Author's Note: Okay, this is another kinda graphic chapter but I promise I will never get into details. I just need to get the story across. So prepare yourselves and enjoy.

The Night Before the Sunrise

Chapter 4

Arin spun around upon hearing the lock on the door rattle. Matt had told her he might come bring her dinner if he could get away from the guys long enough, but she had heard them all downstairs. They had been drinking, even Matt. He did drink occasionally but not ever like Pete or John. It was black in the room and only the light that shown through the door was what trailed up the stairs from the first floor. The door creaked shut and her eyes focused, mapping out what little she could see in the pale moonlight that poured through the window. Her heart raced at the uncertainty of who was in the room and what they would do to her. A hand reached to her through the moonlight and held her wrist firmly. A face was soon to follow.

"Matt! Oh, don't scare me like that." She said, her voice noticeably relaxing. "Matt?" The boy's eyes were glazed and Arin caught the smell of alcohol that surrounded him. He was not himself. "Matt… please… your drunk…" She tried to slide his hand off her wrist but his grip tightened. She felt tears well up in her eyes.

"Matt, why are you doing this? Let me go!" She let her voice rise in fear. She didn't want to kick him away like Pete; he was still her friend. This was just the alcohol acting up. She tried to convince herself that the boy that stared at her now wasn't Matt.

"Rin," He spoke at last. "Why don't you love me? Don't you trust me?" He asked, slurring his words slightly. Arin looked at him wide-eyed.

"Matt… I do trust you but you need to stop. You're scaring me." She pried at his hand to free herself.

"But do you love me?" Matt's questiondid not display the sincerity that his voice usually held. Now his eyes glazed over with tears. "I said: do you love me?" His voice rose up to a shout. Arin jumped back at the sound as it bounced off the walls of the open room. Matt crawled closer to her and spoke quietly, just inches away from her face. "Do you love me?"

"Yes…" Arin sighed, crying silently. She did love Matt, but he was scaring her and was drunk. She felt uncomfortable to have Matt this close to her but was somehow happy that she finally could tell Matt that she loved him. It felt so right but this was definitely the wrong situation. Without warning, Matt pressed his lips against hers. At first she recoiled away from him but she eventually gave in. She let the kiss carry out longer and deeper. Matt wrapped his arms around her and came closer to her still. Arin relaxed slightly and almost welcomed his affection. Matt pressed himself towards her until she was against the wall.

"Matt." Arin said turning away from him. He looked at her surprised and in a way sad. He hadn't wanted this to end. The look she gave him said it all.

"Rin, please…" He seemed to beg. He tried to kiss her again but she bowed her head away.

"No Matt." Her voice remained calm and subtle. Anger flashed through Matt's eyes and his brow lowered into a glare. "Matt, please…" Matt had never gotten angry with her before and she feared the results, especially since he had been drinking.

"You said you loved me." Matt said stroking the side of her face gently. She didn't answer him. He squeezed his eyes shut and Arin felt him tense around her. Arin knew how Pete and John acted when they were drunk but she had never seen Matt like this before. "Love me." He whispered, his eyes flaring open. Tears filled her eyes again and she shook her head slowly. Matt pounded the wall behind her with his fist and gave out small sighs.

After he stopped he looked at her intensely. He came closer to her and began to kiss her lips but moved slowly down to her neck. His hands grazed over her body as silent tears flowed from her eyes. Never in a million years would she have imagined this would happen. She shut her eyes to force the pain away. She felt Matt lean back to unbuckle his pants and her eyes snapped back open.

"Matt no! You don't want to do this." He didn't even look up at her. He started to pull her skirt up but she batted him away. "Matt, please." She gave him one last pleading look. Matt made one attempt to kiss her again. Arin cried as she kicked him away and ran to the door, pounding on it as hard as she could. She screamed as she heard Matt come up behind her. He wrapped his arms over and around her and slammed her to the ground. Pain jolted up her back as she shivered on the cool wood floor. Before she knew it Matt was on top of her trembling form. He kissed her and she kissed him back hoping to bring back the real Matt she knew and loved.

Part of Arin loved and wanted this deeply but after what she had been through this felt wrong. Arin was in pain only from the fall, now, Matt was being gentle. She in a way felt sorry for him. Alcohol had driven him this far, not his own will. She scooted herself into a more upright position when Matt laid back for a few seconds. Her hair fell over her face but in the dark she could see Matt's confused look. He held his head in his hands and swayed back and forth.

He argued against himself in his mind. Part of him knew what he was doing was wrong; the other part was disabled by the alcohol and barely knew what was going on. Arin watched as tears streaked down his face. She could see the glisten of sweat that ran across his hairline and soaked the hair around it. He panted and stared angrily at the floor, still holding his head. She backed away slowly, dragging herself on her palms and heels. She jumped as his hands fell from around his face and he looked up at her.

"I'm so sorry, Rin." His normal voice had returned and his face and shoulders relaxed. He started to come towards her again but she backed away with fear in her eyes. He shut his eyes and sighed. "I… I never meant to do this… I'm sorry." He looked up to her again, she returned his look with one of worry but stayed where she was. He shut his eyes and felt the burn of hot tears press against the lids that held them in. Within seconds he felt Arin's soft hand brush against his arm. She was sitting in front of him, still keeping her distance, but trying her hardest to comfort him. There were tears in her eyes, too, but defying everything he had done to her, she was smiling. Matt gently pulled her closer to him and she let him. They held each other and wiped each other's tears away. Arin tensed, feeling the bruises on her arms and back forming. Matt was always quick to notice this, he had just never thought it would be his hands that caused her pain.

"Are you okay?" He asked quietly. She nodded quickly and rested her chin on his shoulder to hide the tears that would give away her lie. "No you're not." He sobbed, not bothering to mask the worry and sadness in his voice. "Your hurt, you need to get out of this mess." She pulled back from him momentarily.

"I'll be fine." Matt opened his mouth to protest but Arin's lips met his before he could say anything. Matt raised his hand with his index finger up and mumbled his protesting into her kiss. She just giggled slightly and kissed him harder until they both fell backwards on top of each other.

"Wow." Matt said, as she leaned up above him. That sobered him up. Arin didn't mind this, she was in control, she could take it as far as she wanted and never more. Both their eyes had dried and they were now smiling. "Me likes." Matt let his humorous side show through. Arin blushed and slid off of him. He leaned up and reached for her, gently turning her face towards his. He kissed her again and let his hands glide down her neck and wrap around her shoulders. He let his kisses fall from her lips to her neck. Arin relaxed and leaned lightly into him. The two, worn down by the struggle when Matt had first come in, fell asleep in each other's arms.

Author's Note: Otay, hope everyone's okay after this chapter. It did get a little graphic but I tried to keep it to a minimum. So, please leave me a nice review telling me what you think!