Yep this is definitely the darkest thing I've ever written... I had wanted to upload this yesterday but life and stuff kind of got in the way. Anyway hope you enjoy this as much as you can...

We never spoke about our night in the alleyway. I wanted to and I think Natsu did too but the following day Laxus returned from a mission and made it very pointedly clear that he still thought of me as his property. The most I had been able to do as he dragged me out of the Guild Hall and back to his house was mouth 'I'm sorry' in Natsu's direction when I caught his eye. He had sighed, running a hand through his hair as if he had no feelings about it either way but his other was clenched into a fist under the table and shaking with rage.

I tried to talk to Laxus, to tell him that we should stop doing this and that it was over but every time I tried he cut me off. In the end I just gave in, he was much larger than I was and there wasn't a lot I could have done to stop him if he tried to force me. I still thought of Natsu every time Laxus and I had sex but now I didn't have to rely on the fantasy; now I knew how he felt wrapped around me, how he shivered as my hands ran over his skin and how he sounded as he moaned my name. It was now a lot harder to keep my thoughts in check when I was with Laxus and I nearly slipped up a couple of times. Luckily he was too caught up in his own pleasure to notice.

One day, however, I did slip up and I slipped up badly.

I was sitting towards the back of the Guild Hall where I assumed that either no one could see me or no one was paying any attention. I was casually making small ice sculptures before making them disappear in a flurry of ice shards. Now that I had decided to give up smoking I needed something to do with my hands to subdue the cravings and practicing intricate magic was the best thing for me to do. I was crafting the intricate detail on a small ice butterfly's wings when I felt someone sit down beside me. I turned to see Natsu looking over my shoulder at the ice butterfly in my hand.

"What're you doing?" he asked, interested.

"Making ice sculptures." I shrugged. I raised my palm so that he could get a good look at the butterfly before I blew on it gently and it crumbled away, floating into the air.

"That's cool." Natsu grinned. "What other stuff can you do?"

"Loads." I replied shrugging. I had been doing this for a while now (whenever /I craved nicotine) and had become quite good at tiny intricate details. Natsu leaned a little closer, his eyes shining.

"Can I see?" he asked trying, and failing, to hold in his excitement. I cupped one of my hands over the surface of the table and concentrated before pulling it away to reveal a miniature ice sculpture of Lucy and Erza, no bigger than a half pint glass. Natsu's eyes widened as I did the same thing again, this time revealing an ice sculpture of the two of us. "That's amazing!" he exclaimed awestruck.

"It's not as good as it could be." I said modestly. "I still need a lot of practice."

"What are you talking about these are amazing!" he replied. He blushed slighty, looking away before turning to me again. "Um, can I keep this one?" He was pointing to the one of me and him. I smiled as he leaned in ever so slightly.

"It'll melt." I told him. He leaned a little closer.

"Then I'll put it in the freezer." he grinned moving closer still.

"You have a freezer?" I teased. "You hate cold things." He was so close now out noses were almost touching as I had also been unconsciously leaning closer to him too.

"I can think of something cold I like." he whispered, his lips only a few inches away from mine. It would be so easy to just reach over and kiss him. My hand slid across the table till my fingers brushed his and he grinned at me. He cast a quick look around the hall before closing the last of the distance between us but his eyes fell on something and he suddenly jumped back, drawing his hand away from mine as if I were toxic.

"What?" I asked letting out the breath I had been holding. I turned in the direction he was looking and locked eyes with Laxus. He had a face like thunder as he stared in our direction, looking specifically at me. He clenched one of his hands into a fist, a few small sparks flying off it. I felt my heart sink and my blood run cold. "Oh shit!"

It was nearly midnight by the time I left the Guild Hall that night. I hadn't been able to face leaving before then in case I ended up getting cornered by Laxus. As soon as he saw the look of pure rage Laxus was aiming at me Natsu had backed off, opting instead for talking to Lucy and leaving with her a couple of hours later so as not to get me in any more trouble but the damage was already done. Laxus had seen us nearly kiss and he was going to make me pay for it.

Really I should have gone home a lot earlier, I realised as I walked quickly down the deserted streets, but I hadn't wanted to run the risk of Laxus finding me at home. There was no way that he would run the risk of taking his anger out on me if Gramps and the others were around so I had thought staying and hiding out there was the best policy until it seemed likely that if he had gone looking for me he would have already checked my house. In retrospect I probably should have just stayed at Fairy Hills that night.

As I walked passed the opening of a dark alleyway a hand reached out and grabbed my shoulder. I was roughly pulled inside and then shoved up against the wall. The grain on the bricks dug painfully into my bare back as my assailant pushed me harder into them. I was about to try and fight back when both my hands were grabbed and forced painfully above my head by one of their huge hands. I struggled against the hold, trying to break myself free so that I could fight back but a jolt of electricity shot through my entire body, making my muscles tense painfully and I knew who it was who had grabbed me.

"Laxus…" I said quietly as my eyes adjusted to the darkness and I saw him staring down at me.

"Well hi there," his said, his voice dangerous. "fancy seeing you here."

"What are you doing here?" I asked, my voice trembling despite my best efforts to keep it steady. "I thought you'd left already."

"I noticed it was getting late and you hadn't left." he stated. "I wanted to make sure you got home safely." As he said that he sent another jolt of electricity coursing through my system. I flinch but kept my lips resolutely sealed – I refused to cry out in pain and give him the satisfaction.

"I can take care of myself." I managed to reply shakily once the pain had stopped and my muscles stopped shaking.

"See that's funny because I thought you'd gotten yourself a new Dragon Slayer bodyguard." he growled. Despite the pain in my shoulders from having my arms forced above my head, despite my still twitching muscles and despite the ever present fear that he could actually kill me if he wanted to I glared up at him defiantly.

"That's what this is about isn't it?" I hissed. "You saw me and Natsu talking and now you're all bent out of shape about it."

"If you call what I saw talking." Laxus snarled pressing me harder into the wall. "From where I was sitting it looked more like you were fucking each other with your eyes." I felt my blood boiling and anger bubbling up inside me.

"What's it to you?" I snapped. "I know I'm not the only one you fuck on a regular basis so why should it piss you off if I do the same?"

"Because you're mine!" he shouted sending more electricity through me. This time even more powerful than before and I could help the cry of pain I let out. I felt as if there were thousands of tiny needles stabbing the inside of my body and trying to push their way out through my skin at the same time. It felt like I was dying but I knew he wasn't done with me yet. He was going to make it as painful as possible first.

When it was finally over I groaned, my head fell forward as my neck felt as if it was made of jelly. My pride wouldn't allow me to give Laxus the satisfaction of thinking he had beaten me. Slowly, and with a great deal more effort than it should have taken, I raised my head to look him, defiantly in the eye.

"I was never yours." I told him, my voice barely above a whisper. He snarled angrily. The hand that wasn't pinning my arms grabbed me by the throat, pressing down on my windpipe so I struggled to breathe. He pulled my off the wall slightly before slamming me against it again. My head hit the brick with a sickening crack and I felt my vision begin to blur, nausea bubbling up inside me and making me woozy. Laxus leaned in close to my face so that I could feel his hot breath hitting my lips.

"Listen, Ice Princess, you're mine, you got that." he sneered. "I can do what I like with you; I want to fuck you, you come running. I want to fuck someone else you deal with it but you're mine completely. If I found out there's something there or if Flame Brain so much as looks at you the wrong way again you're dead." It wasn't an empty threat and I knew it. Despite everything I smirked at him. I was about to play with fire and I knew it was a really bad idea but I wanted him to know that he didn't own me.

"I already fucked him." I told him.

His knee jerked up and connected with my stomach. He let go of my neck and arms and I doubled over in pain, coughing and desperately trying to fight the urge to vomit as I clutched my stomach. He grabbed a handful of my hair and pulled harshly forcing my head back so that I was looking up at him before the back of his hand connected with my face. He let go of my hair, throwing me down on the cold, stone floor.

I managed to push myself up onto my elbows and knees, still trying to catch my breath and fighting the urge to be sick, before another well placed kick in the stomach sent me flat on my face again. I felt a hand slam down on the centre of my spin followed by a searing jolt of electricity that had my entire body jolting and spasming, every nerve and muscle on fire, until the hand drew away and I was able to regain some movement.

Pushing myself up I saw red, angry burns of both my wrists where he had used them to pour volts into me and I could feel the air stinging my back where his hand had been. My head was still spinning from where it had connected with the wall and every so often my vision would begin to fade but I knew I had to remain conscious. I began the lengthy task of pushing myself to my feet in an attempt to try and fight back but I barely succeeded in staggering to my knees before Laxus grabbed hold of me again.

He spun me so I was facing the wall and slammed me up against it, sliding me down slightly to make sure that the brick cut into my skin. I could feel one of my eyes beginning to throb from where he had hit me and I tasted blood on my lip. He forced both my hands behind my back, so that there was no possible way for me to fight against him, twisting them harshly. He twisted one harsher than the other and I cried out as I pain shot up my left hand, hearing bones snap sickeningly over my cries.

Through the hazy fog of pain threatening to take over I was vaguely aware of the sound of a zip being dragged down. I gagged as the hand not holding me reached round to undo the buttons on my trousers. He slipped his hand inside my underwear to firmly grasp my hip, fingers clenching into my skin painfully. I felt the sparks burning me rather saw them and the searing pain that shot through everywhere he touched was monumental. He roughly pulled both my trousers and boxers down, forcing my hips backwards but keeping my face pressed against the wall.

"Now let's see who you really belong to." he hissed in my ear. I felt his cock rock hard at my entrance and I knew what was coming I struggled but the way he had me held there was nothing I could do about it. I tried to brace myself but it was no good as he spread me open and roughly pushing inside me.

It felt as if I was being ripped in half. I opened my mouth to scream in pain but his hand clamped over me so that the sound was muffled against his palm. My entire body shook as the base of my spine throbbed and there was nothing I could do except ride out the pain and try not to pass out. I wanted to. I desperately wanted nothing more than to slip into the darkness that threatened the sides of my vision so badly but I knew it would probably be worse for me in the long run if I did so I fought to stay conscious.

The pain was unbearable as he pulled out to thrust back in. With his hand still clamped down over my mouth I couldn't call for help, all my cries were muffled by him. I could feel my entire body throbbing and stinging in pain and him pulsing inside me. He had always liked it rough but this was worse than any other time we he been together, I wanted to fight him off but with the hold I was in made that impossible. I squeezed my eyes shut, hoping and praying that soon it would be over or that someone, anyone, would hear his grunts and my muffled cried and come and save me.

Finally I felt him stiffen behind me, his entire body going ridged and my insides becoming wet and warm as he came. I retched against his hand, tears pricking at the corners of my eyes, god, it had never felt this bad before. I had never felt this sick and disgusted and powerless. Because I was. He was showing me that I was completely powerless against him; just like he said I was his to do with what he liked.

He continued to thrust into me until he had ridden out his orgasm before he pulled out. I could feel his cum beginning to spill out of me and I felt sick to my stomach. I felt the pressure on my back leave and my arms free. As I heard him doing up his zip I slowly managed to make my stiff muscles move so I could pull up my trousers. I cursed under my breath in pain but just about managed to get them done up so I could limp home. I felt his breath at my ear again and my entire body stiffened. He nipped the shell of my ear expectantly; I knew exactly what he wanted to hear, if I said it then it would be over.

"I'm yours." I muttered hoarsely, my voice cracking as tears began to slowly make their way down my cheeks.

"See that you remember that." he hissed before letting me go. I didn't dare to move but when it seemed as if he was letting me free I began so shakily make my way out of the alley. He had only been tormenting me, I realised as he grabbed the back of my head and slammed my face against the wall again. I managed to turn my head just in time so that my nose didn't break but I was now very dizzy and my head was spinning. I let him drag me lifelessly to the edge of the alleyway before he dropped me in the gutter. I felt another kick land itself in my stomach and I distinctly heard him say gruffly "He definitely won't want you now."

I waited until I heard his footsteps heading away from me before I closed my eyes and allowed myself to slip into unconscious, Natsu's name on my lips.