'm going over to Piper today, see how she is doing. You know I was really relieved to see that she is getting on with her life, you know going to work, helping Wyatt." Paige said. "Yeah, well she is going to have to, Chris probably isn't coming back, and we both know she still searches" Phoebe said, "But I got to go now! Bye!" she continued. "Bye!" Paige yelled back, but the door was already closed. "

"Patricia! Penelope! Get up!" Paige yelled, and groans were heard from upstairs. Bianca watched as Paige made breakfast for her daughters and how she ushered them out of the door, they all were running late for school and work. After a while it became quiet in the Mitchell household.

Bianca once again shimmered into the kitchen of the manor, relieved to see all occupants somewhat composed at the kitchen table. Wyatt was finally awake and looked a little better. Leo had obviously washed his face and no traces of his breakdown were noticeable. Piper had put away all searching stuff and had made breakfast. Though it was clear that they were grieving, they were at least coping, and Bianca could honestly say she was happy to be able to say that.

I think I've seen enough, time to go home.

AN. So I'm sorry for this chapter, I'm not really happy with it. Please review, that would really make me happy!