I am soo sorry about the little mistakes there was in my last chapter! It slipped by me and my friend! I finally figured out why I keep staying up till the early hours of the day typing/reading. It's cause I keep on drinking coffee after my shifts are done at work and I usually work late, yes I know I'm not that smart.

Wow I just noticed, I update REALLY fast! I think it's cause my chapters are all really short so it doesn't take me long to write them, like I have wrote 3 chapters in like 3 days! At this rate the story will be done in like a week!, oh wait maybe not, I'm going camping this weekend. Anyways...

Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade! /3

You Know What? Love Sucks

Sigh

I was now sitting on the window sill in my room, gazing out at the backyard, watching the snow start to fall. It was the middle of December already. Christmas was almost here! (I'm glad I got all my Christmas shopping done early. Unlike Tyson.) I thought back at today's events. I sighed again. Why do I have to be so accident-prone? You do NOT want to know what happen today. Trust me. It's..... oh what the hell. So this is what happened:

/Lunch Time/

"Ray get over it."

"No."

"Ray, seriously you're acting like a four year old."

"But I still don't understand why you guys wouldn't let me drive"

"Um, because we value are lives?" We were all sitting around a pretty big table in a Chinese restaurant. Everyone was there except Mariah( thank god ) and Kai. Why couldn't he come?! I love to watch him eat, the way his tongue comes out every so often to lick his lips. I mental sighed.

"I'm not that bad at driving Tyson!" Yes, I'm still mad about the fact that they would not let me drive!

"You drove into a wall! Twice!"

"So?"

"Will you guys just drop it and eat your food!" Hiro said, taking a bit out of an egg roll. Tyson started to devoir everything he could get his hands on. Uh. He's making me sick. I got up to go to the washroom, but I didn't notice the waiter who had been walking behind me when I pushed out my chair. He fell to ground with a 'hmpf".

"Oh my gosh! I am soo sorry! Let me help you up!" I walked over to grab his hand put my foot got cot on the leg of the table next to him. The table tilted slightly and then all the food that had been on the table came sliding down onto the waiter. Oops.

/Present Time Which Is About 8pm/

Like I said, why do I have to be so accident-prone? I'm just glad Kai hadn't been there because that would have been REALLY embarrassing. Sigh. I haven't seen him since the incident in the kitchen. I wonder at what point of my story he had walked away?

The snow had started to fall even faster now.

"Come on Tyson! Is that the best you got?!" I looked down to see Lee and Tyson bey battling. I knew Tyson wouldn't be able to resist.

"I'm just getting started! Dragoon attack!"

Max and Mariah were sitting on a rock, both cheering for there team mate to win. Kenny was typing furiously on his laptop. Hilary had already gone home for the night. Our leader was no where to be seen. I think he's mad at me. I tell him a lot of things. Like the Harry Potter crying thing? Yeah he already knew about that. Well, I didn't really TELL him he kinda found out when I tried to sneak back into the house late after the movie with tears still in my eyes. But I hadn't told him that I was gay or the fact that I was supposed to marry Mariah. That is probably going to get cancelled now. (Score!) But I should probably go talk to Kai. But what if he hates me? Oh please, I hope not!

"YES! I WIN! Ray?! Hey Ray!" I looked down at them. By the looks of it, I would say Tyson won. Now he was waving his arms around like an idiot to try and get my attention. "Ray will you make us some of your famous hot chocolate?!"

I opened my window, the cold hair rustling my loose hair. "Only if you guys come inside! You guys are going to freeze your butts off!" they all smiled and ran inside. Except Mariah who glared up at me. I closed the window and jumped down from the sill. I walked to my door, grabbing a pony oh then walked out of the room. I walked down the hall then stopped. I looked at the door I wanted to open so badly. But I was too scared to. Instead I just looked at it and listened.

I could hear a melody playing. Then someone started to sing in Russian. I realized that it was Kai singing. His voice, is beautiful. The song sounds sad, I wonder what he's saying. I put my right hand on the door knob and the left on the door itself.

I want you to know how I feel. I want you to know how much you mean to me. But what would happen if I told you and you didn't feel the same? Would you yell? Would you laugh? Would you never talk to me again?

My heart squeezed. I closed my eyes against the pain.

Please no.

I would die.

I let go of the door and stepped back.

I will stay silent for a while longer.

"RAY! Come on!!! We're cold!!!" I herd Tyson yell from the bottom of the stairs. I turned away from the door and silently walked down the stairs to the kitchen.

"Jeez Ray took you long enough." Lee said as I reached the kitchen.

I placed a smile on my face. "Sorry, had to use the bathroom." I tied back my hair with the pony oh and started to make the hot chocolate. I inhaled deeply and sighed. I love the smell of chocolate. My fellow team mates, Lee and even Mariah were talking about the battle they had just had. Tyson was gloating, again. Like can his ego get any larger? You know what. It probably could. I listened to them talk about beyblading in silence. It seemed like forever since I had launched Drigger. Maybe I should ask Lee to battle me while he's here. I got some mugs out of the cupboard above the sink and poured the hot chocolate into them.

I didn't noticed till after I was done pouring that I had made one too many. Crap. I put five mugs on a tray and brought them to the table and placed them in front of everyone. I hesitated however from placing one in front of Max. He has so much sugar, I don't know if I should give him anymore. He looked up at me with his blue eyes. He was making the puppy dog face! No come on Kon! You must resist! You can do it! Resist the urge to-

"Fine Max here you go." Damn that kid is good!

"Thank's Ray!" everyone said. Even Mariah who whispered it but I still heard it.

I walked back to my awaiting mug and the extra mug. Great what am I going to do with it?

"Oh, you made one for Kai too?" I looked around at Lee. He winked at me, then took a sip from his mug.

Well I guess I might as well, I don't want to waist it. Then I remembered Kai hadn't eating anything at lunch or supper. I grabbed a plate and placed a tea biscuit on it that I had made yesterday, then put it on the tray. I put mine and Kai's hot chocolate also on the tray than walked upstairs. I stopped in front of he's door again. The music that had been playing before had stopped. I balanced the tray on my left arm and took a deep breath then knocked on the door.

Nothing happened.

Maybe he's asleep.

Maybe I should just leave.

I was about to turn away when,

"Come in,"

Crap.

I opened the door. Kai was on his bed reading a book. I tried to make out what it said on the cover but it was much too dark to see. How does he read in the dark like this? Okay well, it's not THAT dark but it's dark enough that I wouldn't be able to read.

"Kai? I made hot chocolate and I was wondering if you wanted any. And I brought you a tea biscuit cause I know you didn't eat at lunch or supper." I waited. Maybe he is mad at me. He was still silent. "Kai are you mad at me?!" Shit, I didn't mean for that to slip out!

He finally looked away from his book at look at me. "No."

"I knew it! I'm sorry! If it's about me being gay. I didn't tell you cause I didn't know how!"

"Ray I said-"

"And I was scared if I did tell you and then you would be all freaked out cause maybe you would think I would try and come on to you."

"Ray"

"But if it's about the being engaged to Mariah thing. I didn't tell you cause I was trying to get out it, cause who would want to marry a crazy lunatic like her? And the fact that I'm gay and could never marry a girl."

"RAY!"

"What?"

"I said I wasn't mad."

"You did? I mean you're seriously not mad at me?"

He shook his head and got up and took the tray from my hands. He placed it on his night table and grabbed the two mugs of hot chocolate, he handed one to me and took a sip out of the other. He grabbed the plate and sat back on his bed.

I just kind of stood there in shock. He wasn't mad. He wasn't mad! I could jump for joy! But I wont. He would think I'm a total freak then.

"You are a total freak." he patted the bed.

I sat down next to him. "I know you are but what am I." he was about to put the biscuit in his mouth but stopped and raised his eyebrow at me. I shrugged "Sorry, couldn't help myself." he bit the biscuit as I took a long sip from my hot chocolate.

"Hey Ray?" I looked up into his crimson eyes. "Thanks." I swear I nearly chocked on my drink.

"What did you say?" I heard wrong, I must have! The Kai Hiwatari thanking someone! No. I must have something in my ears.

"There is nothing in your ears. You heard right." he looked annoyed at my thoughts "Of course I'm annoyed! Can't someone thank someone else without having to explain themselves?!"

"No. I mean yes! But......" I shook my head. "Never mind." I looked down at the plate. "It's gone!"

He shrugged. "I was hungry." What!? Did I hear wrong again?! The Kai Hiwatari-

"Ray quit it with the 'The Kai Hiwatari' crap!"

"Okay." I put my mug down on the night table and started to play with my hair, wincing when I got my finger stuck on a knot.

"Turn around."

I looked up at him confused, but listened. I felt him move closer to me. He reached over and started to pat my thigh. First the left than the right. I felt myself blush. HE'S. TOUCHING. ME!!!!! Then he slipped he's hand in my pants pocket. I tensed.

"Kai what are you doing?" I asked worry evident in my voice.

"Calm down." I looked down as he pulled out my hair brush.( I need to keep that with me at all time, my hair is too long to not keep it with me!) He pulled the pony oh out of my hair and began to brush my hair. I closed my eyes and sighed. I love it when people play with my hair. It makes me so calm and content.

"It also makes you purr." he whispered in my ear.

My eyes snapped open as my blush deepened. "Kai I-"

"I knew by the way."

"Knew about what?" Even though I couldn't see him I new he had rolled his eyes.

"About you being gay. That's why I wasn't mad. I knew you would tell me when the time was right."

"That was the right time?"

"Hey, it probably got you out of your marriage with psycho."

I laughed. "Yeah I think it did."I re-closed my eyes. We were both silent after that. It wasn't an awkward silence, it was a nice silence. So nice that Kai decided to hum. It was the same song as before. The one that he was singing when I was outside his door.

My purring deepened as I started to fall sleep. I wanted to know what it was about, but I was too tired to ask. Then I heard Kai speak something in Russian, but I couldn't make it out, I was too far gone.

z_z

Okay for those of you who don't know, a pony oh is just a hair tie. The reason I put this in is cause my friend called it that once and I was like wtf? I just thought it was funny. I'm sooo exited! This is the longest chapter yet! And I think it's soooooo cute! 3 I had such a hard time naming this chapter! I thought of EVERYTHING! But none of them I liked, so that is what I came up with.

Ella