"Kikyo, please DIE AND LET LIVE!!! "-Steph xDD

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Chapter IV

NIGHTMARES

Three black silhouettes , surrounding Sesshomaru and me. Destroying my dreams. Killing my only love in front of me. Kidnapping my son. Devouring my heart...

I opened my eyes in horror, my entire body was covered in sweat, my respiration was uneven...

I don't know how much I slept, but when I opened my eyes the dazzling light of the stunning crescent moon in he dark, starry sky hit my dreary face. I laid in one side of my body, looking through the window at the arc-shaped moon. Soon, my eyes filled with warm tears. I remembered the nightmares during my faint. Those damned demons. My face wept at these awful dreams, my hands went to my belly, my heart ached. This wasn't fair.

Life is not fair. In my opinion every little creature in this world have the right to be happy, to be loved. Why am I the exception? Pure crap. Maybe I'm damned...love is not for me...neither happiness...

I remained silent for a long moment, I looked at the moon again. A crescent moon...All that I wanted, is to saw his flawless, god-like face again. Come for me foul!!.. My soul begged.

I shuted my eyes.

"Kagome?" someone called me, I opened my eyes and sat still. Lady Kaede was coming to my direction with a bowl of food. "Finally you're awake..What are ye doing here child?" She asked and handled a rice ball to me. My stomach made a growl. I don't remember how much time I have without eating and I know is no good for little puppy,but i wasn't in the mood for eat. I don't even know how much I remained unconscious, geez. "Thanks. How much I slept?" my voice broke, and I took the food. The depression of my voice caught her attention.

"For a while." She nodded and sat next to me. I was looking at the food in my hands. I was sure I would puke it if I eat it, maternity plus depression equals vomit. Awesome. Kaede looked for my gaze, but I didn't look at her. She sighed.

"Eat please Kagome." Kaede said placing one hand on my shoulder."Is no good for the child."

I gasped.

The rice ball rolled on the floor.

"Wh-what?!" I said exasperated and totally bemused. How does she knows? I tried to look at her face, Kaede was looking at me fixedly. Awise old woman, how could I hide something from her? I felt stupid.

"Kagome, I'm old enough to know when a maiden is pregnat, ye know?" Kaede said taking my hand."Ye look very worried, girl."

"Kaede...I can't--now you know why I can't go back" I whispered.

"But ye know now about the Gods of Hell? as soon as they found you-- "

"NO! they wont!" I interrupted her. "I need to protect him. My child can't live in my era, he's--" I struggle to say it "not normal."

"Kagome?, heavens, what have you done?" she told me astonished.

"A summer-love thing." I managed a dark chuckle, tears wept my face.

"People will talk, you're a priestess" She whispered.

"I really don't care about that fact. Let's say subject died on a civil war. There. Piece of cake." I said sarcasticly.

"I'm serious Kagome..."

Why so serious Kaede?? My mind asked. A dark grin appeared in my face.

"Same here." I growled.

"Don't you think the child's father have the right to know about his baby." Right? That was it. The OMG-THIS-IS-TOO-MUCH button was pushed. I stared to cry harder.

"Of course he have the right" I snarled. "But he don't care about us. He-- he don't love me, I think. So, I can take care of my child alone. He wont know about my baby. I don't need him." What a lie. "Don't you think my scent is strong enough?!?--" I stopped. Uh-oh. Too much information. I looked at other place, away from her face. Kaede sighed.

"Indeed. Ye are a strong woman, too strong to be in-love of a demon". She nodded. I gasped, a tear ran among my cheek.

"Exactly..." I gritted my teeth and stood up.

"Where are ye going?" She asked.

"I need a shower." I managed to say between sobs, never looking at her.

"InuYasha isn't here still, so don't worry for him." Relief came out of me in form of a sigh. I nodded.

Outside the house the atmosphere was the same...dismal. I could feel the aura purifying at the touch with my skin. I went to the Forest of No Return, directly to the Sacred Tree...

When I arrived, I sat on the foot of the tree, my hands supporting my head. My mind stared to wonder again and again about my fate, with no love...

Sesshomaru...Sesshomaru...Sesshomaru...Sesshomaru...

STOOOOOOOOP!!! I hissed to my mind, and tears ran on my cheeks. So much love...from me to him..and...I don't even know...if he loves me...

damn...

I feel myself observed. I was expecting InuYasha or someone else so I looked up. I couldn't believe who I was looking at. Finally!! My senses stopped. My heart melted. My soul smiled. But at the same time...I felt so angry...