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Chapter 04 our bound...
I got up of and saw somebody behind me whom I had not seen for several years, nevertheless I could recognize in an instant and I'd preferred not see to see him now. I'm afraid of becoming enraged or acting irrationally. But one thing is for sure, I can not stay any longer here while he was still there.
I could not help to looked at him intensively, I noticed image I had of him changed, his features were different and tired with some of dark circles and wrinkles, probably related to his advanced age. Now he had greying haired instead his black hair.
Why now? I have done all my possible to stay as far as possible from this annoying conversation.
''Natsuki ... oh my god ... you ...I don't know what to say,'' he said looking at me with great attention.
''Then continue.'' I laughed coolly.
''I…'' I can see he hesitated.
''Sorry but I don't have time to waste with you. So what do you want? Answer me now or I go away!'' I cut hastily so he can continue his previous sentence, but it didn't work.
''It's amazing, you exactly looked like to Saeko when she was younger, her green eyes, her face, and even the color blue of her hair.''
''Wow I am so happy to know it. You are not the only one to say that. It's probably because I'm her daughter; I look like so much at her. I always have that look before; you have simply forgotten. It's kind of sad. I can not find my word to explain this pain. You missed me so much. I'm happy to see you again. Oh no,no, no... it's impossible I can't continue anymore this joke. That's make me sick.'' I insisted in glaring at him.
''I have not forgotten ... you're her precious and beautiful daughter ... I can't deny it when I see you... I know you are angry with me…I probably deserved it…'' He said avoiding my hatred glance.
''You probably deserved it? Oh come on. Don't play the martyr. Don't you have a better apology to give? I'm a disappointed. No to tell the truth I don't care.''
''I know…but are you alright?'' He shuttered nervously.
''How dare you to bother me for asking? I can't believe your selfishness. Are you really interested or you ask by pure politeness, or perhaps it is simply to make conversation?'' I replied in an icy tone looking to the side with my arms crossed. I can not anymore face him. My hands trembled furiously with anger.
"Natsuki I'm sorry I acted like a bastard, I know you hate me.''
''I can not say the opposite! So again what do you want from me?'' I scolded exasperated by his unwanted presence.
''I just wanted to talk to you and apologize for my behavior in the past. I was wrong…''
''Poor you, it's not as if it would change anything now! You do not even exist for me; you're nothing but a stranger I could meet in the street. I don't want to see you! Stay away from me as you used to do.''
''You're right, but-''
''Stop it! I'm fed up now! I do not care what you want. For my forgiveness? It's late, too late! I need you when Nina and I had lost our mom and you ... damn it! ... You simply fled like a coward from your responsibility with your tail between your legs , leaving us alone with your shrew of mother.'' I barked irritate.
''I made a terrible mistake and I already know!''
''And what? You want me to congratulate you to notice? Are you fucking kidding me!''
''No! Why can't you understand me? Don't be a pig head!''
''How dare you! I can say the same thing! You are not the only one you suffer!'' I growled angrily.
''I just want to explain. I could not stay with you because you remind me of Saeko, especially you Natsuki. I can't bear anymore her missing. It's horrible, I don't know how I survive without killing myself.''
''So it's entire my fault if you went away from Home? Come on, I swear what I have to hear! You're exactly like grandmother, a real rot who always reject their mistakes on others. She also could not bear me because I looked like my mother and now it's the same case with you? What's wrong with you people! You are totally crazy!''
''No, it wasn't what I meant Natsuki…when I lost my wife, your mother ... I was unfortunate, and desperate I did not know what to do. I was afraid to do something bad or hurt you to you and Nina, so I preferred to leave.''
''And what about us? Do you think we were living happy after losing our mother? Or we simply forgot her presence? Or we can move away easily? No! Of course not! So, since the beginning you thought about our happiness? My, it's so generous of you, really, what thoughtful father you are, I'm lucky to have you. Well you have said all you wanted to say, now I gotta go.'' I replied annoyed, I was going to leave but my dad preventing me to go, I clenched fists and gritted teeth because I had an unrestrained wish to give him a punch in his face but I can not do it here, in a cemetery, especially near my mother's grave. She did not deserve; she loved my father for a reason I did not know.
''What do you still want from me? You did not notice me you bother me, get out of my way!''
''Natsuki please wait ... I just want to know as was your life, what you become ... and I promise to leave you alone after.'' The coward begged looked at me with sadness.
''Is it really interested you my life? Why it's amazes me so much? Oh but I know! It has been 15 years since you have not seen me again and didn't try to do it! '' I added with a frown.
''I understand you reaction. But I'm sincere, I really want to know what you become, because of years which I was not able to spend with you.''
''It's your fault!''
''Yes…''
''You only want to give you good consciousness, all right, I am going to tell you the life I have now and the one I had after you left. I'll make it short, I am a computer scientist, I had an increased a week ago, and I live in an apartment in downtown of Nagoya, there is a park outside and I also have a Ducati. ''
''It's great, I'm happy for you.'' The man declared with a smile what made me sick.
''Yeah great, now I am going to say by what I had to go to arriving to get there. You know why I left my grandmother's mansion? Because she treated me like a shit, if I do not obey her, she locked me in my room; I can't have a meal at lunch or dinner, sometimes both. She gave me shots of rule on my fingers if my homework exercises were not good or had some errors. If I had a bad answer a blow, two errors two blows, etc… Only places where I could go were my room, toilet, bathroom and kitchen, what a life. I'm sure if she could do it, the old fool would have made me wear an electronic bracelet on my ankle. I was unable to endure this prison so I ran away.''
''I did not know it would go this far.''
''Really? But you know I have not finished, it is not easy freedom, I walked for miles and I have hitchhike to reach a big city. I lived a long time in street, more than year. I have made things which I shall never believe I make in my life; I begged for money, I ate restaurants and supermarkets' contents trash cans. I slept on park benches or in halls of buildings. All the time I was afraid; I could be killed, assaulted or raped. I began to rob people and in stores for survive or simply feed me to satisfy my hunger. I even had to sell my body against money to pay my apartment. A dream life is not it?''
''STOP IT! I do not want to hear anymore.'' My pathetic father shouted while he looked at me with pity, I thought I was going to kill him. How dare he look at me this way! If I lived hell, it's his entire fault; he was a big part of my forfeiture.
Next he trying to go away, then I grabbed his wrist forcing him to listen to me. He wanted to know how was my life when he left, he will know all the truth.
''Not a chance! It was you who wanted to know! Oh but maybe it bothers you to have that kind of girl, you know I was very popular with old rich women.''
''No! Please I have enough!''
''Me too! It seemed I am the Kuga which is the drag and slut of family. My mother and sister never went so far as me. And if my grandmother knew my past she would die of shame or perhaps a heart attack? Oh but it is a good idea, maybe I should say to her.''
"Natsuki …I'm so sorry. If your mother was alive…she will never forgive me, what I have done to you…''
''I've already said I do not want your excuses or pity!'' I roared, I could no longer bear this situation I had to go away, this is why I did not want to see him, and I even have said difficult things I never wanted to admit to anyone.
Always perturbed I was heading towards my sister's gravestone and I saw there was someone near the grave. It was a girl even though I could not see entirely her appearance because she was squatting on ground and she's wearing an umbrella hiding half of her body. I remained standing, not knowing what to do. I thought there will be nobody but it seemed I was wrong. I could not stay here, knowing my father still here; I was going to go away when I saw the man. I did not see him again, especially after what happened a few moments ago. I did not want to provoke a scandal.
''Natsuki please, it's not over. We have to discuss calmly.'' The man said when he had put himself front of me.
''Dammit! Leave me alone! You promise me you were going to let me if I told you my life then made for once what you promised.'' I barked glaring in his direction'' It's probably better if I come back later.''
''Wait!'' The man insisted.
I was going to leave when I felt a hand holding me my shirt sleeve. Surprise, I turned around and I saw who the girl with umbrella was.
"Natsuki.'' She said tenderly.
''Shi ... Shizuru? What are you doing here?'' I asked surprised by her presence.
''You know this girl?'' My pitiful dad asked but I did not pay attention on him and I only looked into the ruby of the Kyoto beauty. We gaze each other during several seconds without saying a word.
''Ara, nice to meet again Na-tsu-ki.''
''Yes me too, do you know Alyssa?''
When I pronounced the name of my sister, I was able to read the amber-haired girl sadness in her glance which broke my heart, I do not know what came over me but I approached her and held her in my arms. I had this feeling she was desperately needed tender gesture and I believe I also needed it.
At first, the girl astounded dropped her umbrella on ground; I could feel her body began to relax in my contact. She was extremely tense and she finally began to cry in my arms. I held her more strongly against me when I felt her nervous trembling, then I closed my eyes, looking up to the sky. Cold water dripping down my face, a lonely tears fall slowly in my cheek. I waited the honey haired girl get better before releasing her.
Few minutes later, she went away from me and wiped her tears while apologizing for her behavior, but I stop her because it was not serious. I said feeling pain or sorrow is making us human. We stayed uncomfortable because we did not know what to say, I noticed other people joined us, I wanted to remaining alone but it seemed it's totally a waste.
"Shizuru.'' A woman with short and sky blue haired enunciated when she came to meet her.
"Miyu!" Shizuru replied with a sad smile.
''Shizuru you should not stay outside in this awful weather.'' The blue haired girl brought her umbrella which was on ground, the goddess with crimsons wanted to share it with me but I refused politely and she turned toward her friend.
''Ara, do not worry about me; I'm well if I can finally really be at a time like this. I just want to stay a little alone. That's all.''
''But I promised to Alyssa to protect you, and I never forgive myself if something bad happened to you.'' I watched silently the two protagonists discussing; this amber-haired girl probably know my sister, perhaps she is one of her friends or an acquaintances close as Miyu? But she seemed so young.
Girls continued to speak, I headed to my sister's grave, I put down carnations, a tear flowed along my cheek and I wiped immediately, I promised myself not to cry anymore because I was afraid of not being able to stop if I began. I had already experienced that situation when my mother died and I did not want to felt again this pain. I got up from the grave and I noticed look in my direction. The blue haired girl approached me.
''Nice to meet you Natsuki, Alyssa spoke a lot about you.''
''You know me? But ... Who are you?'' I asked mistrustful.
''I'm sorry I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Miyu Greer, I am ... I mean I was Alyssa's best friend.'' Miyu asked Shizuru to join us.
''And this girl is Shizuru Fujino Kuga.''
''Ku ... Kuga?'' I shuttered taken back, she has the same name as mine? But who was she? I hope she wasn't another of my half- hidden sisters, because there were more and more numerous. I also felt sorry for her to enter to our crazy and sickening family.
''Shizuru is your niece; she is the only daughter of Alyssa Kuga and Kento Fujino.''
''What!''