Chapter 4

Jake's Surprise

Bella's POV

I walked up to the front porch of the house. I'm pretty sure they already now I'm here. The sound of my truck gives me away every time. I knocked and suprise, suprise Jake answered.

"Bella. What are you doing here? I'm not ungrateful you showed up. Just, suprised. H-how are you doing?"

"I'm doing better. I need someone to talk to. You are the only one that has an idea on what's going on."

"Well not really. You know that I don't believe all that crap my Dad gives me about our legends. But I get what you're getting at."

I laughed. He never believed his own legends. On the other hand it was better he didn't know. I wrapped my arms around me, trying to hold the broken pieces together. Even though I was taking his advice, moving on and all that, it still hurt.

"That's good. Is there anywhere we can go so Billy can't hear? I just don't want him eavesdropping on us."

He nodded, grabbing my arm and taking me to the shed out back. It looked more like a garage than anything. His car he was working on in there.

"Nice car"

"Thanks. I have that part I needed. I guess telling you to stay away from Ed...him really paid off. For me at least."

He was trying to be sensitive to my feelings. As long he doesn't say the name I'll be fine, but then again he didn't know how bad it was going to get. Neither do I.

"Yeah. I should have probably listened. But I am me, and me is very stubborn."

"Yeah you are." He laughed.

"Can we take it for a drive?"

"If I can drive."

His smile went all the way up to his eyes. Making them seem like they were sparkling.

"Okay. But stay near La Push."

We got into the car and drove away.

Jacob's POV

She actually was going to let me drive. Me, barely 15 and she was letting me drive. Then again I probably was better than her driving anyday. Bella was looking out the window away from me, deep in thought.

"What? No disagreements about my taste in music? No talking? I thought that is why you came over."

"Just trying to think about how to say something without breaking promises."

"Why not break them? He sure broke some with you."

"Not to him, to myself."

"Oh."

"He did make me promise things, but I don't think I can keep them."

"What were they? If you want to tell me."

"Well he made me promise that I won't do anything dangerous. But his counter promise is that it would be like he never existed. I still think about him though."

She turned her head away from me, I was sure she was crying.

"Bella, it's okay. He left for a reason right?"

Nothing, meaning strike 1 for Jakey Boy.

"Sorry, Bells. I didn't mean it like that. I'm just curious. We can change the subject."

I turned my attention back to my house, we were back already. I pulled into the driveway, and turned the car off.

"Bella? Are you going to be okay? I didn't mean to upset you. You know that right?"

She was keeping very quiet. What the hell did he do to her, to make her this upset? If he hurt her in a way worse than leaving, I will find him and kill him. Just the thought of him makes my skin crawl.

"Jake? What are you thinking about? It looks like you're going to break the steering wheel."

"Oh. So now you talk. I was just thinking about how much he hurt you. It was unfair for him to do that to you."

"Don't get mad at him. He loved me and left because he still does, I think."

"Bells, can we change the subject? You don't need to talk about this. It's just turning you into more of a wreck."

"No I need to talk about this. I'd rather get it out in the open then have it bottled up forever."

Great, more stories about the leech. WOAH!!! Where did that come from? I never talk about anyone like that, even him.

"He loved me or still does. But it was hard to tell when he left. He was always good at keeping things from me. In the end, though, I usually figured them out. Jake are you listening?"

"He loved you.... Hard to figure out... Good secret keeper. Yeah I'm listening."

"Jake. You don't have to be like that. If you don't want to hear about this, I'm sorry to have bothered you."

"No, no, Bells. I'm just getting cranky, it's like 5:37 and I'm starving, and I think I'm coming down with something."

"I could go home. Let you eat, and come back when you're feeling better."

"It's okay. You can come and eat with us. Dad won't mind. You can call Charlie to see if he wants to come over too."

She considered it for a moment then her face lit up like a million stars.

"If it's okay with Billy. Of course I'll stay for dinner."

Good. Her mind was far from him. What the hell is wrong with me?