A/N: So this originally wasn't going to be the next chapter but my girls thought it would be fun to see what Hotch is thinking and feeling since Emily dropped her bombshell on him and the team… Enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own CM!
For a long time after Emily left his office Hotch stayed rooted to his spot. He was furious but not at Emily. He was furious that someone thought it was alright to harm Emily or any woman for that fact. But he was more furious that it had been Emily who was harmed in that way. He wanted to find the guy responsible and rip him apart limb from limb.
He walked over to his office window finally and looked out and kept his eyes on Emily. He could see her talking to Morgan and Reid and that made him smile. He knew that Morgan and Reid would do whatever it took to make sure Emily was alright. He also knew that he would be the one to make sure that she ate lunch. He smiled as he thought about taking her to lunch or ordering lunch in but having her come up to his office to eat.
Him and Emily had just begun to be friends. He was already protective of her but he knew that now he was going to be one hundred times more protective of her. He would make sure that she ate when she should and that she had plenty of fluids during the day. When they were on a case he would make sure that he paired her up with either him or Dave and not because he didn't trust the others because he did but because he knew that Dave would keep in close contact with him about how Emily was doing.
He finally walked over to his desk and sat down. He closed his eyes for a minute as he thought about why he suddenly felt so protective of Emily. He knew that he felt protective of her because of what he had just learned but he also knew that there was more to it than that. He just needed to figure out what that something more was. He opened his eyes again and they automatically went to his window and searched for Emily. When he didn't see her at first he started to feel panicky and he stood up and walked back over to the window.
He let out a sigh of relief when he caught sight of her in the break room. He felt his breathing even out at the sight of her. He didn't know why but when he first looked out and didn't see her he started to freak out. He wasn't sure how he felt about that but he figured that he could live with it. He would live with whatever he had to as long as he knew that Emily was alright. He kept his eyes on her as she made her way back to her desk. When she looked up and caught sight of him and smiled he smiled back at her. He watched as she sat down and got to work and then he finally made his way back to his desk and sat down in his chair.
He put his head in his hands as he thought about Emily. He was worried about her. He knew that she had to be scared and he wanted nothing more than to make that feeling go away from her. He knew that he would do anything and everything that he could to make her feel safe again. He also had no doubt that he would be by her side every step of the way as would the rest of the team but he also knew that he would be the most prominent one because he wanted to be.
He didn't understand these new feelings he was starting to feel but he wasn't going to take time to analyze them right now. He would just go with whatever it was that he was feeling. Especially if it would get her closer to Emily so that he could keep an eye on her. He had no doubt that Emily would become his best friend in the next couple of months.
Little did he know that in the next couple of months he would become more than Emily's best friend that Emily would become more than his best friend. Little did he realize since he didn't analyze what he was feeling that he had just fallen head over heels in love with one Emily Prentiss. Little did he know that he would start thinking of himself as the father of Emily's baby.